Longmen Memoirs

[Where did you go after you left Longmen? 】

[So many places, too late to count. The person who fostered me was a businessman. I met many people with them over the years, and many things happened. After my adoptive father passed away a few years ago, he was kicked out due to inheritance disputes. But you, how could you be here? Victoria. 】

【I am studying abroad at the Konoe College here. 】

[Have you decided to go to the Guards Bureau when you return? 】

[I will probably go, I have already planned it. 】

[That’s good. With your family background and education, you will have great prospects in Longmen in the future. There is no need to feel any resistance. For you, me, and many people, some things are destined from birth, but You can also choose who you want to be. 】

[You don’t need to tell me, I went back immediately after graduation. I’m still... not that naive. 】

【…】

[Remember that four-leaf clover?I went back once, and now the backyard is covered with a large patch of four-leaf clover.At that time, we searched all afternoon and only found two plants. When I went back later, I remembered that I seemed to have forgotten yours. Originally, I was thinking of finding another one for you. 】

【found it? 】

[Well, I'm at home, thinking about giving it to you on your birthday...no chance. 】

[There will be. 】

【Where have you been? 】

[Many places, Colombia, Sargon, Letania, Casimir, winding around half of the world. 】

[That’s not what you said last time. 】

[Maybe I remembered it wrong. 】

[You are a liar, but you never tell the truth, never... When I ask you about things, you are confused in nine out of ten sentences. 】

[You are drunk Chen. 】

[That's not your fault. You've never done anything wrong, so there's no need to feel indebted or guilty. At least we're all still alive, and that's enough. 】

Those memory fragments flowed through Chen Huijie's eyes like silhouettes, as if driving her to accept the fact that she was unwilling to accept, driving her to face the person standing in the middle of the sea of ​​blood in front of her. monster.

But the morality in her heart, the integrity and concepts she had developed over the years, made it impossible for her to ignore the corpses on the ground, and the fear and ferocity left on their faces before they died, making it impossible for her to tolerate it. All she could see was sin within reach.

Maybe I don't know when they started, but they have already embarked on different paths.

The persistence in Chen Huijie's heart unknowingly became an obstacle for her, and she could not overcome it in her heart【@>

"These...you did all of this?"

So she asked.

The black monster didn't look back. Chen couldn't see his expression. He just lowered his hand and allowed the voice behind him to question him. He couldn't see the disbelief in her eyes.

There was still sticky blood on His hands, as if he had silently answered Chen's question that didn't require an answer.

Chen seemed to suddenly have a premonition of something. She almost didn't think at all. Scarlet light bloomed in the sky. She held a sword in both hands, and the light running into the night blocked the monster's path.

"Don't try to escape!"

Her scolding accompanied Chi Xiao's slashing of a wide crack, which passed in front of the monster, like a warning.

Chen Huijie was always like this, stubborn, paranoid, but helpless. She never listened to other people's advice, even though she knew what they said might be right.

She likes to go all-or-nothing, which seems too stupid in the eyes of others. Maybe it is also a kind of naivety, but this naivety makes them drift apart.

The fox was right. Maybe one day, what they did would be seen as an intolerable sin in the eyes of people like Chen.

That justice is irrefutable, but also helpless.

That justice would one day cause Chen Huijie to hit his head with blood, and he had tried his best to avoid it.

Then the monster turned around.

Chen saw the dark scales on his body, the familiar face, and the cold eyes that seemed to have no emotion left to show.

Her pupils shrank suddenly, and she was panicked for a moment, but was immediately hidden in the depths. However, the hand holding Chi Xiao suddenly tightened, and he saw it in his eyes.

The device Chen clenched in his left hand made him instantly understand the reason why Chen would appear here.

The battle with the fox flashed through his mind, and the fox's arm wrapped around his neck.

But does she think this can change anything?He suddenly thought to himself, looking at Chen Jianyi's face and the struggle in her eyes.

She couldn't change anything, except make herself suffer more.

No one can save a person who is looking for death, and no one can undo the fact that it is a foregone conclusion.

Most people talk about looking back, but some things are easy at the beginning but difficult to turn back, because people live not just for themselves.

He can no longer stay here, because everything that happens here will cause reactions and alerts from both Londinium and Kazdaele. Before receiving a reply from the Tower of Babel, He, the bait, must continue to play its role.

He was going to kill more people.

Victoria and Kazdaele both knew that Vina had united with Sakaz, and everyone knew that Aslan would come back one day, and people could not ignore Kazdaele's war.

He regards himself as the chess piece in the vanguard of the king. Only he, or they, can complete this chess move.

"Have you ever thought that what you do now will implicate you and the dragon gate behind you."

Chen finally heard his answer, which was cold and unfamiliar.

"It's too late for you to go back now. All this has nothing to do with you. Londinium won't get into it. With Longmen's ability, it won't be able to protect you."

"I will take responsibility for what I do." Chen replied through gritted teeth.

"You can't take it."

"You can do that? Longmen can banish me and have nothing to do with me anymore, just like he did before. For his city, he won't mind if there is one more me or one less me."

"... If you are angry, you have to think about yourself. Where can you go and what can you do after leaving Longmen? You can't even protect yourself if you are involved in this."

"That's my business!" Chen replied coldly.

"That's not just your business. You didn't understand the seriousness of this matter and left Longmen..."

"I said that's my business!" Chen suddenly interrupted loudly, with visible anger in his red eyes: "Why don't you understand!"

She held Chi Xiao's hand tightly.

"It's always like this. How many times do I have to say it before you understand what I want to say? It's not that you don't understand, it's that you don't want to or care about what I think." She raised her hand and pointed a sharp sword at it. Chen Mo on the opposite side: "You've been telling lies, being self-righteous, and wishful thinking since you were a child. When will you stop making so many excuses!"

"..."

After her words fell, Chen Mo suddenly became quiet, but the dark scales and blood on his body were so dazzling that he even felt disgusted.

He couldn't help it, yes, he couldn't help it.

It's not that he doesn't want to look back, it's not that he doesn't want to see Chen again. He is really just like his lie, just an ordinary person who has been away from Longmen for a long time.

He told a lot of lies, but they were all lies after all. He couldn't look back, couldn't let go of Kazdel, couldn't let go of those who followed him, and couldn't let go of Theresa.

His relationship with Chen is not that deep. He has his own career, and these things are here with Chen. In his opinion, everything is still too late. As long as he leaves Londinium, he will never go back to Longmen again in this life. I will never have any interaction with Chen again.

"These are not excuses, they are facts, Chen, Chen Huijie, Miss Chen."

He looked at the sharp sword in Chen's hand. The sword he was not used to using in Longmen was indeed in the hands of the owner who was most suitable for it.

"The fact is that we have taken different paths. The fact is that as you can see now, these people did die in my hands. There are many more, those you see and those you cannot see, I killed There are more people than you imagine, and my hands are stained with blood thicker than you can see." He lowered the blood-stained silver sword in his hands:

"I can't keep up with that sweet dream of yours. That's the truth. It turns out that everything we thought about me, you, Xiaota, disappeared without a trace on the way we grew up. You have to learn to accept this." Reality, Miss Chen, one day it will tell you personally, what you think is just what you think."

His words were harsh and cold, inhumane and left no room for others.

"You have always been this way since you were little, stubborn and paranoid. You have your good luck. You have a good uncle who is a city ruler. Your future is smooth. You think we are the same... ha." He sneered. : "That's just a lady's pity for me, a poor thing. Do you know what I hate most about you? What I hate most is that your pretentious tone and tone make me disgusted and disgusted. I envy, makes me jealous.”

"How dare you! How dare you say that..."

"Did I make you angry? Look, with this expression, I touched your pain point and made it difficult for you to accept that we are the same. If you feel that you are not living a good life, then you should look at other people. You are lucky enough, Chen, don't look like you are unwilling, it will only make people feel pity."

"Is that what you think?"

Chen gritted her teeth and asked. After a few seconds, she suddenly let go of the sword in her hand, and Chi Xiao fell at her feet. There was no anger in her eyes, but it was like the calm before the roaring storm.

"……Yes."

"Well."

She breathed out softly, and the steps that originally felt heavy seemed no longer heavy at this moment. She walked towards the monster, getting closer and closer, and she could see the ferocious face clearly.

He has become very strange, but Chen can still see traces of his familiarity, even though the scales have climbed up his face, even though his ferociousness has made him unrecognizable.

Her footsteps were getting closer and closer, but the monster kept retreating, retreating little by little with Chen's pace.

Chen's lips curled into a smile, as if taunting.

"Weren't you very eloquent just now?"

Chen Huijie has always had a criminal record.

Her words made the monster subconsciously stop retreating.

"Don't push me."

"Then you can try to see if you can kill me with the knife in your hand." She came up to her without any hesitation because of the warning: "If you want to leave, this is the only way, otherwise I will still follow you. Come up here, I will follow you wherever you go. Don’t you care, hate me, be jealous of me, envy me? Ha, you can try to escape. It has nothing to do with you where I die..."

She asked, suddenly stopping, raising her head and staring at the sword in the monster's hand and face.

"Still, you can't do it. You've talked so much nonsense, but you can't do this."

She gently raised her hand and placed it on the monster's face, tracing the cold scales and staining them with blood.

"Stop lying to yourself, liar." Her eyes reflected the monster's appearance: "That's not what you think at all. You are not as determined as you think. You can't do such a thing. You said you would kill Many people, you say that your hands are stained with a lot of blood, but people who really don’t care won’t say such things. They don’t care who dies on their hands, and they don’t care how many people’s blood is stained on their hands. .”

"Perhaps, what I want to admit is that you are right. We are indeed different. Since childhood, even though I thought we were the same at that time, we can grow up together. Although I still don't like you, but I I don’t hate it either, I don’t hate the lies you tell, I don’t hate the ridiculous stories you tell.” Chen said softly: “But after growing up, after so many years, I was finally able to discover the differences between us. Things that I thought would last forever have changed in Longmen. Xiaota left Longmen. She never liked that city, but I hope she can come down. If she disappears, I will still feel lonely and confused, but I also know that what has happened will not change just because I shed a few tears, unless I go and keep her myself, unless I can get her back."

"It's been many years, and I understand the truth. I just... don't want to think about it. I don't want to think about the ruthless words you said to force me to leave. I don't want to think that you are doing it for my own good. I don't want to think about whether we can do it again." There is no possibility of seeing each other again, and there are many words that I have been hiding in my heart, and I can’t help but hide them in my heart, because I don’t know who I should mention to, and who I can tell.”

She lowered her eyelids slightly: "I followed him to learn Chi Xiao's swordsmanship, learn the principles he taught me, how to manage the city, how to fight against villains, and came to Victoria to study according to his wishes. After returning, I borrowed the power of Longmen. This land is too When we are older, sometimes once we are separated, there is no possibility of seeing each other again, but maybe Longmen can, I think one day I can finally rely on [|

Chen Mo didn't know when he let go. He couldn't hold the weapon in his hand. The heavy knife fell to the ground, and the blood-stained sword pierced the blood-stained land.

He wanted to raise his hand to touch the face of the girl in front of him, but his fingers moved, and the terrifyingly sharp claws covered with scales made him lose the confidence.

He felt that he was not qualified to do this, and he was not qualified to keep anyone else.

He thought this girl was really nice, but she deserved a better life, and he couldn't promise a future that he couldn't give her anymore.

There was some hatred in his heart, but the hatred turned into helplessness.

He didn't know who he wanted to hate, himself, Goudan, or the so-called fate.

"It's too late, Chen. I can't give you what you said."

He finally stopped saying those harsh and heartless words, but these words made people feel even more powerless than those words.

The monster's black scales slowly receded, exposing the tattered clothes under the scales, and the visible dense and ferocious scars. Each scar represented a human life and death. He had carried this hatred for many years.

"I killed the person who trusted me most with my own hands in one winter. I watched him die under my knife. His blood dyed my hands red. I destroyed my own cowardice and the hopes of others with my own hands. I Killed his own goodness, along with his extravagant hopes."

"You can... make up for it."

"I can't make up for anything. I made a mistake. Whether I wanted it or not, it was indeed caused by my own hands. The people who died in my hands cannot come back to life, and what I did cannot be done again." He shook his head, and the monster after its scales receded revealed its original appearance: "I don't deserve to say make up for it, Chen. It can't be as simple as falling and getting up again. The best way for me to make up for it is to die, but I can’t die now, not until the fight in Sarkaz is over.”

"I am not qualified to pursue my own future, nor can I be one of your wishes." A smile appeared on his blood-stained face, and he removed Chen's hand from his face: "Don't let me drag you down, either. Don't give me hope anymore, Chen, just let us be like we were when we were children, you care about Xiaota, and the relationship between us is not that important."

His words paused.

Chen heard him say.

"...I beg you, before you return to Longmen, don't let me end up becoming a criminal in your eyes."

"..."

Chen didn't answer.

He let go of his hand, and Chen's hand slowly dropped.

At this moment, Chen finally knew what he was thinking, but when Chen looked at the scars on his body, it was a past that Chen could not imagine.

There wasn't much warmth there, and compared to her dissatisfaction and complaints at Longmen, her experiences were nothing to mention.

Panic surged in Chen's heart for no reason. She suddenly realized that this might be the last meeting between her and the person in front of her. Maybe, from now on, this person would no longer exist in this land.

No matter how long she spent in Longmen, no matter how time passed.

She will no longer have this person in her future life, and even her hope will be wiped out. Until she forgets him, there will be no more him in this land.

No, never.The idea suddenly popped into her mind, and she began to reject it.She would never allow that to happen.