Longmen Memoirs

Chen didn't answer. She tilted her head in embarrassment, but when the hand was handed over to her, Chen still accepted it unfavorably.

It was not delicious, but it was never too luxurious for a hungry and cold person. The warm food flowed into the stomach, and it seemed that even the cold and fatigue had dissipated a lot.

She was holding the food box and spoon. When she came back to her senses, she realized that the eyes on the other side had been staring at her. Chen shrank his shoulders. She didn't notice the blush on her face.

"Why are you staring at me?" Chen asked angrily, as if to cover up his embarrassment.

Chen Mo withdrew his gaze. He broke open the remaining biscuits in the bag and put them into his mouth. Chen Mo seemed to understand. She looked at the steaming food in her hand, then looked at the opposite side, opened her mouth, but failed. Say something.

"When do you plan to leave?" Chen Mo suddenly asked.

The spoon Chen picked up in his hand was put back into the food box with these words.

"That's how you want me to leave." Her eyes fell on her hands

"It will do you no good to stay."

"Then I have to stay." She replied angrily.

"You are talking angrily again..." Chen Mo paused for a moment: "I don't know when those people will catch up again. If they come, I have only one choice. I won't be able to take care of you by then."

"I don't need you to worry about it." Chen said. She glanced at Chi Xiao at her hand and said, "I can handle it myself."

"Can you do it? I mean, if you can do it, kill people, be prepared to be killed. Don't be so full of words. Reality and what you think are two different things. Can you face someone who has no grievances against you? Those who have no hatred can allow themselves to take their lives by wielding a knife, but you haven't even...even killed anyone until now, Chen."

"..."

"You don't understand what it feels like to kill someone, and you don't even know why you do it. It's not a good thing, and it's not as easy as you think." Chen Mo said, his words were very calm: "Let me tell you something. , if you don’t kill them, they will come to kill you. They don’t care who you are, and they won’t listen to what you think about this matter. They wave their swords, and you have only two ways to go. It’s not you who dies. , that’s what I live for.”

"..."

His words came so plainly. They were plain but could not hide the ferocity. Some Chen had never been exposed to ferocity until now. Wei Yanwu taught her that she was an upright person at heart. She really couldn't do it as easily as Chen Mo said. Ask why you do such a thing.

With the knife in her hand, she decided how to choose, not the knife in her hand.

There is no right or wrong in this matter, and there is no right or wrong in many things.

Chen couldn't answer, her silence seemed undecided.

"Look, you can think it through in your own mind." Chen Mo held the biscuit in his hand. He looked at the hesitant Chen and said warmly: "You can't do such a thing. I'm sorry, but you and I'm different, Chen. It's not that you're not good for not being able to do this kind of thing. On the contrary, this is what a normal person should think. What this land needs is people like you."

"Are you telling me your great principles now?" Chen asked silently.

"I'm just telling you a fact that you will face if you stay."

Chen pursed his lips.

"You think I'm dragging you down."

"It's not too late." Chen Mo did not deny: "It's still too late for you to go back now. Go back to your school, treat what happened now as if it never happened, and have a good sleep. When you wake up, you will find that everything is still the same. It’s up to you to decide what you should look like, what you should do, and how you should live. No matter what, it will be better than now.”

"Then watching you leave, watching you continue to look like what I saw during the day, until you die one day, quietly, I am still having a dream that I can't wake up from." Chen He lowered his voice: "I can't do this kind of thing!"

"..."

"I don't think I am that important to you." Chen Mo shook his head: "Things like what I mentioned happen every day in this land. Maybe at this moment when we are talking, countless people die. Always learn to accept that not everything will happen as you think.”

"It's not up to you to decide whether it's important or not." Chen replied indifferently. She tilted her head and said, "I don't want to argue with you anymore. I always feel that I am doing something meaningless and stupid. I can't change the lives of those people. I can't save them. How can I watch you become like this...I won't leave. Your reason can't scare me. Tell it to yourself. When the time comes, I will take action. I'm not that unbearable. .”

The atmosphere fell silent again. Chen just ate his food and there was no more conversation.

After a few seconds, Chen Mo heard her cough.

There was still a visible blush on her face, and she was wrapped tightly in the blanket. The food box was put aside. Her blue hair was scattered in the night wind. In the dark night, she stared at the bonfire in front of her.

After a long time, Chen Mo heard her voice.

"Who were those who died during the day?"

Chapter 86: Keep Chen Gui silently ([-]): Selfish Chen Huijie

The bonfire illuminated people's figures, and the shadows fell on the ground. No starry sky could be seen above the head of the clouds, and the coldness of the wilderness's late winter spread silently in the depths of the night.

"Who were those who died during the day?" Chen's hesitant words gradually sounded.

she asked.

She didn't look at Chen Mo, but stared at the red-hot wood in the flames. Sparks rose with the movements of Chen Mo's hands, and his movements paused.

"A certain family, a certain force, or someone's subordinate in Londinium."

"You don't know?"

"In short, we are enemies and not friends. There is no need to make it clear." Chen Mo said.

Chen was silent for a moment. She glanced at Chen Mo and then looked away.

"I don't think they look like ordinary people." Chen said: "Those people have the shadow of the army. Why did they come back to hunt you? No, what I should ask is, what are you planning? I asked you before, You said you can’t say it, but what about now? You can’t say it now?”

Her voice was very low, and she no longer had the confidence to ask questions. Perhaps it was because she no longer had the stance to say such things.

Chen stared at Chen Mo's profile, the firelight reflecting his figure swaying along with the bonfire.

"...I took an Aslan from Londinium."

After a few seconds, Chen heard Chen Mo's answer, but strangely, what she cared about was not the content of the answer, but the answer itself, as if the tight string in her heart suddenly relaxed a lot.

Chen felt quietly relieved.

She knew what Aslan meant, and Chen soon thought of the blonde woman who lived with him.

"Is she the Aslan you mentioned?" Chen asked.

"You said Wei Na, it's her."

"How could you..."

"A lot of things happened." Chen Mo said. He interrupted Chen's words. When he looked over, Chen's eyes were fixed on her tightly. The eyes were no longer as decisive as before, but they could not be ignored.

"You still refuse to tell me." Chen asked in a low voice, as if she had already guessed something. Even though she said this, she did not look away: "You are going to talk about your big principles again, okay, I listen, you can start ”

But Chen Mo's answer was beyond Chen's expectation.

"After I left Longmen, I wandered to Colombia, where I passed Black Steel's entry test and received training to become a mercenary. On my first assignment, I was dispatched to Kazdale." Chen Mo replied calmly: "There, Black Steel's escort convoy was attacked by Sakaz mercenaries. I was lucky enough to survive. A group of Sakaz people rescued me. They were on their way to migrate and happened to encounter us being attacked. I wandered with them for more than half a month at the location of the attack.”

"That group of people was not simple. They didn't hide it deliberately. There were Sakaz civilians in the migration team, as well as well-equipped and well-trained soldiers. I was under house arrest for a while. They couldn't trust me. In fact, I couldn't trust them either. , in order to survive, I began to try to contact them."

Chen listened quietly, and Chen Mo looked away.

"Later?" Chen asked.

"Later I met their leader, Theresia. You may have never heard of this name, but she, she was the nominal monarch of Kazdaele. She lost her throne and was kicked out of the royal court." Chen Mo replied: "So you should be able to guess that they didn't meet me by chance, but the target of the attack was originally them, but something went wrong along the way, and Black Steel's convoy became a substitute. In the camp, there was a man named Sarkaz of Scout, he told me that if it weren’t for Thearesia’s order, I would have died by his gun that night.”

"But I didn't die. That guy became the first friend I met in the camp and the first Sakaz." Chen Mo said softly. He looked at Chen: "People say that Sakaz has no blood. Tears are a group of mercenaries who only know killing and death, a group of villains who do evil everywhere, and a group of heinous beasts."

"What you hear is false..." Chen muttered.

"What are you hearing?"

Chen Mo smiled: "That's what I said, but most people, including me, had no good impressions of Sakaz before. My impression of them came from Black Steel's archives, which recorded Black Steel International The tragic encounters and number of sacrifices that occurred during the Kazdaele mission come from Colombians’ impressions of the Sakaz, as well as the evaluation and records of the Sakaz people from outside scholars in the books in the library.”

His smile is full of [|*

In fact, people never delve into things that have nothing to do with them, but of course this is true, it is normal, after all, not everyone should pay something for what others experience.

He suddenly fell silent, and it took a few seconds for Chen to hear what he said.

"I think if it hadn't been for that encounter, I should have been able to return to Longmen earlier."

But after returning to Longmen, it may be the same ending. He will not even come to Londinium again, and naturally he will not be able to see Chen or Vina.

Many things will change, by chance, but by accident.

"They, those Sakaz you mentioned, did they let you stay?" Chen asked.

"No, I chose to stay. Theresia formed an organization called the Tower of Babel. I stayed in the Tower of Babel. The Sakaz people's civil war came from the nobles led by the Tower of Babel. , the armies and forces of the clan and the royal regent." Chen Mo said: "When I came back to my senses, I realized that I was already in this war. I was in the middle of the internal fighting in Sakaz. In the vortex.”

"Theresa has always had many ideas, many idealistic ideas, but she is different from those dreamers. She is kind, kind, practical, courageous, enterprising and tolerant, and many of them voluntarily stayed in Babel. Everyone in the tower believed that she could change Kazdare and the Sakaz people. I stayed there and became one of them, with my own subordinates, my own colleagues, and my own career." Chen Mo said: "But the war in Sakaz is not over yet. Until everything is settled, no one can tell what will happen in the future, and no one can see clearly where it will go from now on."

Chen Mo looked at Chen Mo, his words were self-evident.

Chen didn't answer.

"Our opponent has connections with Victoria. Victoria's Secret has intervened in the Kazdaele dispute. In this war about the Kazdaele battle, we are at a disadvantage. In order to restore this disadvantage, Babel needs Aslan and Victoria. Na, and Vina, her identity is very special, she also needs the help of Sarkaz. The forces behind Babel and Vina have reached a coordination, and I...my mission is to bring her back to Kaz alive. Dell." Chen Mo said: "That's all, the reason why I showed up in Londinium, but what I didn't expect was that I would meet you here."

"When I returned to Longmen, I used the help of the Sakaz people to threaten Longmen and Wei Yanwu. I thought that from then on, I would have nothing to do with Longmen. In fact, I no longer had anything to do with that city. No matter how much nostalgia I have, I have already done what I should do, and whatever I can’t keep...just let it pass, people have to move forward."

Chen suddenly fell silent. She wanted to say something, but when the words came to her lips, she couldn't say them out. The light words couldn't make up for anything.

Facts that are heavier than words leave people speechless.

There is no excuse or reason to refute.

What about me... Chen really wanted to ask this, but as soon as the words came to her lips, she suddenly lost the courage to speak out.

Yes, what can I represent? With my position and my identity, what can I say to keep you?

He has his own career, his own subordinates, his own friends and companions.

He was no longer alone, he could no longer leave these things behind.

[You don’t know what he is carrying. 】

Chen suddenly felt unprecedented loneliness and powerlessness in her heart. She lowered her eyelids and clasped her fingers under the blanket.

Too late.Chen suddenly thought.

Although Chen Mo didn't say that, Chen knew what he wanted to tell him.

She would rather Chen Mo tell her that it was for her own good, she would rather Chen Mo use those words and facts to scare her, rather than get such a cold but irrefutable answer.

But Chen didn't want to leave just like that, she didn't want to leave just like that, as if running away, treating everything as if nothing had happened, although this might be the best outcome, no matter who it was.

So Chen avoided the problem and chose to escape.

"You haven't explained what happened to you during the day."

When she asked this question, she felt as if she had finally let go of something in her heart. Chen loosened her clenched fingers. Of course she knew she was escaping, but people can't help but deceive themselves.

"What the hell is going on!"

She stared closely at Chen Mo's figure and did not see those dark scales and horns anymore, but the scene during the day was still something that Chen could not easily forget.

Her intuition told her that it was not a good thing. In fact, it was not a good thing either.

Chen Mo was stunned by Chen's words.He sighed silently in his heart. Chen Mo's personality remained the same as when he was a child. Her escape was not surprising. On the contrary, while helpless, Chen Mo felt an indescribable comfort in his heart.

There is such a girl, no matter what you say, no matter how bad you say, her persistence and foolishness in choosing to escape rather than stay will not make a despicable and cold-hearted person like me feel warm.

Chen Mo had never seen gentle Chen, but if it was just gentleness on the surface, maybe he didn't need it.

"This started when I was infected with Originium Disease..."

"Another long story?" Chen was slightly surprised.

"It's not that it's long, but you may not be willing to hear it." Chen Mo said calmly: "I accepted Colombia's transformation experiment. This person, or this body...even I don't know that it can still hold on." how long."

"What do you mean!" Chen suddenly stood up, and the blanket she was wearing fell to the ground. Chen's eyes were directly overlooking Chen Mo, who was sitting opposite.

"You should understand."

"I asked you what do you mean!" Chen's anger had no reason, but she was indeed furious. She gritted her teeth and asked: "I! Call! You! Tell me!"

"It's not a big deal, Chen. If I'm lucky, I mean I can live for a while." Chen Mo stood up and looked at Chen opposite him.

"If you want anything in this world, you have to pay for it. I chose a path for myself and a relatively good ending."

"Are you lying to me again?!"

Chen Mo raised his hand, and an angry Chen suddenly slapped his arm away.

He withdrew his hand.

"I also hope I'm lying to you." Chen heard her say: "I want to give you a satisfactory ending. We meet and then part ways. At least you can still remember that a person like me once appeared in your presence. In your life, at least in your heart, I just leave, and we will have another day to see you again."

Chen clenched her hands tightly, her shoulders trembled slightly, Chen gritted her teeth, and she stubbornly refused to look away. Those beautiful and transparent red eyes, under Chen Mo's gaze, were crystal clear. Thunder slid down the corner of her eyes and landed on the ground.

"I don't believe it, I said... I don't believe it!" Chen repeated. "If you want to force me to leave, you don't need to lie to me like this."

She is destined not to be the kind of person who can't believe her soft words.

She is stubborn and strong at heart, and will not change because of anyone, nor will she choose to compromise and go with the flow as the world changes.