Longmen Memoirs

He didn't come back.

He also failed to help him keep his wife and children. He just glanced at her from a distance, but did not dare to move over or even say a word of comfort.

Someone's hand gently picked up the fallen coat and put it on him.

He came to his senses and pressed his hand on his shoulder.

"You're here, Wenyue."

The dignified and virtuous woman stood quietly behind him. He put down the pipe in his right hand and tapped it on the table a few times.

The woman's eyes glanced at the letter paper between his fingers, and then slowly dropped it. The ground was covered with smoke and dust.

"It's already late? Be careful not to catch a cold."

"As people get older, they will inevitably think of things from the past."

"Are you old?" A smile appeared on the woman's eyebrows. "You are still very young."

"You still have many years to go before you get old, soon."

"I will grow old too, and when you grow old, I will grow old with you." Wen Yue patted the back of his hand on hers, as if to tell her that someone would be with him.

She had already made this preparation from the day she decided to come to the Eastern Kingdom with him. When they first arrived in Longmen, they encountered many crises and ups and downs, and they never gave up.

This is a political marriage, but for her, it is the best marriage.Because she met the person who is most suitable for her.

"I originally thought he would be the best leader of the inspection team. I should have thought that he is not suitable for this position, and he does not want to come to Longmen." Wei Yanwu said softly, his throat was a little dry, and he couldn't help but want to He raised the pipe in his hand.

"But he came anyway."

"Yeah, he's still here."

Because I told him that the building of the temple is not made of a single tree branch, and that the completed building cannot be built by the efforts of one person, so he came.

"The moment I saw him, I knew who he was. He was so similar to him when he was a child, almost like the same person in the same mold."

"It's the child Chen mentioned. Although she doesn't admit it with her mouth, she has long regarded him as her friend in her heart. They rarely have friends."

Wen Yue knew whose letter he had in his hand. She should have thought that one day, ever since that child came into contact with Chen and Xiaota, this day would come.

They went to Longmen Pier to pick him up together. She watched them hugging each other affectionately, and he smiled like a child.

"I will give him a chance to choose. Whether it is Chen or her, he cannot have too much contact with them now. He does not have the ability, and I will not allow it. If he is willing, I will send him away and give him a new life."

"Will he be willing?"

"No." Wei Yanwu recalled the comments made by the people in the orphanage on the day he saw the child, and his fingertips moved slightly:

"He won't."

That's why they are so similar.

"Do you think you owe him?"

"Can I?" [*/

"Do you know?"

"I owe a lot of people, and I probably won't be able to pay them back in this lifetime, and I'm not going to pay them back." Wei Yanwu sighed.

How beautiful Longmen is in his eyes now, but he still thinks of this lonely city when he first came. He spent many years scheming and deceitful, and finally sat in this position, watching it change little by little. become what it is today.

He will also recall the group of people running around in this city. Longmen became their hope, and he built it into a hope.He can foresee the future of Longmen, which is a future that is struggled out from the corpses and the corpses of enemies.

It took a lot of unwillingness, a lot of resentment, and a lot of blood and death to achieve what Longmen is today.

"Xiaota, Chen, they are already very pitiful, Old Wei."

Wei Yanwu didn't answer, he put down the souvenir.

"There are many people who hate me. There are many people who hate me in this city from the day I came here, and there will be more in the future." Wei Yanwu stared at the bustling city outside the window: "I don't care, as long as I'm still sitting here, I don’t care.”

Yes, you don't have to care, but why are you sitting here.

Wen Yue opened her hands and gently held his neck from behind, leaning against his ear.

"It's okay, I will accompany you."

Just like when we came here, we have overcome so many hardships.

The contract between life and death is wide and Zicheng said.

Chapter 35 I never thought of leaving without saying goodbye ([-])

"I can tell you are surprised. You don't know me, yes, but I know you. We have met, many times. Do you remember?"

He lowered his head and said to Chen Mo, with a faint smile on his lips, but he couldn't feel a trace of warmth and kindness.

The adult soul made Chen Mo more and more uneasy, but Chen Mo looked at him, looking directly into his eyes, unwilling to look away.

He doesn't know what he is obsessed with?

Is it an unwilling fate or a cowardly self?

"Are you looking for me?"

Chen Mo didn't know why he was looking for him, but he guessed that it was because of Chen and Tallulah.

"Your name is Chen Mo, I know you."

His eyes no longer met Chen Mo, but looked towards the orphanage behind him. In the heavy rain, when lightning flashed across the sky, a pale corner was faintly revealed.

The warm candlelight illuminated the hall of the orphanage. The light was so bright in the dark night, and it made him smile.

"I also know a lot of things that happened to you. There are many people like you in this city. Compared with them, at least you are much luckier."

Lucky?Yes, lucky, if that can be called lucky, Chen Mo thinks so now, and thinks so more and more.

Can people really be so lucky forever?

"But do you want to live like this forever?...I mean, just live like this." He suddenly said such an unclear meaning.

When Chen Mo raised his head and looked over, those eyes met his.

From his eyes, Chen Mo could see that he was seriously asking himself the answer to this question, and this question was related to his future path.

Chen Mo had no doubt that a person like him could decide the whereabouts, life and death of a helpless orphan at will.

But his next words made Chen Mo suddenly lose his ability to think.

"Your father died for this city. His death was glorious, but in my opinion, it was not worth it." He seemed to recall something.

In Chen Mo's gradually widening pupils, his voice was deep.

Chen Mo was about to lose the strength to hold the umbrella handle, but in fact, his hand was getting tighter and tighter, and he was getting harder and harder, and all of this fell into his eyes.

His ears were roaring, but there was no sound of the rainstorm.The memory suddenly returned to the room that was about to turn yellow.

The back of the person named mother stood on the balcony. Chen Mo looked at her and then at himself sitting on the sofa. That was his past, and he was watching all of it.

Watching the extra smile on the face of the man who should rarely smile, watching him open the door, the memory changed to the moment when he opened the door.

In a drizzling drizzle, the box was gradually covered with soil, the woman was getting thinner and thinner, the woman was becoming increasingly insane, and the home was gradually becoming cold and dead.

Fragile, broken pieces like glass.

Explosions and noise spread farther and farther in the city streets, flames, dazzling flames, she hugged herself and gently hummed the melody that Chen Mo could hardly remember. The singing was very soft, and her embrace was also very warm.

The police badge that was about to get rusty was hidden by Chen Mo in the drawer of the orphanage.

Everything started because he left without saying goodbye.

"Do you want to know what happened? The truth? I can tell you, and I can help you. Of course I can, it's easy for me, but I can't tell you, not now."

His words were like the whispers of a devil who was seducing, and they were like whispers in Chen Mo's heart. When Chen Mo was confused, he brought back his dusty past, making him sink deeper and deeper.

Chen Mo didn't know what his expression should be at that time. He raised his head and stared at him, trying to show his ferocity and ferocity as much as possible.

All this fell in his eyes, but he didn't care.

He was unwilling to give up everything he had now for the sake of a dead man's past, but that woman's pale and bleeding face kept popping up in his mind, forcing him to admit that everything he had came from them. He had this Duty, and also this responsibility to understand everything.

Guilt and selfish greed made Chen Mo begin to struggle. The past and reality kept intersecting in the depths of his mind, leaving him at a loss and not knowing how to make a choice.

But he didn't wait for Chen Mo to make a decision, or in other words, he saw Chen Mo's inner torment and struggle.

"It seems that you have made new friends, friends worth cherishing. How about you sneaking out of the orphanage and wandering the streets of this city? In your eyes, this city is compared to the past. "He asked.

"Don't look like that. What you are doing is not hidden. You should know very well that they are different from you. I have been observing you for a long time, so don't try to deceive me. I know very well whether what you say next is a lie. ."

Chen Mo was about to try to do that, but his words sealed Chen Mo's last escape route. Chen Mo didn't have to consider whether what he said was true or false, because he didn't have the right to choose.

He could only remain silent, just like his own name, holding his hand tightly in the heavy rain, but unable to retreat.

Chen Mo suddenly remembered the way Tallulah pulled the corner of his clothes tightly to prevent him from facing such a desperate situation.

But he was unwilling to let himself go just like that.

"Doubt, fear, silence..."

He spoke each word one by one, as if he was trying to dig into Chen Mo's heart.

"A child shouldn't have such a reaction, but if it were me and a stranger suddenly appeared in front of me, I would choose to do the same. You are very smart."

It's like a compliment, but also a little nostalgic.

"But what I told you is the truth, and you know it very well."

"why me?"

Chen Mo finally said the first sentence, and after a long silence, asked the question he wanted to know most.

Why would it be me.

"It's a very simple reason." He said: "Because you are the only one closest to those two children, and they believe you, but I can't, I can't just trust a stranger who suddenly appears, just like you do now."

Can't he trust Chen Mo? He can, if he wants to, but for Chen Mo, how far can such trust from unknown sources help him go? He can't help him keep those two children for the rest of his life.

He is Wei Yanwu, but the current Longmen surname is not entirely Wei. Even so, how big this world is.

He can't live his whole life as an ordinary person who can't control his own life and death, and he can't imitate his father, who is so stupid and foolish.

"If you choose to leave now, I will send you to a very safe city, far away from here of course. You will make new friends there, have a new future, and maybe have a new family in the future. ,you can."

He smiled, and the smile disappeared from the corner of his mouth.

"And you will bid farewell to them and stay far away, because you are an insignificant person, I can't let you get involved, you don't have the ability, and I will not allow them to have the slightest intersection with you anymore, you understand ?"

Chen Mo listened to his words quietly, but his heart sank deeper and deeper as if falling into an abyss. What he said was true. Chen Mo understood very well that he didn't even need to ask his opinion, and he couldn't resist at all.

Is it for your own good?

No?

Chen Mo knew that he didn't have the ability. From the day he met this man, he knew that he couldn't hold on. But Chen Mo still couldn't help but fantasize, just like people like to fantasize about their future, even if they know it is fake and a fantasy. , but still couldn't help it.

Chen Mo was unable to respond for a moment. Deep unwillingness and powerlessness filled his body, and just when he had to accept it all.

His words came again, unhurriedly.

"Of course..." he said: "There is another option, but this option is much crueler for you."

"I will also send you away, and you will have the opportunity to say goodbye to them. If you can satisfy me, I can let you come back. Why not? If you can come back alive, I will tell you what to do next. Walk."

"It's just..." His voice suddenly stopped, became much louder, and became more majestic and unquestionable.That lion-like face was filled with cold seriousness and indifference.

"listen……"

"When you really come back, your body and your mind no longer belong to you. I will not teach you right and wrong, nor will I care about your good and evil, and you will also lose the ability to distinguish these. Ability, I will let you understand the truth of the matter bit by bit, but how you choose is your own business. Maybe you can't accept it for a while, but I don't care about your feelings. Even if you grit your teeth, you have to endure it. .”

"You have to live a dark and cruel life. This is a necessary test."

This is a test for you. You have to grow up and understand the difficulty of living. If you are not willing to be ordinary, if you are willing to accept it.

"It's unfair to you, but to me, to those two children...it's fair!"

"You don't have the right to choose now, but I am willing to give you this right. It is up to you to decide where to go."

"Think about it carefully. There is no need to rush to give me an answer, but I must remind you that I am a very fickle person and may change my mind at any time."

Chapter 36 I never thought of leaving without saying goodbye ([-])