Longmen Memoirs

Maybe it has something to do with Kelsey's departure.

Perhaps it was Wei Na's final request to Sakaz that proved that Aslan and the others were not completely ineffective. The calmness of the journey surprised both Chen Mo and Seria.

Compared with the heaviness when you first arrived in Victoria, this result makes people feel a bit unexpected. It's like you know that the guy opposite is going to sneak attack, but he just stands up when you sit down. At the moment you are about to take action, he But I am embarrassed to ask you to borrow a lighter.

This example may not be so appropriate.

Chen Mo did bring an Aslan back from Victoria, but Chen Mo was not sure whether the outcome of this war would really change much because of the involvement of an Aslan.

The doctor's words seemed to still ring in my ears.

Most likely, what Babel needs is not an Aslan. What they need is just a name, an opportunity, a node that can push Babel and Babel to stay in Londinium and Victoria's interest network.

The doctor may have seen this, but he was not sure, but he did realize the value of Aslan and the true purpose and need of Babel. He was not sure whether this could give Babel a greater advantage. .

Wei Na's eyes often look at the place where the sun rises, which was once her motherland, but now, she is just a foreigner in exile and a noble chess piece.

Indra's company gave her some comfort, but her future was still shrouded in gloom.

Londinium was a high wall full of dangers, and after leaving there, her life didn't get much better. It might as well be said that it got worse.

Chen Mo couldn't do anything. Fortunately, he never made a promise to Wei Na.

He saw Hedley and Ines again. The latter was still dressed as a mercenary, and the former looked in much better condition than when Chen Mo had just met him. Hedley was no longer slovenly, but still looked like a prostitute. The look of a servant.

They took the Sakaz team and waited at the junction of Rem Billiton and Kazdaele.

4:32P.M

weather/light rain

The southernmost suburb of Kazdale, on the edge of the war zone.

"You two are leading the team this time."

Chen Mo looked at the two people and their team who came from the hiding spot after the visual signal.

The team of weirdos who were on alert for the first time put down their weapons at Chen Mo's signal, but they did not relax their vigilance. Anything could happen in Kazdale.

Preparing for the worst will often not catch you off guard.

He obviously paused when he said the last two words. It seemed that he was not quite used to this title.

"You mean you received the order half a month ago?"

"Yes, we first escorted a group of people from Victoria to the Tower of Babel, about 20 people. If there are no accidents, they should have arrived at the Tower of Babel by now."

"What's the mud rock doing?"

"She is operating in the western war zone. There is intelligence that a large number of mercenaries have gathered near Walden Pond for an unknown purpose. Too many things have happened in the past six months. Sir, you have been away for too long. Kazdaele is now full of mercenaries. Large and small battle areas, in fact, if it weren't for this mission, my team and I would be on the front line right now."

"It's too fast."

"Yes, it's too fast." Hedley sighed: "Since His Highness held a meeting in Grai and made remarks half a year ago, the war and the past in Kazdaele have shown two extremes. We all know where they are. The problem, though, is where it is, no one knows.”

"It's not that no one knows, it's just that no one thinks so." Chen Mo said, he looked at Hedley: "It seems that you have adapted to your identity now, Hedley, you understand what I mean, Sakaz The mercenaries must be disbanded, they have been around long enough."

"I know very well. In fact, I don't need you to remind me. From the moment I chose Theresia, I knew what our end would be."

"The end?" Chen Mo asked: "No, Hedley, you used the wrong word. You shouldn't say it is the end. Only losers are called the end, and winners don't say that."

Hedley smiled forcefully.

"Maybe." He sighed softly: "But do you think we can win?"

"You shouldn't ask me this question." Chen Mo shook his head. He looked at Ines on the other side who was exchanging words with Ceria: "You should ask yourself this question and the soldiers behind you. And everyone who is involved in this war, let me tell you this, Hedley, I know you have many opinions in your heart, but if you don’t do it and don’t take action, those opinions will always remain opinions. You see the problem, but the important thing is not that you know where the problem is, but what you do when you know the problem.”

Hedley was silent for two seconds.

He didn't answer.

Chen Mo didn't expect that he could change the view of the man in front of him in just a few words.

"Maybe it's time... we have to return to the center of the battlefield." Chen Mo said, "I think you also expected that such a day would come. We all know it, don't we?"

"If you had left the Tower of Babel and crossed Valanden at that time, you could have shown your strength elsewhere and gotten rid of this war that is destined to burn every corner of Kazdaele."

Hedley shook his head.

"Maybe you are right, sir." Hedley changed his title: "Ines has the same view, but it is difficult for us to escape from there. The warmth is too confusing. I don't deny that we both Intoxicated with this, the blueprint drawn by His Highness is too exciting."

"Is it also tiring?" Chen Mo asked.

Hedley was stunned.

"This is an old habit of yours, Hedley." Chen Mo said, "You haven't noticed that you have become a little sentimental. Throw away those useless things. This will allow you to live longer in this war."

"You know better than me. I have nowhere to go after I leave Kazdaele, but you, you Sakaz, once you leave Kazdaele, there will still be a tree on this land that can accommodate you to take shelter from the rain. Shed, you are the best killers and criminals, there is no place for you to live peacefully, except your homes."

Chen Mo looked at Hedley who was silent because of his words.

"You are different from most mercenaries, because you have your own views on this land and Kazdaele. Although these are not a good thing for you, sometimes, I think Ines's eyes are It’s clearer than you can see.”

Chen Mo said that he didn't seem to notice Ines standing behind him.

"Don't say that, my lord."

Ines suddenly spoke up.

"What you said is as if you are a person who stays out of the matter. Sometimes Hedley does think too much and thinks about things that he shouldn't think about, but you can't deny that this is what Sakaz should do. Thinking about it, not like you, you are not Sakaz, you have only been here a few years."

"Ines—" Hedley stopped him.

Ines' eyes remained firm.

"He is indeed not Sakaz, and he is not that idiot who would devote himself to this war for no reason, to solve problems for you Sakaz that you should solve by yourselves, and he may even risk his own life." Leya stood next to Chen Mo: "If this is your Sakaz's attitude towards him, then I think Kazdale's current situation and your Sakaz's situation are indeed excusable."

Seria's words seemed to be in conflict with Ines.

So the topic was guided【~

Chen Mo saw the same helplessness in Hedley's eyes.

"In that case, why do you come all the way here, outsider."

"Are you sure that you Sakaz can handle this without outsiders like us? You will only make things more and more messy. Miss Ines, you should be more polite to your collaborators and companions."

"I didn't ask you for anything."

"But he is your commander after all. You understand what I mean. If you want to stay away from this war, you can always find many ways, but to stay, you have to clarify your identity and position."

"Okay, Ceria, don't be so angry." Chen Mo had to stop him: "I'm not here to listen to you two discussing this issue. Listen, maybe Ines' words made you a little dissatisfied, but after all, we have feelings. But, as for you..."

Chen Mo looked at Ines.

"If you are worried about me and worry that one day I will let you lose your life, then I can assure you that you will not be the first, Ines, and you will not be the last." Chen Mo said.

Ines looked away.

"Whether it's me or you Sakaz, none of us can stay away from this. Maybe what you experienced in Kazdare during this period made you feel unhappy. This is normal. People are bleeding and dying everywhere, and no one is happy. Seeing that this situation continues, I mean, except for madmen and murderers." Chen Mo's eyes calmed down.

"That's why we are here and why we chose to stay in Kazdale. I don't think you stayed here just to throw the responsibility on others."

Ines sighed.

"I have nothing more to say, my lord."

"You can keep your previous views, that's okay." Chen Mo didn't ask for anything: "Theresia is happy to see you, but I have to remind you that any of your opinions have nothing to do with me. As a warrior, I don't want Where did you go wrong because of your opinion, you know what I mean.”

"...As you order, my lord."

Chen Mo didn't really want to warn Ines in this way, but he also didn't have time to deal with this small internal conflict. He didn't mind beheading Ines with his own hands after her rebellion, but only if Ines did Did it.

When a family grows, it is inevitable that there will be many different voices.

He couldn't ask everyone to follow his opinions, but as long as they stood in the same position, he could ignore these.

On the way back after meeting up.

Hedley simply found Chen Mo.

Seeing this man sitting coquettishly next to her, hesitant to speak, made people feel a little helpless.

It's really hard for him.

Despite the light of the bonfire, Chen Mo still didn't see Wei Na.

"What happened during the day was that Ines was a little impulsive..." He sat down first, then stopped mid-sentence, as if he didn't know how to continue talking.

He felt that his face was not that great, and no matter how great his face was, it could not compare to the dead Garson.

"Are you here to plead for her?"

"If her words have caused you displeasure, I apologize to you on his behalf. Sir, Ines did not mean to say those words..." He wanted to say something more, but Chen Mo waved his hand.

Hedley stopped talking.

"It's difficult, Hedley." Chen Mo suddenly said, staring at the bonfire on the ground: "You should have met Ines before you came here. You suddenly joined an organization and participated in this war. You may die at any time. , the end will not be too good, there is another boss, it is inevitable that I am not used to it, and I have to consider the conflicts between the boss and teammates, so as not to die inexplicably."

Hedley lowered his gaze and did not answer.

"I have also worried about this kind of thing, and I have faced the same dilemma as you." Chen Mo pointed to the tent of the weirdo team: "Over there, I was their captain, the leader of a mercenary team, and I also have to Considering these, considering my own integrity, and whether my inner peace will destroy my team and me together, I have to consider the opinions above and know what I should do and what I should not do."

Hedley opened his mouth.

"In Kazdaele, a large amount of metal is not used to build cities and daily utensils, but to make weapons. The blast furnaces in the industrial area are constantly puffing out black smoke. In contrast, the speed of the fallen soldiers is almost as fast as the identification plates. They leave the factory side by side." Hedley whispered: "We can only try our best to remember everyone's code name. The name is too long, and it is not important. The way for mercenaries to survive is not through our own work, but through our own work. The number of passing caravans and the number of deaths, our food is all filled with blood, our own and other people's. We live on these, and then grow up until we die. Ines has only seen this kind of situation too many times, she They don’t agree with me staying, but I know I have to stay because this life must come to an end.”

"Really?" Chen Mo asked, as if talking to himself.

"grown ups……"

"No need to say any more, Hedley." Chen Mo shook his head slightly: "Even if I say that I forgive Ines, you will still have doubts about my answer. Oral promises are meaningless. You should understand this truth. Of course, if it makes you feel better, I say, I don’t care.”

He turned to look at Hedley, who had a helpless face.

Chen Mo withdrew his gaze.

"Besides, what Ines said is not wrong. I am indeed not Sakaz. This is a destined problem. Rather than thinking about this, Hedley, you should think more about how to keep you and your people alive. It's easy for people to die. What you just said makes me think that you are not very calm about this matter, your men and the Sakaz who followed you." Chen Mo said: "I don't think so. I have time to provide psychological counseling for each of you Sakaz, and I think His Highness has said enough, right?"

Hedley really wanted to ask him what he thought.

But when he raised his head and looked at the Li court leader who killed Garson with his own hands, Hedley suddenly understood the answer.

He never considered these questions.

Chapter 95 Let’s go back

I know such a person.

I can often see a trace of loneliness and confusion in his back as he looks alone at the distant sky. In the eyes of outsiders, he is an out-and-out cold-blooded chess player. He killed many people and was forced to embark on this path. road.

He woke up from the distant past and lost the person who loved him deeply. He survived, but only himself and this strange world to him were left.

His memory was always pale and shrouded in mist. No matter how he recalled it, he could not recall his past. He knew what he had lost, and he knew that it was extremely important to him, but unfortunately, he could not remember it.

His origins are as mysterious as his appearance.

To a certain extent, I am the same person as him, but to a certain extent, I am luckier than him. At least my memory is still there, and I even found the person I should love.

But he didn't.

I don’t sympathize with him, or I should say that people like him don’t deserve sympathy, because after all, he killed many people, because we all kill many people, no matter whether our cause is right or not, our experience is never the same in this world. The only one on earth.

Not now and even less so in the future.

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"I heard someone said you were here."

Chen Mo met the doctor outside the high-rise deck of Rhode Island.

At that time, the sinking sun in the distance of the wilderness fell on this man. His black clothes were rendered in the dim and bright dusk, and the wind blew his coat.

He still looked like that, he hid everything about himself deep inside, but his hands were still in the pockets of his coat.

"Are you looking for me?" The doctor turned around when he heard Chen Mo's voice.

His answer was as calm as ever.

"I feel like I should come over and see you."