Longmen Memoirs

Even if that day would definitely come in the end, even if he had to return to Yan, he thought, there must already be a reason for him to accept it all willingly.

He has been on the run for many years.

Escaped from the Dragon Gate, escaped from the Black Wall, fled from Colombia to Sargon, and fled from Sargon to Kazdaele, Victoria, and he is still on the run to this day.

Escape from a fate he is unwilling to accept, escape from his past, escape from Chen's love, escape from Weina's feelings, escape from everything the fox has done for him, he is also running away from Theresa's answer before she has time to tell him.

In this life, unless you stubbornly stick to one point, it is difficult to feel lonely. Whoever you meet and what happens are destined to have intersections, so those regrets, regrets, sadness, and unspeakable things become Marked a series of conspicuous marks in life.

Chen Mo thought, he actually felt sorry for many people.

He is sorry for 052 who was left in the black wall, he is sorry for Brother Si's sincere words, he is sorry for his parents, he is sorry for Chen's feelings, he is also sorry for Fox, sorry for Wei Na, and sorry for many people who should not have died in his hands. people.

Not to mention regret.

He has told too many lies in his life, and sometimes he tells so many lies that even he believes it to be true. Believing it to be true, he can change the suffering of this land with the superficial theories in his mind. Believing it to be true, he can really live as he says. It's so easy to believe that everything will be fine in the end.

The lesions on his body began to tingle faintly again.

Since escaping from Victoria, every time the Originium disease attacks, he can vaguely hear the voices in his mind. Those angry and resentful voices are arguing in his mind, nagging him to kill people. Let him kill people to fill the hatred in their hearts, and let the blood calm their suffering of betrayal.

He didn't know where those voices came from, and Goudan, that shadow, never took the initiative to say a word to him since leaving Kazdaele.

As if he was already dead, Chen Mo thought, he really wished Goudan was dead, but he was also a little reluctant to let go. He couldn't explain where the reluctance came from. He was reluctant to let go of such a thing that was against him all day long. If he suddenly disappeared one day , it will make people feel that something is missing suddenly.

Thinking this way, he couldn't help but laugh.

How stupid.Chen Mo thought.

He put out the cigarette in his hand, put his hands behind his head, leaned back on the chair, and stared at the bright light in front of the table with the tingling pain in his body.

He sometimes thinks about it.

If he had not returned to Longmen, if he had listened to Brother Si and not insisted on going to Kazdaele, what should he do now.

They should probably be assigned to carry out single-person missions on moderately infected people, or be sent to the logistics department to provide logistical support for the officers of the execution department.

That might be a good job, at least it shouldn't be too difficult for me to make ends meet.

When the day comes that he no longer wants to work, he can still apply to join the Colombian pioneer team. With the skills he has developed in Black Steel, it will not be difficult to get a piece of land of his own and build a manor by then.

That life must have been very easy. Occasionally, I could ask brother Si to go fishing and have picnics. I could listen to him complain about what Foxtail had done recently that made him feel unreasonable. He also heard how close he was to a successful marriage. How far is it, or in other words, how much is the difference.

If the difference is not a federal bank【%$

He also promised to be Brother Si's best man on his wedding day. He would invite an infected person to be his best man. Perhaps only Si Feilt could think of such a thing. If no one comes on the wedding day, he can't. It's his fault.

Brother Si would probably say that if no one comes, then no one will come. His two brothers are enough. Those people are all guys with bad consciences.

They would sit and drink together all night until they were unconscious and staggering. Brother Si used this way to stay with him and tell him that he was not alone.

Maybe Franka and Razer would also find time to be there that day, with a submissive Jessica, and their joking words made the little girl hesitate nervously.

Franka was as heartless and frivolous as ever, and Razer would yell and yell to try and get over it.

That scene must have been interesting.

As for Chen Mo, he has successfully transformed from a mercenary to a farmer. Perhaps he can be regarded as a successful person to some extent.

These people are still so inconspicuous in the huge Colombia and the vast land of Terra.

Together, these people are just tiny specks of dust among all living beings.

Brother Si is a very loyal person, but his loyalty is often a little uncertain, because he seems to be a guy who can interfere with brothers.

Chen Mo thought that at that time, his whole life might have passed in such a muddle. When the disease became serious enough to attack, he would leave Colombia, find a beautiful and uninhabited place, build a small hut, and greet him quietly. own death.

In his life, there will be no more Chen, no more Tallulah, no more Kazdaele, no more Theresia, no more Vina, no more people who once stayed in The grievances and resentments of Longmen are twists and turns, and they will no longer be related to anyone in Yan and the past.

He probably won't feel tired and panicked for half his life.

The fox was not infected with the Originium Disease. She was still the police officer Su of Longmen. Chen would still return to Longmen in the end. Wei Yanwu would still make her unable to understand and forgive. She would still become the Superintendent Chen who hated evil and did not know how to compromise.

Wei Na took her Glasgow gang to escape from Victoria. Maybe one day they will go back, but Chen Mo will never be there again.

Theresia and Kazdaele finally reached the ending that originally belonged to them.

Tallulah...

What will Xiaota do?

How will Xiaota spend her life? Maybe she will meet someone who loves her. Maybe she, like Chen, will live their own lives. Maybe fate will be generous enough to let them meet again one day. Give them a chance to make up for their mistakes.

Neither of them is willing to give in to the other easily, and they might have a fight.

but……

Is that really the life he wants?

Could he really be willing to live like that?

Thinking of this, Chen Mo's thoughts gradually drifted away.

He fell asleep.

He slept peacefully and calmly, he was already used to sleeping with pain.

The door was gently pushed open at this moment, and there was a hazy sound of rain outside the window. The amber eyes reflected the sleeping man sitting on the chair.

Texas breathed a sigh of relief.

She walked into the room, picked up the coat hanging on the hanger and put it on the man.

Her movements stopped.

She saw the snake open its eyes and look at her.

"Are you still asleep?" he asked.

"Can't sleep," Texas said, and she let go.

Snake raised his wrist and glanced at his watch.

"It's four o'clock."

"Yeah." Texas nodded.

"You want to ask me something?"

"It's nothing."

"go to bed early."

Texas walks out the door.

The light rain stopped at some point during the night.

The bedding in the room was folded, and Chen Mo closed the door. He turned his head and glanced at the guest room belonging to Texas, but did not knock on the door after all.

Get out of the hotel.

The early morning air in Volamde is filled with the moisture of a rainy night, and in the mist, the sun is shining brightly.

Chen Mo, who was carrying the long box, suddenly stopped.

He looked at the hotel door.

Texas stood in front of the car, looking in his direction. Among the pedestrians walking on the street in the early morning, the sun fell on her. Her expression was as indifferent as ever, and no other emotions could be seen.

The warm sunlight illuminated the dark blue hair on her forehead, with a few strands slightly red.

She looked at herself, without waving her hand or speaking.

Only silence remained.

Chapter 28 A mirror, a reverse

[Of all the people I have lost, the one I miss the most is myself. 】

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Later, Chen Mo didn't ask why Texas was waiting for her at the door that day.

He just walked up to the car.

He looked at Luper who was standing in front of the car looking at him.

"Waiting for me?"

Texas nodded.

"Yes."

"bid farewell?"

She shook her head slightly.

"Have you thought about it?"

"As you said, regrets are reserved for those who have no choice. I shouldn't be counted among them."

She said what Chen Mo said the night before.

Chen Mo was a little surprised.

"I said it."

Maybe Texas just couldn't make peace with himself and felt that it was wrong for him to leave the snake behind, that he was in trouble for his own sake, even though he said it was to repay a favor to a friend.

Regardless of whether he really has this so-called friend, Texas herself can't be stable. She doesn't want to owe others anything, and she actually doesn't care what she has to face after making this choice.

Whether it was a mountain of knives, a sea of ​​fire, or a desperate and dangerous situation, she didn't think much about it.

She just felt that she should do this, so she did it【/

She looked into Chen Mo's eyes, waiting for the other party's answer.

Even Dezhou has thought about it. He may say the same reasons as before. Obviously Dezhou said that if she thinks that bringing her will have an impact, she has no objection.

She looked like she was breaking her promise.

Thinking of this, Texas looked away slightly.

But Chen Mo didn't answer. He walked around Texas and opened the car door.

"What are you still doing? It's time to set off."

Texas heard his voice behind him. He sat in the passenger seat and put the long box he was carrying into the back seat.

fasten your seatbelt.

Texas turned around.

"You drive, Texas."

He said.

Texas got into the driver's seat and just inserted the key.

The snake's words rang in my ears.

"You know what I was thinking after hearing that? Texas."

"I am listening."

"I was thinking just now that I have many reasons and excuses to persuade you to leave and not follow me, because even I don't know what will happen next. You may die, or at least you will not be safe. Let you stay. I think this is the best choice.”

"……I know."

The engine vibrated slightly, and Texas didn't look at the snake next to him.

"But I don't have the right to decide your will. You are a human being. Since you have decided to do this, you must have your own ideas. I won't ask you, and you don't have to tell me. Someone said before that I am self-righteous. Is self-righteous a good word? But I always feel that what he said is right. He said that I always want everything to be according to my ideas. He said that I want to be God, because only God can hold all things in his hands. I feel that I I didn’t have that ability, so I slowly tried to stand in each other’s perspective and look at some issues that I thought were correct but were not necessarily correct.”

What Brother Si said was always to the point. After meeting Brother Si again in Kazdale, the quarrel with him was still clearly recorded in Chen Mo's mind.

Brother Si called him a fool who didn't know how to live or die. He went all the way to the battlefield in Kazdare and lost his position, just because he was afraid that his brother would die there.

At that time, Chen Mo was still thinking that he had not gone back to Longmen. He didn't know what happened in Longmen, and he didn't know what else was waiting for him there.

Chen Mo always felt that what Brother Si said was right. Brother Si had clearly seen what kind of person he was. But what Brother Si didn't understand was that the reason why he became self-righteous was not because he was bold, arrogant or whimsical, but because he was so self-righteous. Because he is afraid of losing.

Because of fear, I am self-righteous.