Longmen Memoirs

"Yes, I know it very well." Chen Mo did not refute. "But I can't accept it."

"Think it over carefully. Have you thought about the consequences?"

"It's just the difference between living quietly for a few years or dying early."

"Because of the group of infected people you met in Ursus?"

Kelsey asked suddenly, with rare surprise in her eyes, but it quickly disappeared.

Chen Mo didn't answer.

"Will you tell His Highness this matter?" Chen Mo asked.

"You want me to hide it for you."

"if it is possible……"

"Chen Mo, even if I want to help you, Theresa can't really know nothing?"

She stared into Chen Mo's eyes, and she could tell that Chen Mo had lost vision in his right eye.

Chen Mo noticed her gaze.

Kelsey didn't mention it, and Chen Mo didn't explain it either.

"I haven't asked you what method you used to alleviate Theresia's condition. I didn't ask you then, and I won't ask you now." Kelsey said, "But I have to remind you that I hope you will do it before you decide." Before you do something, think through the consequences of it and whether it will implicate other people.”

Chen Mo understood what Kelxi wanted to tell him.

He opened his mouth.

Chen Mo didn't wait for an answer.

"Let me be blunt, if you die like this, Theresia will be very sad." Kelsey turned her head and moved from her desk: "I know why you came to me, and I didn't either. Be sure, I can’t say I will definitely be able to keep you going longer, provided you decide to accept my proposal.”

"..."

"That's enough."

"You are pushing yourself into a desperate situation, Chen Mo, I have a question, what is it about those infected people that makes you do so much for them?"

Kelsey turned around and asked, confusion in her eyes.

Chen Mo looked at her and thought of the infected people far away in Ursus.

"No." He replied calmly: "They have nothing, not even their own food, clothing, and habitat. But...Ms. Kelsey, I didn't have these either. The suffering that people have endured cannot be sympathized with." Yes, but there is someone who you hope will not go through more hardships than you."

"I'm not a great person, that's all I can do."

"..."

Kelsey probably wanted to scold herself for being stupid, but Chen Mo saw such a meaning in Kelsey's eyes, but he didn't know what he thought of, and finally didn't say it out loud.

Kelsey's promise made Chen Mo feel a lot more at ease. Although he didn't know how effective the subsequent inhibitors would be on this broken body, at least he had one more thought than at the beginning.

Chen Mo was glad that Kelxi was not a liar like him. Speaking of which, there were only a few people like him who were accustomed to dishonesty.

He said a few more words, mostly Kelsey's innuendo, but Chen Mo was already used to Kelsey's attitude, which is why he didn't like to contact Kelsey very much, because in many cases, lies lied to Kelsey With no advantage in front of her, she usually used calm words to speak directly to the pain in people's hearts, but she showed an understatement.

There wasn't much reminiscing about old times, probably because the relationship with Kelsey hadn't reached that good level yet, so it was good, and it saved me a lot of unnecessary worries.

Perhaps by the time Ms. Kelsey came to her senses, the word Chen Mo had already become a word in her words and in a certain memory.

On the way back to the Rhode Island dormitory area, I met some people.

Fortunately, not many people know him as a stranger. Unfortunately, the people on this ship are all trustworthy guys. Among these guys, there are not many people who can still maintain a normal mind after knowing who they are. indivual.

Of course, this does not include a certain Miss Gorefiend who, after seeing her at the corner of the passage, nervously covered her mouth and retreated into the corner. After Chen Mo left, she finally relaxed and gasped for air.

According to her own statement, she was the destroyer of Kazdale's information world. Because she was forcefully dragged out of the small attic, she idolized the man who dragged her out, so she later became a reliability engineer in Rhode Island. , a great system engineer from Rhode Island's SUPERVISOR, one of Kazdale's top [-] young people, but the poor Miss Destroyer was so frightened that she almost forgot to breathe after seeing someone's true appearance.

Especially after knowing that there is another group of real night watchmen on this ship.

"PRTS are you there?"

【I am here. 】

"Just... that person just now, that person who walked over just now, was I dazzled? I must be dazzled."

[If Leader one you are referring to...]

"Don't, don't say it." Miss Blood Demon suddenly covered her pointed ears. "Don't say that name, I always think something bad will happen."

[But haven’t you always regretted that you were unable to go to the front line to participate in the operation? Based on your words, my database analyzed that you should not have general resistance to the person you cannot name. 】

"I know, of course I know, but... well, I'm still afraid. You won't understand. PRTS, just by looking at me, I feel like I'm going to be killed."

[I don’t understand. Can I record your answer into the database? 】

"No, no, I don't want this embarrassing thing to be recorded."

[Received, deleting log records. 】

"Ah, you really recorded it. You didn't have a backup, right? You definitely didn't have a backup, right?"

【do not worry. 】

Chen Mo withdrew his gaze.

What was surprising was that I saw Theresa appearing in Shuangxing's room in the cabin dormitory on Rhodes Island. It was rare to see the embarrassed look in Shuangxing's eyes as if she was asking for help.

If he hadn't been forced into a desperate situation and was helpless, a stubborn warrior like Shuangxing would never have shown his weak side.

If I had to find a reason, it would probably be that the opponent was too powerful, a big demon king that could not be dealt with by a small warrior like Frost Star, so much so that even the famous "Winter Death" lady would fall into the dust.

From Chen Mo's understanding of Theresia, she seemed to be enjoying it. The smile on her face could not be concealed because she was deliberately teasing the serious but hesitant Shuangxing. Unfortunately, that look was extremely deceptive. With her appearance and gentle temperament, Frost Star never thought that Theresia would have such sinister intentions.

When leaving, Chen Mo could see Shuangxing let out a rare sigh of relief, and even her tense shoulders relaxed. It seemed that Theresia had finally decided to leave, which finally relieved her nervousness.

Chen Mo followed Theresia, just like when he was a guard, he would keep half a body distance from Theresia.

The princess of Kazdaele walked in front, her white hair hanging around her waist gently swaying as she walked. The soles of her boots hit the hard steel deck, and the sound echoed in her ears as it collided with the smooth walls of the corridor.

Above the head is a bright but not dazzling light.

Theresia didn't look back, so Chen Mo couldn't see her expression.

She didn't speak or stop, so Chen Mo could only follow behind her quietly.

It seems that this is fine.

Walking from one end to another, it’s just that Rhode Island’s in-ship passage is too short after all. If you start from the starting point, you will know where to stop.

"I suddenly thought, it would be great if the decks in Rhode Island could be longer."

She stopped and said, but did not look back.

No.70-[=

People are really weird sometimes.

If you like someone in your heart but know that the feeling cannot be realized, you will accept it calmly. However, once the feeling can be realized, the person will feel guilty towards the person he loves and will keep telling himself that he cannot Do that.

Because most of the feelings are selfish, because it is difficult for people to control their liking for certain people.

Because in addition to reason and calmness, people also have an emotional side.

This kind of worrying about gains and losses is generally called being a bitch, and we call people who have this kind of behavior a bitch.

Chen Mo is a bitch without exception, and a hopeless one.

He had to admit that he did have some special feelings for Theresia, including but not limited to the feelings between men and women, but other than that, it was more of a kind of admiration than a liking.

I yearn for something in her that makes me feel warm, and I yearn for some fantasy and extravagant hope in her that I may have had a long time ago but lost somewhere while crawling around on this land.

Theresa is like the lighthouse at the end of the dark sea with rough waves and strong winds, guiding the returning ships. Perhaps Chen Mo has been lost in the dark sea called Terra for so long that Tracy Ya's appearance seemed to rescue him from his difficulties and confusion.

Just like a ship on a long voyage will have special feelings for a lighthouse, Chen Mo also has the same feelings for Theresia, but the difference is that Chen Mo knows that for the lighthouse, it will not be the only and most special one. That ship.

For Theresia, what she did was just the most normal behavior in her heart.

But Chen Mo was still very grateful to her.

He couldn't help but thank Theresia. Just imagine, if he hadn't met His Highness Sakaz in Kazdare by chance, where would Chen Mo be today?

Just imagine if he hadn't met Theresa, would he still have gone to Londinium? If not, everything that happened later would have changed dramatically.

Maybe he will still go back to Longmen, maybe he will still draw a clear line with Wei Yanwu, maybe he will still go to Ursus.

Maybe...but it's just maybe after all.

Therefore, Chen Mo had no complaints in her heart about what happened in Kazdale. She neither complained about the way the Sarkaz treated her, nor did she complain about being driven out of Kazdale with such an undignified ending.

Because Chen Mo knew that he loved this Sakaz.

It is different from the love between men and women, and it is also different from the love between relatives. He loves Theresia, just like all Sakaz's respect for Theresia, and like the love between brothers, it is also different. Exclude pure feelings for Theresia.

Complex and not unique.

Never the only one.

There are also many loves beyond love in this world, such as parents, brothers, compatriots, and comrades-in-arms.

Life in this world is too precious, and there are too many things in this world that exceed the weight of life.

Things in the world are unpredictable, wandering and changing, and it is difficult to tell whether it is fate or the cycle of cause and effect.

Theresa stopped at this moment.

"I suddenly thought, it would be great if the decks in Rhode Island could be longer."

she said so.

However, Chen Mo could only see her back, half a body away from him, and there was a slight sigh of helplessness in his words.

Late at night, outside the end of the passageway of the docked Rhode Island is the outer deck of the ship.

Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows is a silent night, and people's figures are reflected on the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking distant and cold.

"Your Highness..." Chen Mo shouted.

"I heard about it." Theresa turned around, raised her head slightly and looked at Chen Mo and said, "Listen to what Hedley said, Chen Mo, after leaving Victoria, you would rather take a detour through Leta at the risk of being chased. The Nian border is also unwilling to enter Kazdaele.”

Her words were very plain, but they contained an irresistible sense of doubt and surprise.

Chen Mo recalled his experience when he was expelled from Kazdale. He was ordered not to enter the land of Kazdale, and it was Theresa who signed this order.

But an order is just an order after all, and whether it is binding depends on the person, not a blank piece of paper.

"I never thought I would come back."

"But I was originally prepared to hold an investiture ceremony for you and the soldiers in the Parliament Building. In front of all the Kazdare nobles and ministers, I have been thinking about it and can't help but think about what it would be like if you could wear that suit. The dress came to me, and I had almost forgotten the canonization process. I think it must be difficult for you to endure those red tapes, but I know you never complain."

Theresa couldn't help but think of that scene.

Thinking of the cheering Sarkazis behind the Hearth, and thinking of Chen Mo carrying her towards the shadows.

She thought that after the war was over, she would personally wear the medal that belonged to Chen Mo. It should be a bright day, with a rare bright sky in Kazdaele. After the smoke from the battlefield dissipated, there were still many things waiting for them. These people are slowly completing it, and there is still an entire Kazdaele career that they can continue to work on together.

But Theresia also knew that it was just a fantasy.

She actually knew very well, she knew that Chen Mo would not stay, and she also knew that for Chen Mo, Kazdale was not her destination, but everyone would inevitably have some luck, even if that person was Theresia.

"Your Highness..."

"I want to tell everyone that you are not a bad person. I hope they can all understand the considerations behind what you do. I know you are not worried about being misunderstood. I also know that Chen Mo, you have done it a long time ago. Go through these preparations.”

Theresia interrupted Chen Mo's words, she just stared into Chen Mo's eyes.

"Maybe I should have acted earlier, but I have been hesitating. Although I already know your thoughts, I have never done anything for you. If I say these words now, even I will feel despicable and hypocritical, but if I don't I can tell you personally, but I can’t calm down in my heart.”

As she spoke, she exhaled softly, as if she finally made up her mind to speak the words hidden in her heart and relaxed.

Chen Mo couldn't be as relaxed as Theresia.

He listened quietly to Theresa's words.

His Highness is a person who hates conspiracy and conspiracy, and this has never changed from the beginning to the end, but war, war is always indispensable for intrigues, darkness and deceit.

War has never been filled with the glory of flowers and steel as described in the bard's poems. The battlefield has always been littered with corpses. It is unclear whether they are comrades or enemies. The blood blurs the vision. Looking up, it is messy and chaotic.

There is no integrity in war, and people who enter the battlefield never consider too beautiful things other than killing. That is something that is only considered after the war. On the battlefield, there is only one thing that everyone needs to consider, that Just survive.

"It's fine now, Your Highness."