Longmen Memoirs

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"I know, I can see it, but why do you want to deceive them? Why do you want to give them hope!"

"What are you talking about? Who knows what will happen to the infected? What can we do?"

"Excuse!"

She scolded loudly and slowly swept the eyes of the pairs of eyes looking at her across the way.

"You see them starving like that, you see them laying down their weapons and being defenseless."

"You just do it because it's... convenient."

Tallulah failed to notice that her thoughts were becoming more and more confusing, as if there was a voice in her mind urging her and guiding her.

She finally drew her sword, as if she finally accepted those facts.

"You have been doing this from the beginning... no, even if the people who come here are not infected but ordinary people, you will do the same thing."

I thought there was a reason for all the wrong things they did. I thought I could guide them. I thought they did what they did because they didn't mean it.

What I thought was just what I thought.

The flames and spells ignited the entire warehouse behind them. The burning warehouse was like a huge flaming tombstone, but the sky was so dark, and the pitiful flames in the darkness could not illuminate the chaotic world in front of them.

She walked towards the villagers on the opposite side step by step.

They began to back away, panicking, trying to escape.

"What do you want to do, infected person? Things have happened. I'm sorry, Mr. infected person, but we can also treat it as if you have never been here, just like those people before... you just need to leave."

"What stupid things are you talking about?" She asked coldly: "I am... an infected person, the infected person you hate, what reason do you have to let me go."

"You want to kill me, and now I'm in front of you."

"You think they are weak, then I am just like them. We are all stupid and weak people who place our hopes on others but don't know how to resist."

[You will see that the land you have invested everything in does not want you...]

Tallulah raised her sword.

"I hate you vile people."

"As long as you are still living on this land, this land will never have peace."

"The infected pickets have not been to your village for three years. The employers who owned these settlements were killed in the great rebellion. The situation is in chaos. Your village has been unmanaged for many years."

"I never dared to count on your help or that you would look at us in the eyes, and I never thought you were hateful. I always regarded you as pitiable people like us."

Her hands were trembling and her will was contradictory. She tried her best to hold the sword in her hand tightly, and the flames behind her could no longer be extinguished.

"But...but, under such circumstances, you...naturally killed people who had nothing to do with you."

"As long as you have a little kindness in your heart, you can still let them go. They have no conflict with you, but the whole village listens to their wailing indifferently. Until they die, you can sleep peacefully in the sound of their wailing. When you wake up, Discard them like trash.”

"If only there was a little bit of goodwill, you wouldn't be so vicious."

She swung her sword, and the flames burned away everything in front of her. She no longer had to see the faces that made her conflicted and hateful, nor could she see the prayers on their faces, nor their fear, nor their fear. to their suffering.

She killed many people.

She couldn't even remember what they looked like, but they all said the same thing...hate.

She closed her eyes.

Until the flames scorched her cuffs, until the flames intensified, until she could no longer be so innocent.

"I hate you."

[You will see everything you think and do come to nothing, you will see them spurn everything you respect, life, dignity and ideas are meaningless. 】

[You will do evil, you will become a wicked person. 】

[Once you identify with me, once you understand me, once you understand what kind of land you are on...]

[The future of Ursus will be in your hands from now on. 】

The sword fell on the scorched ground, and when he came back to his senses, he saw the ruins of the wall that had turned to ashes.

"What have I done."

Tallulah stood in the drizzle and raised her head to look at the dim sky at dawn. Lines of raindrops pattered on her young face.

She sighed softly.

...a liar.

"We can't go back anymore."

southwestern usas

夜

Chen Mo's sudden awakening sound attracted Shuangxing's attention.

"what happened?"

Carters, who was sitting in front of the campfire, looked at him with concern.

"Nothing, I just had a nightmare." He answered as he untied his sleeping bag.

"Oh."

Chen Mo looked at his watch.

"It's time for me to keep vigil. Go to sleep."

"time is not up yet."

"It doesn't matter, I'm already awake anyway."

Froststar made no move.

Chen Mo didn't rush him. After he sat next to Shuangxing and added some branches to the bonfire, Shuangxing suddenly spoke while looking at the fire.

"What did you dream about?"

"..."

later.

Usually when people do things they think are important, they ignore what is really important to them, so that after they understand it, most of them can no longer undo it.

Chapter 75 Maybe one day people will recall...

Chen Mo is experiencing a story that has not yet ended, a gloomy future that may still exist, but this future may not belong to him.

Perhaps one day when people recall this story, his name will appear in the corner of a few words, and it should not be so conspicuous. Just as his existence has never had anything to do with the great cause that people longed for. .

But that's enough.

At least for Chen Mo, it was enough. He no longer expected all stories to end with an ending that satisfied everyone. At least he had done everything he could.

June 1093, 5, Crystalline Era

At this point, the story of Tallulah, the Snowfield Fighter, has come to an end, and the story of Tallulah, the leader of the integration movement, has just begun.

What happened in that remote village was unknown to anyone except Tallulah.

Something seemed to have changed in her, and this change was particularly familiar to Alina, because since then, the communication between her and Tallulah had become increasingly sparse.

From then on, Tallulah never confided her worries and troubles to him. It seemed that the incident in the camp had changed her, and it seemed that she had grown a lot in an instant.

-}【 ,

Alina didn't know whether she should be happy for the current Tallulah or worried about this. She was a little disappointed, lost because the distance between herself and Tallulah seemed to be gradually getting farther and farther in some helpless way.

Of course Alina tried to do something.

What is surprising is that when she mustered up the courage to find Tallulah, the communication between her and Tallulah could never be the same as before, because Tallulah no longer wanted to mention the past. .

She said that everyone should move forward. What has happened cannot be changed, but there are still many things waiting for them in the future, and the future and destiny of the infected are still waiting for them.

If it were in the past, Tallulah would not have said this. Although she seemed confident and optimistic, only Alina knew that Tallulah always had many worries in private, but she would not be like her now.

That kind of confidence, as if she had seen the way forward, made Alina not sure whether it was good or bad.

The long journey is finally coming to the starting point, and the starting point is also the end point.

When they returned to northern Ursus, it was almost the end of spring. Although the snow had not yet melted, the cries of winter feathers in the forest could be heard everywhere. They liked the severe cold in northern Ursus.

Chen Mo put down the cloak on his body. The snow and cold wind solidified his long black hair. The hardship of the journey made him and Shuang Xing much thinner than when they left. Their thin faces were outlined by the cold wind and the wilderness. The skin is dry and cracked, and although there is deep fatigue hidden deep in the eyes, they still reveal visible expectations and longing when they see the familiar village.

The fields and greenhouses that were once opened to grow potatoes at the entrance of the settlement village have been harvested, and there are some more buildings and houses, which were probably built during the period of departure. A low wooden wall was built around the camp. There are a few more guard towers on the wall, which shows the arrangement of the troops involved in the incident, but they look a bit too shabby.

He and Froststar looked at each other.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought we had a tacit understanding of knowing what the other person was thinking without even speaking."

Chen Mo was slightly disappointed.

"How do I know what you're thinking if you don't talk?"

Shuangxing answered of course, and Chen Mo took action.

Froststar looked at him doubtfully.

"Give me a candy, I've finished mine."

"Now you actually ask me for something like this."

Shuangxing said funny, but took out a candy from his pocket and handed it to Chen Mo.

"That's the last one." She reminded.

Chen Mo tore off the candy coating and put it in his mouth.

"Huh, it's so spicy."

He asked as always. Shuangxing thought he was a weird guy. He obviously found it spicy, but he still liked to eat it.

"Go home."

He suddenly said, walking towards the entrance of the village, Shuangxing looked at his back, and then looked at the camp that was different from the memory.

She never thought she would miss this place so much.

A strange and strange guy came to the village.

Not many people had seen this dusty man with a thick beard on his chin. He walked in from the village entrance with the camel beast in hand. It was probably because the camel beast had two weapons stuck diagonally in its package, so he was stopped by the soldiers on duty. , and after seeing Frost Star behind him lift his hood to reveal the long snow-white hair and Custer's ears, he suddenly realized who was coming back.

The soldiers did not stop them.

They just entered the village. This outsider's appearance naturally attracted many curious eyes in the camp, but fortunately, Shuangxing's popularity here was far greater than that of this man who had not seen him for several months, as if he had not seen him for many years. Much higher.

"Are you going back to find the snow monsters now or are you coming with me?"

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"The soldiers just now said that they just came back from outside and have been meeting this morning to discuss the details of going south."

Shuangxing thought for a while and looked at the camel beast he was holding behind him.

"I'll go with you. Just in time, the snow monsters should be there too."

There was a little longing in her eyes.

"Miss them?"

"I'm just worried about being a bad learner."

"With whom? Tallulah, you gave the snow monsters to her before you set off."

"Ha, I hope she didn't disappoint the snow monsters."

"I don't think a snow monster would."

"Why are you so sure?" Shuangxing was a little curious and had nothing to say after hearing Chen Mo's next words.