Longmen Memoirs

"Shuangxing and the others are back. Has she gone to see you?"

"Yeah, I talked to her about going south. This time she and the snow monster are going with us."

"What did she say?"

"She didn't have any reaction. She knew about going south and would definitely go together. However, she mentioned to me that the contact person who came back with us this time seemed to be a temporary replacement made by Kazdaele. In short, Frost Star thought he was a difficult person to deal with. of Sakaz.”

"So you came here in a hurry?"

"Froststar said you know each other."

"We know each other. I think Shuangxing should have suffered a lot. After all, W has always had a bad personality and likes to provoke people. As for Shuangxing, she probably won't look good on me."

Chen Mo said a little worried.

Tallulah smiled and patted him on the shoulder.

"It's not that bad. Shuangxing is not stingy enough to make you angry over this matter, but Sakaz's side..."

"They probably have no other intentions. W is well-known in Kazdaele. Although he is a hard-to-reach person, he is actually very valued."

"so……"

"Speaking of which, are you running over here in such a hurry because..." Chen Mo stopped talking.

Tallulah looked at him, her hand still on her shoulder.

"Why?" she asked deliberately doubtfully, but a smile appeared on her lips.

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Tallulah raised her eyebrows. She seemed to have thought of something, and suddenly smiled. She walked behind Chen Mo and put her arms around his neck. Drake hugged the black-haired man from behind. The long tail behind her swayed slightly, sticking close to him. In Chen Mo's ears, it was natural that he could feel the warm touch coming from behind the breasts of the military uniform.

"Yeah, I was thinking about kicking the door open to see what you were doing inside." She said deliberately, her voice lowered: "I would be worried too, after all, Shuangxing said it was someone you knew. Women, I have never felt this way before. If I opened the door and went in to see what you were really doing, I would probably be at a loss."

Her voice was as gentle as a whisper.

In the silent passage, from the moment they met until now, Drake has never done anything as frivolous as now.

It seems as if people are almost forgetting her age.

I have forgotten that many years ago, that quirky girl would put her hand in her bag and put it against her ear during Christmas in the orphanage.

After many years, she has become stable and mature, and she still seems to be the same as before.

It makes people worry about gains and losses.

Chen Mo was just stunned for a moment. He reached out and grabbed Talulah's arm around his neck.

"Isn't it good for you to be seen like this?" he reminded deliberately.

"It doesn't matter. In fact, the soldiers have known it for a long time. I am very clear about what they spread."

Maybe because they were about to be separated again, Tallulah didn't think about it so much anymore. She suddenly realized that she was actually very reluctant to let go, or maybe it was just that for her, she had already recognized this.

Chen Mo felt weak for a moment, and he shouted: "Tallulah..."

"Ok?"

"It's nothing. If the soldiers see it, I won't explain it to you."

Tallulah didn't answer. After a while, she suddenly said, "I'm a little tired."

Chen Mo didn't speak.

He carried the silver-haired Drake through the black-walled corridor, and their figures seemed to gradually overlap under the light. He had never dared to imagine these scenes in this hell.

ps: As you know, I never dare to knife anyone.

Chapter 125 Don’t look back

Chen Mo remembered a prophecy, which was a scene he saw on the mural of an ancient ruins in Kazder.

The world is a huge sphere, floating in the vast sea of ​​stars. Angels descended from the sky on an ark called hometown. The first humans established civilization on this land. Later, floods surged and unknown monsters swept across from the north. Then, the sky was obscured by clouds containing Origin Stone particles, and civilization began to break down, but the stories of the past were still left submerged under the rolling yellow sand and dust, waiting for future generations to see the light of day again.

If others don't believe this bizarre story, even if it is recorded on the murals of ancient ruins after an unknown number of years, people have never seen the stars or overlooked the earth. They do not understand the face of the earth behind it. He doesn't understand the vast dark universe and what the dome he lives in looks like.

But Chen Mo could imagine it, and it was just imagination.

Afterwards, he stopped paying attention to these things. Whether it came from the stars or the changes in civilization, he couldn't worry about it that far away. He only occasionally heard Kelsey mention it, maybe she would know more.

Ever since natural disasters appeared and spread across this land, many things have gradually become commonplace as time goes by without even realizing it.

Tallulah was very quiet, her breath sounded in her ears, carrying a trace of heat, as she walked in the silent passage leading to the depths of the black wall.

"Shuangxing mentioned something today that made me a little concerned?"

She suddenly spoke, and the arm around Chen Mo's neck tightened slightly.

"What did she say?" Chen Mo asked curiously.

"Kazdare is the Kazdare of Sakaz, and Ursus is the Ursus of the Ursas. The infected person can be a Kazdare or an Ursus, but the Ursus may not be It’s an infected person.”

She said this and sighed softly.

"It seems like she gained a lot from going to Kazdale this time."

"I remember you said something similar." Tallulah lowered her head slightly and leaned on Chen Mo's shoulder, which made her feel more at ease: "Actually, I think she is right, Ursus is indeed from Ursus. of Ursus, but this land is to all [$

"That's right." Chen Mo did not refute.

"But the current situation is that between Ursus and the infected people in Ursus, we have not been able to accurately find our position. Even if we can change this Ursus, the people of Ursus do not agree. If you don’t agree, things that are wrong should be corrected.”

"The war of ideas is also a war, Tallulah." Chen Mo said softly: "Even infected people are not ostracized and hostile by people at the beginning. People get used to doing this later, and this is how they should think in their cognition. So it evolved into what it is now.”

"Yes."

"Are you not so confident anymore?"

"I can't tell..." She murmured: "I just want to unite the infected people in Ursus, unite the infected people, and fight for our rights, but now it seems that there are still many things that I Unexpected."

"You said you didn't think that far ahead at the time." Chen Mo said.

Tallulah fell silent.

After several seconds.

"Do you want to hear my thoughts, Xiaota."

"I am listening……"

"In fact, in my opinion, the infected people of Ursus are inseparable from Ursus. The infected people just have a disease, a disease that is difficult to cure, but this does not mean that they have become other species. .”

"A city, a country, or even a piece of land. I don't think what the infected need is these. What the infected need is neither a country that belongs to them, nor a city that belongs to them, or even any name that is assigned to them." soil of."

"What should I say?" Tallulah raised her gaze slightly, looking sideways at Chen Mo's profile.

“Because before we think about these things, first of all, we overlook one thing, and that is that before we think about these things, we subconsciously put ourselves in a different position from ordinary people, not from an ordinary person who is sick. "

"Conflicts and problems between infected people and ordinary people are never problems and contradictions derived from countries, nations, or even races in different regions."

"Like Froststar said, Ursus is Ursus of Ursus, but the infected can also be Ursus, they can be, they can be Victoria, Letanian, Colombian, The key to limiting the identity of the infected is just the Source Stone disease in their body, and apart from the Source Stone disease, they are no different from ordinary people."

"If we distinguish infected people from ordinary people, or even treat infected people as another kind of living thing different from ordinary people, establish a country, and build cities belonging to infected people, these contradictions and problems will only intensify. Let the ideologies between infected people and ordinary people be always in opposition, and even become two opposing species, constantly expanding and intensifying the conflicts and problems between ordinary people and infected people, and Ursus needs this to cover up and suppress their own various other contradictions and dissatisfactions.”

"I have been thinking about this problem. To solve the problem of infected people, we must first figure out where the infected people come from? What are infected people? And what causes the current problems of infected people?"

Chen Mo's voice calmed down.

"If you just live with these infected people with Ursus, there are actually many ways. You can even survive by leaving Ursus and going to Kazdaele. But we all know that as long as the Source Stone is still there, the natural disaster will still be there. If the city still needs to move, the infected people will never disappear, and the problem of the infected people will never be solved."

"Even if we save the infected people in Ursus, there are still many infected people in other places whose lives have not changed. A city and a country cannot save so many people, nor can they solve the problem of new cases every year and every day. The fact that infected people are born.”

"So, Xiaota."

"Before thinking about this problem, you need to know what you really need to do as an infected person? The direction, purpose, and how to implement the ideal you ultimately want to achieve."

"Usas is a big place, and the infected are just a part of the people in Ursus. However, the attitude and thoughts of the people of Ursus, or the people on the ground, towards the infected are often within the concept of the country's spread, except for the infected. In addition to the conflicts between ordinary people, there are also many class conflicts in Ursus itself. The country's corruption and degeneration are not just Ursus' own problems."

"So the infected cannot break away from the Ursans. What the infected should do is to integrate into the Ursas and ordinary people. But how to integrate? The infected need to unite and condense into a force. Strength is the foundation. With strength, Only those who can seize opportunities, or even create opportunities, the infected people of Ursus are a powerful force in themselves. They come from all walks of life in Ursus, and they themselves represent part of the extension of Ursus' will."

"Infected people can be Ursans. Ursans are not only infected. This statement is actually one-sided. On the other hand, Ursas can also be infected. Anyone in Ursus can become an infected person. , the empire taught them to regard the infected as potential enemies, but in fact, what the Ursus people understood was that any of them could become consumables for the empire and become one of the endless stream of infected people under the Source Stone Industry. People just Holding on to a kind of luck, and the luck caused them to show hostility to their own sense of security."

"This is the most direct method of Ursus Empire propaganda, but it is also the most deadly method. If people realize that they will also become one of the infected, if people realize that the development of industry makes it possible for everyone to Become a victim, what people should consider at this time is not how to be hostile to the infected, but whether they are willing to be treated in the same way once they become infected."

"Leaving aside the future, we can try to see if we can change the situation of infected people and integrate infected people into ordinary people. This is difficult, but not impossible. Try to integrate infected people into ordinary people in Ursus. After all kinds of conflicts broke out, we looked for allies of the infected, and redirected the problems between the infected and ordinary people into conflicts between ordinary people who were originally oppressed by the empire and the imperial power class."

"If the infected people gather together and can grasp this part of the power that is the will of Ursus, then the infected people themselves will have more choices and initiative in the contradictory Ursus. Those nobles, dukes, Compared with the exchange of rights and conflicts of interest between the legion and the Holy Castle, the problem of infected people is actually not that difficult to solve."

"To change Ursus, or to change the infected people in Ursus, and to change the attitude of this land towards the infected, what we need to do is not to separate the infected people from the crowd, but what we need to do is to change Ursus itself. It may take many years to understand the various concepts of the Sri Lankan authorities’ policies on infected people and the people’s deep-rooted thoughts. However, after the reorganization of Ursus’ rights, people’s ideas may only be the point after the conflict in Ursus breaks out. If the infection Those who can seize power in this conflict may not be unable to achieve their demands."

Tallulah didn't answer, and Chen Mo stopped talking.

After a long moment he heard Tallulah's voice.

"Have you thought about it for a long time?"

"I don't know if it's possible."

"This may be more difficult than we imagine. It is not easy just to unite the infected people in Ursus, let alone integrate the infected people into ordinary people."

"So this is far more unrealistic than letting the infected people build a city and a country by themselves." Chen Mo spoke calmly: "And even if we are lucky enough to allow the infected people recognized by Ursus to be part of the nation, But in the future, the existence of Originium Disease will cause all kinds of problems and conflicts, large and small."

Tallulah fell silent and sighed softly.

Half of his face was buried in Chen Mo's shoulder, and his short silver hair fell down.

Yes, in fact, they all know that whether it is a country, a city, or the idea of ​​letting infected people integrate into the people as mentioned by Chen Mo, the existence of Originium Disease will inevitably cause various problems and conflicts.

Maybe they are too ambitious. These things are still too far away from them now, and it is not their turn to consider them now.

But someone has to do it.

Either way, nothing will ever change by staying where you are.

They did not discuss these issues any more.

Just walking quietly in the black-walled passage, knowing that sooner or later this road will end and will eventually stop, Tallulah gently tightened her arms.

In the moment of tranquility, she didn't want to think about anything. Maybe they would still have to worry about the plan to contact the infected, consider everything in the camp, and make a detailed plan to go south.

But now she doesn't have to think about anything anymore, she just leans quietly behind Chen Mo, feeling the warmth coming from his body. She can't remember that when she was a child, she and Hui Jie always climbed over the walls of the orphanage and walked through the streets of Longmen. , often when I get tired from playing, I will lie on his back like now.

At that time, he was not as tall as he is now, and his back was not as wide as now. At that time, Wuyou was only thinking about whether Hui Jie would come tomorrow and what he would do after he came.

Tallulah missed the past.

Chen Mo also missed the past a little. He recalled the preparations he made when he returned to Longmen for the first time. He recalled the disappointment and joy in his heart at that time. He remembered leaving the ruins of Longmen Lower City in the night rain and hiding in the ruins of the collapsed building. Downstairs, it was raining heavily. I finally lit the cigarette in my hand but saw that hateful bitch again.

I think of the summer when I rushed from Kazdaele to Londinium, the simple warehouse on the outskirts of the city, the bright sunshine at noon, the occasional blond wildcat who went out, and would usually come back before nightfall in the afternoon, humming a light tune, after walking into the warehouse It is necessary to stretch out your fingers to tease the mixed-haired dog that you are raising to make money.

Time has passed in a blink of an eye, and it has been almost four years now.

It was only in Londinium that I understood the meaning of Drac and Aslan. Later, I remembered the story Wei Yanwu told me, and suddenly I understood that there were many things that could not be avoided even if we had to start over.

Maybe you are born like this, maybe it's not destiny, but you just can't pretend to turn a blind eye and feel at ease.

I have experienced so many ups and downs and stories, and I no longer have the confusion and hesitation I felt when I first arrived. In fact, speaking of it, when I was young... what did Chen mean to Xiaota as a child, to a mature person? As far as souls are concerned, what does the little girl represent?

Despicable, shameless, cunning, and always telling lies, so in the end it was natural that he didn't mean what he said. In the end, it was not a kind of retribution.

Chen Mo felt surprisingly calm.

He just thought that he had already done so many wrong things and made them again and again and it was irreversible, so in the end, it didn't matter even if he continued to make mistakes like this or made another extremely stupid mistake.

So, Xiaota, you should live well in the future and become whoever you want to be. Don't be afraid of failure and don't look back.

Chapter 126

Just as justice never self-justifies, sin never goes away without cause.

W calmed down, not because of the threatening warning from Chen Mo. Well, maybe that was part of the reason, but mostly because W discovered that he had unintentionally snooped into a certain secret.

A secret that made her unbelievable but also found it a bit ridiculous when she thought about it.

Girl Sakaz was lying on the bed, staring blankly at the gray ceiling and bright light tubes above her head. The conditions here were not very good. The old Sakaz engineer couldn't wait to take away the batch of people who had traveled thousands of miles from Kaz. The technical staff of Sakaz came from Dell, and the remaining warriors were temporarily settled.

W's mind was in a mess. In fact, she was originally a very calculating person. The Sakaz mercenaries who had survived the Kazdaele Civil War were more or less smart. Of course, there were a few who were lucky. Guy, but good luck doesn't always last.

"It sucks."

She turned over, murmured in her mouth, and began to feel a rare regret for running to Ursus, but this regret was quickly forgotten by her.