Longmen Memoirs

Jiu turned around and looked at Chen who was standing up awkwardly, leaning on the wall.

"I'm really sorry, Chen. I couldn't protect you. Although I blocked most of them, some fragments still flew out. I think I saw several fragments piercing you. Go and deal with it quickly. Maybe it’s still too late.”

Chen looked at Jiu's back in disbelief.

"You...could it be..." She pursed her lips and did not say any more. She could only see the stretched arms in her sight, blood dripping down her fingers and falling to the ground.

"how about you?"

"There is no way to understand your physical condition faster than my spell. I can't squeeze out those fragments." Jiu sighed: "...I also have the self-esteem of being a member of the Guards Bureau. Remember my back. That's enough, say hello to everyone in the Guards Bureau for me, and Wei, please."

"Wait...where are you going!"

Chen stretched out her hand, but the pain from the wound prevented her from catching up with Jiu.

"The injury I suffered will definitely make me infected. Wherever the infected go, I will go."

"The inspection team cannot do without you, Jiu, you are the leader of the inspection team." Chen looked at her back and said: "Even if you become an infected person, there is no need for you to leave. You have done a good job for Longmen and the Guards Bureau." So much, everyone can see it.”

"No, Chen."

"Everyone can see how scary the infected are. Even this Source Stone bomb, I think... I guess, well, I don't know whose creation it is." She replied in a low voice: "Stop dreaming. Chen, I have to tell you that the boundary between infected people and ordinary people is not decided by you or me, but by them."

"I have told you many times not to interfere in the affairs of infected people in the ghetto. I warned you, and now we are all suffering."

"...But we are ready to move into the slums, aren't we?" Chen asked: "Aren't we going to introduce a new living bill for infected people? Isn't this better than yesterday?"

"We are ready to treat infected people equally. We treat everyone in Longmen well, not because of whether they are infected or not, but because of whether they are from Longmen!"

From a perspective that Chen couldn't see, Jiu's lips showed a sneer. She raised her head and looked at the narrow and gloomy sky in an alley in the middle of the slum.

This is Longmen, a city that she loves but also makes her helpless.

But Longmen doesn't love anyone.

"Are we ready? Are Gantry ready?" She looked away and said, "Are the public ready? Will the Business Federation vote? Now that I tell the National Guard that I am an infected person, guess what will happen?"

"You can finish this matter and then declare your identity..."

"What's the difference between relying on power to conceal one's identity to deal with one's illness, and using power for personal gain? I would rather be exiled than do that."

"Wei Yanwu single-handedly established the Guard Bureau, which we run to this day. Since it represents the law, it cannot be unfair at all." Jiu turned around and looked at Chen.

"Also, Chen, do you think that people with better lives can better deal with Originium Disease? People who live in slums and mines will die if they are infected? No, when people are infected with Originium Disease, this land will There is only one way to treat any infected person, and all infected people will die, and as long as the way to deal with their death is the same, there will be no difference between them, no matter who they are."

Jiu Qing breathed out.

"I don't pray for forgiveness. The number of infected and criminals I've dealt with has reached three digits. I became an infected not as retribution, but because this land is like this, and its ways of dealing with us are all strange. It seems that this can improve us." His performance is similar."

"No, what you said is wrong?"

Chen shook his head and retorted, looking at the boss in front of him who suddenly became a little strange: "Don't you have full confidence in Longmen?"

"So the rudeness I have shown so far is, in your opinion, a sign of confidence?" Jiu asked, she shook her head slightly.

"I really love this city, Chen. It accepted me when I had nowhere to go, but I know in my heart that no place in this land will truly accept an infected person."

"I love Gantry, but love doesn't mean I have confidence. I'm just too familiar with it, so familiar that... I know what it will look like at what time, and familiar enough to know what is useful and what is not at all. Well worth the time.”

"I don't sit in my office and talk to you, but I go out into the streets with you."

"The only reason why I come here is because Longmen needs me. But when Longmen no longer needs me, there is only one reason why Wei Yanwu is willing to accept infected people, Chen. That is, in Wei's opinion, the problems caused by infected people have not yet These are the big problems that Longmen has encountered before and may encounter in the future.”

"But once these problems are solved and cut off at their foundation, who will bear the brunt? Even if Wei Yanwu doesn't want to, what about this city? What about the businessmen and people, the public and the police?"

"Even if this is the case, even if the problems you mentioned will happen, it won't be that time yet, Jiu."

Chen stood up, her bloody hands holding up Chi Xiao's scabbard.

"If something has not happened yet and has no ending, we will be impatient to deny it. If we don't even have the courage to face it, then it will never change!"

"We can't avoid any problems, and we can't make all preparations, but that's why we need to exist and what the Guards Bureau needs to do. I definitely don't agree with you."

"I never agree that if something is meaningless, it is not worth anyone's time. I never agree that treating infected people is not worth Longmen's time."

Her words were too hasty and irritated the wound. Chen took a deep breath, looked at Jiu's back in front of him, and saw the brief surprise on Jiu's face.

"Longmen can also accept infected people! Longmen not only belongs to them, but also to us! Can't even the infected people do their best for the city? If there are no infected people, how can the city move? This city does not distinguish between infected people Did you protect everyone?"

Jiu's surprised expression slowly dissipated, she looked at Chen's eyes staring at her, and sighed softly after a moment.

"Are you still as naive? Even after entering the Guards Bureau, you are still the same as when I first saw you. I was thinking at that time, where did this stupid young man come from and was sent to my subordinates, but I have to admit, naivety aside, you’re great, Chen, you’re really great.”

"Because we are the same, Jiu, we are all infected, and we will all be treated equally. This is what you told me. I always remember it clearly. You said these words yourself."

"Then I'll revise my rhetoric." Jiu's words gradually became cold and even sarcastic. She looked at her young subordinate a few meters away: "Wei Yanwu treats you as a treasure. You don't live the same life as the others in Longmen."

"you……!"

"I don't deny your dedication and hard work, Chen. You are the best member of the Guards Bureau I have ever seen, but I must remind you that you are different from them. You and your daughter Xiaomo, you and the rest of Longmen People are different.”

Jiu looked at Chen calmly and said: "This Dragon Gate treats different people in different ways. Even if they are infected with Originium Disease, they will be treated differently. How long do you plan to have this sweet dream? Chen, how long do you plan to do it?" That dream about Longmen in your dream?"

Chen was startled.

"...No." She gritted her teeth: "I don't work in Longmen because of this important status. I am a member of the Guards Bureau, and I am a member of Longmen."

"We gave it our sweat and blood, and its inhabitants may be harsh, but it will accept it in the end."

"It will, it is always making progress, Jiu, even if we are all infected, we still belong to Longmen! Longmen is a city for everyone, and Longmen should be like this. If not, then let it be."

"Have we not seen enough? Are there still few infected people who are kind and compassionate?"

Jiu fell silent, and after a moment of silence she spoke.

"Then prove it to me, Chen Huijie, if you want to prove that we belong to this city, and you want to prove that Longmen can accept everyone regardless of status, then go ahead and do it."

"I will, I will."

"...You'd better move quickly, don't let me die waiting."

"I will."

"Tell Wei about these situations. Wei will handle it. Keep in touch and call me if you need anything." Jiu walked toward the depths of the alley, and she stopped again.

"By the way, tell Xing Xiong... let her stare at you and don't do stupid things. You can forget this sentence, and you will definitely forget it, but you have to tell her first, and then forget it."

"Nine……"

Chen just watched as his former boss gradually walked away and disappeared into the dark depths of Longmen's alley.

stupid thing?

What is a fool?

Knowing that there is no meaning but still doing it, knowing that there is no benefit but still unwilling to give up, knowing that it is wrong but still refusing to look back.

This kind of thing is called stupidity.

But people will always do stupid things. In this life, people will never be able to live clearly, because emotions are the heaviest shackles in the world, and they are without exception [~/

Chapter 1 Thousands of miles away, the territory is blocked by heavy snow

[Law, primitive law, behind homomorphic revenge is the same primitive need, the need for violence. 】

[The city-state promised its residents to appease them with a generous life and a stable environment, let their lives serve a man-made goal, train their natural will to conquer, teach them peace of mind, and make them weak. 】

[Our Majesty is wise. 】

[Many city-states regard strength as a sin, lack of courage as a virtue, and fear of death as progress. Your Majesty will tear off their fig leaves and let them think and reflect. 】

[In our human blood, there has always been a desire flowing, a desire to vent our own life force through behavior. 】

[Fairness is not innate, it relies on wisdom and willpower to create it. Your Majesty will give them back everything they need, everything that was taken away by the city. 】

[New goals will be announced. Your Majesty will use the war to reorganize their minds that have been polished by daily life and boredom, and awaken the bloody nature in their bodies that has been bound by rigid ethics for a long time. 】

[Violence runs through our bodies. If we don't let it sprout naturally in our bodies and minds, we will become resentful, small and numb, and will also lead to self-destruction. 】

[Constant fear is despicable! 】

[If a person wants to live, he should be immersed in violence, recognize the hypocrisy of many morals, and know the barrenness of this land. Only violence is real and can be felt. 】

[Not punishment, not domination, not the measurement of value and the pretense of tenderness, we use fists and weapons to tell them that we are alive and should be alive. Only the living should live! 】

[I do not blame His Majesty the Emperor for the punishment he imposed on me. I was ignorant of the current situation and insulted the kind words he spoke to the people, because he was unwilling to let his people suffer the pain of drastic changes easily. 】

[Even so, I must not stop speaking frankly about the truth. I must continue to praise His Majesty’s insights. I can only call for my honesty, and I cannot be silent. 】

[In fact, we do not want so-called justice, nor do we hope for peace. 】

[Short-sighted people who are pursuing their own interests will indulge in tranquility. 】

"What we want is to use the violence that surges in our veins, the nature that has inspired us since the dawn of civilization, the source of our struggles and triumphs, and we want to use violence. 】

[All embellishments just justify our needs, but that doesn't matter. 】

[When we need it, we should ask directly and leave embellishment to historians and moral guardians. They need legitimacy, and our existence is more legitimate than any theory. 】

[We want to hurt people, defeat people, and destroy people. If this is a disaster for Ursus, then we should bring disaster to others, to people outside of Ursus. 】

[If they do not build by force, they should be destroyed. Some are better suited to survive and achieve than others. 】

[Weakness is evil, and strength is noble. Our laws should be based on the physical and mental needs of healthy citizens. Our country should not serve maggots, nor should it feed more sick people. 】

[May these narrow-minded, comfort-seeking subjects that I despise live in the Lake of Blood forever after the trial, and may your Majesty lead Ursus to eternal prosperity. 】

【…】

Early 1095

Winter is not completely over yet.

Under the leaden sky, the heretical monarch preacher, after being sentenced to hang by Emperor Ursus, walked to the gallows to preach his last sermon.

The square in Chernobog was crowded with people, and the noose was menacing on the high platform. The preacher welcomed his own death with a calm face. He did not regret his emperor. He only hoped that his emperor could follow the example of his late emperor and use violence as a weapon. Ursus strives for prosperity. Ursus should be strong. If not, let it be. The strong Ursus should rule over the weak and comfortable people who are not worthy of their fertile land and resources. They deserve to be destroyed and conquered.

His emperor punished him for his radical sophistry and ordered his death.

The crowd surged forward and stared coldly at the death of a heretical monarchist preacher and his devotion to the theories he believed in before he died.

The preacher's body struggled on the gallows and finally came to rest.

He died, and his monarch did not feel sorry for his death. The people of Ursus did not feel any sorrow for the death of an unrelated person who was deceiving others and calling for war. The only thing that allowed them to spontaneously gather to watch this The execution is nothing more than the curiosity and lively admiration for the death of others deep in the body. Other than that, their lives are not affected in any way.

Regardless of the preacher's radical sophistry, only death makes the crowd cheer. They don't even know why they are cheering. They don't even know what sin the deceased person was called a sinner for.

They always have been.

People are accustomed to numbness, conformity and blindness. They are unwilling to think. They blindly follow the so-called "truth" and "justice" and rebuke anyone who goes against their vision.

In the crowd, she withdrew her gaze.

In his ears, the Ursus military police were loudly declaring the criminals' crimes, and the Ursus crowd in front of them burst into cheers and discussions.

Some silver hair was exposed under the hood.

The sky was getting darker and darker, and thick dark clouds blocked the sunlight over the city. The dark clouds were accompanied by strong winds and were raging high in the sky. Probably as the first raindrops fell on the back of the hand, a drizzle soon began to fall in the sky.

The crowd slowly dissipated, and she left with them. When she looked back, the dark pupils of the corpse on the gallows were facing the high tower of the core city of Chernobog in the hazy drizzle.

Neither his emperor nor the people he spoke of felt the slightest bit sad for his piety and faith.

Because these are irrelevant.

His dignity and life are equally humble.

Because they are also inconsequential in the eyes of others.

This earth treats everyone the same way, this earth will not show any mercy to anyone, the earth does not love anyone, the earth loves everyone equally, only people's love is different, only different People are most selfish when they love different things.

She sighed softly.

Walking through the dark alleys of Xiacheng District, the soles of boots stepped on sewage. The crisscrossing steam pipes passed between the buildings overhead, like the blood vessels of the city providing nutrients and power to the entire city. The gaps between the pipes revealed the gray sky.

The factory not far away kept working all night, and occasionally I could hear the high-pressure steam from the steam pipe valves.

The sound of footsteps echoed deep in the alley along with the gradually blurring hustle and bustle of the city.

A simple private house in Qiecheng near the lower part of the industrial zone.

She pushed the door open and walked in. It was raining heavily outside, and the city was covered with a thin layer of rain and mist. Although the house was simple, the layout was warm and tidy. This was probably because the woman who lived with her had always been like this. Although she was occasionally sarcastic, her thoughts were the same. The past is detailed.

"Tallulah, are you back? I was still wondering when you would be back. It suddenly started raining outside, and you didn't bring an umbrella before you left."