Longmen Memoirs

It was the first time that Chen faced a real battlefield, and it was also the first time that he truly saw the cruelty of war with his own eyes. The roar before death, the broken limbs, the wailing, and the hideous face distorted by anger and blood were like hell.

She could never forget the cruel war in the snowfields of northern Xinjiang. The blood soaked the white snowfields into scarlet, shouting, fighting, misty smoke, as if there was no end to winter, the flames boiling and burning in the snow, and the flames in her hands. A tightly held blade.

She could not forget the villages ravaged by war along the way, the shabby huts burned on the snow, the scrawny corpses of women, children, old and young in ragged clothes, the frightened faces before death, the disgusting burnt smell, and the solidified scars.

She couldn't forget that the Xiaota she was looking for had only hatred and exhaustion in her eyes. She found that she could no longer understand Xiaota, nor could she understand the person who caused all this.

Their lives took an irreversible path due to a combination of circumstances. She stood in front of the fork and watched them go further and further away. She tried her best to call their names, and their elongated figures finally disappeared from her sight.

She had been trying to make up for it all these years, always wanted to find Xiaota, and find the future that the three of them should have had, but in the end, she suddenly realized that she had found nothing. While they were immersed in memories of the past, they had already embarked on a future they could not imagine.

She found Xiaota in the northern land of Ursus. Xiaota was no longer alone. She was followed by countless people. They believed in her, relied on her, and supported her. Chen Jian[$%

Chen was very happy to see such a small tower, to see a small tower that could stand alone in the violent snowstorm of Ursus. She had seen too much around the small tower. The more she saw, the more disappointed and regretful she felt. , because Xiaota may no longer need herself.

She doesn't need to open her hands to protect her behind her back. She can protect herself and others.

Xiaota's smile, she responded to everyone, their life is very difficult, sometimes they only have porridge, sometimes they have moss and wheat, and they don't even have a shelter from the wind and rain, but in the hardships, there is something called hope in everyone's eyes. The light, the end of which was the small tower she saw.

Strange yet familiar, a small tower that makes people look forward to it.

Xiaota can't go back, and Longmen will never be Xiaota's home again. She has found her destination, her direction, and her new "family" in Ursus.

Chen Zhen was very happy. Even though Xiaota no longer needed him, even his efforts over the years seemed ridiculous now, as if he was just wishful thinking and self-deception to make up for the guilt in his heart.

At that time, she thought of what that person said to her when she was a child.

He said: You can't protect her forever.

What does it matter in a lifetime? How can a person like you understand what a relative is?

How could he understand what family is? He was an orphan. He had already lost his family. Later, Chen always regretted the angry words he said to him that day. It was not that he did not understand what family was, but that he Yes, he knew what it was like to lose his family, so he told himself that he could not protect Xiaota for his whole life.

He was right. He could not protect Tallulah for a lifetime. He never thought that one day Tallulah might no longer need his protection. He just wanted to keep Tallulah by his side. He was afraid that maybe he was selfish too. , selfishly afraid that Tallulah would be hurt, and also afraid that she would be left alone after Tallulah left.

In fact, he is also his own relative.

"Aren't you going in?" Xing Xiong asked again.

After seeing Chen walking into the Guards Bureau with that person, Xing Xiong recognized who the person was. Shi Huaiya might not have a deep impression of him. After all, Shi Huaiya had only met him a few times, and that person At that time, he was followed by countless guards, and even Chief Wei had to go out to greet him personally.

But Xingxiong, she was just an accident. In the accident, she couldn't believe it. She couldn't believe that the miserable assassin who had stayed in her home for a while would one day become a being that people looked up to, and would one day use this kind of thing. The shocking way is back.

Xing Xiong is too familiar with his appearance, because he used to look like this when he was lying weakly on his bed. He was also like this before. Maybe his appearance has changed a little. The outline of his face is much softer than before, and it is also softer than before. When he returned to Longmen, he lacked too much dignity and indifference.

In fact, when he was promoted from the Special Task Force to the Special Inspection Group for the first time and saw the weapon on Chen's waist, Xingxiong could probably guess that Chen had some connection with him, so later on, after his relationship with Chen gradually improved, Drunk Chen always had no intention of mentioning some of her past events.

At that time, Xingxiong seemed to see the shadow of that person in Chen. They were actually quite similar, with an indescribable similarity, the same indifferent appearance, the same delicate heart, the same willfulness and the same stubbornness.

They deserved to be together, and they deserved to have Xiao Mo.

Xingxiong never mentioned her past experiences to Chen, even though she saw files about that year on Chen's desk several times, even though Chen asked her about her past, even though she helped Chen check it out.

Xingxiong knew what she should touch and what she shouldn't touch. But after a long time, she got familiar with Chen who seemed to be stern and cold but had a soft heart. She suddenly felt that Chen was actually quite pitiful, even though in the eyes of most people Here, the word "pity" shouldn't appear on Chief Chen, but Xingxiong feels that Chen always looks like she can handle everything by herself, lives a regular life like a machine, and is motivated and hard-working at work. In fact, she It's really pathetic.

Her life seems to have a trace, but in fact it is a mess. If it weren't for Xiao Mo, Xing Xiong thought, if she didn't have a daughter, sooner or later she would be exhausted. Sooner or later, she would be exhausted. Complete collapse.

"I'll do it." Xingxiong stretched out his hand to pull the doorknob. "I've wanted to beat him up for a long time."

In fact, Xingxiong has never been a rational person. It's just a need for work. She has been working hard to control her personality and try her best to be a qualified police officer.

You can't expect a famous gangster to have enough sense like the boss behind the scenes sitting in the office with his legs crossed and drinking tea.

Chen grabbed Xingxiong's hand.

"It doesn't matter?"

"I'm fine." Chen shook her head. She opened the door and walked into the interrogation room.

The door of the room was closed. Xingxiong looked at the closed door in front of her and sighed. She didn't ask any more questions, even though she knew what Chen did the day he left Longmen. The corner of Prajna has not been repaired yet. By then, it will be The girl Xiao Mo entrusted to him seemed to be prepared not to come back.

Xingxiong didn't stop her, and she knew that he couldn't stop her. From the moment she saw her warning him by drawing out the knife and cutting off the Prajna without hesitation, she knew that she was determined to leave.

She wants to find her past, she wants to make a break, Xingxiong will not watch her depressed for the rest of her life, even though she knows that maybe in the future she will be extremely regretful and painful when she thinks of this incident, and he will let her go with his own hands. , only to lose her forever.

But she still came back, walking in the streets of Longmen in a state of despair. Chixiao's sword was full of scars and gaps. She had gone through a great battle, and the shrewd and wise Superintendent of Longmen who she had seen in the past was gone. The suppressed temperament makes people feel dull and depressed.

She cried miserably, like a child who started to regret after making a mistake.

But no one can comfort her, and no one can comfort her at this time. The only person who can comfort her may never disappear, and the other may never come back.

Besides Xiao Mo, there was only Xiao Mo.

Her life was completely different from his own. Her life was full of guilt, self-blame, stubbornness, separation, sadness, and becoming strangers. During that time, Xingxiong was very worried about her, worried that she would remain depressed, even though she didn't look like that. People, but there are too many surprises and surprises in life.

After she came back, the war between Dayan and Ursus also ended. No one won and everyone lost. Dayan soon sent an envoy to investigate her experience during her absence, but that time Chief Wei, who has always been difficult to imitate, showed an absolutely firm stance. The investigation of Dayan was brought to an end. She also became the senior superintendent of Longmen again, but she was not the same as she was in the past. Same, at least now she laughs occasionally, rests when she is tired, goes home, and starts to consider the thoughts of her subordinates.

It's good that she finally let go of the burden of the past and lives for herself.

But he came back again and appeared in Longmen. Xingxiong suddenly felt a little confused. She didn't know what would happen next, whether it would get better or worse.

But whether it's good or bad, he's back, and at least it's not a bad thing for Chen.

Xingxiong thought, and left the door of the interrogation room, taking with him Shi Huaiya who rushed in from outside.

"Sir Shi, do you want to go have a drink together later?"

"How many times have I said, my name is Shi Huaiya!"

"Sorry, I forgot for a moment, sorry."

"What's going on all of a sudden? Where's the Pink Saussure! She has to give me an explanation for what happened today!" Shihuaiya backed away warily, and Xing Xiong had already grabbed her shoulders.

"Chen, are you looking for her? She didn't go out with you. Don't worry about that. I heard that a good new store has opened. Let's go and relax together later."

"Hey, don't hold me back, I'll go on my own."

"Don't mind the little things."

From the time Chen came in to now, Chen Mo and her had not said a word. She sat opposite her and looked at her coldly, her red eyes reflecting her own figure. She did not question loudly, nor was she angry. His face was always calm, as if Chen Mo was a stranger, and he didn't ask Chen Mo what happened like he was a prisoner.

But this feeling was even more uncomfortable for Chen Mo than being interrogated.

If she could beat herself up as hard as she did when they met in Londinium, she wouldn't feel so uneasy, and she would probably feel better now.

Every time they meet, there will inevitably be quarrels, and gradually the conversation turns into a quarrel, and even a fight is not impossible.

Over the years, they have embarked on different paths and had different experiences. Naturally, it is inevitable that they will have different ideas and disagreements. Chen Mo cannot convince Chen, and Chen cannot convince Chen Mo. Chen Mo thinks Chen's ideas are naive and ridiculous. I feel that Chen Mo's thoughts are extreme and dark.

But Chen Mo's life is so gloomy. What legitimate reasons, honest words and facts can he use to change his experience? He is very good at lying, but even if he tells some lies, he will not believe them, let alone tell them. Make others believe.

She is different from him. Her life should be bright and her future should be bright. Sometimes Chen Mo can't help but want her to agree with him and stand with him, but later Chen Mo knows that he is wrong. Give her life back.

There had never been that time when he and Chen were so calm after meeting. Chen didn't say a word, and he remained silent. After calming down, Chen was undoubtedly much cuter. Maybe the word cute shouldn't be used for her, compared to Although she was furious, Chen Mo still felt that this was better.

Chen is more mature than before, and calmer than when he saw her in Londinium and later in Longmen. She met Tallulah, understood everything in the past, and let go of a fate. Now she is very Relaxed, now she is living the life that truly belongs to her.

This was the first feeling Chen gave Chen Mo after meeting Chen. It at least proved that what he did was not completely meaningless.

Chen Mo gave Chen's life back to her. It would probably be better if she could turn a blind eye to her face.Maybe I will feel regretful, regretful, and disappointed because I am such a person, but I will not regret it.

Chen Mo shouldn't actually come back, but he couldn't help but want to go back to where it all started. He couldn't help but want and fantasize about seeing her again.

It was as if he couldn't feel the passage of time, every second passed so slowly, but every second made Chen Mo feel precious, and Chen seemed to have made up his mind to let Chen Mo speak first.

She wanted to hear Chen Mo's first words to her, whether he admitted or denied it, or maybe it was like a light "Long time no see" in Londinium.

But Chen Mo didn't think about what he should say. When Chen acted like this, Chen Mo knew that no matter how much he denied it, pretended to have amnesia, or pretended not to know her.

Chen already had the answer in his heart.It was precisely because he knew her so well that Chen Mo didn't know how to bring it up.

Chen Mo lowered his head slightly.

"I was wrong." It seemed that was all he could say. All the cover-ups and denials turned pale under Chen's cold eyes.

It was rare that Chen Mo lost after the first meeting between them.

Chen looked at Chen Mo coldly in front of her. She waited for a long time to hear what he would say after seeing her. She was curious about what Chen Mo could say, whether it was another lie or denying it as much as possible.

But what she didn't expect was that Chen Mo's first sentence was that he was wrong. Chen Mo was so surprised that her originally cold eyes softened a little.

Over the years, Chen is no longer the young police officer with naive ideas who first entered Longmen. She has seen too much and understood too much. She knows that the world is not black and white, and she also understands that the world is not black and white. Not necessarily all mistakes in the eyes of others are real mistakes. There is never right or wrong, some are just different positions.

Wei Yanwu hid too many things from her, and she found out later. When he came back from Ursus, he held a knife to question what happened that year, to question Xiaota's father's death, to question her about the conspiracy and the massacre. After uncovering what happened that year, Chen Mo's father also saw with his own eyes the letter in Wei Yanwu's hand.

She left Longmen, and Wei Yanwu told her everything that she needed to understand, after the envoy from Dayan was stopped, and after King Wu killed Ursus in battle.

Only then did she understand the truth of the matter, the truth that she could know, but at that time the truth was no longer important. King Wu was dead and Xiaota could never come back. She was alone again, and all of them were killed by Wei Yanwu and Chen Mo He told a huge lie and hid it inside, thinking he was doing what he thought was the right thing.

"How long have you been back?"

There was no anger in Chen's voice, as if he was stating a simple question.But Chen Mo felt relieved because she was at least willing to talk to him instead of looking at him indifferently, even though her words did not sound gentle.

Chen Mo didn't expect her to be gentle to him now.

"One year." Chen Mo said.

"I have been living in Longmen for a year."

"Yes." Chen Mo nodded.

"Chu Ye is your current name. You changed your name and returned to Longmen. Do you think you can come back here without any burden? You always do such stupid things." Chen's words were mixed with some sarcasm, but more Most of them are helpless. "Why don't you come to me?"

"I haven't thought of any reason. You might not want to see me again."

"You think I'll hate you?"

"No way?" Chen Mo asked.

Chen didn't answer until she spoke a few seconds later.

"I hate you and want to kill you. I have already done so once."

"Really? I'm sorry I couldn't do what you wanted."

Chen Mo lowered his eyelids regretfully.

He could think of what she would say to him, and he was already prepared, but he still felt twitching and tingling in his heart.

Their conversation was very ordinary, like friends they hadn't seen for a long time, but friends shouldn't say such explicit things, nor should they be the way they are now. Chen Mo and her were probably not friends, not just friends.

"But at least you still have a chance." Chen Mo said, "If you have another chance to kill me, I won't run away."

I have no intention of escaping anymore. I came back here just to die here. Death in your hands is at least worth it.

Chen Mo listened to Chen Mo after saying this. She didn't make any move. She just stared at Chen Mo's face. Chen Mo's right eye looked like an ordinary person's, but Chen knew that he couldn't see anything with his right eye.

If it weren't for this reason, she wouldn't have been able to kill him. No one would have guessed that King Wu couldn't see anything clearly in his right eye, and it was the foxhound who told her about this fatal weakness.

"You think you can still escape there." Chen said coldly.

Now Chen Mo looked so self-righteous in her eyes that it made her feel funny. He thought he didn't know anything, but unfortunately she already knew about the things he had done.

"You can't see your right eye now." Chen asked: "Why did you let me know in the first place that you were already prepared to die in my hands? Am I right?"

Chen was not stupid. On the contrary, as a police superintendent, she was able to quickly analyze clues from the clues, which was why she found Wei Yanwu and learned the truth about the past. But by that time, it was already too late.

"Stop looking down on others, Chen Mo. I already know everything about you and Wei Yanwu." She said, "How long do you want to keep pretending to be stupid!"

It is because of Chen Mo who thinks that everything he does is good for them, and Chen Mo who always does not consider other people's thoughts and thinks that it is just wishful thinking, makes Chen Mo feel angry.

Chen Mo had known that Chen You would find out one day, but he didn't expect it would be so soon, nor would he expect it to be here, so suddenly, that the angry Superintendent Chen left him wondering how to refute.

It seemed that nothing he said would help.

"Are you surprised why I know? If I don't know, are you prepared to keep it secret forever? Chen Mo, you can always make people so angry!"

You must be very proud now, proud of everything you have done, proud that you have given everyone a satisfactory ending, except you.

But your proud face and your self-righteousness always make me angry. Maybe I should thank you. Thank you for finding the right direction and using it when I failed to bring Tallulah back and make up for my past mistakes. Your way to make up for the mistakes of Longmen and me.

I don’t understand. Your life has been so pitiful and pathetic. Why can’t you be more selfish? Haven’t you always said that you are a selfish villain? Why don’t you really want to be a villain?

"I can tell you frankly, I hate you very much and will never forgive you. I wish I could kill you right now!" Chen suddenly stood up, and the sound of her chair falling to the ground accompanied her words.

She looked directly at Chen Mo sitting in front of her, and her words left Chen Mo speechless.

"But I won't do this! I won't turn a blind eye to everything like you. I regret it very much. I regret it very much. Only after you died did I know that I would regret it so much. I regretted it as if I had died too. Same."

If you just disappear, if you really can never come back, I won't wake up until I understand.

Chen Mo seemed to be hallucinating, but when he raised his head, Chen looked at his own eyes, and the haziness in her eyes reflected in the pale light of the interrogation room told him that he heard correctly.

Chen's breathing was rapid, and there was naked anger in Chen Mo's eyes. He pressed his palms on the table fiercely. Chen Mo was like a prisoner being interrogated, but this kind of Chen was the Chen she knew. He would not cry to herself. When questioning, she will not say forgive herself, nor will she loudly denounce what she has done. She will only use her own way. She is strict and persistent, she will never give up, and she will not show her weakness.