Longmen Memoirs

How many years have passed since we first met, reunited, saw each other again, parted, and said goodbye again? Chen has thought about it, loved it, hated it, complained about it, and regretted it.

We met for the first time under the narrow sky of the winter orphanage, reunited in the heavy rain in Victoria, met again at the elevator door of Qilong Apartment, separated in front of the cloudy administrative building in Longmen, and said goodbye in the eternally frozen snow of Ursus.

The encounters are never in the cold winter and the unchanging snow.

long and short.

She stared at Chen Mo's face reflected in the depths of his black pupils.

Yeah, grown up.

Suddenly I realized that I had grown up, suddenly I realized that things and people had changed, and suddenly I realized that Longmen was still called Longmen, but the street was no longer that street, and the people had become strangers.

You have grown up, Chen Mo. We live in the same city, but you almost made me think that you have become a stranger to me. I almost passed you by and almost lost you.

Maybe, I like you, although I don't want to admit it, I don't want to take away what belongs to her, I am a broom star, and nothing good will happen to anyone who meets me.

But it wasn’t until I lost you that I understood this fact.

"What's wrong?" Chen Mo asked.

The Longmen police badge on Chen's shoulder shone brightly in the sunset.

"Nothing." Chen shook his head gently.

She turned around again and took Chen Mo's hand. This time she held Chen Mo's hand instead of the occasional touching between their hands along the way.

Chen's grip was tight.

The warmth between them came from the palm of his hand. Chen Mo was a little surprised. He looked at Chen who turned around. Her figure was reflected in the dim sunset, and the glass of the high-rise building reflected the brilliant sunset over Longmen.

Chen Mo heard Chen's voice.

"Don't think that just by saying grow up, you can escape from denying the mistakes you have made. Even if you spend your whole life, you will never be able to repay your mistakes."

She was still as stern.

Chen Mo held Chen Mo's hand tightly, and their fingers were intertwined under the uniform of the Guards Bureau.

"Then let me spend my whole life making up for it, Superintendent Chen."

ps: Regarding the timeline, it is in reverse order. There are also stories before Tower of Babel, Syracuse, Ursus, Victoria, and Dragon Gate. They will be revealed one by one later. After all, I will not give up an opportunity with such a good number of words. , give me some time, and it will gradually become clear.

ps2: In fact, fate is really strange. The people we thought we would be with for life ended up not being together for life. The people we thought would never be together ended up together.

Perhaps, this is what love should be like, an unpredictable fate, change, change again, a tiring change, Chen Mo's life is changing, Xiao Mo, Gouzi, 013, Snake, Gurneywei Er... King Wu, fate, there should be no such thing as fate in this world.

Chapter 14 Longmen Love Story ([-])

In the spring of the crystallization year 1092, the winter snow melted and the birch trees sprouted.

The chaotic and divided long civil war in Kazdare seemed to have finally come to an end just like the winter that had just ended. The main force of the Regent's army was defeated by the Royal Army on the western battlefield of Kazdare. The roundabout tactics used by the Royal Army defeated the Regent. The army was caught off guard. At the beginning of the war, no one expected that the king's army would win in the end.

The royal army abandoned the military formations used in orthodox warfare. Under the unfavorable situation of frontal battlefield confrontation, they used the guerrilla and raid methods that the Sakaz mercenaries were good at, breaking the entire army into pieces. The main force of the royal army retreated all the way. , attracted the regent's army to pursue them, and finally broke into pieces and reunited to persuade the princess who coordinated the lords of the southern Kazdaele, cutting off the supply line and all retreat routes of the regent's army.

Everything is so unexpected, everything is so reincarnated.

Only at the moment when he was actually surrounded did he realize that he could no longer escape the siege.

This is undoubtedly a set of risky and even desperate strategic and tactical layouts. Its executors' ideas, research and analysis of war are relatively old compared to today's various novel and steady tactics, but it is this ancient and desperate tactics, Successfully broke the deadlock in the Kazdaele Civil War and reversed the positions of the offensive and defensive sides.

Long-term victory makes people long for and lost, and its executor saw the spread of this emotion in the Sakaz army, and deliberately let it ferment into what he expected. The composition of the Sakaz army was mostly composed of Mercenaries under the lords of various places and a small number of regular troops adapted from the Sakaz mercenaries. The Sakaz people have an innate desire for victory. They are used to fighting, fighting, and tearing the flesh and blood of their enemies. The pleasure that comes in an instant.

Most wars make people lose their minds, and death is fair to both the enemy and us. Those who use this tactic obviously did not consider the casualties of the "main force of the royal army" used as bait. Human life seems to be just a cold number on the paper that keeps increasing and decreasing. The chess player will not consider the death of the pieces on the chessboard. He will only consider how much advantage the dead pieces can bring to him. He will watch it decrease and then increase, gradually shrinking the enemy and ourselves among thousands of possibilities. Under a relatively balanced situation, find the key point to break the game.

The essence of war is to kill people. War never talks about right or wrong, only about winning or losing.

A small number of people can still maintain their rationality in chaotic wars, and such people are natural strategists and natural war machines.

The true heir of Kazdare quickly recovered the remnants of the original regent's army after the end of the Western Battlefield. Half of the originally wavering nobles and some of the original lords who belonged to the regent's forces rejoined the princess under the influence of the outcome of the war. Undoubtedly, there must be a certain number of them. It has political influence and the princess's promise to her subjects.

Her Highness has changed. War makes people grow. Compared with her previous ideals and gentle attitude, she has become more practical and decisive after her rebirth.

She understood that a country with long-standing ills could not be changed by just a few empty words and ideals from the royal family. She also understood that the Sakaz people needed to be more decisive. She understood that removing tumors and serious illnesses would inevitably be accompanied by labor pains. She understood Change requires sacrifice and bloodshed, and we understand the horror of war.

She had no time or choice before, but now she has it. With someone's reminder and help, he took on half of the pain for herself, pointed out the direction for herself, and rewrote her destiny.

The regent's sphere of influence continued to shrink and his rule gradually declined, but the royal army still failed to march all the way to the royal capital. The regent obviously would not admit his defeat so easily. The secret message intercepted by the spies mentioned that there was a steady stream of material coming from the capital. It was transported from Victoria to Kazdaele through secret channels and became a key bargaining chip to support the continuation of the war.

The war should not be allowed to continue.

In the summer of 1092, Kelsey found Chen Mo, and they had a brief conversation. The next day, Chen Mo resigned from the palace guard.

A year later, the world-famous Great Purge broke out in Victoria. Countless old-school nobles and new nobles were sent to the gallows overnight in this purge. The curtain bell on the top of the Londinium Cathedral rang twelve times. , as if to announce that the situation in this country has undergone new and unpredictable changes.

The former Prime Minister was dismissed, the House of Commons and the House of Lords were reorganized. The Cornish faction, headed by the veteran noble Earl of Cornwall, occupied the majority of the seats in the House of Lords. The 67-year-old Earl of Cornwall took over the position of the former Prime Minister. In the winter of Victoria New Year The new king of Sheri ascended the throne in the Londinium Palace. The Aslan royal family subsequently publicly expressed support for the Kazdaele royal army's efforts to regain the land and would sever all ties with the regents. After the war, in 1093, the Aslan royal family The current heir and Princess Kazdaele had their first meeting in Londinium. At the meeting, they had friendly discussions on a series of matters such as trade, economy, and diplomacy between the two parties in the future. After the meeting, Victoria and Kazdaele signed an alliance agreement. Victoria will support and stand on the side of the orthodox royal family of Kazdare in the future and provide necessary assistance for the reconstruction of Kazdare.

The whole world was in an uproar, and the changes in the international situation made Letania, sandwiched between Victoria and Kazdaele, instantly become the focus of attention.

Chen Mo saw Chen Mo again in Londinium, a clothing store at the end of King's Cross Street in Londinium. It was raining lightly outside the store, the leaden sky was drizzling, and behind Chen was a hazy and warm light in the rain curtain. , the colorful colors outside the window, Chen Mo and her looked at each other through the window. Maybe Chen Mo just turned around at that time, or Chen Mo left the window, and they would never see each other again.

But there are not so many possibilities in the world. Just like most people's relationships are very dull, there is less romance and sadness in the story, and there is less joy and surprise. There is so much romance in the world for people to share. , but it is man-made.

Chen Xian now lives in the Qilong Apartment in the [-]th District of Longmen. She has not been back home for a long time, and there is nothing to go back to. In the past, she could not resist her own life, so she could only let it go and obey. Live according to the wishes of your family.

Maybe if Xiaota hadn't left, Chen probably wouldn't have made such a choice. Xiaota's departure gave her the courage to resist. She had an extra goal, a goal to bring Xiaota back. That's how she was. A person is like knowing that Tallulah was in an orphanage when she was a child, so she could muster up the courage to quietly leave the house and brave the cold wind and winter snow to run to the orphanage at night.

She remembers her promises and she has always been a very trustworthy person.

This was not the first time that Chen Mo came here. The last time he came back, he came to Chen's current home and met Chen, Xingxiong and Shi Huaiya in the elevator. He also met his daughter, Xiao Mo.

In fact, when he first heard about this name, Chen Mo was quite surprised, because Xiao Mo's name was Chen Qi, and of course Chen would not take this name casually.

for what?It's probably like a replacement, but it's not like that. At least for Chen Mo, he doesn't just live in other people's memories. Chen Mo has always been afraid of being forgotten. But the moment he saw Xiao Mo, Chen Mo suddenly felt that he Very silly.

"Is she five years old this year?"

In the elevator, Chen pressed the button to go to the seventh floor. Chen Mo felt a little anxious and expectant. The last time they met was two years ago. Before they decided to go to Yan Country, they met briefly.

Her appearance reminded Chen Mo of déjà vu, and it seemed as if Tallulah's appearance, Chen's appearance, and his own appearance appeared in front of his eyes when he was very young.

At that time, Xiao Mo recognized himself at a glance, and he also recognized her at a glance. She was cute and smart. Children are generally cute in the eyes of every parent, but for Chen Mo, becoming a father meant that he I didn’t know what it would feel like to be a father at the time.

I don't know what kind of mood I should have, joy, relief, guilt, or peace.

The sense of responsibility was something else, but the moment he saw Xiao Mo, when Xiao Mo rushed over and hugged him tightly, feeling the strength of those small hands, there was only one thought in his mind.

Many years ago, Chen Mo and Xiao Mo had the same experience, waiting for their father to come back. But the difference was that Chen Mo was accompanied by his mother, and she was lonelier than him.

Chen Mo doesn't want Xiao Mo to be like him. Not everyone can be as lucky as him, but he doesn't believe in this kind of thing. If he wants to avoid it, he has to do it.

In this life, people always have to risk their lives for something. It doesn't matter whether it is worth it or not, only whether they are willing or not.

"Do you still remember Xiao Mo's birthday?" Chen asked.

"June 10th, right?"

"It seems you still remember." Chen's hands were on his waist. In the closed elevator, Chen Mo could clearly smell the fragrance coming from her hair. There was a moment of weightlessness as the elevator ascended.

"Xiao Mo will be very happy to see you back." I couldn't tell if there was any taste in Chen's words.

"After all, compared to Mommy, who I see often, Dad is more surprised by someone he hasn't seen for a long time." Chen Mo explained in a funny way. He probably guessed that Chen was indeed a little depressed.

"It's a pity that he is an irresponsible father." Chen glanced at Chen Mo and raised his lips sarcastically. It was rare for Superintendent Chen to show such an unhappy expression on his face.

Chen Mo was indeed an unqualified father. He only came back for two days, spent Christmas with Xiao Mo and then disappeared into Longmen.

"Has Xiao Mo grown taller?"

"A little bit." Chen said, raising his hand to indicate the height: "It's already this high now."

"It's higher than last time." Chen Mo replied looking at Chen's hand.

"How did you answer?" Chen Mo asked curiously. In fact, Chen didn't know where he would go. Now it seems that Chen's beating at that time was considered too light.

"How else can I answer? I said you went far away for work, and it will take a long time to come back." Chen asked back: "You bastard, you threw the question to me after you left. Whose fault do you think it is?"

"She won't believe it."

"She is very smart and sensible."

"Do you know what I told her last time?"

Chen didn't ask as Chen Mo thought.

"Just say what you want."

"She said she knew you were busy and didn't want you to worry. Are you still quarreling with Wei Yanwu all these years?"

"Xiao Mo told you."

"Yes."

"She is really willing to tell you anything." Chen Bi said, "Very few. I don't agree with some of his actions, but I can't deny that he has his reasons. Longmen cannot just rely on Being glamorous can be perfunctory. There are too many people living here, so there will naturally be dark corners that cannot be seen or erased. Sometimes being too tight will only be counterproductive."

"You have changed, Chen. You wouldn't have thought this way in the past."

"In your eyes, I was just an innocent little girl who only knew how to fight and kill, right?"

"It's not..."

"You don't have to rush to explain. This isn't the first time I've heard someone say this behind my back. Now that I think about it, I was indeed a little naive before."

"Very good." Chen Mo smiled, "Xiao Mo said before that you couldn't argue with him. He was already very aggrieved. I'm not allowed to bully you anymore. I'm the one bullying you."

"Oh?"

"Anyway, I agreed." Chen Mo said, "I won't quarrel with you again. Even if we quarrel, we can't win."

Chen was quiet for a few seconds, and then she spoke again after a few seconds.

"You should think about how to answer her questions later. She must have a lot to say to you. That child is used to holding a lot of things in her heart and is unwilling to say them out." Chen sighed softly.

"Sometimes I wish she could be a little more willful."

The Chen who said these words seemed to be completely different from the Chen Mo's impression of her.

"It looks very much like Xiaota when he was a child."

With short silver hair, black horns and a small tail, and red pupils, she was exactly the same as Tallulah when she was a child, except that she was a little softer.

Chen looked over. They deliberately didn't mention anything about Tallulah along the way. Chen didn't say anything, and Chen Mo didn't say anything either, but he thought that Xiao Mo would have to face it eventually.

"You have met her, Chen." Chen Mo said. "She has gone further and is more determined than we imagined. In fact, I have understood a long time ago that one day, she will be farther and farther away from us. You said you will protect her for a lifetime, but compared to being Protection, I still hope she can be stronger, even if we will all lose her."

In fact, we have lost her.

Chen Mo felt Chen hold his fingers harder.

"I have always wanted to bring her back, but I knew that from the day I saw her, I knew she would not leave me. She is much more determined than we thought. Without us these years, she is still Walked down the path she chose."

"Do you believe what you said?" Chen asked as the elevator door slowly opened.

"Believe it or not, it's true."

Facts, but facts are not excuses.

"You still like to find reasons for yourself. I know it is true, and I also understand what I should do now. We are no longer children, Chen Mo, you don't need to remind me again."

"I just worry about you."

"Is it too late to tell me that you don't think so?" Chen stepped out of the elevator and walked up the indoor corridor of the apartment. The gentle and bright light fell on her, and her eyes were filled with warm light.

"You always have to see it before you believe it, but at least I can have the chance to say this to you again."

"I know, long-winded." Chen replied unhappily.

"That's good."

On October 10st, the first year after Chen returned to Longmen, Chen did not realize what had happened to her at the time. In fact, it was the third month after returning to Longmen. She had just joined the Guards Bureau and occasionally felt that she was at work. Nausea, she thought it was an adverse reaction caused by days of tiring work, so she didn't take it too seriously. Her boss at the time, Jiu, was a nice person, although he was also very strict. After her strong request, Chen took the time to go to the hospital for surgery. Chen went through the examination, but the results he got made Chen didn't know how he should face it.

She was distracted all day after leaving the hospital. Her boss suggested that she had better apply for leave and have a good rest. Her current state is not suitable for work.

"Please rest assured that I am very aware of my situation. I will adjust my condition in the future and it will not affect my work."

She thought she could show off her talents when she returned to Longmen, and finally be able to do what she wanted to do. But before she even took the first step, she had already reached the end of the road. It was a bit of a shock, but compared to what she was about to do, Coming alone, Chen was more surprised and uncomfortable.

It seemed that nothing good would ever happen when she and Chen Mo met. It seemed that she was really a bad guy.

Chen is not ready to be a mother yet, and she has not adjusted her emotions as she said. The word mother is too far away for her when she is young, but despite this, even though this matter will affect her This had a serious negative impact on his own future and prospects, so Chen gave up his job in the Guards Bureau.

That period of time was very torturous for her. She took a year's leave. Others would probably not be approved, let alone come back. But her surname was Chen, and she was different. It was the first time Chen used Although she never mentioned her identity, Chen knew exactly who her vacation was approved for.