Longmen Memoirs

"I'm helping mommy."

"help me?"

"Well, help mommy ask him what he is doing and why he hasn't come for so long. Xiao Mo knows that mommy won't ask, so Xiao Mo goes to help mommy ask."

"What did you ask?"

"He said he was wrong. He was afraid that Mommy would never forgive him. He asked Xiao Mo if there was any way to make Mommy happy, and asked Xiao Mo to help him." Xiao Mo said and tilted his head: "I don't Will help him."

"Really?" Chen lost his eyes and looked at the little girl sitting in front of him. "You really don't want to help him?"

"No help! Unless mommy forgives him, Xiaomo will never talk to him again." Xiaomo said: "Does mommy still like him? Xiaomo knows that mommy likes him, even though he always does Some bad things make Mommy unhappy, he is a bad guy, but Mommy still likes him, just like Xiao Mo likes Mommy."

"I do not know."

"He said he won't leave." Xiao Mo said softly: "He will stay with mommy... She has always wanted him to come back, right? Xiao Mo knows that, although mommy doesn't say it, Xiao Mo knows that mommy will always look at the photos of her childhood."

"Can Mommy tell Xiaomo about Xiaota?" [-

"Xiao Ta?" Chen was stunned. Although she knew that Chen Mo and Xiao Mo had mentioned this matter, she couldn't help but pause when she heard the name.

"Xiaota is mommy's sister, right?" Xiao Mo said, "Mommy never told Xiaomo about Xiaota. Xiaomo has grown up, and Xiaomo will protect mommy."

Chen Mo would still think of how many years later, he could finally live a life as peacefully as before. The memory of this time seemed to have been buried in the depths of his mind since the fire more than 20 years ago.

Chen Mo thought he would never have the chance to think of it again, but after so long, time has changed. From that old apartment to today's high-end apartment, the people at the table have also changed.

In a family of three, there is still a little Mo. Sitting opposite me are Chen and myself, the child sitting in the middle. Chen’s gentle scolding and Xiao Mo’s picky murmurs are just like what they used to be in his mind, but he is still a child. position transformed into another role.

Some things have changed, but they seem to have stayed the same.

The same family has a policeman, a little Mo, and warm lights.

Chen Mo should be grateful that his time on this dark and long road, going round and round, seemed to have finally come to an end, and he was heading to the place he always wanted him to go.

Although it was different from the fantasy deep in Chen Mo's memory, he thought that I would marry Tallulah and they would live together in Longmen, but in the end, it was Chen and Xiao Mo who was similar to Tallulah with him.

The photo in front of the big iron gate of the orphanage, the three people in the photo.

The left became the right, and the right became the left.

Chapter 21 A world with you

Chen Mo walked in the room of this apartment. The simple and even monotonous decoration was consistent with Chen's usual personality. He seemed to be able to see Chen's past life from these simple furniture and arrangements, which was equally plain and simple. Toys that can be placed in the corner and on the sofa, large and small towels and toothbrushes in the bathroom, as well as small slippers and photos on the TV cabinet add a touch of warmth to these ordinary things.

Chen seems to always be so lucky. No matter where she goes, there is someone accompanying her. Chen Mo does not envy this kind of luck. If possible, he hopes it can last forever.

He hoped that Chen's life would be as lucky as the four-leaf clover she and Tallulah found by the river when she was a child, because Tallulah gave half of her luck to herself, so we couldn't make friends later. Good luck, but Chen is different from us. She should have a better life, get to know more friends, and move forward with them.

Even without him and Tallulah by his side these years, Chen has grown up, matured and become stronger. No one in this world is the most important. The so-called importance only refers to certain things, and these things Often it will be gradually diluted over time until it is forgotten.

Xiao Mo came out of the bathroom and said loudly, "I'm going to bed." She blinked at Chen Mo, and then left Chen Mo and Chen Mo in the living room. Chen looked helplessly at Xiao Mo who couldn't wait. She sighed and left His eyes were on Chen Mo.

The sound of the door closing softly sounded in their ears.

Long blue hair is spread loosely. Chen is wearing a white yukata, with slightly wet water stains on his hair. He has black horns on his head. His white calves are exposed under the yukata. His blue tail is slightly behind his back, with fine blue hair. The scales reflected the light, and the belt around her waist outlined her slender Kaname and the attractive curves that even the yukata couldn't hide.

Her red eyes reflected her own figure.

It probably wasn't the first time Chen Mo saw Chen dressed like this, but after a while, he could still feel his heartbeat speeding up slightly, so much so that his breathing seemed a little disordered.

Over the years, the little girl who could only yell and yell had grown up and turned into a woman who was full of temptation, becoming both strange and familiar in her memory.

"List."

Chen Mo could only call out her name softly, so that the name seemed a bit redundant.

Time seemed to have stopped at this moment, with less wind and less flow. Chen Mo could hear his own heartbeat rising and falling gently with Chen's breathing.

Chen just looked at him.

She remembered the conversation with Xiao Mo in the bathroom. Xiao Mo said that he wanted to protect her, and Chen was a little happy. When Xiao Mo said that he wanted to protect himself, Chen was very happy, just because of a simple sentence that made her Suddenly I felt that everything I had done over the past few years had meaning.

Chen knew very well that Xiao Mo hoped that she could forgive Chen Mo. Xiao Mo must be very reluctant to let him go, otherwise why would he behave so strangely when she saw him? She did not want to have a dispute with Chen Mo. In fact, after so many years, Chen Mo I have long been tired of this meaningless quarrel.

But she didn't know whether she should forgive Chen Mo. Or maybe it was Chen Mo who forgave her. Xiaota seemed to be a hurdle between her and Chen Mo that she could never let go of.

The memories of the three of them are intertwined, and their lives have taken different paths. There has never been a moment when they really lived according to their own ideas.

"Do I feel strange to you like this?"

Chen is still the same Chen, who will not easily express his thoughts, nor will he easily give his trust to anyone.She never trusts a person unconditionally. Chen Mo's trust is a very precious thing. When Chen Mo was a child, he once had the opportunity to gain her trust, but after a long time, he gradually lost it as he ran around.

Maybe it was lost the night I left the orphanage.

"More than just a stranger, I feel like the first day I met you, when I watched you get out of that expensive black car in front of the window of the orphanage. I was thinking that your presence would take me away. The only thing, but no, you stayed and stumbled into my world.”

The day Chen Mo came, Chen Mo was scared and even a little panicked. After seeing Tallulah's hesitation and uneasiness, this panic almost became a reality. Chen Mo thought that she would take away his only friend in the orphanage, but then , Chen stayed. Her arrival changed many things, and also changed the lives of Chen Mo and Tallulah, which had gradually become boring.

Because of Chen, she can always bring a lot of joy and infect everyone she comes into contact with with her energy. However, Chen comes into contact with very few people, and Chen Mo is fortunate to be one of them.

Chen was stunned and silent for a while.

"I hate you very much." She said, but this first sentence did not surprise Chen Mo.

"I know."

"You don't know." Chen shook his head and walked to Chen Mo. He was a very close distance, less than twenty centimeters away. Chen Mo could even smell the fragrance emanating from her body and feel the heat touching my skin. .

Her face was reflected in her pupils, her slightly opened lips, the sound of breathing and the hot breath flowing into her nose with a breath that was unique to her.

"I hate you very much. I hate you very much." Chen said softly: "But I am also afraid. I am afraid that because of your appearance, she will get farther and farther away from me, but she is unwilling to leave you. I can't help it." , I can only force myself to admit your existence, but I still hate you."

She raised her hand slightly, and her fingertips slowly touched the side of Chen Mo's face.

"You always like to tell a lot of lies. Those stories make people unable to tell whether they are true or false, and they also make people feel disgusted."

Chen Mo could feel the temperature of her fingertips, so the temperature continued to his cheeks, and then moved along his cheeks to his face. Chen Mo came closer gently, and those red pupils were flowing under the bright yellow light. Warm light.

"But no matter how much I hate it, I can't deny the reality of your existence." She slowly lowered her hand: "Sometimes, I think how nice it would be if you just disappeared like this, but after I gradually got used to your existence, I found that If you really disappear, I will feel sad, it is incredible, I will actually start to envy you, envy you for being by her side all the time, envy you for being able to live so freely."

"So when you were a child, you always showed yourself to be unrestrained." Chen Mo said: "I also envy you, Chen, you may not know, I also envy you, envy you for having a good birth, envy you don't have to think about it Your future is different for me. I don’t even know where I should go when I grow up. This dragon gate is so big that it scares me.”

"I lost everything here, my home, my only family."

Chen Mo will never forget the fire that night. He hid in the dark room and lost his last support. When he came out, it was a leaden sky with ash dust floating in the haze. Light rain fell sparsely from the sky. , fell on the six-year-old boy.

What he saw when he looked back was that only the ruins of his home were left.

"Do you regard her as your relative?" Chen asked.

"She found me." Chen Mo said: "It rained heavily the day she came. I watched her being hugged tightly in the rain at the orphanage. I knew that she came from a noble family and that she was extraordinary. , every bit of her life confirmed my suspicions one by one, but I don’t know how to get close to her and gain her trust. I want to rely on her to get rid of my difficulties."

"You have been so despicable since you were a child!" Chen's eyes showed a trace of visible contempt.

"Well, so I'm not surprised that you hate me." Chen Mo nodded: "Sometimes I also hate myself, hate myself for being despicable and shameful."

"Does she know?"

"I know." Chen Mo replied: "She has known it since she was a child, but she is still willing to contact me. She said that I am the only person who does not make her feel annoying. Later I thought about why. After thinking about it for a long time, I finally thought of the answer. .”

"what is the answer?"

Chen Mo sighed softly, and two children who were cuddling together when they were very young seemed to appear in front of his eyes.

"Poor." Chen Mo said: "She was pitying me, and she was pitying herself. I made her feel similar. She regarded me as her kind."

Chen was stunned, as if she didn't expect that I would answer like this, and held her breath. After a few seconds, she breathed a heavy sigh of relief, feeling like she suddenly realized something.

"That's it. I always thought she would hate me."

Hate me for not protecting her, hate me for letting go of her hand on that rainy night, and hate me for letting go of her hand out of fear after agreeing to leave with her.

In fact, she should have known that even though I always wanted to escape, I was always afraid and could not escape the shadow left by that home on me.

"She never hated you, Chen." Chen Mo said softly. No one was more qualified to say this than him.

"Never. She always regards you as her sister. Nothing has changed at that moment, but she can't protect you. She said that you have always been protecting her. If she leaves, it will be much easier for you."

"But I still found him."

Chen still found the orphanage and found Tallulah, trying to continue playing the role that she had not been able to complete. She was a younger sister, but in that family, she always regarded herself as an older sister.

"Because you are her sister." Chen Mo said, "She won't blame you. How could she blame you? She just doesn't dare to see you, for fear that she will drag you down again."

We all made a lot of mistakes when we were young. You both wanted to protect each other, but failed to protect each other. I know it because I saw it all.

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"Like you, she cherishes the time you spend together. When she was a child, I told her that when we grow up, we will go to every corner of the world together and spend every spring, summer, autumn and winter together, but she always asks me, what about you? , the person she can’t let go of the most is you, and the source of all her beautiful memories and happiness is you.”

All her cherished moments are related to you, not me, not just me. Between the three of us when we were children, you were the most important one to her. Your weight cannot be replaced no matter how much I try to replace it. replace.

It was me who broke into your lives, and it was you who broke into our lives.

You came to the orphanage that winter and everything changed. I was afraid of losing her in fear and jealousy. You thought I would take away your place next to her.

We were both wrong. She knew very well in her heart that you and I are different Chens. Although I later tried every means to keep my position, from beginning to end, she left a place for you in her heart. A position that can never be replaced by anyone.

"I did so much later, I went to Kazdale, Colombia, Victoria... I went to many places, but you, only you who have been staying in Longmen are her real relatives."

Tears gradually fell from Chen's eyes, and warm tears fell on Chen Mo's hands, but Chen didn't seem to notice, she stood there in a daze, letting the tears fall.

Those red eyes lost their former glory.

Chen Mo raised his hand and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of Chen's eyes. Chen raised his head and his eyes fell on Chen Mo's gray right eye. Under that body was a scarred body.

He said that he was a despicable person. He had spent his life in exchange for so many scars, but he still could not replace the position of a girl who once let go of her hand and still hated her.

The word "family" is really scary. They are the only people in the world who will forgive your hurts again and again, and who will tolerate you again and again.

"You found her, Hui Jie."

Xiao Mo gently closed the half-open door, being careful not to make any noise to wake the two people outside.

She closed the door, leaned against the door in the dim room, and gently reached out to touch her silver hair.

"Mommy..."

Chen Mo cried for a long time that night, and Chen Mo kept holding her, listening to her soft cry. Tears wet Chen Mo's shoulders, but Chen Mo did not dare to let go.

He failed to be by Chen's side when she needed her most, and he failed to come back to Tallulah when she needed her most. He has come a long, long way over the years.

He has almost forgotten the promise he made during the winter in the orphanage.

We want to... go to every corner of the world we want to go to together, listen to the street performers, sit on the bench under the 101 Building, holding half-eaten fish balls.

We want to... always be there for each other.

We want to... spend every spring, summer, autumn and winter in Longmen together.

Foxhound put down the wine glass heavily, took off the monitoring headphones that had been worn in her ears, and placed the black headphones on the wine cabinet. She picked up the wine glass again and took a sip.

The orange-yellow wine fell into her mouth and touched the tip of her tongue, but strangely, she didn't feel a trace of taste, as if her taste buds had lost consciousness.

All that was left was the soreness that filled his chest.

She stared at the glass wine glass in her hand and shook it. The liquid in the wine glass radiated brilliant light under the light.

A smile tugged at the corners of Foxhound's lips.

"You tell me whether you are stupid or not. It took so much time and process to brew, but it is full of bitterness."

#+【} She sighed softly.

"Is it worth it? People all over the world want to kill you, but you come back just because you can't trust her. You are no longer His Highness, you bitch."

Without 20 Northern troops and Shadow Guards guarding you, even His Majesty the Emperor would just treat you as his mad dog and chess piece. From Victoria to Kazdel, to Ursus, and Yan Kingdom, how many people know about you? As long as they are still alive, they will immediately gather in this city, eager to chop off your dog's head and drink it.

Why don't you always learn well?

ps: The main plot of the next chapter begins.

Chapter 22 Former Chen Internet Affairs

Just imagine, for many years, every time Chen sheds tears, he seems to have his own presence. Every time, he is the one who makes her heartache, gives her hope, and then takes away the hope.

How long has she waited for me?

The girl who drunkenly held Chen Mo's hand and begged him not to leave in the Victoria Street Tavern, years later, had unknowingly become the senior superintendent of Longmen, and had unknowingly fulfilled their childhood dream.

She is still the same Chen, the Chen from Longmen.