Longmen Memoirs

She is a natural leader. Although she does not think so, most people who choose to follow and support her are not just attracted by the future she describes, but because of herself.

The Kazdaele kings of all generations have been instilling beautiful visions and comfort into the people, but the people have long been tired of such far-off lies, and they have long been unwilling to lift swords for the invisible future. So at this time Theresa appeared, Use her words, her noble Sakaz royal blood, and her ideals to try to save this declining and barren country.

There was only so much she could do, but she never stopped.

Chen Mo didn't know much about Traces. His knowledge of him only came from the discussions among the Sakaz people in the camp and a few words from Scout, so he couldn't conclude that Theresia with the kind smile in front of him was a wise man. The monarch is still a weak heir.

Chen Mo's words paused.

The heavy rain outside the tent had stopped at some point, and there was only a faint flame left in the oil lamp. Theresia's figure swayed in the faint firelight.

The smile disappeared from her lips.

That country, which was equally barren and backward and torn apart, finally stood up again amidst constant bloodshed, wars and defeats.

Theresia could not imagine the strength of that nation, and Chen Mo's words were just a patchwork of fragments. The rich knowledge in her mind could not combine her memory with the experiences of those people described in Chen Mo's words, so Later Theresia gave up thinking about which country on this earth had ever experienced such a change.

She gave up thinking about this and seemed to gradually understand what Chen Mo wanted to tell her while piecing together Chen Mo's words.

Chen Mo didn't say much, and it could even be called scattered. The memories in his mind had become fragmented and difficult to recall. He was not even sure whether what he told Theresa was a piece of history of a country or the vast land. A weird patchwork of countless countries on earth.

But Chen Mo knows one thing very well. No matter which country it is, after it has experienced an unprecedented catastrophe, an iron-blooded monarch will eventually appear to reunite it. Yes, iron-blooded.

At least that's what Chen Mo thinks.

"Are you admonishing me?" Theresia asked, her expression unusually serious.

"I am not qualified to advise you. Even a few days ago, you and I didn't know each other, and I don't know you well enough." Chen Mo said very sincerely. "Just because you asked me, I can only tell you this."

"Your thoughts are somewhat similar to those on the other side. Mr. Chen Mo, in your eyes, am I a weak monarch?"

Theresia, who was sitting in front of Chen Mo, asked this. She put her hands in front of her knees. The black Originium crystal on her waist was clearly visible, and her scarlet eyes were as calm as water.

"I saw people's sincere love for you in the camp. I also heard you talk about living the future. You did a good job. You are a wise monarch."

Chen Mo's praise seemed pale and tasteless.

"Wise? I don't think so. I'm just escaping from the suffering caused by war. I know very well what war will bring, what bloodshed and sacrifice will bring. Kazdale has already shed enough blood, I don't want to Let generations of people lose their lives because of an idea of ​​mine.”

"But you have to know that victory is based on sacrifice. No one's victory can be achieved without hard work, and no ideal can be transformed directly from empty talk into reality. You are already doing this, whether you are willing or not, the person behind you Many people have embarked on this path for you." Chen Mo said: "They are not only here for your ideals, they are also here for you. They gather under your banner. You are afraid that they will lose their parents, wives and children. They are also afraid of the same thing, afraid that many years later, their descendants will still live the same life as them."

"You actually know this very well, don't you?"

Chen Mo didn't believe Theresa didn't know what the people in the camp were looking forward to. She knew, of course she knew, otherwise how could the war that had lasted for a hundred years not end?

"Yes, I know very well."

"Then you..."

"I just don't know if what I'm doing is right, if I really want to reintroduce Kazdale into the war for this ideal of mine. I don't want the children to lose their parents, and I don't want the parents to lose their children. I thought, maybe one day, Together, we can let everyone on this land sleep peacefully." Theresia's words were very soft.

"A very great ideal." Chen Mo took a breath and answered slowly.

"It's also very unrealistic." Theresa sighed.

"It's also very unrealistic, because people are born with their own identities, races, and countries... These things will cause people to breed hatred because of their different positions, and the hatred will never be eliminated. I know it very well. I know very well how long the hatred between a national team and a country can last, and I also know very well that once these hatreds appear, they can never be made up for and dissipated." Chen Mo said slowly: "And you have also forgotten that not everyone can If you want to sleep peacefully, not everyone wants to spend this life peacefully, because people have feelings, love and hate, jealousy and resentment can be caused by a small thing, and they can also be heartbroken because of a little kindness. Have mercy.”

"I know, Mr. Chen Mo, but we are not living here for an answer. Maybe that future will never come, even if it is out of reach, but I am still willing to pursue it."

She looked like a devout seeker. For some reason, Chen Mo thought of these three words.

But she should not be a seeker, she is a monarch, a king, a king who is responsible for his own country and people. His ideal is too great, and her ideal is unrealistic, because she cannot even Change the lives of her people, but she insists on that ridiculous ideal.

Chen Mo couldn't understand that he just suddenly felt disappointed in Theresia for no reason.

"Your answer scares me." Chen Mo looked at Theresia and said: "Not long ago, a Sakaz told me that you want Kazdale to become prosperous and prosperous, so that Sakaz People also have a future. In fact, he doesn't understand much of what you say, but he can understand from your words what she wants to tell them, and the arms dealers sell them weapons, and the lords plunder them from them. A copper coin is a completely different lie, you really want to change the land.”

Chen Mo's voice gradually became lower: "So it is better than dying pointlessly at the hands of the lord. If you follow His Highness and die fighting for His Highness, your life will not be in vain."

"But now you tell me that you want to pursue an unattainable ideal. Your ideal not only includes the Sakaz people, but you don't even dare to change the situation of Sakaz." Chen Mo took a deep breath. tone.

She looked at Theresia with no respect anymore.

"Then...why don't you try to change the lives of your citizens first, and then enjoy your wonderful future?"

People admired Theresia so much, admired her greatness and believed in her holiness, so Theresia really became Theresia, a symbol, a piece of something deep in the hearts of the Sakaz people. Beautiful symbol.

People believed she could do it and never thought she would fall.

There was suddenly no sound in the tent.

Chen Mo and Theresia looked at each other. After a moment of looking at each other, Chen Mo chose to give in.

"Sorry, Your Highness, I made a mistake."

As an outsider, Chen Mo had no position to evaluate the quality of Theresa's actions, and as a non-Sarkazi, he had no right to argue for the Sarkarz about right and wrong, good and evil.

As a prisoner, Theresia was kind enough to Chen Mo, but Chen Mo, who didn't understand Theresia well enough, had no right to tie Theresia to his so-called moral standard because of the limited things he could see. .

This was a very shameless and unreasonable thing, but Chen Mo didn't know what Theresa was thinking. She came here and asked herself about the future she knew, and the sacrifices and sacrifices she had to face. I chose to stop before bleeding.

Is Theresia really so naive?

How could she be so naive and persist under the pressure of the Photographer King until now? How could she be so naive that she could have so many people surrounding her.This is the war-torn and barren Sakaz, not the Zhou Dynasty with Spring and Autumn etiquette.

"No, what you said is not wrong." Theresa shook her head slightly: "Before talking about those unattainable ideals, I did not change the lives of the people of Sakaz, nor did I change this country. End its wars, you're right, those ideals are too far away, and I can't even save my country."

She spoke very calmly, and the gentleness of the past was not even visible on her calm face, as if she was a different person, with a touch of sadness.

"It's not your fault."

"But like you said, whether I am a qualified ruler or not, I already am." Theresia said: "I am not a naive person, Mr. Chen Mo. I know very well that Kazdaele needs to face I know exactly what my people want, but there have been enough fearless sacrifices in the land of Kazdaele. I look at them, my people, my friends, those who trust me, But I’m going to push them into the battlefield.”

"You are very kind, Your Highness." Chen Mo opened his mouth, but those righteous words were stuck in his mouth, and he could not continue speaking without conscience.

Because it wasn't me who died.

Because what I said is correct, I know it is correct, but what I am doing is tempting a benevolent monarch to push her country and people into war, and I am provoking conflicts in this country.

I'm...killing people.

"But Kazdel does not need a benevolent monarch like me. What he needs is a tough, decisive, and enterprising king." Theresia said and repeated softly: "I know, I know everything."

“I can’t imagine what those people who rely on me will face if one day I collapse because I can’t support myself, and I can’t imagine how far I can go.” Theresia said: “If I Dragging them into the war, but I can't support it until the end of the war, Mr. Chen Mo, can you imagine what will happen?"

"Yes, I can imagine that these people would fall apart without you because you have become the only thing holding them together."

"Actually, many of them don't believe the beautiful words I said." His Highness said softly: "In fact, sometimes even I doubt whether I can really do it. They are gathered here because of me."

"And once you fall, those so-called ideals will turn into empty talk." Chen Mo replied in a low voice. She looked at Theresia's waist: "Is there no other way?"

"Thank you for your concern. Kelsey has been working hard on this, although... I don't want to let her down again."

Chen Mo suddenly understood the meaning of her words. He felt that people like Theresia shouldn't die here like this. She really didn't want to be a Sarkaz, a demon that people said. She was too Gentle, but not lacking in wisdom, it's just that time didn't give her enough mercy.

It's always like this, cold and heartless.

"Excuse me, why are you telling me this?" Chen Mo finally asked his doubts. In fact, given Chen Mo's status at this time, Theresa had absolutely no need to talk to him about this, nor did she. It was necessary to come to him personally for such an insignificant outsider.

"Because I know that the words you said to me are not false lies. I will not deny my worries and fears. Even if concealing them will be more beneficial to my status, I cannot use false lies to make them Those soldiers who fought for me and my ideals died in vain on the battlefield. I know that war is inevitable. I just don’t want the sacrifices of the soldiers to be worthless, even if they just save one person and avoid the death of a soldier. Avoiding a family separation is worth it to me."

Theresia did not hide her answer. She was indeed an upright person, and her integrity could not help but make people surprised and admired.

She is a great hero of the Sakaz clan that has existed for hundreds of years. Many Sakaz have grown up listening to the stories of Theresia ruling Sakaz against foreign invasions. How could she be weak and afraid of war? .

She is only well aware of the horror of war, is used to seeing life and death, and is used to seeing the remnants and disasters caused by war, so she is using her own way to save these unnecessary sufferings.

"In the past, I would also cheer for the victory and glory brought by the war, and feel proud and proud that I led the army to win. But then I realized, Mr. Chen Mo, that I realized that behind the victory and glory are countless A family that has lost a loved one, there are countless wives who have lost their husbands, children who have lost their fathers, and parents who have lost their sons." Theresa said with a hint of self-blame: "There is no glory or glory in war, my crown and honor stained with the blood of fallen warriors and the tears of their relatives.”

Chen Mo lost the motivation to continue talking. Even though he knew in his heart that Theresa in front of him might be wrong, he was not sure that he could find the correct answer.

Theresa was not wrong in wanting to avoid war. She became an idealist. Those seemingly stupid and unattainable ideals came from her experience and reflection on the war.

Chen Mo was not wrong, because there should not be two contradictory regimes in a country, and the existence of Theresia and her supporters has become the foundation for shaking this country.

Kazdale, this chaotic land has welcomed its long-awaited monarch, but the monarch is a terminally ill infected person, but the monarch's philosophy has made some people accustomed to chaos and war believe that only iron blood can change Kazdale Sakaz scoffed.

Kazdare, a land that has lost much value, is the only hometown and motherland of the Sakaz people on this land.

"Sorry, Your Highness, I..."

"It's okay, Mr. Chen Mo, you don't have to apologize for this. Thank you very much for telling me the future in your eyes. But sometimes, life can still continue after we die, not because of anything else, but because someone can live on. , this is the reason that supports us to move forward." Theresia said softly: "In this land, things that take away other people's lives at will are repeated. There is always something that will take away the people we love, take away those Those who support us, those things can even happen between parents and children, because of a word, some thoughts... there is so much hatred between them."

"But we are very fragile, Mr. Chen Mo. Our tears will flow into the sand and the seeds will not germinate there."

Chen Mo suddenly thought of Tallulah, but he could no longer remember Tallulah's appearance.

small tower...

Yes, Xiaota, I almost forgot about you.

Standing in history, Chen Mo has never reflected on those who died because of the war and those who suffered because of the war. What are they seeking? Are they tired of war and deeply hate it?

Chen Mo's words were so eloquent, high-sounding, so easy to say, so innocent and ridiculous, but Theresa, she was constantly reflecting on and verifying her own ideals in this land.

She is an endless idealist, willing to bear hardships and explore forward little by little for her ideals.

She deserves to be loved.

Chapter 80 The flames of war continue ([-]) As he saw it, he began to think

[What makes great people and wise men successful is their constant self-reflection and thinking in practice and reality. 】

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The conversation with Theresia ended in vain.

This made Chen Mo confused whether Theresa was here for the future he was talking about or because of something else. She had been thinking about something that had already surpassed Chen Mo's cognition, her ideal.

She is constantly reflecting on and verifying her ideals. For this reason, she is even full of expectations for the future that Chen Mo said does not exist. Chen Mo hopes that it can help her.

During the brief conversation with Theresia, her words caused Chen Mo to reflect. Perhaps in her eyes, Chen Mo was also naive, naively harboring a certain fantasy, and now Chen Mo is not sure what he knows. How much value and influence will the future have in this world? How many people will think deeply about and care about those distant and unrealistic lies in the established semi-feudal society.

There is often a fine line between genius and lunatic.

After all, Chen Mo is just an ordinary person. His experience is not enough to make me a wise sage, and his knowledge is not enough to make him a leader who can point the way forward for people like Theresia.

Chen Mo began to reflect on the differences between the two worlds, and in the process of reflection, he finally understood that what he lacked was not just the unsubstantiated history he said, but what he lacked was practice, and he had never really practiced what he was doing. How much value can the things mentioned have on this land, and whether they can adapt to the laws of development of this land.

Different from Chen Mo, Theresa has been practicing. These two contrasts made Chen Mo feel ashamed, and he could not help but be attracted to Theresa because of this, because when Chen Mo talked about it on paper, Tracy Ya did not show any disdain or sarcasm. She maintained a serious and solemn attitude from beginning to end, talking to Chen Mo, sharing, and even expressing her opinions.

In fact, from Theresia's perspective and experience, she understands the problem better than anyone else, but even someone like her cannot find a suitable solution, let alone Chen Mo.

Chen Mo doesn't think that an ordinary person, even if he has another historical process that he may not be able to remember clearly, can influence how many situations on this land he has and become a prophet in the eyes of others.

That's impossible, because Chen Mo can't even remember that history clearly, and because he has never entered any government agency to become a leader, past or present.

Maybe Chen Mo might have a chance to do it in the future, but Chen Mo now can't.

Theresia left.

He left the tent when the sky was slightly cooler. The cold wind that poured in when the tent was raised finally brought Chen Mo back to his senses. The cold wind blew Theresia's long white hair, and Chen Mo saw the rich darkness behind him before dawn.

The light of the oil lamp was very weak, but it was enough for Chen Mo to see the faint smile on Theresia's face.

"Good night, Mr. Chen Mo. Maybe I shouldn't say this now. I'm sorry to have disturbed you for so long. But if Kelsey finds out that I'm missing later, then today will be too bad."

There was a hint of fear in her half-witted words. It was hard to imagine that such a person would be Theresia, the leader of the Sakaz people. She was humorous, but deeply concerned about the future of Sakaz. Worry.

"Walk slowly, Your Highness."

Chen Mo wanted to stand up, but Theresia waved her hand and walked to the entrance of the tent herself.

Chen Mo suddenly felt a little reluctant to let go, for no reason.Theresia's words made Chen Mo realize his naivety. He wanted to know how the person in front of him was going to face her future. Chen Mo had a lot to say, but now he knew that those words were unreliable.

Maybe it's just an idea, but this idea seems too unrealistic in this land.

Theresa nodded slightly.

"See you next time, Mr. Chen Mo."

"See you next time, Your Highness."

Chen Mo watched Theresia's figure disappear from the tent, and as the tent's door cloth fell, she walked into the rich darkness before dawn. This scene suddenly reminded Chen Mo of a particularly symbolic scene.

On the eve of the dawn of the country, there were countless similar people, holding torches and trudging forward on the rugged mountain roads. They all fell before daylight.

If Theresia's ideals that seemed full of kindness and kindness would make her one of the fallen, Chen Mo wouldn't be surprised, because now he understands that kindness may not be a good thing. While people on this land are actually looking forward to hope, they are also resisting goodness. The most frightening thing is that they have become accustomed to it.

We must give the people hope, teach them to be kind, strengthen the country and enrich the people, and make sacrifices for our ideals.