Longmen Memoirs

"This is my home. No one knows their own home."

"...But you left in the first place?" Texas suddenly said.

She had wanted to ask this question for a long time, but no one came to answer it because the person who could answer it had already left.

On the second day after coming to Penguin Logistics, Texas, who had filled out the employment application, went out, but the car that was supposed to be parked at the door was gone.

Chen Mo left without saying hello to her.

She clearly remembered that after she entered, Chen Mo stood in front of the car and waved to her.

Texas thought he would be waiting there, thought he would stay at Longmen like himself.

But he didn't.

"Did I make you angry?"

Chen Mo knew what Texas wanted to ask. He turned his head and Texas was sitting on the other side of the bench looking at him.

"I'm not angry."

Texas staggered Chen Mo's gaze.

"Really?"

"Yeah." The girl pursed her lips.Even if you want to be angry, after such a long time, you should be unable to get angry anymore.

Chen Mo couldn't help but look at the gray tail on Texas' back. What would an angry Texas do? She would bite.

But she's not biting herself now.

"All right【*#

"Yes." Texas did not refuse, "I want to know the reason."

The answer?There are always people who want to ask themselves the answer. No matter what they do, there must be a reason. It's like Ceria and the others asked the same question a long time ago.

But how did I answer that time?

It seemed that he was making up one reason after another that he didn't even believe, and he was trying to pass it off with high-sounding excuses. The more lies he told, the more smoothly he became smoother.

"Aren't you afraid that I will lie to you, just like when you went in that day?"

When Texas walked into the gate of Penguin Logistics that day, Chen Mo told her that he would wait outside and that smoking was not allowed inside. He would come in to find her after he finished smoking.

"It doesn't matter, as long as you say it, I will believe it."

"What you want is not an answer, but a reason?" Chen Mo asked.

A reason, a reason for Chen Mo to leave her behind.

Texas did not refute, which was regarded as acquiescence. He just looked at Chen Mo with a questioning look.

Chen Mo thought for a while and said, "I want to meet someone."

"Who?"

"A very dangerous person." Chen Mo said: "I still haven't been able to understand what he once said to me. I can't guarantee that I can escape unscathed, and I can't be too close to you, because you may It will come into his sight, that's one of the reasons."

"You are a wounded person I picked up out of kindness on my way back. At least on the surface, I can't have too deep a relationship with you. To be on the safe side, if you want to stay in Longmen, I have to do this and take you This is also why we handed it over to Penguin Logistics.”

The Penguin at Penguin Logistics has the ability to keep Texas if Texas is worth it.Chen Mo knew that with Texas's skills, the Emperor would not turn him away.

Chen Mo didn't tell Texas about the Crows' commission, but Texas should be able to figure out the transaction context.

Chen Mo said as if he thought of something.

"You don't think I'm afraid of the trouble you'll get involved with, do you?"

"Isn't it..." Texas did think so before, thinking that Chen Mo was worried about her troubles, so he handed her over to Penguin Logistics.

"If I can exchange a little trouble for a powerful thug, I don't think it will be a loss." Chen Mo said: "You think about how many attacks we encountered all the way from Syracuse, and finally settled down in Longmen, you can also You don’t want to step back into your past life, staying with me will only make your life a mess.”

"Really." Texas nodded slightly.

"Isn't it?"

"Seems to be."

Texas records their encounters along the way, the killers who followed Syracuse, from Syracuse to Letania and then to Kazdaele, and finally reached Longmen before finally settling down.

Chen Mo said that there was a place where she could live a new life, so they came to Longmen together, but he stayed in the past, maybe she never really understood him.

Understanding his past, the person in my memory was a person who cared about trivial matters. He was a talkative and always had all kinds of bad tastes. He liked to do stupid things that others couldn't understand.

"Do you think I'm a burden?" Texas asked, her yellow pupils staring closely at Chen Mo's face, and the hand on her left leg tightened.

"I just don't want you to go back again."

"Isn't it good now?" Chen Mo looked at Texas and smiled: "Noisy life, interesting companions, work, life, the hustle and bustle of holidays, and occasionally walking on the streets of Longmen."

Chen Mo's relaxed words seemed to be thinking about himself, but Texas couldn't help but feel a kind of anger in his heart.

"But you never asked me what I thought."

Texas said, but his voice was surprisingly calm, as if he was stating a fact.

You never asked me if I wanted to stay here, nor did you give me a chance to choose. It was only after I left the house that I realized you had left, quietly, just like the day you rescued me.

I opened my eyes and saw an unfamiliar environment and unfamiliar faces.

You picked up a wolf according to your mood, and then lost her again.

People will think of their past, because memory contains a variety of emotions, because things from the past are still there and will not be forgotten.

Usually in this situation, people have to face two choices, and they will also show different ways of treating it, such as forgetting, or the complete opposite.

"If I tell you, you will go with me, right? Texas." Chen Mo asked.

"My old self... could," Texas said.

Now that she is staying at Penguin Logistics and having formed a bond with Penguin Logistics, she can no longer nod without hesitation like she did in the past.

Once you are concerned, you will have memories, and it will be difficult to make a choice, so it is best to attack a stranger, because you don't understand him, you don't know him, so you can kill him with your own hands and without any burden.

"Thank you, but don't let the penguin in your home hear what you say, he will be jealous."

Chen Mo blinked his eyes and whispered that he was very happy to hear Texas's answer. At least it could prove that Texas really had a new life worthy of her nostalgia. His choice was not wrong, no. He let her follow him, and then suddenly threw her away without saying a word.

"The boss won't." Texas replied.

Under the morning sunshine, with the warm west wind blowing the leaves, Chen Mo and Texas looked at each other, and then looked away slightly.

"I don't want you to go with me. I don't regard you as a burden, Texas." Chen Mo said: "You are the most suitable partner I have ever met. We cooperate very well, but I can't let you always Follow me, you don’t know my past, you don’t know what kind of person I am, but I know you, I know your past.”

"There are many people alive in this world, but there are also many people dying at the same time. I have told you before that people rarely have the opportunity to make a new choice. This is not an escape, but if you have this opportunity, you must seize it. "

"What about you?" Texas stared at Chen Mo who was tilting his head.

"Me, I'm just like you."

"Finally wanted to calm down, so you came back here?" Texas asked.

"That's about it." Chen Mo nodded: "Actually, I never thought I could come back before."

"Huh?" Texas tilted his head and twitched his ears in confusion.

It doesn't make much sense to talk about the past now. Texas has a new life, and Chen Mo has become her memory. She just wants an answer. After getting the answer, she settles the pain in her heart. A long-cherished wish.

Whether what Chen Mo said is true or false, it doesn't matter much.

"Do you know where I went after leaving Longmen?"

Texas did not ask further questions. She just looked at Chen Mo quietly, waiting for Chen Mo's next words.

Chen Mo was a little envious in his words:

"A lot of places, first Ursus, then I went to Kazdaele, then I went to Victoria, and then I went to Yan Country. The wandering life sounds cool, but it's quite tiring. Now that I think about it, it's still... It would be better for you to stay in Longmen."

As if to explain why he didn't bring her with him, Texas heard this meaning from his words, and she felt inexplicably better.

She looked at Chen Mo, he was here now, and so was she. This encounter might be a new beginning.

Thinking of this, Texas' voice became lighter: "Isn't your wish to travel around the world?"

"I lied to you. Who would be so stupid as to really want to travel around the world? I am not a messenger. What if there is a natural disaster? There is no place to escape."

"You said before that you were good at escaping?"

"But no matter how fast your legs are, you can't run away from natural disasters." Chen Mo replied.

Their conversation was like friends they hadn't seen for a long time, plain and full of memories.

"Is that child your friend's?"

Texas finally remembered the silver-haired girl who was lying on the lawn with Angel after they were tired from playing together.

"Isn't it cute?" Chen Mo suddenly felt a little energetic. He followed Texas' gaze and saw Xiao Mo, who was rolling around on the lawn with Angel Neng.

She and Angel are quite compatible. Rather, Angel's character is really popular with children, like a child king.

"Hmm..." A faint smile appeared on Texas's lips: "Very cute."

"My name is Xiao Mo..." Chen Mo said hurriedly.

"Xiao Mo?" Texas was a little confused.

"I haven't introduced her to you yet." Chen Mo showed a silly expression and pointed at the little girl over there: "You may not believe it, but it's true, Chen Xiaomo, my daughter."

"..."

Texas's smile froze at the corner of her mouth. Her hand on the edge of the bench subconsciously clasped the bench, and her nails made a deep and conspicuous mark.

Chen Mo failed to notice the changes in Texas. He was still looking over there, his smile getting brighter.

"She seems to get along well with your colleague. I've never seen her having so much fun."

"What did you say?"

Texas seemed to have just come back to her senses. She took a breath, her brain almost shut down.

"Sorry, I didn't hear you, can you say that again?"

"……what?"

"She's your..."

"Daughter."

New beginning? !

Texas felt like something was suddenly disconnected in his head. He felt a little dizzy and couldn't react for a long time.

ps: Chen Mo will not sacrifice himself anymore, and he has nothing to sacrifice.Efforts may not necessarily be rewarded, but if it is not wishful thinking, the efforts should be two-way.

Chapter 46 Wolf and Dog ([-])

Perhaps because of her experiences in the early years, Texas is a taciturn person most of the time. She is very quiet and not very good at expressing her emotions and talking to others. She usually chooses to bury secrets deep in her heart. If If you don't ask, she won't tell you.

You rarely see unnecessary expression changes on that face. As a person who doesn't show much emotion to others, she usually only deals with the lowest level of interpersonal relationships. If you want to get to know her better, you often It's hard to find common ground with her.

Chen Mo knew what this was, he had seen the same people as Texas.

After experiencing major changes in life, it will become like this, especially when they have entered a period of unspeakable darkness and trough, they will gradually become hesitant and numb towards everything around them, and will gradually feel that the surrounding people Everything is strange and at the same time seems incompatible with myself.

Just like the original Vina.

Texas, Texas…

Texas heard someone calling her name softly. Chen Mo took out a pack of cigarettes from her bag. When Texas came to her senses, she already had a cigarette between her fingertips.

She saw the plainness on Chen Mo's face, which contained a strangeness that made her helpless. He lit the cigarette and exhaled gently.

Texas didn't know what it felt like. It seemed like she was relieved. She saw such an emotion from Chen Mo.

Texas' eyes narrowed, feeling the touch of the cigarette on his fingertips.

She remembered that many years ago, on their journey, before dawn, the long road, the roar of the engine, and the wilderness, Chen Mo would always light a cigarette against the car window, waiting for the sparks to touch his fingertips and burn them out.

She didn't end up lighting up.

"you are married?"

Texas asked softly. After asking, she suddenly regretted her recklessness.Speaking of which, what is the relationship between her and Chen Mo? They are friends, probably better than friends, but not more.