Longmen Memoirs

Tallulah's eyes suddenly tightened. She stared blankly at the child in front of her, and tried to overlap her with someone, but she found that they did not have much in common, but that it was herself.

She is very similar to myself.

She didn't want to believe that answer, but she still couldn't control herself and wanted to know: "Who is your mommy?"

Xiao Mo didn't answer.

She stared at that mature and beautiful face with serious eyes and asked aloud: "Are we really similar?"

She saw Xiaota smiling. Xiaota's smile was very beautiful.

"It's very similar." Tallulah reached out and touched Xiao Mo's head, brushing her silver hair between her white fingers: "Exactly the same."

Tallulah stood up.

Xiao Mo suddenly grabbed the hem of her clothes.

"Are you going?"

There was reluctance and hope in the child's eyes.

"Well, I'm leaving."

"Can you not go?"

Tallulah looked at Xiao Mo in confusion.

"He's looking for you?"

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Her movements stopped.

"I know, I know she's looking for me, she's been looking for me for years."

"Then why did you leave? You knew he was looking for you, so you didn't go to see him."

Xiao Mo grabbed the hem of Tallulah's clothes a little harder. The little strength was not enough to keep her. She could break away easily, but she still stayed.

"Because I can't be found by her." Tallulah explained gently: "I'm afraid she will be sad when she sees me."

"I don't understand."

Xiao Mo shook her head. Her good upbringing prevented her from losing her temper, even though she really didn't understand.

"You'll understand later."

"After you all said it, do you understand?" Xiao Mo looked up at Tallulah: "I don't understand why you want to leave, why you think he won't be sad if you leave."

Tallulah was stunned.

She didn't speak, she didn't say a word, her eyes were hidden in the shadows of the attic.

The attic fell silent.

"Can you take me with you, Xiaota?"

Tallulah finally spoke: "Why do you want to go with me?"

"Because you look sad. He said that we are relatives. I don't want you to be sad alone. Then I will feel sad too...I'm sorry."

The little girl lowered her head, but her hands still didn't let go.

"No need to apologize." Tallulah shook her head. She knelt down again and gently touched Xiao Mo's disappointed face. "There is no need to say sorry and thank you to each other."

Xiao Mo raised his head, and the eyes in front of him were as pure as rubies.

"Besides, you didn't do anything wrong."

"Then can I go with you?" Xiao Mo asked in a low voice. "He will come to us."

"If you want." Tallulah took Xiao Mo's hand.

The girl's hand was very small, but the moment she held it, a different kind of warmth gradually emerged in Tallulah's heart and flowed quietly.

"What's your name?"

"Xiao Mo, Chen Xiaomo."

"You can call me Xiaota."

"Mom, can I call you mom?"

"...Why do you call me mom?"

Tallulah would not admit that she had mixed feelings when she heard this.

"Because we look alike, people will think you are my mommy, but I already have a mommy."

No one could tell whether Xiao Mo had planned this for a long time or just made it on the spur of the moment, just like no one could tell whether her previous expression and words were true or false.

"No."

"Oh."

"It won't work even if I cry."

"I didn't cry."

Tallulah, who was holding her little daughter, slightly raised the corners of her mouth.

"Then don't forget what you said now."

Chapter 89 Sure enough, it's you

She was a tenacious fighter who fought for the infected who suffered injustice and suffering on this land of Terra. She stood up to bring light and fire to them. She liberated Chernobog and led the way. The infected people in the Northland resisted for themselves. She was the spiritual guide for the infected people, and she personally unlocked the shackles that trapped their hearts.

She did so much for others.

...She only forgot herself.

No one can get the best of both worlds. All people can do is to weigh the pros and cons to avoid losing the big for the small.

The child's little thoughts were invisible to Tallulah, and she did not tell them, as if to preserve the innocence that she remembered. When she was a child, Tallulah was better than the little girl in this regard, let alone when she grew up. After that, her life has been revolved around the word "people's heart".

She doesn't like to pry into other people's thoughts, but as a leader, it is necessary for her to understand what everyone is thinking and what they want.

Over time, she gradually became familiar with all kinds of people's hearts and desires, and therefore she cherished this kind of pure and innocent thoughts more and more.

Xiao Mo's appearance and the blood flowing in her body will make Tallulah feel close to her, and this feeling of blood being thicker than water and being connected to a part of herself cannot be replaced by anyone.

From time to time, the little girl would quietly look at the person holding her hand next to her. She was wearing a hood, but no one who saw them would think that there was no relationship between them.

They resemble a mother and daughter, a young wife and a young daughter.

But this is not the case.

Although for a moment, the same thought flashed through Tallulah's mind, but it was quickly buried again.

Maybe he had thought about the arrival of this day, but she had not had time to think about it because her journey had not been completed yet, and she might not be able to complete it in this life.

People who are willing to give up their ideals for love are fools. Tallulah once greedily wanted to keep both of them. She overestimated herself, just like she overestimated her expectations for the snowfield guerrillas she had not yet met. She felt that they deserved Will join him, but it turns out that people who are too greedy often do not end well.

The word "effort" can explain a lot of things, and the word "effort" is also an excuse for self-comfort after failure.

The little girl didn't have as complicated a mind as Tallulah.

She just felt that the current scene was a bit like a dream, and she had complicated feelings for Xiaota. Xiaomo had looked forward to seeing her, and thought she would hate her. She didn't know what peace felt like. This feeling made her hold the adult's hand tightly.

"Where are we going?" Xiao Mo asked after walking out of the orphanage.

“Where I live,” her answer has become increasingly succinct over the years.

"In Longmen?"

Xiao Mo was a little worried. She didn't tell Chen Mo when she decided to go with Xiao Ta. Because it was Xiao Ta, Xiao Mo didn't feel scared, and because it was Xiao Ta, she naively wanted to keep her for them.

Xiao Mo still doesn't know that there are so many things that adults can't do in the first half of their lives, so what use can a little child muster up for no reason?

"Now." As if she knew what Xiao Mo was thinking, Tallulah stopped and said, "If you want to go back now, it's still too late."

She was waiting for Xiao Mo to make a decision without urging, let alone tempting.

"Can you take me home?"

Xiao Mo hasn't given up yet.

"How old are you?" Tallulah asked.

"Six years old."

"You can walk by yourself, it's not far away." Tallulah said, looking down at her.

The little girl lowered her gaze and looked at her feet, not daring to look at those eyes.

"I want to follow you." Xiao Mo didn't let go of her hand, even though she was a little hesitant now. "He will definitely come to us."

She seemed to have an inexplicable trust in Chen Mo, but she didn't know that in Chen Mo's heart, Chen Mo had always been a coward.

"What if she doesn't come? You have to follow me and leave [%~

I don’t know why, maybe because she finds it interesting, or maybe this is a dragon gate. The little child’s face that looks like hers reminds Tallulah of some bad memories.

Come with me.

She let go of her hand at that time, Tallulah complained, but later she began to be glad that she did not choose to leave with her.

"He will come. We came here together. If he doesn't find me, he will definitely come to me." Xiao Mo said stubbornly, asking intermittently in a low voice: "I don't want him to worry, so can we not leave?"

She said leave rather than go, although there wasn't much difference between the two.

Tallulah finally realized what was strange about herself at this moment.

She did not continue to tease Xiao Mo. She had no reason to follow the same path as herself.

"If she doesn't come, I'll have someone take you back."

Xiao Mo took a breath and relaxed a lot. She looked up at Tallulah again and said, "Thank you, Xiao Ta."

"No need to thank me, have you forgotten what I just said to you?"

Xiao Mo paused and smiled: "Family members don't have to say sorry or thank you."

But she still felt it was unreal, just like the Xiaota she saw in front of her now. She thought she would have to wait until she grew up to see Xiaota.

"Don't forget again."

"Yeah, Xiaota."

She likes the name Xiaota, and she likes that she has silver hair like hers, but Xiaota doesn't seem to like others calling her Xiaota. Xiaota always gives her an uncomfortable yet familiar feeling, like being left alone at home. of myself.

"Alina might like you very much," Tallulah said softly.

She didn't admit that she also liked this young and innocent version of herself.

Chen Mo received the bad news two hours later. He worked hard to repair the roof of the utility room of the orphanage. The fat Ms. Lan Min prepared the food for lunch. He did not have time to miss the taste of his childhood. , Ms. Theresa hurriedly came to tell Chen Mo that the little child was not found in the orphanage.

"Could it be that he ran there and hid?"

Ms. Teresa guessed that the children in the orphanage sometimes did this kind of thing, but not until lunch time.

Chen Mo shook his head. He tried hard to tell himself to calm down, but it didn't work at all. He squeezed his hands slightly.

"Xiao Mo wouldn't do such a thing." He said, "Don't be nervous, Ms. Theresa, maybe he went to play with a certain child."

Chen Mo, who said this, understood in his heart that the orphanage was not very big and he couldn't even go there to play. And if he wanted to climb over the wall like he did when he was a child, Chen Mo didn't think Xiao Mo would do it without saying a word, but he still hoped for the time being. This woman can feel at ease.

"But the kids are all here."

Chen Mo finally couldn't hide the panic on his face.

"Has anyone else been here in the courtyard?"

"Except for you and Xiao Mo, no outsiders came in today."

"Monitoring..." Chen Mo stopped mid-sentence.

He saw Ms. Teresa's face gradually darkening as she hesitated to speak, and he remembered that the orphanage did not have the extra expenditure to install those expensive equipment.

"Don't worry yet, Ms. Theresa, go and see the children. There aren't any in the orphanage. There should be some on the streets outside. Maybe some passers-by see Xiao Mo. The child's appearance is easy to remember."

"Chen Mo..."

Ms. Theresa wanted to say something, but her slightly remorseful and worried face made Chen Mo calm down completely.