Longmen Memoirs

"Because of many reasons." Chen Mo said.

"...I'm sorry." Shi Huaiya finally plucked up the courage and whispered, slightly lowering her eyelids, her eyes dark and dull.

The sudden words of the girl in front of him made Chen Mo quiet down. In the silence, Chen Mo saw her shoulders shaking slightly, so after peeling off the gentle disguise, the two people in the room finally fell into a brief silence.

"Probably before, I had such thoughts during that time. It's ridiculous to say, but I'm sorry, I've been waiting for you for 18 years." Chen Mo looked at the guilty girl in front of him and said, "I thought, if it weren't for you, , I wouldn't have experienced all this, but without you, I wouldn't have met Chen. I don't know if I should thank you, but if I thank you, it will make me feel very unwilling."

"After that, I understood a truth, a truth that everyone understands. Your sorry is just something I need but has nothing to do with you. I suddenly understood that you are not wrong, never, because if you are wrong, I It just negates his decision, and I’m not qualified to do that.”

Chen Mo's words gradually calmed down Shi Huaiya's uneasy heart. She just watched the man in front of her calmly say this to herself, the culprit, without much anger or complaint, as if she was telling a story, one that was not a good one. s story.

"So you don't need to say sorry to me, and you don't owe me anything." Chen Mo said.

After the coffee on the table gradually lost its temperature, Shi Huaiya's heart calmly felt a touch of warmth. Her green eyes reflected the boy who was once lonely and helpless because of herself.

He suffered all the hardships of the world.

He stood next to the scared little girl huddled in the corner. They had the same reassuring smile.

"On the contrary, it was me who made you worry and be afraid for so long...I'm sorry."

"It's so shameless..." Shi Huaiya suddenly raised her hand and rubbed the corners of her eyes, her voice paused.

She looked at Chen Mo, showed a bright and cunning smile, and suddenly rushed up to hug him.

she says:

"Suddenly saying something like this to me, wouldn't it be easy for people to like you? But I have never thought about robbing other people's things."

So sudden, so unexpected and natural.

Chen Mo's hands opened uneasily.

But she felt something warm dripping on the back of her neck. His hand that had no place to rest paused, and he gently hugged this silly girl.

"make you worry."

She is actually quite simple.

ps: Chen Mo is not an upright good person. Well, maybe the word "good person" used to describe him is far from it. The same is true for the fox. It's just that the plot has not been completed before, so it may not be clear.

Shihuaiya, it’s more complicated to say.

How could he not hate Shi Huaiya? He even resented Chen and Tallulah, but people would find excuses and relief for their sufferings, and he did the same, but later it was more about understanding the world than understanding. of truth.

To do or not to do.

Running silently, your sadness and joy have nothing to do with me.

Chapter 115 A strange combination of circumstances or destiny

Chen Mo never thought that he was so capable of resolving people's worries, it just happened that the past events that Shi Huaiya was struggling with were related to him.

How could Chen Mo not hate her?

Chen Mo hated her. Like all people who shirk their responsibilities and try to live a peaceful life, Chen Mo also attributed all his faults to one person, because whenever he thought of the haggard and pale face in his memory, he would well up in his heart. There was too much resentment and anger, unwillingness, paranoia, and regret that had no place to put it.

If there is someone who can bear these emotions for him, he will feel much better. He is not a strong person, and can even be called a coward, but he can still distinguish between right and wrong in his heart, even if the boundaries have long been blurred.

The term "growing up" actually means that suddenly at a certain moment, you understand what you should and should not do. It means that suddenly at a certain moment, you find that the things you once cared about are no longer forgotten.

Chen Mo was not qualified to comment on the rights and wrongs of the dead man, nor to judge his choices, because his responsibility did not belong to him, and because Chen Mo ultimately failed to become a member of the Guards Bureau as he wanted. police officer.

Now all of this has long passed. Perhaps Chen Mo should be grateful. At least the Shi Huaiya in front of him told Chen Mo that his original choice was not wrong. She did not live up to his death, and their subsequent wanderings also had a relationship. A fairly fitting ending.

Shi Huaiya asked Chen Mo where he went later.

She had been to the orphanage before, but Chen Mo was no longer there at that time.

She also mentioned Londinium that Chen Mo had mentioned, reminding Chen Mo of her original birth. She was much more familiar with Victoria than Chen Mo.

The young and beautiful girl in front of her became as bright and free as her appearance and blond hair after she lost so much sadness and worry.

Chen Mo told her that since leaving the orphanage and Longmen, he went to Colombia, where he lived and studied. The half-truths and half-false lies were mixed with the daily lives of many employers he had known during the mission.

Chen Mo tried her best to describe a story of a boy's growth that was difficult but stable and peaceful, so as to dispel the chaotic thoughts she might have.

Perhaps it was true that Chen Mo was already used to lying. Shi Huaiya did not show much doubt about Chen Mo's answers, but occasionally asked about some of his past experiences, his work, his life, his preferences and interests.

Chen Mo never thought that this sudden meeting would turn into a personal complaint meeting, and it would be too unreasonable to complain to a girl he didn't know well who he felt owed.

Even though Shi Huaiya is his theoretical "Miss Enemy", this kind of hatred that is not hatred is usually based on personal wishful thinking and is not worth someone having to spend the rest of his life for it.

"Do you work? It's like looking after others. I signed up for a folk fighting hobby association there. The things they teach are actually quite useful, but most of the time I do part-time jobs and factory workers, filling in for others everywhere. Running errands and stuff like that, life is not only passable but also fulfilling.”

Chen Mo gave the characters in his lies their due color, making him conform to the normal growth process of a boy living in a foreign land.

Shi Huaiya would naturally show hesitation and uneasiness because of his answer. Chen Mo thought that if money could solve the relationship between them and the grudge in Shi Huaiya's heart, both he and Shi Huaiya would be happy. .

But Shi Huaiya also knows that today's Chen Mo actually does not lack these things. What Chen Mo lacks has become a regret that he and he can never make up for and retrieve as he grows up.

Shi Huaiya didn't mention anything like money or compensation to Chen Mo, which was a bit regretful, because the rich lady whom Chen Mo thought of coldly threw down a bank card worth tens of millions on the table and said in a decisive tone that they would never be together again. The drama of owing each other is far different.

"I think it was quite miserable at the beginning. I was alone in a foreign country, didn't understand the language, had no money, no food, and no one to care about me. I was like garbage on the street, disappearing and no one cared about it." Chen Mo was half-joking. Said: "I really did a lot of bad things, whether it was stealing or robbing. After being chased by the police several times, I developed some escape skills."

He should have said this, if that kind of life could be described as too warm and stable, it would be unacceptable.

Being chased by the police is not an uncommon experience, but killers and paid mercenaries are much more difficult to deal with than reasonable police officers. As for stealing and robbing, Black Steel's service areas usually involve these unnecessary Business.

Those who run away are cowards, Chen Mo said so, but Chen Mo has been running away, trying his best to escape. In the past, he was afraid of death, but then he became a habit. He was used to leaving others where they were and escaping in embarrassment.

"Then why did you leave in the first place?" Shi Huaiya asked.

She was not the first person to ask this question to Chen Mo.

There were some things that Shi Huaiya didn't say, but Chen Mo knew.

Perhaps if Chen Mo could wait a few years for Shi Huaiya to return from Victoria, or if Chen Mo had not agreed to the man's deal, his subsequent life would have changed a lot because of Shi Huaiya's appearance.

The vulgar scenario of marrying into a rich family with a wealthy lady will probably not happen, but the side that Chen Mo just imagined may appear. He doesn't have to worry about the future food, clothing, housing and transportation. He has realized what many people have been pursuing for most of their lives in advance, and maybe it will be possible. Good luck seeing the fox early.

"Because I don't know what I can do if I stay in Longmen." Chen Mo said: "After the age of 16, the children in the orphanage must leave the orphanage, but at that time I didn't know what I was going to do after I left. If you haven’t gone to school and have no skills, you might be able to survive, but the world is such a big place, and children always have a lot of ideas.”

"So what? At that time..." Shi Huaiya asked: "What are your thoughts."

"The slogan of Colombia on the street is that everyone can create miracles, the so-called Colombian dream." Chen Mo raised his head and said complicatedly: "I didn't expect it to be like this when I went there."

Chen Mo looked at her: "Tell me, if I were still here at that time, if you found me, would you coldly throw me a large sum of money like in the movie, so that I could live a comfortable life? this life?"

She was stunned, as if she didn't expect Chen Mo to say such words suddenly, but soon, she stood up and looked down at Chen Mo with a cold and contemptuous corner of her eyes. She held the The black card was slapped on the coffee table in front of Chen Mo.

"This feeling?"

"Pretty much, maybe a little more domineering."

Shi Huaiya put her left hand on her waist and raised her head slightly.

"so?"

"The more fierce your eyes are, the more fierce they should be."

"Well, wait."

"Well, much better." Chen Mo picked up the card and nodded, "Don't say anything more?"

"What did you say?" She thought for a moment, coughed slightly, pretending to be indifferent and disgusted: "The money in it is enough for you to live the rest of your life richly. Take it, remember, from today on, we will never be together." Owe each other.”

I didn't expect that she would accommodate his temporary bad taste, so I felt a little sigh in my heart.

"Okay."

But Shi Huaiya suddenly lost her temper and collapsed heavily. She sat on Chen Mo's sofa opposite, holding the pillow tightly in her arms. She looked at Chen Mo with a serious expression and slightly puffed her mouth, which reminded Chen Mo of Chen before the outbreak.

"Will Chen play with you like this?" She used the word "play" to describe their previous behavior.

"Normally not."

"usually?"

"Once or twice." Chen Mo said.

Shi Huaiya gritted his teeth gently.

"It's really hard to tell when she's like that." Shi Huaiya said, and then asked: "How do you think I will cooperate with you?"

The science of criminal psychology sometimes has the opposite effect on people who want to pretend not to care. Of course, it is difficult to miss any clues if you are too observant, but your psychology will become extremely sensitive.

There are two types of people who are not suitable for learning this course, the first is bad people and the second is good people.

"Just think of it as a little joke." Chen Mo looked at the card in his hand and asked, "How much is there in it?"

"A few million." Shi Huaiya replied nonchalantly.

Chen Mo quickly put the credit card on the table in an orderly manner. His actions made Shi Huaiya want to laugh, but she quickly suppressed her smile.

Because the person in front of him is very good at lying, he will not forget to respond appropriately to his virtual character.

"This joke is not funny at all." She became a little angry and pointed at Chen Mo: "What I just said was not a joke. I warned you, taking advantage of other people's guilt is a very bad behavior. Behavior."

"……Feel sorry."

"You're just kidding, I find you quite interesting." Shi Huaiya smiled: "Now we are even."

It's hard to imagine that Chen Mo's character would get along with someone like Chen who was cold and stern-faced, and for Chen, it's even harder to imagine that she would behave the same way in private.

They seemed to be friends who had not seen each other for many years. Suddenly they recognized each other while walking on the street, so they met and sat in a cold drink shop on the street to chat about their experiences over the years.

With some curiosity, with some supposed strangeness, but also with some alienation and pause that I don’t know how to alleviate.

Shi Huaiya still had some scruples, and Chen Mo was not always able to respond to her naturally and normally.

In the end, the topic inevitably turned to Chen Mo's current identity and the reason why Chen Mo appeared here. In fact, Chen Mo should have thought that from the moment he knew that Lin Yuxia and Shi Huaiya were friends, he should have understood that Shi Huaiya also asked Lin Yuxia for help. asked the same question, but Chen Mo didn't expect how she confirmed her identity, or who leaked the information.

After excluding Fox and Chen, a tall, cheerful but actually quite small-minded woman appeared in Chen Mo's mind. She did seem like someone who could do such a thing. In fact, she had always been interested in things like gossip. Have an unknown passion.

Shi Huaiya intentionally or unintentionally asked Chen Mo about his specific department and position in the Guards Bureau, with a vague intention that he could come to her if he encountered any trouble, and then warned Chen Mo casually that it was best not to participate. into this case.

How should Chen Mo explain to her his current identity and the fact that she was actually the poor person who had the least information.

Chen Mo could only nod or shake his head, but she seemed to have finally found her value and began to chatterly share her work and troubles in the Guards Bureau with Chen Mo.

When Chen is mentioned occasionally, he is not very polite in today's atmosphere.

Chen did cause her a lot of trouble or... pressure.

Chen Mo listened patiently to Shi Huaiya's enthusiastic advice and valuable experience for him, a junior and newcomer, and then watched her confidently and proudly pat her tall and broad chest under her white shirt and red tie. After shaking, Chen Mo looked away knowingly.

Chen Mo's department became a confidential matter in his mouth.

"I don't understand either. I'm a senior superintendent. I should be your commander, right?" She asked, "Is that the commander?"

"No one can give orders unless it is Chief Wei himself."

Chen Mo had no choice but to move Wei Yanwu out.

"Then you didn't tell Chen?" she asked suspiciously.

"It's my duty to distinguish between public and private matters, not even Chen!" Chen Mo said affirmatively. "You must not doubt my loyalty."

"Really?"

"I can responsibly assure you."

Shi Huaiya asked Chen Mo again about his next plan. It seemed that she had given up the idea of ​​continuing to ask questions for the time being, and she also knew that Chen Mo could not give up this so-called "Chief Wei's personal order."

She began to ask Chen Mo about the action team, to which Chen Mo just replied that he was not sure.

"Aren't you from the action team?" She suddenly said in surprise.

Chen Mo finally realized that this girl was actually not simple.

"No."

The failure flashed across the corner of Shi Huaiya's eyes, as if to say: "Hey, it was just a little bit close."

Chen Mo suspected that if he continued to stay here, Shi Huaiya would eventually detect something through her subtle, increasingly compact and bold attempts. As expected, anyone who could reach the high position of Senior Superintendent, except Fox, would No one relies on bullying and flattery.

Shi Huaiya is indeed relieved a lot, but her pretending to be familiar and casual still proves that she still cares about something. Maybe the only thing left is time, and Chen Mo has learned not to be as despicable as in the past. To get close to another heart that has cracks and gaps, trying to make it one's own, to occupy a place.

Shi Huaiya will remind Chen Mo of Wei Na. When she was a member of the Glasgow Gang, she could deliberately and generously relax her guard against him, allowing [/&

But later, it was no longer clear what was true and what was false.