Longmen Memoirs

Chen Mo seemed to know what she wanted to do.

"You know, I want more than this."

Tallulah's movements paused, and a hint of darkness appeared in her bright eyes.

Tallulah tilted her head slightly.

"Your friend is right. I took advantage of you. I owe you enough. I knew exactly what happened in the snowfield, but I still pretended to know nothing and let you and Yan Guo He has done everything for me now.”

"But Alina told me that you kicked me out of the integration movement because you knew what I would do if I stayed." Chen Mo said: "You gave me a chance to choose. I chose you, and I also gave you a choice. opportunity, but you chose to integrate sports.”

"To be honest, I was quite sad at that time." Chen Mo half-jokingly looked at Tallulah in his arms: "My little Tallulah had obviously promised to give herself to me as a gift when she was young, but she chose her career instead. "

"Sometimes even I can't help but wonder, if I had taken you out of the Integration Movement and out of Ursus, or maybe I could have come back earlier, would I still be able to take advantage of you and Alina? I'll take you with me when I'm in that village." Chen Mo said, "I've gone back to Longmen so many times, but you didn't stay there anymore. I couldn't find any news about you. I almost thought I had lost you. The Integration Movement of Ursus informed me of your whereabouts."

Chen Mo stretched out his hand and gently brushed the silver hair around Tallulah's ears.

"I actually don't care about the plight of infected people. I don't have any great ideas."

"I know, I know everything." Tallulah lowered her eyelids slightly.

"You don't know." Chen Mo shook his head: "You stayed with the infected, so I must stay there too. Over the years, I have made many mistakes. I failed to be with Chen when he needed me most. By your side, I couldn't find you when you needed me most. I've been through so much, but in the end I still accomplished nothing."

"I don't agree. At least if it weren't for you, the Integration Movement and I wouldn't be where we are today."

"So you owe me what you owe me," Chen Mo said in a tone that said he could not refuse, as if he was collecting debts, and added: "You can't refuse."

"what do you want?"

"I've already said it." Chen Mo lowered his head and looked at Tallulah: "I want my little tower."

"I thought I would definitely refuse." Tallulah looked at Chen Mo tangledly: "Do you know what your words mean to me?"

"Of course I know, the speaker and the emperor of Ursus." Chen Mo said nonchalantly: "In Kazdare, I personally hanged a grand duke and expelled a prince. In Victoria, I sent countless nobles to hangings. In their eyes, I am an out-and-out devil, but I don’t care if they are emperors or anything else.”

Chapter 161

Chen always seemed to be late.

She seems to have always been like this. She was the last person to come, and she was the last person to leave. Only she was left by Tallulah and me in Longmen. After many years, she could finally muster up the courage. Get out of the city.

I have always thought that she and Tallulah are the same. They both have the seeds of resistance buried deep in their hearts. They are both naturally stubborn people. It’s just that Tallulah’s stubbornness is hidden in her heart, while Chen’s stubbornness is often shown on his face. , but later, as time passed, Chen's stubbornness and persistence gradually came to mind in her heart, but Tallulah showed it on her body.

They are sisters, but they usually have similar yet completely different personalities.

When I was a child, Chen's personality made me feel worried and uncomfortable. She looked at me warily, as if she had never rejected her dislike for me. She hoped that I could get away as far away as possible. Even if I had never offended her, she would still do it from time to time. Will cause trouble for me.

I know that Chen is not the kind of bad kid with the mentality of bullying the homeless orphanage. She is just afraid. The fear of a child, how important Tallulah is to her is reflected on her face. She regarded this as caring and closeness. She undoubtedly loved Tallulah, but this love could not withstand the destruction of adults.

Chen's life lacks a lot of happiness that she should have. Her mother doesn't like him, and her father also hates her because of her mother. She is the child of two people who don't want to love at all because of circumstances. Of course they would regret it, so no one poured too much emotion into this poor child.

I didn't understand it as a kid.

I don’t understand why the eldest daughter of the Chen family looks like this, why the eldest daughter of the Chen family, who has received a good family education, screams because of an ordinary cicada. She looks at the glass bottle insects with a bright light in their eyes.

She had been suppressed for too long, and she longed too much for someone to care about her.

I have never seen Miss Chen’s look of loss and loneliness, never seen the dull and self-reproaching look in her dark eyes, never seen the moment when she gritted her teeth and looked firm and focused.

I missed so much of life with Miss Chen, that she can only leave a vague impression in my memory. She can only come to the orphanage on Saturdays and Sundays, and spend time with me. She couldn't compare to Tallulah in her heart. Of course, at that time, I was more or less an accessory in Chen's heart.

Maybe my appearance just made up for the small part of the happiness that Miss Chen's childhood should have had in her heart. Maybe, unknowingly, Chen had already regarded me as a friend, but she was a bit stubborn. , she is stubborn and often speaks erratically because of being overly excited, and her words will inevitably be provocative and irritating.

I can't deny that for a while I hated Chen's arrival, but I couldn't stop it, and I often felt ridiculous because of it. What reason did I have to hate a child? In my eyes, she was just a child, a cute one. A naughty and unlovable child.

When Chen was a child, she didn't care about anything. She could only accommodate Tallulah in her eyes, and I could barely enter her sight when she was with Tallulah. I was a little lucky. If I were 20 years later, When I met Chen Huijie again, at that time, I might have spent my whole life to be friends with her, a friend that I cherished enough. If I tried harder, maybe Chen Huijie would regard me as another Xingxiong, but Xingxiong is a woman after all. , Chen can have a lot to say to her, but I can’t.

She will definitely restrain her surging feelings. If she can generate the slightest bit of affection, she will cut it off without hesitation. Before rescuing Tallulah, Chen will not consider more feelings. She Afraid of being involved, and afraid that I will stop moving forward.

No one knows himself better than Chen.

The four-leaf clover that grew toward the sun on the window sill of the orphanage was picked from the river embankment. They sneaked out of the orphanage and spent an afternoon trying to change each other's fate. But now, that little grass It has long since withered due to lack of care.

Tallulah's departure became the last straw for Chen.

Maybe she has long wanted to change, maybe she has long been unable to bear the repressive life in the Chen family. Everyone is watching her and teaching her what to do. If she makes a mistake, she will be severely punished. The strict and indifferent family rules restrict Chen nature.

She can endure it, as long as someone can accompany her, as long as she feels that she is not alone, she can endure it, but they should not, should not take Xiaota away from Chen, nor should they leave her alone where.

I don’t know if Chen will regret not leaving Longmen with Tallulah back then. Probably not. Chen won’t now, but Hui Jie may have regretted it more than once when she was a child. She hid in her room and missed Tallulah. Sometimes, I regretted that I didn't go with her.

I often envy the eldest daughter of the Chen family who lives a life without worries about food and clothing. Her future seems to be at your fingertips. Her future has been smoothed out and she is destined to become extraordinary. It is an achievement that ordinary people cannot achieve even if they work hard all their lives.

I often think that maybe Chen Huijie doesn’t understand now, but many years later, when we grow up together, different insights and cognitions will divide us into two worlds, and our lives will only be the orphanage of our childhood. That ordinary and brief encounter would be laughed off when we were talked about when we grew up. She would still remember my name, but I was no longer important.

[#- I will also worry, I know I will worry, because she and Tallulah are sisters, I will worry about the day I leave the orphanage, or before, whether the man who brought Chen to the orphanage will do it again. Take Tallulah's hand and leave.

Until then, I can only stand in front of the second floor window and watch.

Maybe I would be happy for Tallulah to have a better life, but I would still inevitably feel lost and bitter, so I would laugh at myself for living like a brat.

But now, I no longer have to think about it.

The way Chen walked under the dim and endless streetlights seemed to remind me of a cold late night in early autumn in Londinium many years ago.

We came out of the tavern, Chen's face was slightly drunk, and the cold night wind blew a little flush of drunkenness on her beautiful and youthful face. She was covered with my coat, and her sloppy steps looked brisk and bright. Naughty.

The soles of our boots stepped on the stone pavement of the streets of Londinium. The streets were quiet and peaceful at night, with only the cold light of the distant buildings from the street lamps, and occasionally vehicles passing by us.

We stood side by side, and I listened to her talk about her life after coming to Victoria, but she never mentioned the pain of staying in Longmen for so many years. She may have complained a little, but she didn't know whether she should tell me Convey these complaints and sorrows.

She made a good friend, and the long time of 11 years finally caused us to be somewhat alienated from each other. So when I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her profile, I found that I no longer wanted to I can't remember what Chen looked like when he was a child.

That vague little girl was eventually dissipated little by little in my chaotic life, and then in the constant tossing and wandering. If I never see Chen again, maybe she will only have a name left for me, too. Because her surname is also Chen, otherwise I would not be able to remember who she is.

Only then did I realize that she was actually so important to me. In fact, I had already remembered her. But that mature and less childish face made me happy but at the same time I couldn't help but feel strange because I had never seen her again. The yelling, the excitement hidden in her eyes, and her many outrageous actions were all gradually buried by time as she grew up.

I couldn't help but feel a little regretful about this, and I didn't listen carefully to what she told me about the past. I just thought that everything was as I had guessed when I was a child, and that we could only leave each other a memory.

A moment of trance.

I should have expected this. After all, I never thought that I could have more with Chen. She was a friend of mine, a friend for an hour. We met in a foreign country thousands of miles away from Longmen. We have different careers and different lives.

I miss those past times, but we shouldn't force each other to stay.

But this is my personal thought after all, so when she asked me about Wei Na, I was a little shocked, but the shock could not make up for my inner peace.

I feel that I have been able to be indifferent and indifferent, and the experiences I have experienced over the years have allowed me to make some progress. In fact, I have been able to think about what my life should be like for a long time, although the source of these comes from and Chen and Tallulah, but I have come to accept it and feel relieved.

I don’t have such a long-term vision, so it’s often after something happens that I’m pushed forward by things. I can’t define the direction of this land, just like when Kazdaele was in exile. , I could only watch helplessly as Sakaz, who fought alongside me and became increasingly familiar with me, died one by one in front of me.

So in the future, I started to try to do something to save it, but it inevitably caused many people to become homeless, and also made me make mistakes one after another, and became a bad person in people's mouth.

I know that I cannot become a great person, and even a hero is an impression left by later generations. How many heroes are sinners in the eyes of others. People will only remember the things they care about, not a symbol. People are Paradoxically, this contradiction is reflected in different countries and systems.

People kill each other more cruelly and ruthlessly than any wild beast.

Chen raised his palm.

I suddenly wanted to retreat, and watched Chen walking towards me step by step, blocking me in front of me, but I knew that her eyes seemed to tell me, if you have the ability, try running.

I really don't think I can be faster than Chi Xiao who draws his sword.

The stinging pain came from the side of my face, and Chen's movements were crisp and neat, so that the anger and hidden fear in the eyes that raised their heads and looked up at me made me feel a little embarrassed.

"Do you think no one can control you anymore?!" She yelled at me, her hand holding the Chixiao scabbard at her waist shaking slightly from excessive exertion.

It depends on the good deeds you have done, you will be punished.This thought with some schadenfreude suddenly came into my mind, but the owner of this thought was myself.

I wanted to laugh a little, but I don’t know why. Maybe it was because the angry Chen made me feel some warmth that I didn’t know where to look at. Or maybe it was something more bizarre. She made me feel like a nagging housekeeper. So much so that the pain on my face actually made me have this illusion that I shouldn't have had.

There's probably nothing I can do to save myself, I thought.

I was about to say something, but Chen's words blocked my words.

"Shut up and don't explain!"

She doesn't seem to be just here to vent, she has always been strong and unreasonable.

I had to stand there with my hands tied, watching her glare at me. I was worried that she would slap me again. If the stupid things I did could make her feel relieved, I would be happy.

You see you are so powerful in the eyes of others, you have even become a legend, you have done so many things that are worthy of admiration or hatred, and it doesn’t matter that you have changed a country, you still have to stand still.

To a certain extent, Chen is actually much more powerful than the emperor of the Yan Kingdom, at least Wei Yanwu, the governor of Longmen, cannot do things like her now.

Thoughts similar to chaos came into my mind, but I couldn't help but feel guilty.

"Huh, I'm pretending to be very similar now." Chen said angrily and said something else. My attitude could probably satisfy her, but if everything would be fine if she was satisfied, what else would the police do?

There will be leniency for those who confess and strictness for those who resist, but I don’t know where to start.

I remember clearly that Fox and I teamed up to deceive the inspection team. Fox was my friend, and Chen also remembered it clearly. To be honest, I have always felt that Fox was very good at squeezing people, so where did Chen encounter Fox? All the dissatisfaction came to me.

"Speak!" She said sullenly. "Those things that you and Lao... have done together, now, immediately, tell me exactly what stupid things I have been doing these days."

Are you very proud now? She seemed to be hiding this sentence.

I have reason to believe that Chen didn't dare to use such a tone in front of Wei Yanwu, so she was so presumptuous in front of me, but I didn't have the guts to question her attitude. After all, to a certain extent, Wei Yanwu had confidence that I didn't, and that The old guy is not darker either.

I thought about what the shadow guard reported to me after returning to Longmen on the Rhode Island aircraft. The old guy Wei Yanwu once again dumped the responsibility on me. It was clearly something we planned together. Why should I always take the blame?

I finally understood why Chen would block me in front of me not long after I arrived at Longmen. If Wei Yanwu didn't interfere with it, I would never believe it, but what could I do?

"This matter is very complicated..."

Before I finished speaking, Chen's eyes seemed to be warning me, you'd better think clearly before speaking.

I had to change my mind.

"It's Wei Yanwu's plan."

In fact, I am still a bit smart. At least I know that if I directly said that it was Wei Yanwu's fault, Chen would be a little suspicious.

I seem to be able to think of when Chen went to find Wei Yanwu, Wei Yanwu finally couldn't help telling Chen what happened many years ago. In fact, when I saw Chen in the annex wearing a police uniform and looking for Tallulah, I understood to some extent, Chen will never return without success this time.

She has escaped many times.

But the appearance of Tallulah and the disappearance of Xiao Mo no longer allowed her to escape. I heard the conversation between her and Draco during the duel in the abandoned factory.

I must admit that at first I thought it was Tallulah who took Xiao Mo away, and I also thought that Drac was Tallulah. Chen was probably the same as me. It wasn’t until the real Tallulah appeared that I realized it, so Only then did so many things happen.

When the action team found Drake and Little Tower, the photos that Fox hid from me on the streets and in amusement parks collected by the action team police officers were the main reason why I thought that Drake was Tallulah. At that time, I , maybe there is no idea of ​​letting Xiao Mo get in touch with Xiao Ta.

But later, after Tallulah appeared, the fox and I realized that they were two people, so the fox planned the action himself, but neither I nor the fox thought that Draco was not watching over Xiao Mo at all. Thoughts, the fox never thought that I would intervene midway.

What Drake did was full of contradictions and puzzling points.

She was just someone's scapegoat.

Chapter 162 It's a secret

"It's Wei Yanwu's plan." Chen Mo said, thinking, Old Wei can't blame me this time.

"that's it?"

Chen obviously didn't completely believe what he said, so she crossed her hands.

"I went to see Lao Wei, but what he said was vague and didn't have anything useful. I suspected that he was getting old and was beginning to show signs of dementia. I knew he was hiding something from me, but I I really don’t have time to listen to his nonsense.”

Chen's words were filled with malicious thoughts about Wei Yanwu.

"Then you come to me." Chen Mo was a little helpless. Compared to Wei Yanwu, in Chen's opinion, he was obviously the easier one to bully.

"Shouldn't I come to you?" Chen asked with wide eyes.

"That was not what I meant."

"Humph……"

Chen Leng snorted and turned his head away from Chen Mo, then turned back to look up at him.

"Then tell me what happened, how did Tallulah come to Longmen, and what are you and the old... guy planning?"

"Be honest and think it over before you speak." She waved her hand and her eyes fell on the side of Chen Mo's face. She didn't feel any distress at all and narrowed her eyes: "It hurts a lot, doesn't it?"

"It may be a little late to say this now."

"It's up to me to decide whether it's time or not. Just tell the truth."

"Okay...it starts with the equipment stolen from the tracking team's research institute a month ago. The equipment is fake. It was deliberately released by Victoria and Kazdaele in order to attract Kazdaele's political remnants who were accepted by Ursus. Fake news, they have been planning this for a long time. They know that the Sarkazi people of Ursus must have left many remnants in Kazdaele. In fact, many people in various factions are now secretly supporting them. Still maintain a certain level of contact with the old school.”

"Well..." Chen thought for a few seconds and nodded.