Longmen Memoirs

Although he spoke very harshly when talking to Askaron, Chen Mo knew very well that Askaron was not an easy person to deal with. At least for the Tower of Babel, Askaron had greater power than him. many.

"It doesn't matter. I know that Mr. Chen Mo has more important things to do in Grai. What Chen Mo is doing now is more meaningful than staying by my side." Theresia said gently: "Mr. Chen Mo suddenly Is there any reason for coming back?"

She was always so sharp.

"I have met Ms. Kelsey, Your Highness." Chen Mo asked: "Your Highness has made a decision?"

The natural thing he asked was that Theresia had decided to face the Sarkaz war, but Chen Mo was not optimistic because Kelsey had brought those words and Theresia had thought about leaving Kazdale and being with him. In the conversation with the doctor, he talked about the current situation of the Tower of Babel.

"So that's it. Kelsey has told Mr. Chen Mo."

"I would like to hear your Highness's thoughts."

"I have indeed made a decision, but the doctor believes that now is not the most appropriate time. He believes that the Tower of Babel should continue its previous direction, and it is best to withdraw from Kazdaele. I also need time to reconnect with those scattered in Kazdaele who are willing to support After withdrawing from Kazdare, the doctor believes that we will get enough time to distinguish those who can become our allies and those who are unreliable and threatening enemies."

The doctor has considered it carefully. After all, although you nominally led these lords and cities in the past, Theresia did not really consider joining this war. Many of the cities that chose to surrender to the Tower of Babel had their own reasons. Thoughts, it is difficult to tell how many of them are fake and chess pieces arranged by Tracy.However, this also means that after the Tower of Babel leaves Kazdaele, it will not be able to grasp the situation in Kazdaele as quickly as it is now. Tracy's power will be stronger than in the past, but this can also encourage those who have already had dissident intentions. Exposing the city as early as possible will make it easier for the Tower of Babel to integrate the remaining forces.

There are gains and losses.

But after the Tower of Babel temporarily withdrew from Kazdale, Chen Mo's original plan had to change.

Chen Mo didn't answer.

"If I could have made a decision early, the current situation would not be such a dilemma." Theresa said suddenly.

"This is also an opportunity. The doctor's consideration is very thoughtful. Your Highness, at least you will have enough time to find a force that is truly willing to support you. Babel's withdrawal from Kazdaele does not mean that you cannot continue to unite the people under your command. forces, on the contrary, you will more clearly distinguish whether they are worthy of your trust." Chen Mo said: "Sometimes we need to lose once to win the entire war."

"This sentence was thought of by Mr. Chen Mo himself."

"Just think of it as what I thought of." Chen Mo replied: "Grai's troops still need a period of training, and their battle is not on the battlefield. Your Highness, if possible, I hope you can allow this mobile city and Let’s leave the Tower of Babel together.”

"Of course they can if they want to."

Theresia nodded, suddenly realized something, and looked at Chen Mo.

"Mr. Chen Mo..."

"I am still a member of the Tower of Babel, Your Highness, and I am still willing to fight for the Tower of Babel." Chen Mo said: "I never thought that the Tower of Babel would make this decision to leave. Now it seems that it is temporary. Concession is the best way. As far as the current situation in Kazdaele is concerned, it cannot be changed by the theory of a single city or a certain region."

"But Gray is still very important. Those people above have accepted new ideas. After the war, they may play an important role in the Tower of Babel and your ideals." Chen Mo said: "And what you have to do It is to preserve these fires so that they can spread in the land after the war."

"I understand." Theresa paused: "Can I ask Mr. Chen Mo about his future plans?"

"I want to stay, Your Highness." Chen Mo shook his head: "This is also a suitable time for me. Although the Tower of Babel has left Kazdale, you still need enough power to carry out the mission in Kazdale. In accordance with your will, I will lead Grai's garrison to form an organization that does not belong to the Tower of Babel. After leaving the Tower of Babel, the chaos that will follow Kazdaele will provide us with a place to stay. This organization will be Having an independent identity roaming the battlefield in Kazdaele ensures that Babel can keep abreast of changes in the situation in Kazdaele, and can also save some of the sacrifices that Babel's warriors should not have made."

Chen Mo still has some things to say, and some things that cannot be done in the name of the Tower of Babel will be done by us.

But Theresia seemed to know what Chen Mo meant. She looked at Chen Mo's face, and there was a trace of sadness in his eyes.

"Mr. Chen Mo, you don't have to do this."

"I am already a member of Kazdaele's war, Your Highness. From the moment I decided to accept your invitation to join the Tower of Babel and encourage you to embark on this path, I have been destined to be unable to escape from this battle. .”

Chen Mo said that the decision of the Tower of Babel and the Doctor disrupted Chen Mo's original plan. He did not have enough time to develop Grai to maturity and let them be used as seeds to spread in Kazdaele's factories and cities.

But this also shows that the actual situation of Kazdaele and the Tower of Babel is not as optimistic as Chen Mo imagined. If he continues to follow his original idea, it may cause more unpredictable problems.

"Although I can't continue to implement my ideas in Grai, Your Highness, you can still do it. In fact, I am still exploring many of those theories, but I believe that Your Highness, you can do better than me." Chen Mo said, he revealed Smile: "Theresia, please allow me to call you Your Highness this way. Ideals must be realized by people, and people must make sacrifices. Although the light and future make people yearn for it, where there is light, there are shadows, and those The dark shadows do not long for beauty, because they know that someone will realize it for them. They know that no one will remember their names. They also know that more than ten years later, when this war is over, Kazdaele will To achieve her new life.”

"The blood and tears left behind will not make the land of Kazdaele fertile and the fruits sweet, because they died in chaos, fear, and confusion. But those warriors with hope, will and tenacity are willing to fight for their ideals When they fall, the land that absorbs their corpses will give birth to a new home for them.”

"If it is for this, then sacrifice and shadow are not enough to make people fear and shrink."

Chen Mo said softly that perhaps he had overstepped his bounds, but Theresia did not stop his wanton behavior.

Maybe the relationship between them has gradually changed from strangers to friends, or maybe in Chen Mo's heart, his yearning for Theresia has turned into a strange feeling.

The Sakaz people longed for their Highness and this white figure, but Chen Mo was not Sakaz. After he came out of the black wall, the identity of freedom that was originally oppressed by feudalism and his mind no longer belonged to everyone in this era. people.

17-year-old Chen Mo has a soul in his 40s. People’s growth does not actually come from their age, but from their understanding of the world and their actions, because older people experience There are more, so the elders appear more mature.

Young Amiya didn't understand the meaning of Chen Mo's words. She just felt that the woman beside her suddenly became a little sad.

"Does Mr. Chen Mo know what he is doing?" Theresia asked softly and calmly, but there was not much blame in her words.

"I'm just doing something I've always wanted to do but didn't dare to do, whether it's now or my avoidance and cowardice in the past." Chen Mo said:

"Your Highness, now that you have made a decision, it is enough to show that you are not an unrealistic idealist. You should understand that many things on this land will not be as beautiful as you imagined. People will bleed and suffer. , will be fearful and timid.”

"So you can choose to become the coveted Theresia, and I can also choose... to become a Sarkaz who brings fear and war, and what you have to do is to let those who have hope still be able to Hold on to this hope and let those soldiers who sacrificed their lives for it deserve their death.”

"What if I refuse?" Theresia asked, her question was more like asking Chen Mo to convince her.

In the past, she had always resisted strategies and conspiracies, especially what Chen Mo said now.

She knew what Chen Mo was going to do, and she also knew that it would bring more bloodshed and death that she didn't want to see.

"You can't reject people who have the same idea as me. They not only choose to do this for you, but they also shouldn't die in vain." Chen Mo said:

"I can't do much for you, Your Highness. I don't have the ability to realize your ideals for you, and I don't have the ability to win this war for you. You have to prove it yourself, just like you said. , we don’t live for an idea, so whether it’s them, me, or Ms. Kelsey, we can all choose to be the melting pot for you to practice your ideas, even if we are greeted by failure.”

Chen Mo's words made Theresia sigh softly.

"Your words are always so hard for people to find a way to refute, Mr. Chen Mo."

"Because you have never been a naive and weak person, Your Highness."

If you have experienced war, you know very well what war will bring. If you have experienced conspiracy and calculation, you should also understand how vicious and despicable a trick it is.

It is precisely because you understand that you resist.

You understand that you are not as glamorous as you seem, and you also understand how much bloodshed and suffering your actions will bring to Sarkaz.

You understand the expectations and hopes of the people in the Tower of Babel, and you also understand how unrealistic and vain your ideals seem.

But you didn't back down, and you didn't choose to compromise with them.You still maintain your original kindness and kindness, even if it brings you deep sorrow, makes you and your relatives fratricide, makes you endure criticism, makes you leave your homeland, makes you homeless and suffers from illness and disease again and again. torture of disappointment.

But not me, Theresia.

I am not that great, nor that kind. I am not a general who is good at fighting, nor a strategist who is good at strategy. I have only learned one thing all this time.

That is murder.

ps: You already understand the meaning of the title, no need for me to emphasize it any more.

Chapter 1: Leaving the Court, My Last Place of Refuge

The doctor in front of her stabbed the injection into Chen Mo's neck without any hesitation. Following the movements of her fingers, scarlet blood was injected into the transparent syringe.

"Are you going to stay?"

Her movements were practiced but still stinging.

"I thought Ms. Kelsey would be unhappy with my choice."

The doctor stood behind Chen Mo, looking down at his figure.

"You think I won't? I've already reminded you of your importance, and you want to use this method to get rid of my control."

"I don't deny that I have had this idea."

Chen Mo didn't look back. He knew Kelsey was looking at him. The room was full of medical equipment, but the lights were dim and there were only two of them.

"I underestimated the chaos of the internal situation in Kazdale and overestimated His Highness's influence in Kazdale. This made my previous plan look naive and lacking in consideration." Chen Mo said: "The same goes for Ms. Kelsey. You think so, you have already guessed that the Tower of Babel would choose to give in temporarily."

"Hmph." The doctor snorted lightly without retorting.

"But for me, it's still an opportunity."

The doctor slowly came to Chen Mo. Chen Mo's eyes followed his steps. Her fingers entered something in front of the instrument. The refrigeration device was spread out and she inserted the test tube in her hand into it.

"I left an army of 600 people in Grai. Many of them and their families have received favors from the municipal government of Grai. Most of them have relatives who died in factory labor and mines forced by the lord. They They all participated in the rebellion on Gray Street, and they are both disappointed and hateful towards Kazdaele.”

The doctor turned around, and Chen Mo met her eyes. His light green eyes were calm, while the doctor's expression was indifferent.

"I controlled their loyalty with my thoughts and favors. They had no respect for the lords and royal power of Sarkaz. I promised them that I would kill every noble who tried to continue to oppress them. I told them that they must take up arms to do so. To protect my current life, I gave them food, clothing and dignity that they did not have elsewhere in Sakaz.”

Chen Mo said words with unclear meaning, and the doctor was silent for two seconds.

"But these things have to be paid for with their lives."

"I turned them from confused beasts into humans, and I also used other methods to gradually transform them from humans into fanatical beasts." Chen Mo said calmly.

"I'm doing this. I'm giving them what they're after. This is something that many people in Sakaz will never get until they die, but there is no such thing as giving for no reason in this world."

The doctor thought of the scene she witnessed in Gray, and her expression moved slightly, but she did not argue.

"So you chose to stay in Kazdaele."

"There are many diseases that cannot be cured with medicine, Kelsey." This was the first time that Chen Mo did not add an honorific: "Those diseases grow in the heart and manifest in behavior, and cannot be cured by any medical drugs. "

"It's your theory again."

"I have seen it with my own eyes." Chen Mo said: "It is also what is happening in this land, Kazdaele and other countries. As long as medicine continues to develop, Originium disease and infected people can wait to be cured, but Ms. Kelsey, Doctors can only seek medicine to cure their disease, but they have no control over whether people are willing to accept the treatment and trust it to cure their suffering."

"People are blind. They blindly believe everything they can summarize. They blindly pursue most of the facts they believe."

Chen Mo said: "In my opinion, Your Highness is also a doctor. She is looking for a way to cure Kazdaele. Kazdaele is a seriously ill giant. The cities are the extension of his body and the people are his blood. The Lord of the City was his organs, but now, these organs have lost the control of the brain, and the blood flowing through them has been contaminated by them.”

The doctor came behind Chen Mo.

"If it's like you said, what do you think you can do, what Theresa can't do, what can you do better than her?"

There seemed to be disdain and ridicule on the doctor's lips.

Chen Mo couldn't see it.

"All my ideas are based on the premise that the Sakaz people have someone they can trust at all times, and that the Sakaz people can find someone they are all willing to pursue at any time." Chen Mo said: "I can't do this. Only His Highness has this ability in Kazdare."

The doctor answered like this, even though she was as smart as she had already guessed how Chen Mo would answer.

"We are not naive fools, Ms. Kelsey." Chen Mo said: "I have been thinking about the war in Kazdale, and I can't help but think about its roots. The war changed Her Highness and made her kind, but What Sakaz needs is not mercy, otherwise how could anyone support Trasisi's ideas? Sakaz needs a gentle and wise monarch to make everyone feel at ease and soothe Sakaz's trauma, but to solve Sakaz The root of this struggle requires iron blood and power."

"I've heard people say the same thing as you, how can you ensure that you can be that person and not face failure?"

"Because the Tower of Babel is standing behind me, this gives me enough opportunities." Chen Mo said: "Even though everyone knows that the Tower of Babel is Theresia's Tower of Babel, everyone speculates that the instigator behind the scenes is His Highness. , but nothing will be said, no one will admit it, they will acquiesce that all this has nothing to do with the Tower of Babel, but they will be more in awe of His Highness in their hearts."

The doctor's fingers gently rested on Chen Mo's shoulders. She leaned down and put a strand of white hair hanging by Chen Mo's ear.

"Then you should also know what your choice will bring."

The soft breathing fell on Chen Mo's ears, the doctor's words were cold, and she stared at the side of Chen Mo's face slightly.

"Isn't this the reason why Ms. Kelsey came to Gray to find me in person?" Chen Mo replied: "What do you think of me? You acquiesced in my staying with His Highness. If it is true as you said, I It’s the word of a god, have you been waiting for me to make this choice?”

"I don't believe in God, Ms. Kelsey, not since I was a child, because when I prayed to Him to save me, He didn't answer me. When I had no way out and struggled to survive, He never appeared. I have seen Him in front of me, He is so cold and cold, why should I believe in Him." Chen Mo said: "The reason why I can survive to this day is not God, but myself."

It’s my struggle, it’s my ferocity, it’s my despicability and ferocity.

Kelsey's breath slowly faded away.

"The Sakaz people combined magic with the power of the Source Stone to develop a Source Stone technique that can heal others. This spell has always been used by them to save the suffering, so I came here. Kazdael seeks this unique skill, but even this spell cannot cure the Originium disease." Kelsi paused: "...but there is no doubt that the ancient and mysterious magic rituals of the Sakaz people will It’s the clue to the origin of your body and the cure for Theresia’s illness.”

"The Origin Stone skills of the Sakaz people prove that life can be circulated between different material forms using special means. The skill of this spell is in the hands of the Pardoner, a mysterious organization of the Sakaz people. They are now Loyal to Tracy, even I know very little about the intelligence of this agency." She said: "So so far, apart from continuing to study the cause of your body, the meaning of letting you continue to stay in the Tower of Babel has been Not big."

Her words stopped.

"I'm telling you this because since Theresia didn't stop you, I have no reason to continue to stop you. As you said, while guessing your identity, I also have my own purpose."

The doctor's words were low and contained some rare emotion. Chen Mo wanted to turn his head, but the doctor's hands were fixed on his cheeks.

"You are right, Chen Mo. I am very aware of Theresia's shortcomings. I see the shadow of Traces in you. I think Theresia herself has long seen it. The former Tres Sith, you have the same characteristics as him, you are adaptable and thoughtful, you don’t care about the process and only pursue the results.”

Kelsey's words seemed to be answering Chen Mo's doubts about the Sakaz Civil War. Everyone knew about Theresia's gentleness, and also knew that gentleness was not suitable for Kazdaele, but Theresia did not change.

Chapter 1: Leaving the Court, My Last Place of Refuge

"He used to be Kazdaele's general. Together with Theresia, he organized a military committee to resist the interference of foreign forces in Sakaz, and supervised the construction of the mobile city needed for Kazdaele's revival."

Kelsey sighed softly. She retracted her hand and spoke softly to Chen Mo like an old man who had witnessed the past.

"At that time, he was still a patriot who was determined to seek the road to revitalizing Kazdaele. Maybe the war changed him, or maybe he just witnessed the prosperity and decay outside Kazdaele, the corrupt country and the greedy and incompetent monarchs. Although they have a powerful land and resources, the Sakaz people who seek to revitalize have to endure poverty, discrimination and oppression."

Kelsey walked slowly in front of Chen Mo. She raised her head slightly. Perhaps she thought of the young man in the past who was determined to revitalize his country and worked hard for the revival of Kazdaele. A flash of light flashed in Kelsey's eyes. Miss you.

"Tracys wanted to fight, so when the elders of Sakaz chose Tracys because of their xenophobia, Tracys seized the opportunity to realize his ambitions, and Theresia conflicted with his ideas. , because in his opinion, Sakaz’s pursuit of change is not to stick to Kazdaele, but to take advantage of Kazdaele’s remaining power to annex and corrupt other countries, but Tresis used part of Sakaz Man is so dependent on his homeland that they don’t know his true purpose is to abandon Kazdaele.”

This is the biggest conflict between Theresia and Tracy's ideas.