Longmen Memoirs

"I'll tell you what to do, but the only one you can do is yourself."

"What you need is an executioner."

Chen Mo said that his figure was completely shrouded in the darkness after the sunset.

He turned around and headed for the rear exit.

He had gotten the answer he wanted.

The doctor's calm voice came from the night and wind.

"Sarkaz needs an executioner like this, and a knife that is sharp enough and ruthless to get rid of its increasingly persistent diseases."

You have 600 people.

These 600 people are your solid foundation. Ever since you came to Grai and noticed the facts, you will know the future direction of these 600 people.

Therefore, their families have been favored by Gray, so most of them have relatives and friends who died under the harsh social oppression of Kazdare, so most of them have participated in the resistance against the lords.

You could guess what the doctor was thinking, but you didn't refuse.

They are full of hatred for Kazdaele's current social structure, so you quietly guide the fire in their hearts to grow, and you turn them into sane beasts.

That's why Askaron, who was monitoring Grai's movements, noticed all this and came to you, and you knew it well.

You have never been a simple person, Chen Mo.

No matter how righteous and high-sounding your words are, they cannot hide your hypocrisy and despicability.

But you never care whether you can be a good person.

You never cared.

Kelsey is right, her suspicion and prejudice against you are justified, because no matter how well you hide it, or even convince yourself, you can't escape yourself. Only Theresia will accept and tolerate it. Your bad.

Because she is a gentle person, because she thinks you have good intentions.

But you're going to disappoint her.

ps: Filling in another hole, too vain.

ps2: When did Chen arrive? There are so many words here, why is there no heroine yet!

Chapter 1: Leaving the Court, My Last Place of Refuge (End)

Half a week after returning to Grai, Chen Mo and Ni Yan talked about the consequences of the decision to evacuate Kazdel at the Tower of Babel. The Sakaz girl obviously did not expect this to be the case.

For those who know the details of the evacuation of the Tower of Babel, there will be no more than ten people including Chen Mo in the integrated Tower of Babel.

She showed surprise first, then worry. She knew very well what the evacuation of Babel meant, and Chen Mo told her that when Babel left Kazdelglai would act with Babel, her eyes The worries have significantly subsided.

There wasn't much time left for Chen Mo. He had to hand over Grai's affairs before the Tower of Babel officially took action. He also had to quietly transfer Grai's affairs to him before he could act with the Tower of Babel to attract enough attention. Troops move here.

The remaining 200-man garrison will officially take over Grai's defense and security. All Grai's reports in written documents will only clearly show that there were only 200 people here.

Chen Mo believes that the doctor has a complete solution. As for how they will get in touch with the Tower of Babel in the future, they may have to wait until the Tower of Babel gets rid of Tracys' pursuit before slowly establishing it.

"You can consider, Mud Rock, whether to stay in Grai or go to the Tower of Babel. You and your original team members can choose."

"In this case, I will write to Babel to recommend you to take over the city defense duties of Grai."

Gray is just a small mobile city. Even after merging with Kribar, it still doesn't have much output, so it naturally doesn't need too many standing troops.

"No, sir, I mean I want to stay with you."

When Chen Mo heard this, he raised his head. Miss Sakaz looked straight at him and handed the document in his hand to him.

Chen Mo took the document.

"I don't know."

"You just said that my original companions and I can choose to stay, but you didn't mention whether you would stay or go, so I think you have other tasks. I have been with you since we came back from the Tower of Babel. , I can sense that you are gradually getting rid of Grai's affairs. Recently, there are fewer and fewer documents submitted by the municipal government..."

Niyan hesitated for a second and looked at Chen Mo.

"You wouldn't behave this way if Grai was going to be acting with Babel, so I'm guessing you may have decided to stay in Kazdaele."

Chen Mo was stunned. He suddenly remembered that the Sakaz girl in front of him was not a slow person. No mercenary who could survive in Kazdare was slow to react, and his behavior in the past two days was not intentional. hide.

"You are right. The Tower of Babel has decided to temporarily evacuate Kazdel, but I will not go with them, and the original garrison remaining in Grai will not evacuate with them."

Chen Mo lowered his head and opened the document in his hand.

Mud Yan considered it before speaking.

"May I know the reason? Sir."

"If I tell you, you may not have the right to decide whether to stay or go on your own, Mudstone."

"Please tell me, sir."

"The Tower of Babel's plan requires a force with sufficient numbers to stay to form a new intelligence network, and perhaps be responsible for handling some tasks that cannot be handled by the Tower of Babel. We will disperse the chaos in the form of mercenary teams. Kazdael collects all the intelligence that the Tower of Babel needs, and we also need to use mercenaries to detect the movements of the city and nobles and whether they have colluded with Tresis."

Chen Mo said, pressing the sharp paper with his fingertips, it felt like a blade.

"These people are not military police or spies, but we have to do what the military police have to do, and we have to take care of what spies have to do. The Tower of Babel may be able to provide us with some support, but they are beyond their reach. I will only tell a limited number of people." I cannot trust all of my men until I am sure that they can convince me of their specific identities and missions. Many of them may die in the subsequent battles and the fighting of Sakaz mercenaries, but I wouldn't care."

Chen Mo spread his hands and pressed on the edge of the desk, his voice low.

"I can't promise or guarantee that their deaths will have value. I may even let them die deliberately to achieve my goal. We have to fight with Sarkaz's original mercenary group and sacrifice our lives for the lord's despicable purpose. We We must be careful at every step, and if our true purpose is exposed, I will personally eliminate this hidden danger."

Chen Mo retracted his hand, closed the document and put it down.

"Knowing this, you still have to choose to stay. No, you have no chance to choose, Mudstone, but you can go to the Tower of Babel, at least you can live."

Niyan said nothing more, she just looked at Chen Mo with scarlet pupils.

Looking at the young man who turned Grai into what he is now, he is very young, but he is not naive, he is realistic and indifferent, he is cold, but also kind.

It's hard to see what he's thinking.

She looked at the young man who had told her the origin of Sakaz's suffering. He had answered her puzzled questions time and time again. He had said that the Sakaz people should save themselves and embrace their own future.

He was full of expectations for Sakaz, and he said there was not much he could do for Sakaz because he was not Sakaz.

He had also said that he might lead the Sarkazi to death and bloodshed, but never as clearly as now.

"I'm not going anywhere."

Mud Yan's expression gradually became firm.

"You need me, sir! You don't understand the habits and life of Sakaz mercenaries. You don't know many of the rules agreed upon by Sakaz mercenaries. You are an outsider, you are not Sakaz, but I know that I have Wandering this land as a mercenary taught me a lot."

"At least I can keep you and the Sarkarz who decided to stay alive a little longer."

She seemed to be making her case.

"After coming to Grai, I began to recall my experience as a mercenary. The life in Grai did not involve fighting, battles, traps and conspiracies. This made me a little uncomfortable and difficult to adapt to, but the Sakaz people That’s how it should be, sir, every city in Kazdaele should be as vibrant as Gray.”

"Sir, although I am tired of the life of running away and wandering as a mercenary, I also promised you that I will stay by your side until I fall." Niyan said: "I promised you, even if you will Bringing countless bloodshed and death.”

"I can't guarantee that you can live, Niyan." Chen Mo lowered his hand: "I can only tell you that after you choose to stay, you will face more cruel conspiracies and darkness than before, and our situation will be extremely bad. Whether it is a fight with mercenaries, or a butcher's knife that may be wielded against the suffering, we need experience, blood can be exchanged, we need tenacity, death can be forged, we must get used to betrayal, get used to sin, get used to the fall of people around us , your persistence and kindness will not be worth mentioning."

"No one could guarantee my survival in the past, sir."

Mudstone shook his head.

"But at least now I know what I am doing. If this is necessary, I am willing to abandon my persistence and kindness. Sakaz's suffering needs someone to bear it. I may not have the ability, but I can share it with you. , even if it’s just a tiny part.”

Mu Yan's words made Chen Mo feel a little distracted.

When was the last time I heard someone say the same thing? Someone was holding a big shield in front of him, covering the wind and snow, and also covering the dripping blood rain.

In that rain of blood, Chen Mo was almost lost. He was addicted and delighted. He felt that he was born to be like this.

But someone woke him up and died in his hands.

Chen Mo thought he had forgotten it, but now it seems that he just doesn't want to remember it.

"Have you thought about it?"

But now he is no longer the beast trapped in the black wall, and now he is no longer imprisoned by chains and forced to depend on another living being.

Mudrock didn't hesitate.

"Think about it."

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The next day.

Office of the Provisional Governor of the Grai Municipal Government.

Chen Mo was sitting in the original office that belonged to the owner of the office. His legs were resting on the desk casually. He stood with a heavy knife in his hand. Chen Mo's left hand was pressing the handle of the knife. In front of him, Su Enyang stood with his hands down.

"Tell me something." He asked, "You should have something to say to me."

Su Enyang was silent for two seconds, looking at Chen Mo's face without any tension.

"Does everyone know?" He asked with a forced smile.

"Probably not as much as you."

"What does your lord want to know?"

"Among the people sent to Gray, several have the same identity as you."

"All I know is myself."

"In other words, we don't rule out the possibility that there are others."

"Yes."

"Your purpose."

"Incite resistance in Grai, occupy Grai's arsenal to provide weapons for the rebellious citizens, cut off Grai's communication network, and after occupying Grai, lead the city to the Eastern Front to wait for the takeover of the Tower of Babel."

"So the refusal of the local garrison and nearby lords to take over Grai was also provoked and instigated by you." Chen Mo tapped his fingers lightly on the handle of the knife.

“It wasn’t just me, most people at the time were in favor of resistance.”

"Who gave you the courage? Have you ever thought that if the attitude of the garrison and the lords is tough, what awaits Grai will be an attack by a large number of troops. There are few people here who have received formal training and there is no garrison. You come from the Western Front. It originally belonged to a city on the other side, so they can name it whatever they want."

This is a very common thing in Kazdaele, let alone a city that has just been in turmoil, Tathagata came to resist the invasion of the army.

"I thought about it, but the adult said that no matter what happens, there is no need to worry."

"Do you know who he is?" Chen Mo asked.

"I once saw him beside Your Highness Theresia when she was giving a speech." Su Enyang replied, taking a breath: "What are you going to do with me, sir?"

"What do you think I should do with you?" Chen Mo asked, "Did he contact you again later?"

"No, that gentleman has not contacted us since we set off for Grai." Su Enyang said, hesitating for a moment and seemed to make a decision: "Sir, what do you want to do with me? I have no complaints. Since you came After Grai, I saw everything you did. Grai became what it is today under your theories and policies. I never thought that we, Sakaz, could have the life we ​​have now. "

The urgent tone made his breathing seem a little disordered, as if he was suppressing the anger in his heart for a long time, and he clenched his lowered hands tightly.

"I was born in a remote village in Sakaz. My father was a mercenary serving the local lords, but he died in the war between the lords. My village was also destroyed by the fighting between the mercenaries. , I still remember that scene, sir, the fire and the bodies that fell in front of me, and the people's howls."

"No one cares about our life or death, and no one cares about us. I migrated with the refugee flow. We wandered everywhere in Kazdaele. No one was willing to accept us. We could only struggle to survive on our own. The mercenaries would even We are used as targets for fun. For a mouthful of food, we can fight and kill each other. When we are very hungry, we will not even let go of corpses."

Su Enyang took a deep breath, but Chen Mo didn't interrupt. He glanced at Chen Mo.

"At that time, I was thinking about why we Sakaz people are alive, and what is the meaning of living for us Sakaz people? We are worse than pigs and dogs."

He said, his expression angry and ferocious.

"I was 12 years old when I started to pick up weapons. I clearly remember that I stabbed the short knife in my hand into the chest of another Sakaz, but I didn't feel anything because he was holding a piece of moldy noodles in his hand. Bread, I killed him for a piece of bread."

"We Sakaz people have no blood and no tears. We Sakaz people deserve to die and don't deserve to live?" He whispered, his voice gradually getting louder, like a low roar: "But who will care about our life and death! We When we were homeless, no one cared about us, when we were about to starve to death, no one gave us a bite to eat, and when we couldn’t survive, no one came to tell us how to live.”

Living is such a luxurious word and such a pale rhetoric.

"Our lives are so cheap. Over the years, even us Sakaz people have almost forgotten that we are still Sakaz. I almost thought that we were just cattle bearing the name of Sakaz. I had no idea. A walking corpse."

He lowered his head and spoke in a low voice, but his clenched palms showed that he was not at peace inside.

"I know that I have no reason to resent anyone. Sakaz became like this because of us Sakaz ourselves."

"Your Highness Theresia and the Tower of Babel saved my life, but Your Highness could not save the entire Sakaz, nor the entire Kazdaele. No one can save Kazdaele. Your Highness's ideals are great, but she cannot She should just say that she should open her eyes and see the life of the Sakaz people, and she should take a good look at our situation in Sakaz, because she cannot save everyone."

As he spoke, he suddenly raised his head. The low-pitched Sakaz stared at Chen Mo.