Longmen Memoirs

She smiled.

"In short, you can understand that I have a crush on him. Yes, that's it." She raised her hand and snapped her fingers: "My intuition tells me that staring at him will be very interesting. My intuition is always very accurate."

Wolper knew Sfeldt's name, otherwise she would not have accepted the invitation from a stranger in the bar that day. Of course, the more reason was that she wanted to meet this influential man in black steel. But to be honest, the impression Sifeldt made on her was not very good. Even at that time, he was not very interested in the strange operator next to Sifeldt, until the other party easily saw through the words in her words. After setting a trap and keeping a distance from her, she became slightly more interested.

She was confident that her charm was not low. However, when Snake left with Sfeldt on his back, the look he gave her made her realize that the other party had already seen her purpose. It would be better to say that it was from hearing that so-called She knew this after talking to Yan Guo.

How could she not be interested in such a strange peer, especially when he was the instructor of Black Steel? She later learned some information about snakes from some operators, so she became even more curious.

It was limited to curiosity, but curiosity was enough for her.

An operator who had been missing in Kazdale for two years was involved in a dispute between the Operations Department and the Intelligence Department. The day I saw him on the training ground, he had just left the Operations Department.

Wolper didn't know what he thought of, and the corners of his mouth raised slightly.

That is a very interesting guy, hiding countless secrets, and secrets are fatal to a very interested Wolper.

Vaifan shook his head slightly.

She probably understood what Wolper meant. She often provoked snakes out of fun, but Vaifan still couldn't understand. In fact, she felt that she should not get along with people like Wolper. Come.

Because the other party came to Black Steel purely out of interest, but she was different, she had put in a lot of effort for it.

But often the fact is that people who put in hard work may not necessarily succeed, but people who put in a little effort can succeed easily. It is quite ironic, but they are in the minority after all.

Wolper was not prepared to let her go so easily.

"To be fair, you haven't said why you came to Black Steel yet?" Wolper asked.

"As for me, I want to start my own security contracting company in the future. As a top security company, BSW is a good fit for me." Vaifan said as he put down the book.

When she said this, she couldn't help but think of her hometown, that small city standing in the mining area and yellow sand.

"But looking at it now, I'm afraid I won't even be able to pass the basic selection test."

She lowered her eyelids slightly, her voice lowered, and she looked at the open book in her hand under the desk lamp. She tightened her grip, but her eyes did not fall on it.

There is always a huge gap between imagination and reality, and some gaps can not be made up by hard work alone. Moreover, she is not working alone here, and she is already too far behind.

Wolper listened to her words, hesitated for a moment, put his hand gently on her shoulder, she raised her head, and the other party smiled.

"Are you going to cry? I'm not very good at comforting people, but in my impression, you are not the kind of person who is willing to give up easily, right?" She said, and then asked: "What do you think?"

"I am not ready to give up. No matter what, even if I fail, I will persevere until the end."

"You are really full of fighting words. Even I was moved by you. It seems that I have to work hard." Wolper said this, turned around and climbed into his bed.

"Start working hard tomorrow."

Chapter 12 Cat, Snake and Fox ([-])

The girl in front of him was petite. When standing, Chen Mo had to lower his gaze slightly to see her face. The first thing that caught his eye was the pair of black horns above Vaifan's head.

Her number is printed on the chest of her gray uniform: 09211.

It was night, and the indoor training ground at the training center was dimly lit. There was light falling into the training ground from the breathable windows of the training ground.

Chen Mo turned on the light.

The bright light instantly illuminated the entire training ground, and the figure standing in the center was stunned. She was holding a training staff in her hand, and her gray short sleeves were soaked with sweat. It could be seen that she seemed to be more than just Practice spells.

Chen Mo's appearance seemed to surprise her. Her face was surprised at first, and then hesitant. As Chen Mo walked in, she put down her staff and stood upright to salute.

"Good evening, sir."

"It's not appropriate to say this at this point." Chen Mo glanced at the time 1:23 on his watch and explained: "I am the one on duty today."

"Sorry, sir, I just didn't think anyone would come to the training room at this time."

"No need to apologize, Black Steel does not stipulate that you cannot use the training ground at night." Chen Mo said, lifting the plastic bag on his right hand, which contained some snacks and drinks, as if he had come prepared.

"You are not the first student in the history of Black Steel to have this point appear here." He said, pointing to the edge of the training ground: "Take a rest?"

There was a clattering sound of gas and aluminum skin, and Vaifan took the drink handed to her. She sat on a rest chair on the edge of the training ground, holding the drink in her hand with both hands, and turned her head slightly to look at the seat next to her. man.

She was a little confused, but didn't know how to ask.

"Were you practicing your spells just now?"

The other party asked, turning her head, her black eyes were very obvious in the bright light. There was a clear difference between his black uniform and the gray of the students. It was the dress of a formal employee, which made her a little yearning.

She nodded and shook her head.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm very short, sir, and I don't have excellent magic talent or bloodline, so I want to work harder and catch up with the training progress in this way." She replied in a low voice, looking at Chen Mo, her red eyes a little dark.

"Indeed, your ability in physical data is relatively insufficient, and you have not received training in related industries, or even experienced universal Originium skills education. In your case, you want to pass the assessment to officially become an action operator. It’s very difficult.”

"Sir thinks so too."

She was not surprised by Chen Mo's answer, but it was inevitably disappointing.

"It's not just me. In fact, basically all the instructors have the same evaluation when talking about you. They think you will never pass the test." Chen Mo said calmly.

She didn't answer, and Chen Mo noticed that her fingers holding the can were clenched tightly, which seemed to indicate that her heart was not at peace. It was a kind of disappointment that was not recognized, and a frustration that her efforts were not rewarded.

After several seconds, she asked.

"Are you here to persuade me to give up now?" The voice was low, as if he was suppressing something. His gray hair hung down on the side of his face, covering his eyes.

"Are you going to give up?" Chen Mo asked.

"I... don't want to." She said, and sighed softly: "But if this continues, I will be eliminated sooner or later."

"If there are no accidents, maybe the next assessment will be held. It won't be too far away. At least with your current level, the theoretical courses can no longer support your performance as a student. However, you can choose to transfer to other positions, such as personnel or logistics. , if you are willing, I can recommend it to you." Chen Mo said, they were sitting on the edge of the training room, and the entire wide training room was quiet and empty under the bright lights.

"Actually, compared to being an operational operator, being a land officer and personnel is relatively safer."

She put down the drink in her hand and raised her head to look at Chen Mo.

"Thank you, I'll think about it."

"Still want to give it a try?"

The 09211 in front of me looks like a type of person who was advised by others at a certain time, but insisted on giving it a try.

"Well, to just back down without even trying, to be honest, I will feel very unwilling and regretful in the future." She answered straightforwardly, and then added: "I originally thought you..."

"You thought I was difficult to get along with?" Chen Mo asked.

She nodded slightly.

"You are right, I am indeed a difficult person to get along with. I don't have many people who can be called friends in Black Steel." Chen Mo said, "Because everyone is the same as you and thinks I look difficult to get along with. .”

Chen Mo's self-deprecating words suddenly made her feel a lot more relaxed. Her tense shoulders relaxed slightly. She turned her head and looked at the man sitting half a meter away. He didn't look over, but stared ahead. Holding the drink in his hand with both hands.

She said without reason, perhaps because the other person's semi-self-deprecating words just now gave her a new understanding of this young instructor.

As if he noticed her gaze, Chen Mo turned his head slightly. His eyes were a deep black, but they did not make people feel cold.

"Because I am sitting here and chatting with you for a few words, you have a different view of me and think that I am a person who is easy to get along with." Chen Mo said: "But in fact, you don't know me well, 09211 , it is just because of the change in the inherent impression that you have similar illusions. In fact, most people are like this. They will subconsciously define a person through his appearance. In fact, those definitions will be biased. "

Chen Mo's answer made 09211 a little surprised. She didn't know why Chen Mo suddenly said that.

"Do you know what Black Steel does, professional security and armed security?" Chen Mo asked, shaking his head: "Actually Black Steel is a mercenary organization disguised as the security industry. There is no difference between right and wrong here. We only have One purpose is to work hard for money, so it is not enough to be serious and cautious. You must learn to distinguish and doubt. People in this industry will encounter all kinds of people and things when going on a mission. Some of those people can Write, but better not write.”

She was not stupid, so she quickly realized why Chen Mo told her this, but she couldn't help but ask.

"Why are you telling me this?"

"Even if I don't tell you, you will slowly understand this truth after you join Black Steel." Chen Mo said: "It's just that at that time, there may be conflicts between your original ideas and reality. I want you to stick to it. , you must have your own reasons."

"Well, I envied the employees of the security companies I saw in my hometown when I was a child, and I hope to become like them."

"That's why I came to Colombia from the Vaifan Alliance." Chen Mo said: "Because, how to say that word, dream, I just discussed this word with someone not long ago."

"Sir, have you never had a dream?"

"It used to be." Chen Mo said, "I didn't believe in it later, but as you said, your dream is not difficult. At least you have taken the first step."

She smiled, and the smile seemed a little forced.

"Why did you come here?" she asked.

"Because I'm on duty today."

She looked at the drink she had placed on the seat, and then at the plastic bag Chen Mo placed at her feet. She did not ask this topic again. "You just said that I am not the first student like me in the history of Black Steel?"

"The last person was me." Chen Mo said: "When I first came to Black Steel to train here, I was just like you. I liked to train here at this point."

"you……"

She seemed to suddenly think of something and looked at Chen Mo in surprise.

"Do you think I want to use my own situation to give you an example?" Chen Mo said: "Unfortunately, 09211, at that time I was number one among the students in both practical and theoretical courses. Hard work is not uncommon in Black Steel, but the decision The heights and achievements you have achieved, or what allows you to survive on the battlefield, are not only hard work, but also luck and talent."

"This land has always been unfair. Some people are high, while others fall into the dust. Some people are born with everything, but some people have to spend countless efforts and time and still cannot achieve the same achievements." Chen Mo said: "Efforts may not necessarily lead to success. There is harvest, but if you don’t work hard, you will never be able to wait for the harvest to come to you.”

"So you're actually here to comfort me?"

Chen Mo's answer was indeed a bit beyond her expectation. She suddenly understood why Wolper liked to provoke this instructor. Maybe they were similar in a sense.

"I thought that a girl who traveled thousands of miles from Huayfan to Colombia alone would not understand these principles and would not be so fragile." Chen Mo took out a cigarette from his bag and lit it, and the smoke filled the air. He said, "Comfort and not It’s useless, it makes you feel better, but it doesn’t change your situation.”

"What about you?" She seemed to have guessed something, a little unbelievable.

"I am the latter. I think you may need a sparring partner. I happen to have the time. In my hometown dialect, it is called Kai Xiaozao. You can refuse."

She was stunned. Although she had just thought of this, she was still a little surprised when she heard Chen Mo's answer.

"But... why do you want to help me?" She looked at Chen Mo and then at herself. An unrealistic idea came to her mind, and she suddenly dismissed it.

She didn't think she was any more attractive than the Wolper, and she was puzzled, suspicious, and slightly wary.

"You are not the only one with low grades among the students, but why should I choose to help you?" Chen Mo said: "Because they don't work as hard as you. The most important thing is that you remind me of a person. If I can still If we see her again, she should be as old as you."

"I think, instead of waiting for the day in the future when you will be eliminated as a student of Black Steel, with your dreams shattered and looking at the unfamiliar streets in a foreign country, feeling confused and bitter, I can help you before then, just like you just thought, maybe I’m actually a much easier person to get along with than I look.”

He smiled slightly. It was a smile that 09211 had never seen on the face of this indifferent-looking instructor, but it did not make her feel abrupt or strange.

He added: "I don't think so either."

Chapter 13 Cat, Snake and Fox ([-])

Later, Razer would always recall her encounter with Snake that night. It was hard for her not to remember that when no one, not even herself, had any expectations of herself, someone would be willing to help her.

There are some things that you may not be able to do if you try, but if you don’t have the courage to try, you will never be able to do it.

He said this to himself, but Razer's intuition told her that those words were not just said to himself, it was as if he was also saying them to himself.

He said that he is a person who is not easy to get along with, maybe, because bad people will not write on their faces that they are bad people, and good people will not point to their faces to tell you that they are good people.

As he joined Black Steel for longer, Razer gradually understood that it is actually difficult to distinguish between good people and bad people. Some people do good deeds for a lifetime but are regarded as good people in the end, while some people do good deeds for a lifetime. If you do a good deed before you die, you will become a good person.

The latter can be called the prodigal son turning back, but the former is often called misdeeds. The funny thing is, misdeeds are not a complimentary word.

Razer had a hard time restraining himself from rejecting the instructor's offer.

Maybe it was just that sentence, instead of waiting for the day in the future when you will be eliminated as a student of Black Steel, your dreams will be shattered and you will feel confused and bitter looking at the unfamiliar streets in a foreign country. It touched the sensitive nerve in Razer's heart. She tried to imagine that day. came, but found that he could not accept such a result no matter what.

How could she accept that she had walked such a long way, suffered so much, spent so much effort and time, only to collapse at the last moment?

No one can accept this ending.

Chen Mo's smile was deeply impressed into those red eyes. His smile was very light, not gentle at all, but combined with the indifference he was accustomed to, it suddenly made people feel surprised and impressed.

Razer had never asked who the person the instructor was talking about was. She knew she shouldn't ask. There were some secrets hidden deep in people's hearts that they didn't want others to touch.

Perhaps since then, as her contact with snakes increased, she gradually gained a better understanding of this facial paralytic who was hated by the students for his coldness and harshness, an understanding that no one except the two of them knew.

He is still very strict, even more strict than usual training, but correspondingly, the knowledge he teaches himself is inaccessible to students, and he can even get items that may be assessed in future tests.

Because he is an instructor.

This is considered cheating, Razer wanted to say so. Her down-to-earth character found it difficult to accept such a thing for a while, but being down-to-earth does not mean stupidity. As the instructor said, what Black Steel needs is not a rigid dogmatist. Many times when faced with emergencies, operators need to make their own judgments, and these judgments cannot be learned from books. Naturally, they have to bear the responsibilities that come with it, so they need to be flexible, which is also part of the assessment.

In fact, Black Steel was observing these students during their training, which the students did not know. What Black Steel needs is not soldiers who obey orders. It is never just soldiers who obey orders. What it needs is not orders and prohibitions. Mercenaries are not an army.