Blue Files, there are 100 days left until Mr. disappears

And he threw this mental pollution in front of the students.

"Sure enough, from the third-person perspective, the 'Saint' is really a disgusting creature... There is no one more disgusting than him."

The gentleman cursed in his mind.

For a moment he truly felt disgusted with himself, and began to seriously consider whether they would be happier if he had never existed.

Since this scarred body is already on the verge of collapse, then maybe... let go of your obsession, follow their suggestions, and live out the last period of time peacefully, so as not to hurt them deeper?

"I believe it sir."

The innocent smiling face of Hina Sorasaki came to mind.

...No, I have to hold on for a while.

Before he could find a way to restore Hina's spirit, he had to live an ugly and dishonorable life.

Chapter 055: Day 046·Campus ③

The husband silently walked forward, pulled out his chair, and sat in front of another screen next to Hifumi.

He originally wanted to talk to Ritomi Meiji about the mental power system, but when the words came to his mouth, he began to lose the words.

He knew that Hifumi and the others were fanatically obsessed with helping him.

But he messed up again, at least... he didn't take their feelings into consideration, even the little things in life.

Mr. Xiang always forces himself not to miss any details, including every disappointed look in his eyes.

He thought that he was not doing well enough and used this to force himself to continue working, but in fact this was not the case...

No matter how much he argued in his heart, he actually regarded them as children.

It wasn't until his body was broken and his memory began to crumble that he reluctantly let go.Watch them make mistakes, watch them go crazy, watch them suffer, watch them despair.

People always grow up in entanglements and mistakes, both as individuals and as a race.

It's just that he, who claims to be his protector, is too arrogant to admit it.

"Tell me what you analyzed, Hifumi."

Glancing at the military factory's projects, Mr. Wang was waiting for the compilation of an automatic production program, so he asked Nifumi directly.

He didn't take his eyes off the screen.

Although he had already made a judgment about the upcoming battle, he chose to trust Hifumi's judgment this time.

Hifumi took off her headphones and turned her chair towards Mr.

"I read the technical notes they leaked. How can I put it...the mental experiment method written in the manual is indeed terrible for normal people, but Kivotos has never been a standardized place.

If we make this note public, only a small number of students will find it ridiculous.In fact, Arius's daily training is more cruel than this. "

"Go on." The gentleman said while correcting the details of the automatic production program.

"I admire Holy Trinity's determination. If Shengyuan Weihua's goal is to knead Holy Trinity into an efficient whole through war, she has already succeeded..."

"It's just that I don't think she can fully grasp the current situation. At least... I haven't met her yet and punched her in the face."

"So, I need a mental power system, a power that can stand on the same level as her, and be able to look at her level. Maybe this is a bit too unrealistic for a silly girl who always claims to be ordinary - but I do think so."

Hifumi squeezed her hand and lowered her head.

The mental power system is a very difficult problem.

On the one hand, the threat posed by the arms race is spiraling. No one can retreat without authorization before the other party's true intentions are clear.At this stage, it is impossible for both sides to give up research on it.

On the other hand, whether it is Gehna or Holy Trinity, there are extreme lunatics within both sides trying to dance higher in the chaos.

Regardless of the current situation or the improvement of war technology, if you are not careful, you will be overwhelmed.

From Hifumi's point of view, there seemed to be some kind of unexplainable tacit understanding between her husband and Mika Sazonon.

She believed that being as smart as Mr. Wang could lead the fire that filled the sky and burn away the festering parts of the two organizations.But as Mr.'s physical condition worsens, his ability to interfere with Kivotos has become less and less.

So Nifumi decided to pursue more power.

No matter whether her husband was angry with her or stopped her in tears, she had made up her mind and could not look back.

Chapter 055: Day 046·Campus ④

Hifumi is mentally prepared.

She imagined that when her husband saw her conducting more in-depth harmful experiments, he would roar at her with heartache, or sigh deeply at his own powerlessness,

Either way, it would only make her already hard heart sore again.

She is no longer afraid of war or hardships. She only feels pain when her husband is heartbroken.

The girl's secret thoughts and feelings had already been spilled out when she confessed to her husband on the night of Chinese Valentine's Day, forming a crystal scar in her heart.

No matter how strong she becomes, he is the only weakness in her heart.

His sincerity, to Hifumi, was like a well-kept riddle, an unsolvable formula. Under the warm appearance, there was a cold prison hidden in the heart. It seemed to be within reach, but in fact it was so far away...

"If you were not my 'sir', maybe we could..."

"Ok?"

"...It's nothing, forget what I said."

Hifumi quickly turned her head.

Just feeling the teacher's concerned eyes behind her and thinking that he might hear her mumbling, Hifumi couldn't help but feel her cheeks getting hot.

The slender fingers typing on the keyboard stopped in mid-air.

"It's not going well."

she said casually.

This is a lie.The real reason lies behind her.

Hifumi tapped her index finger on the table anxiously, covering her chin with her other hand and frowning.

The husband didn't even need to look at her face, he could sense her annoyance just by the rapid rhythm of tapping on the table.

He stood up, poured half a cup of hot coffee from the thermos cup he carried with him, and handed it over.

"Are you feeling a little confused?"

"...Sir, who do you think this is because of?"

Hifumi suddenly turned her head, with a bright smile on her face, but there was clearly no smile in her eyes.

The gentleman's throat seemed to be blocked by something.

He looked at Hifumi, at her slightly dull pale golden hair, and her gradually maturing face. She was completely different from the little girl who confessed to him on the night of Chinese Valentine's Day.

Growth is not accomplished slowly, but in an instant.

For a whole year, he contacted the students with a kind smile and tried his best to help them solve their problems.

But when they showed emotional agitation that was about to cross the line between teacher and student, he politely but firmly pushed them away.

It seems that as long as you run away, you can kill the delusions in your heart that shouldn't exist.It seems that as long as you torture yourself, the bud of sinful emotions in your heart can be burned away.

But every time, when smart students like Hifumi see through his mask, he becomes more aware that there is an irreparable scar between him and them.

Hifumi slowly closed her eyes and shook her head.

"I know, I know everything, sir."

"Sir is everyone's husband, sir is the 'adult', and the so-called 'adult' is the person who has to make choices and take responsibility.

Carrying the entire Kivotos on his shoulders, carrying every student in Holy Trinity, Ghena, Millennium, and countless other campuses on his shoulders, this is the weight that Mr.

Therefore, sir will not rest, so even if sir... is about to leave, he will not accept my proposal and stay with me. "

There is a kind of illusory and fragile beauty in Rifumei's smile, as if it will disappear as soon as the wind blows.

"Hifumi, I..."

"It's all right, sir."

Hifumi stretched out her slender fingers and pressed her lips to the gentleman's lips, stopping his defense.

"From the moment I was rejected by you, I have made up my mind——

Since the husband will not stay because of me, then I will catch up.

No matter how far that road is, how difficult it is, whether it takes decades or hundreds of years, I will catch up.

Even if you have to change your way of thinking, learn, and think about the operating logic of the dark side of Kivotos that you were unwilling to touch before,

Even if you have to damage your body and gain more power than before,

I, Hifumi, just want to stand next to the teacher again. "

Chapter 055: Day 046·Campus ⑤

The gentleman took a step back subconsciously.

Sadly, he found that when faced with affectionate students confiding in him, escaping had almost become his instinct.

He is a gentleman who shoulders the responsibility of guarding Kivotos.

No matter whether there is a monster composed of supernatural powers in front of him or a conspirator who maliciously takes advantage of the children, his feet will be like nails on the ground and never take a step back.

But when faced with the students who confided their true feelings to him, he could only retreat and retreat until he reached a safe distance of an arm's length...

"Where else do you want to escape to? My husband?"

Hifumi looked up at him, her lips flattened slightly in grievance, and her golden hair swayed, almost brushing the gentleman's face.

"This is a sea base, there is no door for you to escape. Do you just - hate me?"

"not like this!!"

The gentleman eagerly grasped Hifumi's wrist and pushed it away from his lips, the pain between his brows seeming to overflow.

Instinct allowed him to compile ten thousand words of self-justification in his mind in an instant.

But in the next moment, all the words were blocked in his throat, and he couldn't say a word anymore.

His gaze met her tear-soaked eyes.

She is crying.

Like hot fire hitting his chest, Hifumi stood in front of her husband and looked up at him.

There was no eagerness, no pleading, no resentment, no longing in that look - no emotion that Mr. Mister could have guessed.

Just looking at him blankly.

The husband's breathing stopped briefly, and a more intense pain came from the depths of his soul, as if the entire underwater cave collapsed instantly, and tens of tons of boulders crushed him under the ruins.

He put down Hifumi's wrist and pinched the front of his chest with his fingers, his slight trembling concealed by his expression of about to collapse.

After a while, the gentleman finally took a breath.

He once thought that by wearing the mask named 'Sir', he was protecting them.

As everyone knows, it is this hypocritical mask that deeply hurts the students who trust him.

The shape of his mouth changed several times, and he stopped talking several times, as if he was engaged in a fierce psychological battle.

For a long time, he lowered his hands and stretched his eyebrows in relief.

"not like this."

He half-knelt down, holding Hifumi's sleeves with both hands, and lowered his forehead to the ground, like a sinner confessing to a nun.

"I just wish I could have more time and more ability to arrange everything, but I don't have any of these."

"I just hate myself for being powerless. No, maybe it's not an exaggeration to say I hate it."

The man sighed quietly.

Those are negative emotions that must not be shown in front of students.

Whenever and wherever, as a teacher you should keep smiling.Even if it's just pretending.