Blue Files, there are 100 days left until Mr. disappears

He fell straight to the ground, face down.

But fortunately, his body weight is now much lighter than before the illness, so at least he didn't lose his jaw.

He felt a ridiculous sense of blessing in disguise, and he didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

But when he looked back, trying to find the object that tripped him,

His eyes froze.

Because it was not an object, but a girl.

Yuka Hayase.

She sat silently in the corner, her arms hanging feebly by her sides.

His empty eyes were facing the pale ceiling.

She was still wearing the little suit with a white jacket on top. She was originally indescribably smart and capable, but now...

The husband looked carefully and saw that her clothes were already too loose, and her slovenly appearance made the girl even more haggard.

"Yuxiang..."

The gentleman's heart seemed to be tugged, and he had almost no strength in his hands, relying entirely on mechanical movements to push himself up.

He struggled to get up and slowly dragged his body to Yuxiang's side.

Then, the gentleman tried to put his trembling hand on Yuxiang's hand, as if he wanted to comfort her.

But he was surprised to find that the little hand was so cold.

He quickly took Yuxiang's hand.

The girl's fingers are still slender, but they no longer have the strength to even make bending movements.

Looking carefully, the hand was covered with dense, deep and shallow red marks, and blood was still oozing from the fingertips.

Moving his eyes upward, that lovely face that in the past was often overlooked because of its harshness, now seemed to be filled with only emptiness and despair.

Even paleness is a vibrant color for that face.

The heartache that never stopped for a moment, the attachment accumulated over a long period of time, and the reality that took a turn for the worse had gradually destroyed her will.

The flow of time no longer makes sense to Yuxiang.

The gentleman's lips changed several times, and his expression seemed to be struggling, but in the end he did not utter a single word.

He didn't know what to say.

(Is this the future you promised her?)

"I do not know I do not know!"

The husband has never hated his own existence as much as he does today.

However, life has to go on.

Life has to go on.

Chapter 012: Day 089·Millennium College Clinic③

The gentleman stretched out his hand tremblingly, put his arm around Yuxiang's shoulders, and let her head rest gently on his chest.

He tried desperately to give her a comforting smile, but the color in his eyes was already gloomy.

He no longer knew why he still survived after that day's battle.

I thought I would never have the chance to see the students again, but I didn't expect that this life of survival would still take some time to disperse.

A burst of bitterness surfaced in his heart, which he thought would never hurt again.

Hayase Yuka, who was nestled in her arms, no longer looked as serious and cute as she remembered.

Looking at her scarred right hand, no matter how slow, arrogant, or trying to look away or deceive himself, he should have understood...

Hayase Yuka is nostalgic for herself.

It's not a child's trust in his elders, or a student's closeness to his teacher, it's just a pure attachment of a girl to a man.

And this long-standing feeling has become so huge that it can destroy everything.

"……why me?"

Almost half-forced, he forcibly suppressed the flood of thoughts and slowly closed his eyes.

Why in this life, no matter what he has owned or created, in the end, it is like the moon in the water, so close, but he can only choose to let go?

It has become a destined ending that can never be pursued again.

No matter how much you think about it, it has no effect except disturbing your thoughts.

Living in this world for a hundred days, he originally just wanted to give himself an explanation and return the happiness that the students should have had to their hands...

But what if the happiness they desire is something he can never give them?

"...Yuka"

The gentleman endured the pain and tried to put his forehead against Yuxiang's, but he only coughed slightly and looked even more depressed.

The sour and painful feeling burned his throat.

“Youxiang”

“Youxiang”

No matter how he called, there was no answer.

The girl in her arms seemed to be isolated from the whole world and did not respond.

(It shouldn’t be like this, it shouldn’t be like this...)

The husband repeated it over and over in his mind, his dizziness became even more severe, as if he was being dragged into a bottomless abyss by a huge nightmare.

A tear flowed from his eye, winding on her cheek.

Warm tears dispelled some cold feelings.

Then, the body in his arms suddenly began to tremble violently,

"……gentlemen"

A call as thin as a gnat sounded in Mr.'s ears.

His eyes suddenly opened wide, he took a deep breath and raised his head.

Blood finally appeared on Hayase Yuka's face.

She shuddered and cried.

"Sir, I...I..."

She only felt that despair was like a grinning mouth, swallowing up her whole body and mind bit by bit.

She wanted to break away and forget this feeling of deep sadness, but she was extremely reluctant to let go.

"Why does time always flow forward...I don't want it...I don't want it..."

With tears in her eyes, she shook her head and whispered in confusion.

Chapter 012: Day 089·Millennium College Clinic④

Why does time always flow forward?

He gently patted the back of Yuxiang's head and held her in his arms.

But she asked lowly in pain, and the husband didn't know how to answer.

He is just a silhouette of light refracted by time.

Since time is like water and cannot be reversed, then he should pass away calmly like water without leaving any traces...

Hayase Yuka in her arms gradually calmed down.

She stared at her husband's face in trance, and suddenly remembered the past, when she had to go to Charais every morning to bother her.

Were you happy during those days with your husband?

This is beyond doubt.

If she was unhappy, she would not deliberately help her husband manage his accounts, nor would she deliberately scold him in a tone that was half angry and half coquettish when he spent money arbitrarily.

Seeing my husband’s doting look,

Seeing the gentleman's careful and obedient manner in handing over the account book,

After seeing him strategizing and defeating the enemy, he smiled evilly and looked at her expecting her to praise him.

Hayase Yuka was intoxicated and satisfied, unable to extricate herself and not wanting to get away.

She didn't care about her husband's status as a teacher or his behavior of always keeping a distance from her.

I only care whether such ordinary and happy days can last...

But the ordinary and happy days have been ruined, ruined by his sacrifice and the cold truth.

"What if sir doesn't save those children..."

The sun couldn't bring any warmth, and she only felt cold all over her body.

This thought grows like a vine.

She knew she was regretting why her husband chose to sacrifice himself.

But so what?Kivotos, this independent city, doesn’t she also have a share in the lives it supports?

She no longer dared to look at her husband's face, so she turned her head blankly and looked toward the window.

The morning sun is really too dazzling.

Just like the truth, it is dazzling and cruel, so people hide in the shadow of lies and find a moment of coolness.

She heard her husband's difficult and heavy breathing in her ears. How could she not know that her husband was also in pain at the moment.

The scissor marks on her right hand were also on her husband's heart.

"If I'm mature enough..."

"If I were at least a good boy..."

She should pretend that nothing happened and let her husband spend his last days in peace and joy.

It's a pity that Hayase Yuka is not an adult and doesn't know how to lie without changing her face or heart, let alone how to deceive herself and others.

In front of her husband, she always kept asking for and longing for him, until she exhausted his life.

She suddenly felt that her husband's hold on her gradually tightened.

"Yuka,"

Her breathing became short and rapid at the sound of his voice,

"I...I promise you, I will find a way."

Ah yes.

Yuxiang opened her mouth and smiled foolishly.

Sir is indeed an adult.

Because he is an adult, he lies without changing his face or heartbeat during the meeting, so he is deceiving himself and others.

"I will try my best to survive, and I will collect all mystical methods to extend my life as much as possible!"

lie.

Yuka's smile widened even further.

He obviously didn't care about his own life, he just said he would sacrifice it.

Now, who would believe me if I say that I will try my best to survive?

"Believe me... Yuxiang... I beg you, believe me..."

She felt that her husband's body was shaking slightly.