The future empresses and immortals all want to catch me

She is very afraid of making others angry, and she cares very much about the way others look at her, so others always think she likes to lower her head, but in fact she just doesn't dare to look at others.

The only treasures she had were her mother's relics and portraits. Even though the sect master gave her the dragon-killing spear, she never thought of cherishing it.

And Hu Ruoxuan finally "died" this night

Chapter 72: My heart is ashes but it is lit by fire · [-]

That night Hu Ruoxuan understood one thing. She might not be suitable to survive in this world.

She doesn't know why she became a saint, and why she lives.

Awakening the ancient gods for purpose?But the ancient god didn't respond to anyone.

The so-called "god of ancient totems" pursued by the Yinhun Sect and even most evil sects has not responded to any of its believers.

When her mother was desperate, when her mother wanted to escape, when her mother was caught by her father, no one saved her.

Yes, through the records left by her mother, Hu Ruoxuan knew what a dark cage she lived in, what a desperate and suffocating stinking ditch she lived in.

For the first time she reflected on the circumstances of her life

Isn't that really a prison?

Binding the believers with sin, feeding the "futures" of their sect with the blood of the same kind, and even mercilessly kicking them into this bottomless quagmire that makes it difficult to see the light and cannot climb out.

Isn't your own destiny being influenced by it?

Besides the Way of the Saint, is there any other option?In other words, did his father give him the right to choose?

The answer is yes... either become a saint... or be dealt with

Did my father really care about me?

Why didn't he come during those nineteen days?

Why do I have to do it and face it alone this time?

Didn’t the ancient gods say they were omnipotent?

Why can't the ancient gods bring the mother I want to life?

Why don't you answer me when I call?

Why...don't you come and take me out...

Although the little girl's tears gradually increased, her cries became smaller and smaller. She was suppressing her cries.

She doesn't know what is good or bad. She only knows that after killing this person, she is very sad.

It was even sadder than learning how her mother was "murdered", and it even made her breathless.

The cold red liquid, the fishy smell in the air, and the smiling person lying on the ground, all of these made her feel more uncomfortable than her near-death experience.

When she was injured in the past, she could grit her teeth, but now she was clearly not injured, but she felt excruciating pain. Gritting her teeth had been very useful in the past.

Now it can only...make her suffer even more

She didn't understand why they wanted to kill her, and she didn't understand why the sect wanted to kill them.

The more she comes into contact with the outside world and the more she "goes" out, there are many things she doesn't understand in her mind.

She didn't see anything exciting about the outside world that her mother longed for.

She prayed day and night to the ancient gods to grant her wishes, but what she got in exchange was the pain she is experiencing now.

She understood one thing, that was not her god, so he would not satisfy her

But she was confused. Since the ancient god was not her god, who would be?Who will come to save her?

She thought of her father, but she unconsciously thought of what happened when she was nine years old. She suddenly remembered something.

One day after her father left, her identity was discovered. It was obviously her first time leaving the clan, and her father did not come to look for her or save her.

Thinking of this, the little guy who suppressed her voice couldn't control it anymore. She destroyed and threw away all the rewards from her father.

She even tore off all her tokens and clothes, and even wanted to break the legendary sacred dragon-slaying spear.

But after all her attempts, all she got was pain in her hands and knees, so she just got angry and kicked it aside.

Her venting behavior became more and more serious, and in the end she attacked herself, cutting herself with a knife

She discovered that her life in this world was of no use. She had no place for her long ago, and no god would see her.

Even the light never warmed her. She only felt "cold", an overwhelming and boundless cold.

No matter where she hides, no matter how hot the sun she bathes in, no matter how big a bonfire she makes, no matter how many clothes she wears

She is always shrouded in "cold", as if it is everywhere and pervasive, and it seems that she can never escape.

She cut her own blood with a knife, trying to warm it with her own blood, but she found... her blood seemed to be cold.

At least she didn't feel warm. Instead, she felt even colder.

Hu Ruoxuan started to pray to the ancient gods again. If the ancient gods really existed and could sense them, they might think that Hu Ruoxuan was very rebellious.

She obviously doesn't believe in his existence and denies his ability, but she still longs for his favor.

Perhaps he can be called an excessive egoist, but how many monks in this world are not like this?

Most of them are egoistic!

Maybe the ancient gods really don't exist, Hu Ruoxuan thought in her mind

Because if it existed, why hadn't things happened to her so far? She obviously just wanted warmth.

Obviously as long as he warms her up, she will become the ancient god’s eternal supporter and follower.

Just like those blind, stupid and twisted "believers"

But she had to accept the reality. She was indeed cold and there was nothing to warm her.

This was also the time when she felt the coldest, so cold that she could no longer hold it in

She fell to the ground and curled up, hugging herself tremblingly. She just cried out her mother's name in a low voice, staying with the body next to her until dawn.

The morning light lit up the entrance of the cave, letting her know that it was already dawn

The little girl used her own clothes as a cloth to drag the body out of the cave. She stopped in a place with many flowers and plants.

She knelt on the ground and started digging with her hands. She didn't care about the itching on her skin caused by the grass blades and stems. She just buried her head in digging.

She dug attentively and seriously for two hours, and finally dug a suitable tomb. Then she went back and took out the dragon-killing gun.

She cut down several big trees and made an exquisite coffin, then placed the body inside and closed the lid.

Hu Ruoxuan learned these from mortals after she came to Dongqi Continent. She didn't know that the monks in Dongqi Continent didn't do this.

After placing the coffin, she filled the grave with soil little by little, and finally piled up a small mound.

But when she inserted a blank wooden sign on it, she apologized to the wooden sign again because she didn't know the person's name.

After doing all this, she lay in the flower field, looking at the blue sky and white clouds, and for the first time she knew something

It turns out that there is such a blue sky in this world

The little girl took out a small bottle, poured a black pill out of it, and then put it into her mouth without hesitation. After chewing for a while, she swallowed it

She closed her eyes in a big letter shape, enjoying the wind in this place where birds were singing and flowers were fragrant.

She gradually felt colder, her body began to tremble, and she even felt pain.

But she no longer thought about keeping warm or clenching her teeth to relieve the pain.

Because she knew she would soon no longer be in pain and cold

She no longer has the strength to work hard anymore, nor does she have the courage to see if the outside world is as wonderful as her mother said...

She just wants to sleep now because she is too tired

"Mom, father...I'm sorry, please let Ruoxuan sleep for a while...because it's too cold and tired...I'm sorry."

Her tear glands, which had been recuperating for several hours, started working again at this moment, replenishing moisture to her cheeks.

Chapter 73: My heart is ashes but it is lit by fire · [-]

She thought she would never open her eyes again, but she didn't expect that she could actually open her eyes.

She saw two peach blossoms printed in her eyes, very beautiful and clean flowers.

"Huha, bah, bah, are you awake?"

Hu Ruoxuan watched the person sitting on her spit out something, and she subconsciously touched her lips.

She had just been awakened by the strange feeling in her mouth. The boy seemed to be mouth to mouth with her, and even inserted his tongue into her mouth.

Thinking of this, she flipped her tongue, feeling the softness just now and the "warmth" that remained until now.

"I saw that you were poisoned and fainted, and I didn't know where the poison came from, so I used the simplest way to help you take the drug."

Hu Ruoxuan's eyes widened in surprise, because it was a poisonous pill made from the venom of the serpent's saliva, something that was used to make losers die with dignity.

This kind of poison is almost indestructible and has a paralyzing effect. The young man's method of taking drugs is equivalent to buying one and getting one free!

At this time, she didn't know that the person in front of her was the Ten Thousand Poison Body of the Demon Sect, a being that was full of poison resistance!

She was a little anxious, but she realized something was wrong, because logically she should be dead, and there was no doubt about the speed of the poison pill taking effect.

You can die for others to see in minutes!

But she is not dead, and even the boy sitting on her has no abnormal behavior until now.

This can only mean that... the young man really sucked out the poison, it was clean, and he is still fine!

"You...why do you want to save me like this?"

The young man was stunned by this question. Then he remembered that he had just been eager to save people and his behavior was indeed wrong. He hurriedly spoke

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I just didn't think much about it and didn't ask for your permission... I did this kind of thing... I'm sorry!"

Hu Ruoxuan just wanted to ask why he risked his life to save her, but this answer made her speechless for a moment.

"No...no, you don't have to apologize to me...and do you need permission to save people?"

"Don't you need it?" The young man looked at her in surprise and said

Hu Ruoxuan stuttered and asked, "Do you need... do you need it?"

The young man pinched his chin and frowned, thinking, and then said uncertainly, "It seems unnecessary?"

"Why are you asking me..."

"Because you asked me!"

She finally knows what the boy means

"I want to ask...why risk your life to save...me?"

"Huh? Is it life-threatening?!" The young man was shocked.

Hu Ruoxuan asked strangely, "Don't you know that I was poisoned by the saliva of a mysterious snake?"

After hearing this, the young man was stunned for a while, and then he immediately got up and grabbed his throat, because that was one of the ten most venomous snakes, the Ghost Snake!

"Ugh...cough haha...huh...that's really sloppy," the young man lay on the ground panting.

After hearing this, Hu Ruoxuan felt a little disappointed. It was inexplicable. She thought to herself that if the young man knew what kind of poison she was poisoned, he might not save her like this.

"Here, eat this quickly. I have to find out what the poison is first, otherwise it may kill people."

The young man stood up and stuffed a pill into her hand. Although she had received professional training, she took it without hesitation or checking.

"What is this?" she asked doubtfully

"I don't know if you understand, but this is an antibiotic, it's specially designed to deal with the venom of the serpent saliva. I'm afraid I didn't suck it clean, and what I just did hurt you, so I'm sorry..."

The poison of Youshen saliva gradually destroys the structure of the body, so the poisoned person often bleeds profusely, which is very annoying.

Moreover, oral methods cannot be used to take drugs, otherwise the poison will spread faster. Fortunately, Jiang Han did not intend to enjoy his first kiss and sucked the poison cleanly.

But he was not confident about his ventriloquism, so he gave Hu Ruoxuan the elixir he had prepared. Like well-known poisons, Jiang Han was the first to study drugs against drugs.

Because they are famous for being so poisonous!

Of course, Jiang Han had to prepare the antidote for them first before going out to play. After all, he would not suffer any loss if he was cautious.