Yae Sakura!Beep!

What are the consequences?

At the beginning, she was very clear.

And now, she also remembered.

It's not that you don't know how to love.

It's not that you are born with the inability to have emotions.

Rather, this ability is the sequelae of wrong usage.

She lost her feelings as a human being.

Consciousness becomes mechanical, becomes emotionless.

Every reincarnation, every time she uses her ability under the control of that existence, the emotions she can produce will become shallower.

Consciousness, as the number of reincarnations increases, becomes more and more blurred, and memories become more and more broken.

The soul becomes more and more fragile because it is overwhelmed.

At that time, she had no choice.

Every reincarnation can only be inside Sakura Fubuki.

Curled up, hugging the weak self.

Crying in sorrow, crying in fear of the future.

Four years and four years.

Cried for countless four years.

Countless times, crying without tears.

until that time.

After countless efforts, Sakura finally reached out and grabbed her.

This meaningless cycle was interrupted.

When I woke up, I thought it was over.

But she suddenly understood that this was really over.

end in another sense.

The more sober you are, the more you understand your next result.

Very tired, very tired, this time of sobriety is just a flashback.

She's reaching her limit.

No, she has already surpassed the limit and overdrawn her soul and everything about herself.

If I fall into a deep sleep again, even if I can wake up, I will forget everything.

Loss of emotion, loss of memory, loss of self.

Lose the ability to love her.

Like the walking dead.

Don't want to forget, don't want to lose...

That moment was when she was most desperate.

More desperate than when he was kneeling on the altar, more desperate than seeing Sakura's tragic ending, more desperate than when he was caught in endless reincarnation.

But at that moment, she found out.

deep within myself.

I don't know when it was born.

Another personality.

Can you love her instead of me?

verse 191 the 116th string exercises power with grief

My head hurts a bit.

This was her first feeling after waking up.

Gently open your eyes.

Probably because of just waking up, everything in sight is a bit blurry.

But even if you can see clearly, you can't see the surrounding things.

The room was very dark, and the light coming in through the gaps in the curtains was very conspicuous.

Through the dim light, one can vaguely discern that it should be evening now, and the crack in the door under the room does not let in too much light, maybe there is no one outside, or it must be opened before it is time. when the lights are on.

Turning her head, apart from the faint fragrance of her own hair, there were two other faint fragrances that got into her nose.

One of them is very familiar, she can often smell it on Sakura, and the other, although not as familiar as the previous one, but she can also recall that this is the scent that Ba Mamei often has.

All kinds of thoughts that arise in her mind are ups and downs, but none of them are as important as the doubts she is full of at the moment.

After that, what exactly happened?

The revived memory came to an abrupt end before that last moment.

She had clearly reached the most critical point, but she couldn't get the answer.

Is that her?

Thinking of the girl who suddenly appeared in the bathroom of the movie theater with exactly the same appearance as her, she was a little fascinated.

But according to the her in memory, she should be just another personality.

She knew very well that if it was just a pure sub-personality, it would be impossible to achieve the abilities that the girl is showing now.

Personality, after all, is just a personality, and it exists by relying on her soul. In essence, there is no difference between her and her.

There will be no abilities that she can use that the other personality cannot use, nor will another personality emerge from her body to the extent that it affects the real world.

But in the bathroom of the movie theater, she was sure that what she saw and felt was definitely not a hallucination.

That's beyond the confines of the personality, compared to another personality that exists in her soul.

Rather, it was another soul living in her body.

But, now, thinking too much is useless.

Lying down again is a waste of time. Now that you are awake, let's go out and have a look.

With the thought of wanting to move, the commands of the nerves are transmitted to all parts of the body.

Then, one of her fingers moved.

"hiss--!"

The sudden pain caught her off guard and gasped.

She frowned tightly, because the movement of her fingers seemed to have touched some of her wounds.

Because she had just woken up, the surroundings were pitch-black, so she hadn't realized what state she was in.

It wasn't until she wanted to move that she realized that her limbs were wrapped in thick bandages. The area below her wrists and ankles was not wrapped up, but her thighs, calves, and arms were wrapped tightly. This made it difficult for her to do anything.

Moreover, her limbs were also numb, and there was no tactile feedback to her, as if she had lost part of her consciousness.

Probably the pain received by the nerves exceeded the capacity of the body.

If it was her before her memory came back, there might be nothing she could do about it, she could only lie obediently on the bed to recuperate, waiting for the injury to heal, or let another personality come out for treatment.

But now she will no longer be hindered by these things.

Under the trembling eyelashes, the pale red eyes slowly closed.

After feeling it for a while, there seemed to be a huge energy reserve in my body.

Very pure, without any distracting thoughts.

She felt a little relieved, since she had absorbed the resentful energy of those villagers, she had never felt such pure energy again.

It should be accumulated during this time in this world.

After a long time.

She opened her eyes, but nothing happened.

Can't help but froze.

my ability……

Ah yes.

She suddenly remembered how she used her abilities before.

Command the activity of energy with extremely focused emotion and willpower.

Or the activities of energy are driven by extremely huge simple desires.

But now, of the two ways of using his abilities, he couldn't choose the second one because he lost his desire.

Because of the loss of emotion, only willpower is left, and it is difficult to activate the first one.

What should I do?

Thinking turned, paused.

In fact, there is a third method, but she dare not use this method.

Empty your mind, get rid of all emotional fluctuations, and suppress the emergence of any desires.

Use abilities with an almost mechanical consciousness.

In this way, the efficiency of energy use will be greatly improved, and she will naturally be much more relaxed.

But that side effect is what she is very afraid of.

It's also one of the reasons why she can't use her ability now.

Under this method of use, feelings will gradually become indifferent and lose desire.

Become an absolutely rational being.

Can no longer be called human existence.

But besides this, is there any other way?

Could it be that she can no longer use her ability?

Looking at the dim ceiling, she fell into deep thought.

While thinking hard, she subconsciously wanted to scratch her head, but because of her injury, she couldn't move.

The pointy little fox ears on the top of the head moved as if uncomfortable.

Because she was lying on the soft pillow, she could naturally feel the trembling of her ears.

Ears... that's right!Before, I seemed to have inadvertently used my ability to hide my ears.

How did you do it?

At that time, it was worse than the current state. Now that her soul has healed partly, she should be more comfortable with her abilities.

As for whether the injury in this body will have any impact...

She knew a long time ago that the physical body is just a form to herself.

hide...

This was the idea that drove her to use the ability at that time, and a large part of it was because of the familiarity at the beginning, but there should be other factors as well.

hide...

Very sad feeling, a little bitter.

And some... afraid?