You and me under the world tree

Crying is not a sign of weakness, but a way of letting go.

Even when sadness is greater than anger, a good cry in a deserted place is far more effective than violent catharsis.

But now, what really shocked him was the corner of her mouth.

She is laughing.

The corners of the mouth are raised.

Moreover, this emotion is by no means fake, this is the scary place.

This kind of sadness and joy... It seems that he is not qualified to feel the shock.

"Hodder..."

"Well, I'm here."

After suppressing the shock in his heart, he whispered.

Unknowingly, he thought of many things.

Because he suddenly understood why Dietrich was like this.

He had experienced this feeling before.

"I felt like my heart was split in two."

She laughed and wept.

Tears flowed from her eye sockets, as if they were going to stain the scarlet color of her pupils.

This is a state in which even one's own spirit is confused, because the spirit seems to be divided into two.

Huo De once felt this way when he questioned the Queen of Heaven and even made her an enemy.

On the one hand, he was pleasantly surprised at successfully calculating the Empress Dowager and confusing her cognition, but on the other hand, the pain surging deep in his heart made him miserable.

And Dietrich is in a similar state.

The only difference is that Hodder is Hodder, and the former Dark God of War is another person.

However, Dietrich is different because both humans and demons are Dietrich.

It was just because of her own hatred for the emotions and six desires that came from her heart that were stronger than ordinary people, and even hit her own moral bottom line, her heart was forcibly split in two.

She had not accepted the demon in her heart, and the demon mocked her for giving up everything, as if cutting off her desire.

However, they exist at the same time after all, and when facing the same thing, they show completely different attitudes.

Humans are crying and demons are laughing.

The self-centered demon only knows that it was the woman who destroyed everything, but the girl couldn't get rid of her childhood memories no matter what.

Facing her like this, Hodder didn't say a word.

"Hodder..."

She called him by his name.

Then, he slowly stretched out his hand.

One of his hands held hers, while the other slowly stroked her white, pure hair.

"I understand you, because I am the same."

he said in a low voice.

"Our situation isn't exactly the same, but it's similar."

Then, there was another silence.

Dietrich just closed her eyes.

She seems to be thinking, but also seems to be resting.

But no matter what, the most important thing is that now she has got that kind of 'peace of mind'.

"Hodder."

"Ok?"

"I wonder why."

she asked in a low voice.

"Why is that woman still calling my name there as if nothing happened?"

"..."

How should this be answered?

For a moment, Hodder fell into a strong contradiction.

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Hodder: Men and Gods.

Dietrich: Humans and Demons.

They do have a strong sense of resonance in the face of certain things, especially in this kind of feeling.

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How should the question about Otilia be answered?

For this problem, what Hodder felt was the kind of strong contradiction, not the difficulty.

From his point of view, it is actually not difficult to analyze the thoughts of the mad queen.

Because he is not a member of the Gothic royal family, he can even look at the queen with a scrutiny.

In his view, the queen's current state can only be described as a kind of 'selective amnesia'.

This is not mocking anything, but the real state.

After experiencing some extremely stimulating things, her spirit has been wandering on the verge of collapse.

Complex emotions such as shame, remorse, anger, and grievance are entangled together, and finally form an insoluble knot.

Even, this heart knot has reached the point where life is difficult to move forward, and it is forced to the point where I want to end my own life.

What's more, she doesn't have time to think slowly.

According to Mehmet, the kind of 'little revenge' she's given just happened overnight.

Not even one night, maybe just the few hours we met.

And during this period of time, her will, which was already on the verge of collapse, was further stimulated.

Her spirit and brain will activate this psychological defense mechanism, which is essentially an escape.

Forgotten.

This is the best escape for her, and the only self-protection she can do.

But here comes the question again, can anyone guarantee that she has really fallen into that crazy state?

It seems not.

Because sometimes, people themselves are not in an unconscious state.

They can realize what kind of state they are in.

However, the grief in reality made them refuse to wake up from such a dream, so instead of acknowledging reality, they continued to immerse themselves in this dream.

However, both of these have one thing in common.

That is, after being completely trapped in this kind of imaginary world that is completely different from reality and completely created according to their deepest desires, which can be called a dream, they can no longer hide their deepest thoughts.

To put it bluntly, exclude any deceitful elements.

If her insanity was real, that was the only possibility.

As a mother, she did not show falsehood and deceit before.

At least once, she really loved her children.

This is the obvious thing.

But being easy to see through doesn't mean being able to blurt out at will.

This is where Hodder feels embarrassed.

To be honest, from his point of view, he would rather that Dietrich could completely separate the relationship with her mother.

This state of loathing is probably for the best, because it at least gives her an outlet.

Because no matter from which point of view, Otilia, a woman, has an inescapable responsibility.

Her weakness and her ruthlessness are the fuse of everything.

It is even true that she prefers her illegitimate son to her independent daughter.

These have all been clarified now, and no matter from what point of view, it is more appropriate for Otilia to play the role of a bad woman.

Let's just let this matter go.

Unknowingly, a somewhat dirty thought appeared in Hodder's heart.

It seems that a little devil seems to be urging: just expose this matter like this.

Tell this sad girl that her mother is such a bad person.

There is no need to whitewash her.

Really, there is no need.

However, if such words were blurted out, it meant that he was going to deceive her.

For him, this kind of thing is unbearable.

So for a while, it was difficult for him to make a choice.

At this point, the atmosphere of silence gradually spread, and the princess who didn't get any answer took a deep breath.

At first, her scarlet eyes were as dazed as when she asked the question before, but soon, this daze disappeared without a sound.

Because she closed her eyes and her expression became calm.

"Actually, you don't have to answer anything."

Just when Huo De's brain was spinning rapidly, trying to find a way to get the best of both worlds that didn't exist, he heard these words.

Then, the thoughts gradually slowed down.

"Dietrich..."

"I'm no fool, Hodder, and my position, my identity, and my questionable bloodlines don't allow me to be habitually sentimental."

She took Howard's hand instead.

"I'm not as fragile as you think."

she said so emphatically.

Maybe even she herself didn't know, her tone was quite high-pitched at the moment, as if she was desperately emphasizing something.

"I just……"

She draws out her tone.

For a while, she couldn't find any suitable adjectives for herself.

Then, she smiled awkwardly.

However, Hodder could easily see the reluctance behind this embarrassment.

Her incoherence was real, and her impatience was real.

Now she just wants to desperately get out of this state.