You and me under the world tree

"But you don't even have such power."

This voice echoed in the hearts of human beings.

No matter how sweet the biscuits are, no matter how hot the tea is, there is no way to stop his gradually cooling heart.

"call……"

Taking a deep breath, Hodder just adjusted his emotions.

"Yes."

All of a sudden, he just started laughing.

But Zebul could tell that it was a bitter, self-deprecating, almost self-defeating smile.

"I don't even have such power now."

He just held half a biscuit in his hand, and squinted his eyes to observe, as if the biscuit had some exquisite lines worth observing.

It's just that this is just pretending.

The irritability lingered in my heart and diverged, and there was no way to dispel it no matter what.

"I don't have the right to look back at the past, because the memory of the past has been scattered."

After casually throwing the half biscuit on the table, Hodder suddenly reached out and grabbed his clothes.

"I believe the emotion is still there somewhere deep down, and it still shows up when I'm emotionally charged, but..."

He looked up at the giantess.

"I can't remember."

Chapter 28: Pointless Self-Doubt

A simple sentence can sum up Hodder's current mood.

No matter how much you say, no matter how many words you use to explain the complexity of the so-called feelings, it doesn't matter if you can even make it more romantic.

However, Huo De just couldn't remember it now.

"How should I put it, in fact, I am not completely amnesia."

Howard laughed helplessly.

"In fact, for me, maybe I can live a little more comfortably with complete amnesia, but I can't do that, so the result now is like this."

Using light force with his fingers, Hodder poked his left chest, as if he wanted to feel his heartbeat.

But soon, he stretched out his hand to fully grasp the clothes.

And this momentary force even made him feel the collar tighten.

It's like being completely strangled.

However, this feeling of being tightened did not at all slow down the irritability emanating from the bottom of my heart.

"Memory is completely half-baked. I actually still remember most things now, and I can tell exactly what happened in the past, but the strange thing is that sometimes I have the thought of 'those memories don't belong to me'."

Because now Hodder has lost that 'first impression'.

"All the way through, I've been 'knowing' things in the past, not 'living' them, and in between..."

"It's a world of difference."

Zebbel said softly.

"For you now, those things in the past are more like a book, and now you just read the words on it, no matter what you are looking for, no matter whether you resonate with it in your heart or not, you will always feel Empty."

Although this sharp statement about the giant princess is still a little uncomfortable.

But now Hodder has no idea of ​​rejection.

That's not to say he doesn't care about it, though.

It's just a little tired, he didn't even bother to pay attention to this uncomfortable feeling, he didn't even bother to get goosebumps.

"It's probably what you said. My current situation is so outrageous. Even if I want to shout out the slogan of revenge, I'm not so confident."

Speaking of this, Huode suddenly laughed.

"Obviously, for me, revenge is actually the most legitimate slogan. I just wanted to avenge them."

Whether it was the former Volsunger family, or Steckerd who was willing to take huge risks to protect his sister and eventually died.

Hodder can simply attribute all these tragedies to those high gods, and continue to work hard with the goal of defeating the gods.

"I could have thought very simple and didn't have to think about so many things, but... I couldn't do it."

His identity and status, his position...even forced him to think constantly with an almost coercive attitude.

He had to think over and over again to come up with a more suitable solution.

And that also meant that his mind couldn't stop at all.

"I have always thought that it is a good thing to learn to question. Questioning others can make me not follow blindly, and questioning myself can make me reflect at all times, but I occasionally question my motives and purposes."

It's actually about that sentence.

"Why did I get to where I am today?"

Gradually, Zebul restrained his original relaxed expression.

At this moment, she looked at the human sage with a complicated expression.

"That's why I also said before that your willpower is unique even if you look at the Nine Realms, because not everyone can do what you are doing now."

"Willpower... poof."

Of course Holder knew that Zebbul hadn't meant any mockery, but now he just wanted to laugh.

"Isn't my willpower fragile?"

"Is it fragile?"

"Don't I look like I'm following the track I used to go?"

He stared at Zebul.

"Isn't that the reason why I have come to the present step by step?"

He pursed his lips subconsciously.

The teeth tapped the lower lip lightly, even biting blood.

"I have nowhere to go, am I? From the beginning, I can only go on, without any choice!"

In the end, Hodder suddenly raised his voice just like that.

The voice just echoed in the boudoir of the giant princess.

"In fact, I had no choice from the beginning, so I can only follow the road that has been paved, step by step to the present."

Looking at the dejected appearance of the human beings, something seemed to flicker in Zebul's silver eyes.

Her vermilion lips parted lightly:

"So, are you really like this?"

Simple inquiry, no other too much relief.

In other words, Zebul didn't think about comforting anything from the beginning.

The giant princess was just asking.

"If the gods appeared in front of you now and wanted to reconcile with you, what would you choose?"

"..."

For a moment, the cloudy eyes moved.

Behind the chaotic darkness was a burning flame.

That's anger.

"What a joke."

Howard said in a low voice.

His tone was not as intense as before, but the impulse and anger in his words were extremely clear.

"Isn't that the case? These are all your own choices. It's your choice to get to the present step by step. You choose to shoulder everything. Even if you have forgotten the past, you will reach the end step by step."

"..."

"You haven't considered compromise, and you yearn for freedom, and you don't want to be at the mercy of anyone."

Having said that, Zebul's breathing became louder.

Hodder heard it clearly, and she seemed to sigh.

"Actually, I am a little envious of you. The courage to choose to fight even if you are covered in scars is really not something everyone has."

"courage……"

Hodder chewed on the word.

To be honest, he couldn't help but feel his lips dry now.

"You think I'm brave?"

Then, he shook his head.

"I have something to fear, even now, and I..."

"You're afraid that you don't care as much about the Volsungers as you think you do."

Suddenly, Zebul's voice exploded directly in Hodder's mind.

This directly made him close his eyes.

Hodder clenched his fist subconsciously, as if he was struggling for something.

But in the end he chose to give up.

"You are afraid that one day you will gradually forget their existence and make their status insignificant, and you even suspect..."

"If I really cared about them, would I not hesitate to modify my precious memory and put various false labels on it?"

Howard said in a low voice.

"Maybe, I'm just a ruthless guy who will do anything for some purpose."

Hearing this, Zebul blinked his eyes.

"Your doubts and entanglements are meaningless, because you have always cherished them."

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good night everybody

Chapter 29: Princess with Complicated Emotions

Dietrich felt strange.

It's certainly not because she didn't sleep well, in fact she did.

This should be the best sleep after returning to Jotunheim, and this kind of sleep quality cannot be brought by hotels in the city of ash.

Of course, this does not mean that there is anything wrong with Eggers' hospitality.

But for Dietrich, Zebul's room made her feel extremely at ease.

Not because of anything else, but because she has lived here for a long time.

And during that time, she didn't have to worry about her identity, and she didn't have to think about other things. She just lived here as an ordinary girl.

Every day when I wake up, I open the window and see my friend.