My youth love story is really a fake

"That kind of thing, don't you know?"

Yukinoshita said as if trying to kill them all.

While looking at Rumi who couldn't respond, she pursed her lips tightly as if she was enduring something.

As if teaching his ignorant self a lesson, Yukinoshita also endured his emotions.

"Sure enough, it will still become like this..."

As if giving up, Tsurumi's voice came out softly.

"Really, did something like an idiot."

Chapter 18 Help, not love

"Did you do anything?"

Although Tsurumi lowered his head, he couldn't see his expression at all.But the detailed response is still clear and audible every word.

"Other people have been bullied a few times... but in the end it all ended as if nothing had happened, and then they would still talk to each other and continue to do their own things. Someone will always bring this up— —It’s pretty much the same atmosphere for everyone.”

Such content makes people feel extremely uncomfortable.Although Tsurumi, who is the narrator, still looks so plain that he laughs at himself.

"Then, a child who had a good relationship and often talked to me was also bullied, and I kept a proper distance from her...but before I knew it, it was my turn. Obviously I hadn't done anything. "

It has nothing to do with what you have done. People who are excluded appear because of the need for unity.

Obviously, yesterday, he praised "calm and handsome" and today it will be interpreted as "condescending"; yesterday, he was respected because of his "smart mind", and today he is despised as "looking down on people who are not good at learning"; yesterday, he was still "lively and energetic" today It will be replaced by "noisy and smug".

Because "everyone" is saying it, "I" is saying it too.There is no right or wrong, no good or evil, just a matter of pure atmosphere.Because everyone is worried about getting out of the atmosphere, so the night patrol is just a casual remark, and things will develop unknowingly.

And once it starts, in this group, everyone will become afraid because "maybe the next one is themselves".Those who followed the atmosphere unconsciously began to promote the atmosphere, so when it was supposed to end, everyone looked for the next victim.

Children learn "self" in this cycle, which is a normal process.

So let's just leave it at that, right?

Even watching Tsurumi trembling and whimpering mixed with unease?

Even if you recall what happened back then?

"When you get to middle school... will it still be like this..."

Tsurumi's voice didn't dissipate from Kinoshita Chiyo's mind until the end of dinner.Just like that sentence at that time.

"It's okay, monitor. It will be fine in high school."

Oh shit!

It was getting late, and there were only leftovers on the table.However, as if something was pressing everyone down, everyone was still sitting in their respective positions, holding their own teacups.

So, the atmosphere is such a thing.

"Now they're probably doing something like a school trip night chat."

Ye Shan can always render the atmosphere peaceful and harmonious at critical moments.This kind of argument seems to be nostalgic for something.Come to think of it, with his personality, he should have participated in similar activities when he was a child.It seemed like it was already bedtime, but I couldn't fall asleep because I was so excited about spending the night with my friends.In the end, it developed to the point where everyone was throwing pillows, or chatting all night while eating snacks on the bed.

"Are you okay..."

Yuigahama, who was sitting next to the silent Himina, asked worriedly, this girl has an unexpectedly delicate feeling in some aspects.

Accompanied by the friction sound of "唰", Hiratsuka-sensei's handsome side face was suddenly illuminated under the shadow of the tree, and after taking a short puff, purple smoke rose.Cigarettes swayed as they exchanged crossed legs.

"Phew. Is there anything bothering you?"

It was Hayama who answered this question first.

"Well, there is an isolated student..."

"It's really pitiful—"

Miura habitually followed Hayama's topic, but this sentence seemed to have stimulated Hikigaya who was sitting on the other side.

"That's not right, Hayama. You didn't understand the essence of the problem. Isolation, if it's just being alone, is fine in itself. The problem is being isolated because of malicious intent."

"Huh? Does it make a difference?"

Even if he wanted to focus the topic on Hayama, Miura still pressed the question domineeringly back.The moment of fierce arrogance made Hikigu pause slightly.

"What it means is that there is a difference between wanting to be alone and being pushed out to be alone."

"Ah. That's roughly what it means."

Chihiro's joining has also stabilized Hikigaya's position.

"Then, what are you guys going to do?"

As the instructor, Xiao Jing obviously wouldn't directly deal with it.The questions of Zongwu high school students are given to myself, the life instructor; and the current questions are elective homework for volunteer activities.

How to do?

Salad...

It is as if you may feel that after watching a film recording war and poverty, you may feel that your soul has been shocked, your three views have been baptized, and your entire consciousness has been sublimated.However, when you turn your head and return to real life, what you just saw doesn't make sense.

For humans, this is a habit - as a bystander of pain, pain, meaningless.

Everyone is the same, no one really has the consciousness to do something seriously and responsibly.Whether it's Qianjian, Biqigu, or Hayama...

"I……"

It was Hayama who opened his mouth heavily.She doesn't have the usual love and peace aura, and she seems indecisive as if someone will refute her immediately.

Although it does.

"I want to do something within my power."

This is indeed what Hayama would say.It sounds warm and genuine and tender—to the same beholder.

within reach?Have you ever wondered what will happen later where you are beyond your reach?

"Then please do nothing within your power, okay?"

"You can't do it, isn't it like this before?"

The rhetorical voices from the two places on the dining table sounded at the same time, relentlessly tearing apart the ambiguous reality created by Ye Shan's words.Obviously can't do anything, what a good person.

Yukinoshita's cold voice and Chiba's piercing gaze froze Hayama's body at the same time.

At this moment, Hayama, who had suffered a double blow, showed a pained expression as if his heart was burning.

At the same time, Chihiro and Yukinoshita, who refuted Hayama's reasons for his actions, looked at each other, and put aside the object they had been staring at for a second.

After a while, the atmosphere of the needlepoint was submerged silently in the twinkling eyes.

"Maybe, that's the case...but this time it's different."

"Who knows"

Hayama gasped for a moment, then spoke.Facing Hayama's answer, Yukinoshita shrugged and responded coldly.

Seeing the unexpected interaction, everyone present fell into a heavy silence.

Chapter 19 Those Hidden

No wonder Hayama cares so much about Chihiro and Yukinoshita's rumors. It seems that it's not just about Himina and Miura.Judging by Yukinoshita's reaction, what happened between the two of them should be the key point.

Speaking of which, Qian Jian had known for a long time that the two families had a good relationship.Looking back on it this way, Yukinoshita's stiff attitude towards Hayama is really different.

"Yah ah ah..."

Hiratsuka-sensei lit up another cigarette as if he was taking advantage of this opportunity.Slowly inhale half of it and rub it out in the ashtray.This time, it turned to Yukinoshita.

"Under the snow, what are you going to do?"

While talking, Xiao Jing took a special look at Qian Jian's side.Maybe she also noticed her irritable attitude just now, and now Qianjian has been doing the work of stabilizing her emotions.

"... Let's confirm one thing first."

"what's up?"

"Ms. Hiratsuka also said before that this event will also include a sleepover from the service department. Is solving her problem also included in the event content?"

Hiratsuka-sensei thought about Yukinoshita's question and nodded quietly.

"...Well, that's exactly what I said. I want to count the activities of helping the forest school and the work of volunteers as part of the department's activities. From the principle of principle, it is also within this category. Right."

"Is that so..."

Saying so, Yukinoshita fell silent.

When the leaves were rustling by the evening wind, Yukinoshita replied with awe-inspiring determination: "I... If she asks for help, I will help her through some means."

Do not ask for help.

Unlike the sympathetic big sister and sunny big brother who came from somewhere, the so-called service department is definitely not the kind of half-hearted consciousness.If you don't have the willingness to be helped, you won't be passionate about helping; otherwise, you will definitely do your best to fulfill the client's expectations.

Yuigahama and Komachi who were sitting on the side were stunned by Yukinoshita's majestic appearance.

Hiratsuka-sensei gave a big "hmm" nod as if he was very satisfied with the answer.

"So? Did she ask you for help?"

So, the question comes back to the crucial point.Everyone is completely ignorant of Tsurumi's will.

"About that, it's unclear—"

"Xiaoxue,"

Yuigahama pulled Yukinoshita's clothes over and over again.

"That child probably wanted to say it but couldn't say it."

Yuigahama deduced with a bit of loneliness: "...Didn't Rumi-chan say that she was often bullied. Because she also kept her distance at the time, couldn't she allow herself to be helped by others? I I don't think it's bad to stay in the US alone, everyone is probably at fault... Even if you want to talk and get along well, you can't do it in that environment..."

At this point, Yuigahama's words were interrupted.He adjusted his breathing a little, and laughed ah ha ha as if trying to fool himself.

Definitely answer, right?Afterwards, just follow what Yukinoshita said?

"Is there anyone who disagrees with Yukinoshita's opinion?"

Hiratsuka-sensei waited for a while, then slowly turned his head and looked around, observing the reactions around him.

No one denied it.

"Very good. Then you can think about how to do it." Hiratsuka yawned loudly, and Mr. Hiratsuka stood up from his seat, "I'm going to sleep."

Thus, the discussion on how to get Tsurumi out of isolation officially started.

"Let me tell you—that kid is cute. Wouldn't it be nice to be with other cute kids? Wouldn't it be okay to try to strike up a conversation? Wouldn't the relationship get better? It's easy, isn't it?"

"That's right! Yumiko really has a way!"

"Hmph, right?"

It wasn't surprising that Miura would say that - because she seemed to have walked so bluntly all the way.As for Tobu who can express his agreement...well, being able to echo like this all the time is also a formidable feeling.

"Well, that's only Yumiko who can do it..."

You see, not even Yuigahama would agree.

"Although it's not a good way to say it, Yumiko's words are still reasonable in the sense of creating opportunities. However, it may be very difficult to strike up a conversation under the current situation."

Ha Shan could only tactfully express his disapproval attitude.Although Miura had some dissatisfaction on his expression, he also agreed with "Is that so".

This time, Ji Cai raised her hand confidently.

"Jicai, tell me."

It was Hayama who said this.Although this scene was already very funny in Qianjian's eyes, but because it was Ji who was speaking, Qianjian didn't want to say anything yet.

"It's okay. As long as you have hobbies, it's fine. If you become enthusiastic because of your hobbies, as long as you go to events or something, there will be more opportunities to make friends? I think you will definitely find your true home. Local. Know that school is not everything. In this way, you will become happy because of various things.”

Indeed, if you think about it not from the fixed school, but from a wider choice area, the situation will still improve.This can also be regarded as experience.

When Ji Cai told this answer, she had a calm expression on her face, but in fact, her eyes were secretly paying attention to Qian Jian's reaction many times.As a routine closing procedure, Ji Cai, who has created a unique personal impression, is still preaching about her interests.

"I made friends because of BL! Girls who hate BL don't exist! So, Yukinoshita-san is also with me...!"

When Qian Jian heard the last sentence, her mood became more complicated.

"Yumiko, bring some tea with Hime."

"Okay! Ebina, let's go now."