I, Hikigu, are contained by the evil god

This is what is called, I know everything makes sense, but I still sometimes get overwhelmed by emotion and ignore reason.

"I see."

Arima answered bluntly, not caring about Hikigaya's sarcasm at all,

Because, "I'm not feeling well either."

"Are you feeling guilty?"

"Guilt, and so much more."

Arima nodded, "It's also hard for me to describe that feeling."

He came over, walked to Hikigu's side, looked out the window, and looked at the opposite building.

The two stand side by side.

Hikigu sniffed, and keenly asked that there was a smell of smoke on Arima's body, and he had never smelled such a smell on Arima's body before.

The gunfire has never stopped since the beginning of the battle, and it will never stop ringing tirelessly, without any gaps.

Arima's eyes were stained with a little sadness, which was seen by Hikigaya.

He was sad, very sad...was he sad for the agent's death, or his own incompetence?

For the first time, Hikigu felt that he felt Arima's heart, which was a lively and fiery heart under the cold outside.

"Would you like to chat?" Arima didn't turn his head, and said to Hikigu while looking out the window, "I want to chat with you."

"But...with all due respect, Arima-sama." Hikiya pointed to the gunfire outside the window, "I don't think we should chat now."

"Because we can only stand here now. I want to wait for the big man behind the scenes to appear here. You have to protect the safety of the fake third seal here. It's useless to be anxious. It's better to chat to pass the time."

Arima's words left Hikigu no room to refuse,

"Besides, I really want to chat with you. You are a disciple of General Sakasky. We should have more contacts."

"Then," Hikigaya thought for a while, and felt that what Arima said seemed to make sense, "then let's talk... What are you talking about? Actually, I'm just now wondering why you feel sad."

Arima took Hikigaya's question, "Because of your questioning and sarcasm, I feel sad for the sacrifices of the agents, but I am still a little proud."

"The sacrifices of the agents are for the sake of ordinary people; the suffering of the agents is for the sake of the absence of suffering for ordinary people."

"Aggrieved because of low wages, lost motivation because of boring and repetitive life, decadent because of unsatisfactory life, angry because of customers and superiors at work... Those complaints and complaints of ordinary people actually mean that Living in a peaceful and prosperous world is already a kind of happiness in itself.”

"It's the life of agents who want that life and never get it, who are always in crisis."

Arima's eyes lowered,

"Do you want to pursue excitement? Only when you have more excitement, will you know the benefits of peace."

A little bit more than Qigu, with a deep understanding, and a low tone:

"From the moment an agent enters the mystery, he has already walked on a tightrope, and he can only keep moving forward."

"That's right, but it's not something a newcomer who has been in the industry for more than [-] days can say. Is this what Yango taught you?" Arima asked abruptly.

"You still know Yang Nai?" Bi Qigu was surprised.

On second thought, it seems possible.

After all, Yang Nai is No.13's apprentice, a direct descendant of Sakalski's lineage, as long as he survives halfway, he will be a stable high-level core of the Asia Society in the future.

Sakaski's right-hand man Kisho Arima should at least have heard of it.

"I just know that Xue Xiayang is your guide... I saw it when I saw your profile."

To Hikigu's surprise, the reason Arima said was not what Hikigu thought.

"She did teach me a lot of truths." Hikigu nodded, admitting the problem of having a horse just now,

"Since entering the industry, although it's not a long time, she has contributed a lot to shaping my world view in secret."

"But, speaking of it, Yang Nai's teaching is half, and my experience is half."

Bi Qigu shrugged, "Although I have not been in the secret for a long time, in terms of experience, I am no worse than a senior agent."

"Indeed, you are right, but I was wrong... Otherwise, you would not have become a branch of the Chiba City Association, let alone become a disciple of Lord Sakaski."

Arima nodded,

"Speaking of Mr. Sakaski, he is like your yin to me... To be exact, the meaning is much more profound and important."

"When I didn't graduate from primary school, I stepped into the mysterious world by accident, and have followed Sakasky ever since."

"People say that most of the time in life you don't get what you want, but there are many precious blunders."

"When I was young, I wanted to be a scientist, or a teacher, teaching and educating people."

"I failed to become a scientist or a teacher as I wished, but I met General Sakasky by accident."

"I've always been grateful, grateful and proud of that blunder."

In the midst of the fierce gunfire, for some reason, Arima frankly confessed to Bikigu.

"For so many years, you have been following General Sakasky around?"

"Yes, it has been like this for more than 30 years." Arima nodded,

"The general has changed from an ordinary detective to the branch chief of the Asia Society, the general of the entire association; I have also changed from an ignorant teenager to the ace agent of the Asia Society branch."

"He is a very strict person, but he taught me a lot of things, from character to cognition, from life to skills, and his influence has implemented all of me."

"Probably, he is like a adoptive father to me."

"So that's how it is." From Arima's mouth, Hikigaya learned about a brand new Sakaski, and also learned more about Arima.

"Don't just finish talking, let's talk about you." Arima looked at Hikigaya, "What do you think of everyone in this association and this mysterious world?"

"Not much."

Hikigu really doesn't know how to chat, he can only speak the truth, and he speaks concisely and neatly, he is a famous topic stopper,

"They come, the security."

"Mystery, it's fine if you don't know it. If you know it, you can only fight it to the end."

"As for everyone's daily life, it's fine if you're not in the jurisdiction. If you're in the jurisdiction, you can't ignore it. If there is a weirdness that may affect the daily life of people you know, you must completely eliminate it in the bud."

"It's convenient and dangerous, but at least I have the right to choose my own life and death, or [-]% of the right to choose, in my own hands... That's what I think."

The remaining [-]%, [-]% went crazy and depraved, and [-]% died by accident.

In just three sentences, it thoroughly described the life of an agent of the association.

——Live in mystery, fight against weirdness, and protect daily life.

After being silent for a while, Arima turned his head and looked at Hikigaya with a gloomy look in his eyes.

Hikigu turned his head and looked at him:

"... Afraid of death?"

"Afraid of death, terribly afraid." Bi Qigu nodded calmly,

"But when it's time to die, you can only die."

Arima's eyes were even more sad: "It seems that you have already initially understood the feeling of the detective being involuntary."

"Yes, I have no right to choose."

"I don't have the right to choose either."

Arima looked even more sad, and even Hikigu could clearly feel this sadness.

"Yes." Hikigu sighed, "This is the agent."

"No, you don't understand . . . I'm not talking about the agent's involuntary control."

In addition to sadness, Hikigaya began to see pain in Arima's eyes, "It's my involuntary."

"Aren't you an agent?"

"Agent?" Arima's mouth curled up, "Heaven and hell, I don't have the right to choose."

"...The detective career that you regard as hell is actually my paradise."

"...What?" Bi Qigu couldn't understand.

Arima's eyes drooped, and his voice was faint.

"But, I've never been to heaven."

"What the hell are you talking about?"

The strange feeling became stronger and stronger, and the ominous premonition in my heart was almost overflowing.

"Well, I mean, that's the end of the chat."

Arima ended the conversation by shouting:

"Agent Biqigu."

Bi Qigu stood at attention solemnly, and was a little baffled: "Yes, Senior Arima, I am here."

"……I'm very sorry."

Before he finished speaking, he punched out with a wind and thunder on the fist, and a thunderbolt came out of nowhere, hitting Bi Qigu's chest fiercely.

"I'm no longer your senior...Although, I never was."

"boom--!!!"

Bi Qigu's figure flew backwards quickly, and his figure slammed into the wall fiercely, knocking the wall down on the spot.

This was an unreserved punch from the big man in the fifth stage, and Bi Qigu, who took this punch for real, had no reason to be spared.

Arima's expression became even sadder.

He didn't want that either.

But Hikigu said,

"Afraid of death, terribly afraid." "But when you deserve to die, you can only die."

When he heard the first half of the sentence, Arima was happy for a moment.

It would be great if there is no second half of the sentence, and it would be great if Bi Qigu is a coward who is afraid of death.

He didn't want to kill Bi Qigu, but he was still the same,

—He has no right to choose.

Arima looked at the dust splashed up in front of him due to the collapse of the wall, and took a step forward.

The smoke and dust gradually dispersed, and a figure inside was looming.

With a "click", Arima stopped on the small gravel.

"Cough cough cough...why?"

After a violent cough, the sound came from the smoke.

Hikigu's figure stepped out of the smoke.

He lowered his head, lowered his eyes, and his voice was low and sad,

"The more I get in touch with you, the more I feel that you shouldn't be that kind of person, so I overthrow my guesses and judgments time and time again..."

"But I was still wrong, or rather, I was right at the beginning."

"It turns out that you are really a traitor."

……

Chapter 77 Hikigu's Melaleuca Reversal ([-] in [-])

Hikigaya was fine, he was even unscathed, and the appearance of being safe and sound moved Arimamoto's paralyzed face.

The situation is reversed again.

Arima raised his eyebrows, with a look of surprise and uncertainty on his face, but the guilt and pain in the depths of his eyes decreased a little.

"You're not dead?"

Hikigu shrugged and pointed to an inconspicuous little button on the neckline of his windbreaker, which already had cracks.