I, Hikigu, are contained by the evil god

To be honest, these words of Sakalski sounded very tempting, but Bi Qigu felt that the more he listened, the more awkward he became.

Just now he heard Sakalski say that he was really sad and flustered after being labeled by fate, and he was also trying to find a straw to save his life.

But when he was in despair, when Sakaski really handed over a life-saving straw... Bi Qigu felt that the straw grew really awkwardly, and he was really shivering.

So, even he himself felt strange... Is this still me?

Obviously with his personality, as long as there is a way to survive and avoid trouble, no matter how shivering the way is, he will dare to try it without hesitation... But why is Bi Qigu now inexplicably unwilling to agree?

Could it be that the subtle influence left by Abe Seimei changed Hikigaya's character a little?

Now he could even clearly hear Sakaski's breathing gradually getting louder and faster... He knew that he was wasting the general's impatient patience, but he couldn't help it, he really didn't know how to answer.

"Why don't you know?"

Sakarski asked,

"As I said just now, you are excellent. Your experience of saving the world three times and your current strength are enough to prove your excellence. So you don't need any events to prove you."

Even though everyone knows that Sakaski is impatient, he is really explaining it over and over again:

"Since this is the case, why do you still have to stay in Japan? You can just treat it as yourself and go to a wider stage to display your skills, wouldn't it be fine?"

"Evasion is more about avoiding unnecessary trouble, so it's shameful but useful."

"You know, the Association will never prevent an agent from escaping, as long as he has enough reasons to escape and not out of pure fear... It's like encountering an invincible weirdness, except for one person who stays in the rear, the others It’s like having to run away quickly.”

"—Rather than escaping, it's more like a tactical retreat, accumulating strength for a better outbreak."

"...Avoid, trouble?" Bi Qigu took a deep breath in silence, and then let out a long breath, organizing his words for a long time,

At this time, he kept questioning his own heart, his heart, and what he wanted to do.

"It sounds good, but I'm also a person who is afraid of trouble. If I really have something to do all day, running away is the best choice."

Hikiya nodded slowly,

Kebi Qigu quickly shook his head again,

"Can,"

"But I just think that if you want to avoid trouble, keep avoiding, avoid completely..."

"Would it be troublesome even to walk and eat, even troublesome to breathe, and finally infinitely close to death?"

"So, what I mean is, escaping may not be so correct, right?"

Hikigu spoke slowly, during which Sakaski remained silent and did not reply.

"If you want to escape... I seem to have been avoiding it all the time. In the past, I used to use reasons such as powerlessness or irrelevance to convince myself not to meddle in my own business, let alone pretend to be a hero."

...Yes, Master, you may not believe me when I tell you, but I, who saved the world three times in 27 days, have never wanted to be a hero from the bottom of my heart. "

"I have always thought that the hero who saves the world is a fool. It is completely unnecessary to gamble my life and the lives of my friends on an impossible miracle. And it is too tiring and dangerous... so I have been avoiding it all the time." coming."

"Um,"

Bi Qigu's expression became more and more sad, and his tone gradually became urgent and angry.

"But fate is always bullying me!"

Bi Qigu took a deep breath, his breathing became short,

"I have been avoiding and avoiding him all the time, but it still keeps sending troubles to me, but the problems still appear one after another."

"I don't care about things outside my jurisdiction, but the weirdness is that I keep running from outside to my jurisdiction to make troubles;

I only care about my few relatives and friends, but someone abducted the person I valued very much in front of me and made her step into the mysterious path of death! "

"Where is fate labeling me as the savior, it is simply a piece of shit!"

"...So, what I mean is, escaping may not be that useful, right?"

then,

Hikiya completely denied what Sakaski said.

This was the disciple's first disobedience to the master, but the master was not angry.

——Because every word of Hikigu speaks to Sakaski's heart.

Sakaski had actually thought about similar things in his heart, and it's not like Sakaski didn't know what Hikigu said... After all, Sakaski had never escaped.

But even so, Sakaski still persuaded him this way, because he really didn't want Bi Qigu to die again.

It doesn't matter if it's cold-blooded for so many years and suddenly soft-hearted, or it's because Kisho Arima just died, No.13 was seriously injured and nearly died, or he doesn't want the little apprentice to die in battle.

In short, Sakaski really didn't want Hikigu to die for such a shitty reason.

It doesn't matter how many things Bi Qigu has experienced, or how many feats Bi Qigu has made,

In the final analysis, the current Biqigu is just an immature young man who has just been 18 years old and has been employed for 27 days full of secrets.

...And in the final analysis, why did Biqigu suffer so much?

Obviously he did nothing wrong, he just saved the world.

——That's why Sakalski persuaded people to escape for the first time in his life. This is really not Sakalski, so he turned his back to Biqigu, looked up at the stars and the moon, and didn't want anyone to see his face and face on the expression.

But after Biqigu didn't even think about it, Sakaski really didn't know what to say.

Even the client said he was unwilling to escape, so he had no reason to persuade against his will.

So he chose to be silent; he chose to keep his back to Biqigu and remained motionless, like a stone sculpture that had stood here for a long time; he chose to listen to Biqigu's continuation.

"...Also, master, I am no longer the Biqigu who is used to avoiding."

Sakaski's silence gave Hikigu the space and time to clear his mind and see his true heart... Hikigu actually didn't know about Sakaski's mental journey, but he could vaguely guess some.

At this moment, Hikigu's voice fell back from haste to a low voice, and his tone slowly dropped, "When I realized that running away would not solve any problems, and things would even get worse if I felt that I was weak and deceitful, I made up my mind I've made up my mind."

"Since fate always pushes me to go up unprepared and doesn't let me escape, why don't I always be prepared and take the initiative to go up."

"It may be a bit crazy to say that. Since fate has laid a net for me, I will struggle hysterically."

"After all, it doesn't seem to be a big deal..."

Biqigu shrugged,

"Based on my experience these few times, every time I choose to take the initiative, it's because things have gotten so bad from the beginning that they can't get any worse."

"It's all over now, so it doesn't matter whether you escape or not... There was no such choice at those times."

"—and now."

Hikigaya's face became more and more flat as he narrated. He seemed to be talking to Sakalski, but he was also smoothing out his own train of thought and convincing his fearful heart.

"You gave me a choice because you are kind to me."

"But this shitty world won't give me a choice, not fate, not even weirdness."

"In the final analysis, I also want to have a choice. If there is a choice, I will definitely choose to run away... But this choice is not something you say you have."

"The entire association is involuntary, and the entire mysterious world is full of tragedies. How can you create a comedy for me who is a tragedy?"

"I want to run away too. I'm terribly afraid of death, but I can't run away."

"Didn't you just say that?"

"You said that people who have encountered weirdness will have a higher probability of encountering weirdness in the future. I am very similar to them in essence...then can they escape?"

"As long as they choose to escape and stay in churches or temples for the rest of their lives, wouldn't they be safe?"

"But what is the association's policy in the face of this kind of thing?"

Hikigu remembered what Yono had said back then,

"For the polluted, the only way is to step into the path of the extraordinary."

"After enlightenment, make yourself a member of the mysterious, let yourself have the power to fight against the weird, and naturally you won't be afraid of the weird coming to your door."

"...So in the face of this kind of thing, hasn't the association already given the best way to deal with it?"

At this moment, Bi Qigu's face completely returned to calm, any confusion, sadness, and depression disappeared completely.

Because he has found the only answer deep in his heart.

That was his only option.

"For those whose home is on the edge of the battlefield, the only way is to pick up a steel gun."

"It is indeed possible to escape for a while, but what about the next time? What about the next time? No one can guarantee that there will be no next time and the next time. I will never have the opportunity to escape."

"One more thing, Master,"

"You just said that the experience of saving the world three times and my current strength are enough to prove my excellence. I don't need any events to prove me."

"...You may be wrong again, Master."

Bi Qigu took a deep breath, gently stroked his chest with his right hand,

"It's not those experiences that prove my excellence, nor my excellence that causes those experiences,"

"Those experiences have created my current excellence and current strength."

"It's never a hero that makes an epic, I always think it's an epic that makes a hero."

"……so,"

Hikigu raised his head, looked at Sakaski's back seriously, and paused word by word:

"Avoiding is not the solution. The only way to fight against weirdness is to make yourself stronger."

"Experiences time after time make me stronger, so that I can be more calm when the crisis comes, and only then can I find the possibility of victory when I finally face the indescribable and unfathomable super evil god."

"If you don't do this, there will never be growth. Of course, maybe this does get a moment of comfort..."

Hikigu pursed his lips, "But sooner or later, I may still encounter a huge crisis...and this is not uncommon for agents."

"What shall I do then?"

"I just don't want that day to come when I'm powerless without everything around me."

Probably, Hikigu, who has found his real thing, is really different from before.

——The previous Hikigaya couldn't say such generous words.

——The former Hikigu might have chosen to run away, running away without hesitation, even if it was just for a moment of comfort.

"so,"

In the end, Hikigu gave his own answer.

At this time, Hikigu made his own choice.

——In other words, Hikigu has never made a choice, nor is he qualified to make a choice,

He just couldn't help himself again, saw the only choice that fate left him in front of him, and then bent down to pick it up.

"So, I have to stay in Japan. There are still many things worth protecting here."

"So, I won't go, I'll just stand here, and I have to let those things find me."

"Then, either they destroy me, or I take them in and turn them into food for me to become stronger."

Bi Qigu's speech speed is actually not fast, but every word is sonorous and forceful,

It seems that these words will become nails in the ground after they are spoken from the mouth,

"And my only request is, if possible, please let me sit in the seat, away from the people I care about."

"...Then, I can devote myself to the association, and perhaps to the fate of this damn bastard."

then,

Hikigaya Hachiman made a choice that everyone seemed to be happy with.

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Chapter 50 Biqigu's Happiness and Never Turning Around (7.6k!)

"...You're right, what you said makes sense and is logical." Sakalski shook his head, "It makes me look like a clown."

Sakalski's pride seemed to be strongly stimulated.