I, Hikigu, are contained by the evil god

Xue Nai's eyes were shining, and she said sincerely: "Because I think people who can maintain that kind of mentality must be happy people."

"—Speaking of which, for you, what does happiness sometimes look like?" Xue Nai suddenly changed the subject, and asked Hikigu, "I'm curious."

"Happiness..." Because Yukino speaks freely first, Hikigu doesn't shy away from revealing her true thoughts,

"I think happiness can be divided into two types, one is something that can make people feel happy, and the other is the state of happiness maintained because of existing encounters."

"The thing that makes me happy is that it's sunny today, and I feel normal. Then I go to see that thing, or think about that thing, and I feel inexplicably happy when I think about it in my heart. So today is sunny, and my mood is also sunny."

Xue Nai was thoughtful.

"As for the state of happiness..." Bi Qigu pursed his lips and shrugged, "For me, it is now."

As soon as he finished speaking, Hikigu felt that there was ambiguity, so he immediately corrected the preface: "—Ah, I mean, in the rest of my life, I can enjoy a quiet daily life with important people. This is my happiness and my happiness. It’s worth the effort.”

"What about now?" Xue Nai looked at Hikigu's eyes, the shimmering eyes were soft, but with an inexplicable burning meaning, "Is student Biqigu's mood sunny now?"

Bi Qigu thought about it, and said truthfully:

"Of course, a sunny day."

Xue Nai showed her face, smiling like a flower.

Compared with Qigu's words, she feels the same way.

When Bi Qigu was not around, Xue Nai ignored everyone and was in a mess with aloofness, and there was no shadow of others in her eyes.

But when Biqigu was around, she would smile at everyone, even be polite to those who hate her, wishing she could eat every dusk waiting for Biqigu with sugar,

...Because a person changes his mood, because a person falls in love with today's weather and the world at this moment, this is happiness, right?

The subway journey is still long, and after talking about life, Xue Nai and Hikigu talked about the past again.

"Thinking about it now, in the past, I was also a person with a shell."

"Shell? What shell?"

Xue Nai said in a funny tone: "Some people are withdrawn by nature. They are like hermit crabs or snails who always want to shrink into their own shells. There are many such people in the world. Maybe this is an atavistic phenomenon, that is, Go back to the ancient times, when the ancestors of man were not social animals, but lived alone in their own caves."

"Hey?" Hikigu blinked his eyes, feeling that the words had a strong sense of sight, "Where did I see these words?"

Xue Nai put on a stern face, shook her head solemnly, her voice was low and dull:

"You must have heard of him. What makes him special is that whenever he goes out, even in fine weather, he always wears overshoes, carries an umbrella, and always wears a warm cotton coat. His umbrella is in the case Here, the pocket watch comes in a gray buckskin case, and sometimes...

All in all, this person will always have an irresistible desire to wrap himself in a shell, to make a so-called cover for himself, so that he can isolate himself from the world and not be affected by the outside world..."

Xue Nai babbled a lot, and Bi Qigu became more and more familiar with it as he listened to it. It was not until more than halfway through Xue Nai's reading that he finally realized: "It's Chekhov's "The Man in a Case"!"

"Yes." Xue Nai nodded lightly, "He uses a cover to protect himself, and I use a shell to separate me from the world...Remove the conservative and feudal parts, we are very different, but very similar."

Bi Qigu complained: "It sounds like a second grade."

Xue Nao was noncommittal: "Have you forgotten? When we first met."

"I probably have an impression."

——It’s not just a general impression, but it’s still fresh in my memory.

In the corner of the empty community classroom, desks and chairs are piled up messily.

A young girl reads a book under the setting sun.

Such a scene was as beautiful as a painting, giving Hikiya the illusion that even if the end of the world came, the girl would stay there and continue reading.

It was a beautiful picture that was frozen in his high school memory, and he knew from that time that he would have high school memories in the future.

But it turns out that his prediction did not deviate at all. Now, long after Hikigu dropped out of school, a large part of his high school memories are indeed about the woman in front of him.

After all, this guy is really good-looking. She should be the memory of many people in junior high school and high school. She has amazed how many people's youth, and made many people have a face to the impression of their first crush.

In the buzzing sound of the subway moving forward, Hikigu said uncertainly while recalling, "It seems that you felt quite alienated and cold at that time."

"Yeah." Xue Nai pursed her lips, "Do you know how I saw you at that time?

"I thought about how disgusting this person is, the rotten eyes are disgusting, and the decadent temperament on his body is also disgusting, you know I never like this kind of person... And what I used to face you at that time was a thick shell. "

"You mean the venomous tongue that makes people irritated and the indifference that doesn't answer?" Hikigu said.

"That's one of the manifestations of shells."

Shino concluded,

"To put it simply, I don't even bother to bother with Xu and Weishen. I don't want to talk to them at all, and I don't even want to see most annoying people... This is my shell."

"No one has ever seen the sincerity under my shell... For a long time, even my own sister Yang Nai couldn't break through this shell."

Hikigu thought for a while, "It seems so... You are indeed difficult to be understood by others, and you never get in touch with others. Compared with me who insists on the three principles alone, you seem to be a person who is not inferior to me. A lone legend."

Without asking what the three principles of loneliness are, Xue Nai shrugged, "It's not a bad thing to be alone."

"What about now?" Hikigu asked again.

"Now?"

Hikigu nodded, and couldn't help asking: "Yes, now, do you still hate me so much now?"

Xue Nai glanced at Bi Qigu, "Ask knowingly?"

"Hey." Bi Qigu scratched his head, "Some answers always have to be said, so that there is enough certainty."

"Why are you acting like a little girl?"

"Then are you going to tell me or not?"

"..." Xue Nai breathed out helplessly, but the corners of her mouth were unconsciously amused by Bi Qigu's coquettish words, and the gentleness in the smile spread from the corners of her mouth to the tip of her brows,

"I do have a thick shell, and I do resist communicating with people... But it's you who broke my shell and pulled me out of it?"

The softness inside the shell jumped out because of Biqigu.

It was Hikigaya who changed her, and she also changed Hikigaya to some extent... They changed each other, leaving a strong mark on each other's life trajectory.

"You changed me."

"Up to now, the difference between me and the past is still quite big...Although my sincerity is still only visible to you"

Shino emphasized:

"—Only for you, I have no defense at all right now."

Hikigu hurriedly said: "Don't say these things that are easy to make people think."

"Hey? Where did you go?"

Yukino widened her eyes, tilted her head and asked Hikigu curiously.

"... who knows." Bi Qigu was at a loss for words.

Xue Nai chuckled, "So you also miss me?"

These words were quite lethal, causing Hikigu to turn his head and eyes to the other side with his back to Yukino, not daring to look at Yukino's scorching gaze.

... Yukino is very happy right now

It's so much fun to tease Hikigu!

It's so fun to tease Bi Qigu without any scruples and no longer need to care about other people's eyes!

It can only be said that the timing of Xia Zhiqiu's diarrhea was just right. Not only did he not come by himself, but he also took away two light bulbs in one go.

Although Yukino didn't know how Xiazhiqiu had diarrhea, he still had to say: "Thank you! Big sister Xiazhiqiu!"

"Buzzing—"

The roar of the subway echoed in their ears.

I don't know why the noisy air gradually quieted down.

Looking up at the reminder above the head, the passing subway is about to reach the final destination of Biqigu and Xue Nai. .

Hikigu scratched his head, not knowing how to answer Yukino's question.

Although it seems to be nothing to tell the truth, Bi Qigu always feels that what he says will add to the ambiguous and embarrassing atmosphere.

In the end, Hikigu still couldn't resist Yukino's probing gaze, so he gritted his teeth and told the truth.

"Ugh."

"There should be no one who doesn't."

Bi Qigu smacked his lower lip, his erratic eyes wandered to a far side of the place as if nothing had happened, his voice became lower and lower, and he said almost in a whisper:

"...It's you after all."

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ps: 5k chapters.The daily routine in Tokyo will end tomorrow, and then I will return to Chiba to write about other girls. Of course, there is still Yukino's continuous output!

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Tweet this friend's book, one thing to say, this introduction is so long...

Xu Lin came to the mainland of Terra, which he was not familiar with, and decided to be a seafood vendor in Longmen, so that he would spend his life in an ordinary way.But suddenly the sound of the tide coming from his hometown resounded in his ears, and he would fall into a nightmare when he closed his eyes, and he could see the salt crystals precipitated from his body every day when he woke up.

In the nightmare, the monster approached him with swaying and distorted limbs, singing meaningless hymns in his ears, and the curse from the deep sea came to Xu Lin.

But at the moment before he died, Xu Lin suddenly found that there were two dice in his mind, and if he wanted to, he could roll the dice lightly...

[Patter!Xu Lin's mental test D100=99 (big success)! 】

[Dice Niang's Whispers: That's it?That's it? !The mental devastation brought by the mere deep sea is not even as good as the cherry-flavored cola you drank yesterday! 】

——After rolling the dice, Xu Lin suddenly felt that the carols ringing in his ears had changed, and the degree of disturbance was not even as disturbing as the children's songs in Longmen Kindergarten after school.

It seems... nothing to be afraid of?

Chapter 210 Holding Hands! (5k)

Xue Nai smiled happily, like a refreshing spring breeze blowing into this hot summer, Bi Qigu's body and mind felt refreshed, natural and warm.

They also mentioned "alive"... The reason is that Xue Nai mentioned that she felt that Bi Qigu's life in the two years of high school was a bit too transparent and humble, and she couldn't bear it.

Bi Qigu didn't think so.

He does not deny his rottenness at that time, but he never admits that he was once humble:

"Man, just being alive is great enough. Really, you see, I have lived on the earth for more than 40 billion years since I was a child, basking in the sun for more than 50 billion years, and take tens of millions of subways every day. The computer I use is the world The richest man Bill Gates personally helped me design the system, and he has lived as a human being for so many years.

So knowing these facts well, I never feel that I am living in a humble way, even before joining the association. "

The corners of Xue Nai's mouth curled up slightly, "It sounds like a joke, but when you think about it carefully, it seems a bit unreasonable."

The corners of Bi Qigu's lips curled slightly, "Because the truth is the way it is."

"However, you still missed one thing." Xue Nai said slowly.

"what?"

"..." Xue Nai slightly raised her head, her chin pointed at Qigu.Looking down at Hikigu, showing a playful expression of pride and complacency, which is quite different from the usual Yukino,

"That's why you have such an excellent and dazzling best friend like me."

"It means you must be good too, so you can always act proud of it."

"Yes, yes." Hikigu could only nod repeatedly, raised his hands in surrender, and hid his truth in a joke, "Thank you for being friends with me like this."

"—This is one of the few times when I am grateful to fate. I am really grateful that I can meet you."

Xue Nai raised her hand and smoothed the hair beside her ear, noncommittal.

Because if you want to say thank you for meeting, she is too.

"..." Without talking about other topics, the subway arrived at the station amidst the roar.

Ginza, here we come.

The commercial street is very bustling, with bustling crowds walking shoulder to shoulder, and the fiery atmosphere envelopes the street, making it look like a boiling river.

Hikigu and Xue Nai poured in from the subway station along with the crowd, like two raindrops merging into the sea, they disappeared suddenly.

But no matter how crowded the crowd is, Hikigu and Yukino will never miss each other.