Tokyo female publicist

With different experiences, everyone has different views on the same thing. For Haruna, the women's public relations shop is where her sister Sayuri makes money. Lie down and make money, you can accept it from the bottom of your heart without caring about other people's opinions, but for Meiji, that is really too extreme an insult to her, and the most extreme mockery of her.

She has always appeared in front of her as a straight girl, has always rejected her inner hot feelings with the barrier of gender, hates same-sex romances, and cannot accept women's courtship, this is the Sayuri that Miki has always known.

But now, in order to repay the debt, Sayuri actually works in such a store, is willing to show off in front of other women, and makes a low profile gesture that she never wants to show in front of her to curry favor with women in order to earn money and is unwilling to ask her Ask, tell her "Mei Ji, help me".

Obviously she can do anything, her heart, her body, her money, everything she has is willing to give for Sayuri, but why?Why did Xiao Baihe turn around and devote herself to the lowly customs after rejecting her, and made such a big change during her ten days of visiting relatives, so that she could please other women?

All of this made Meiji feel utter anger, but what was more raging than anger was the stinging pain in her heart.

It's not that I'm bad, it's not my fault, it's just that I was born with the wrong gender, and it's just because I'm a girl Sayuri-senpai that she has always refused to accept me, and she once supported Meiji to stick to Sayuri and wait for that slim The belief that there was a chance of a chance completely collapsed at this moment.

What, it turned out that the one who was hated was not her as a woman, but her, but herself as Kamitake Miki.

Tears rolled down uncontrollably. At the moment when she heard about the women's public relations shop, Meiji felt that her whole body was swallowed up by lacquer despair, and felt that her persistent persistence was so meaningless and even more so ridiculous.

"No, in my eyes, Meiji is a kind and gentle girl who makes me unable to help loving and loving her."

Slowly reaching out her hands to climb up to Meiji's cheeks to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, Sayuri expressed her truest feelings towards Meiji.

For Meiji, the Sayuri in front of her is the most beloved senior she has been with for two years and pursued for two years. But for Sayuri, it is only the second time that she and Meiji have met each other regardless of the contact on the mobile phone and the Internet. But indeed, her heart has been touched by this young girl.

Perhaps for the original owner who was once homophobic, the Miki who has been pestering her could not shake her mind no matter how nice she was to her, but for Sayuri, the former male, Miki was full of charm, which made her unable to help herself. Feel good.

Since the first time we met, the girl's exquisite and beautiful face, good-looking, and youthful body have attracted her attention more than once, causing her heart to ripple. The intoxicating fragrance of jasmine made her intoxicated, and moreover, the stubbornness shown by the girl, and the passionate emotions that Meiji erupted after failing to collect the rent made her shaken more than once.

Pray to her, dedicate yourself to her, respond to her passionate feelings, marry this lovely girl, everything will be easier, and be able to spend the rest of your life with such a beautiful girl, how many people can't cultivate in a lifetime blessings.

Perhaps, if it is possible, assuming that Sayuri, who has just arrived as a replacement, is not burdened with huge debts that ordinary people can hardly pay off in years, she is likely to be more receptive to Meiji, and may really be moved by her perseverance On that day, she accepted Miki's warm feelings and entered into the realm of lovers with her.

But the reality has no ifs, no assumptions, and Sayuri is indeed burdened with debts, and even recognizes the unequal perception of money between each other in Meiji's voice, "Let me help you repay the debts."

Even though she retreats step by step in the face of the hardships of reality, Sayuri still has a bottom line in her heart that cannot be pushed back, and she also has a dignity that will never be violated by others. If she buys a girl's life, she can only be her, and she must never give it to others.

All the gifts from fate have already been secretly priced.

Money is a distorted devil, a devil that tarnishes feelings, 2000 million yen is just a drizzle for Miki, but it is the price of dignity for Sayuri, if it was bought at that time, it should have been a beautiful relationship It will be distorted and defiled in the worst quality in an instant.

You don't need to care about it, but who wouldn't care?After being bestowed with favor, Sayuri will always remember the 2000 million, and can no longer disobey Meiji's willful request and turn into a pet tied by invisible chains.

After bestowing favors, even if she cherishes Sayuri, Meiji will always think in her heart that she is a woman bought by her own money, and will always doubt whether this relationship is true, and will turn her into a root. The bone spur was stuck in her throat forever, and she could not stop feeling the strange feeling that could not be eliminated, and suffered endless torture.

The unequal feelings created by money will make the two people turn into monsters that no one can recognize and no one knows in the mutual torment, and they will go to the inevitable BAD END.

For this reason, Sayuri knew very well that she was right to reject Meiji, and it was only her choice to enter the public relations shop, which could not be called a mistake. This really made Meiji suffer and feel heartbroken, but everything They are the cornerstones for her to stand with Mei Jiping, and they are what is necessary and what should be done.

"Miki..."

Therefore, when the silence passed, and when she spoke again, Sayuri's voice was not trembling, but full of determination.

Chapter 22. The gradually blurred boundaries

"Meiji, calm down and listen to me, I am a self-respecting person, I want to earn every penny of the debt I bear, so I can't accept it from you... ..”

"So you entered the custom industry to show off? You can beg them, why can't you come beg me!"

It is only meaningful for both parties to keep a calm conversation, but Meiji, who obviously came back from visiting relatives and found that Sayuri has entered the custom industry, could not calm down. When she heard Sayuri talking about self-esteem, she immediately asked angrily to vent her dissatisfaction.

In her eyes, falling into that kind of filthy place never meant self-esteem, rather, she lost the qualification to talk about dignity, but she still couldn't understand that when Sayuri bowed her head and begged her, it was completely lose all dignity.

After all, she is a girl from a wealthy family and is admired by many stars. Meiji still sometimes gets too selfish. This is not her fault but it is still a flaw in her character.

Saddened and weeping even more, tears dripped down Sayuri's cheeks from time to time, and then slid down the skin to the corners of Sayuri's lips, the bitter taste smeared on the tip of her tongue, she hugged Miki tightly and pressed her against her body tightly At the same time, he gently stroked her back with his hand for proper comfort.

Human body temperature will warm the icy heart, the warmth of the skin and even the sound of the heartbeat are transmitted to Miki in this embrace, and the trembling and anger of the girl's body immediately cease.

The little white rabbit is a little white rabbit after all, even if she gets angry and puts on wolf's fur, she still cares in her bones. The stubborn girl who loves Sayuri Fukada can't resist the tenderness of Sayuri in front of her no matter what.

Quietly, with her arms tightly wrapped around Sayuri's waist, Miki covered her face to her shoulders and said nothing, just weeping silently.

"The times are different. Public relations are different from the pick-up girls who sell their bodies. What we provide is emotional services rather than physical services. Even if someone does public relations and puts a price on his body at the same time, it will never be me.

Chatting, drinking, using my words to make guests feel relaxed and satisfied physically and mentally, have a good night, this is what I have always done, maybe it can be regarded as a companionship?It's just not online, but face-to-face, more real communication.

It is true that such a job is not glorious, but I have never crossed and will not cross the bottom line set for myself, and I have no regrets. "

"What about me? Don't you feel ashamed of me for doing this?"

Being comforted by Sayuri in her arms, Meiji was finally able to calm down, her rioting thoughts gradually stabilized, and she was able to talk to Sayuri in a relatively calm manner.

Lying on Sayuri's shoulders, suppressing the pain in her heart, and muffled her voice, she asked this countless times and rejected her, but in the end she entered a place full of concubines during her family visits, showing off her sensuality and feelings. "Senior sister.

Why others can do it, but she can't, Meiji has been entangled in such things and feels pain because of this, and her heart is full of holes.

The palm that patted Meiji's back paused for a while during this question. Friends and guests are not the same. The principles of public relations occasions do not apply here. Lies will not bring a happy ending and will only hurt Meiji deeper. Eyelids, she still said the most truthful answer in her heart.

"will not."

It was jerky and difficult, but the word "won't" really came out of Xiao Lily's mouth.

Suddenly, the moment she heard these two words, Meiji was soothed that her relaxed body tensed up and trembled again. Her hands clenched Sayuri's dress tightly, and her round fingers turned white. Blue veins appear.

Sure enough, in the eyes of her senior sister Sayuri, she will always be dispensable, or even hated and hated.

This kind of thought made Meiji lose her strength, she lowered her hand, and she let out a heart-wrenching mourning cry again.

Huh~ The sky is still clear outside, but the atmosphere inside is extremely cold. She raised her arm to block the glare of the light, and breathed out a mouthful of stale air. Sayuri also felt suffocated amidst the humming.

But if the scene repeats itself at this moment, she will still say "no", because she is not Sayuri Fukada who lived in the same dormitory with Miki for two years, she is Sayuri who has only met Miki twice, More because...

"We are not lovers, Miki."

Waiting, waiting for Sayuri Fukada's change of heart, lending a helping hand at her most destitute moment, and renting an apartment of more than 60 square meters with luxurious interior furniture to Sayuri Fukada at the magical price of [-] yen, and every I have been visiting for a period of time, and the clothes and belongings given to her are even more valuable.

There is no doubt that Meiji is indeed the original owner, and she has paid a lot for the replacement Sayuri, but if she is favored by someone, she must fall in love with that person, and there will probably not be rich people in this world who cannot pursue her. situation of women.

Money can't buy everything, and giving doesn't always get what you expect in return.

Meiji has paid a lot for Sayuri, and Sayuri really has a good impression of her. She thinks she is really cute and has the idea of ​​starting a relationship with her, but at least for now, there is no real relationship between them.

They have hugged, but never kissed, no physical relationship, and Sayuri never said "I love you, let's date" to her, more than friends but not full of lovers, the relationship between them is like this The extent is only to such an extent.

No matter how well she treats her, Sayuri herself does not take too much responsibility for Meiji, so Meiji actually has no way of intervening in her private affairs.

Of course, this is analyzed from a purely rational point of view. In fact, Sayuri still feels guilty for Miki's pain, and feels heartache along with her. This is proof that Sayuri cares about her, but it is only proof.

"I don't rely on other people's power, but use my services to earn the salary I deserve. I have not insulted my own personality and dignity, and I don't regret that I choose to repay my debts in this way, even if This job hurts you, but I will not change my thoughts and actions.

People can only make decisions for themselves, Meiji, you can choose to accept me like this, or you can choose to leave. "

A glimpse, or a throbbing in the heart at a certain moment, the feeling of liking a person will be born at any time, but not every feeling will be responded to, people are living animals, apart from feelings, there is reality, Like it is one thing, but fit is another.

Living with someone you like but not suitable for will only be painful, and the person who can walk down together should be someone who likes and is suitable for you.

You can be hypocritical with guests, because both parties know it well and have a tacit understanding, but for friends and lovers, Sayuri will definitely respond seriously.

To accept is to accept, to reject is to reject, and to break is to break, not to be disturbed.

I am such a person, Miki, can you accept me like this?To go or to stay?Let go or continue to attack me?Everything depends on your choice.

This is what Sayuri wants to convey to Miki.

Love is a choice between two people, love is a pull between two people, concession and compromise, Xiao Baihe has made her own choice, and now she is a fool who is drowning in self-esteem and does not want to borrow from others. A female publicist who "hangs out" with other women at night.

She has shown her true self to Meiji, and everything else will be considered by Meiji.

Leaving is because she loves Sayuri too much and cannot accept her "infidelity". Staying is because she loves Sayuri too much and cannot let go. No matter which side, Sayuri will remember Meiji's goodness and respect her decision.

"Do you like women?"

Understand the meaning of Sayuri's words, know more clearly the absolute disadvantage that I am in this relationship, know that my position in Sayuri's heart is not as good as Sayuri's in her heart, and realize that I have not changed Sayuri Miki finally sobered up, and finally was able to calmly examine the relationship with each other again.

Because she knew that throwing a tantrum at this moment, being reasonable or unreasonable at this moment would only push Sayuri further away from her.

But even so, caring about Sayuri, she couldn't come up with an answer for which side to choose. For this reason, she asked Sayuri to give more questions about this problem and give her more "conditions".

"I am now, yes!"

Is Sayuri straight or gay?Will it be possible, will it fall in love with a woman?This is a question that Meiji is necessary and absolutely qualified to know. To this, Sayuri answered flatly, telling Meiji that there is a chance to get together.

"Then will you like me?"

"I don't know, but you have a good impression of Meiji. If you can quantify your liking, then you must be the one with the most numerical value at this moment."

"So, would you like the women in the store? Your public relations colleagues, your customers."

Not smart enough in emotional matters, sometimes say things that shouldn't be said, can't measure the distance, and will inadvertently push Sayuri away, but when she really calms down, Miki who enters Waseda by her own strength is definitely enough Clever, all of a sudden, she hit the door and hit the key point.

I like a woman but I don't like her enough, and I have been working in a place full of concubines for a long time. Even during the day, during non-working hours, only she can get in touch with the real and real Sayuri, but is it really guaranteed?It is guaranteed that Sayuri will definitely choose her.

Such a question caused Sayuri to fall into temporary silence, and silence was the best answer.

The hands around her waist tightened violently, and soon relaxed again. Realizing that he could no longer be self-willed, he got up silently. He didn't wash away his tears in the bathroom of Sayuri's house like last time. Taking out the wet towel and wiping it carelessly on her face, Miki left in the dull air.

Quietly, when she left, Meiji said nothing, and Sayuri didn't make too much effort to keep her, until the knock on the door sounded, and Sayuri let out a long sigh.

Interpersonal relationship is really the most difficult thread in the world to adjust. It is really difficult, very difficult to not hurt the person you care about, and to satisfy her heart.

However, she suddenly felt relieved, she told Meiji what was in her heart, and after she said everything, Sayuri felt relieved at last, she removed the arm covering her eyes, the world was still generally bright, brightening her heart.

Regardless of whether you are happy or sad, life will always go on. After adjusting my mood, I prepared a lunch box for tonight with Akina Pusong in about the same time. I did not call Aya Hatatani to ask for a rest. As usual, Sayuri Step into Top day again.

This is where she works. During the day, communicating with neighbors and friends is a part of her life, and at night, communicating with colleagues and guests is also a part of her life.

Sayuri has always tried to separate these two parts, day and night, but there are always people who are greedy and try to blur the boundaries.

At [-] o'clock in the evening, after seeing off one guest, the next guest was greeted immediately. Looking at the familiar and lovely face of the girl in front of her, Sayuri sighed helplessly, but she couldn't deny the joy in her heart at this moment.

Walking close to her, she grabbed her palm and held it in her heart. Sayuri tilted her head and the black hair flowed down her face, and the corners of her lips twitched.

"Tonight, I'm yours."

Chapter 23. The Worst Reception

After Miki left, Sayuri had a vague premonition in her heart.

Worried that what she said was a lie, worried that she didn't seem to say what she said, and actually had too close physical contact with other customers in the public relations shop, and worried that she would be caught by others because of money. The customer was intimidating, and her heart was in a state of turmoil. Under the entanglement, Mei Ji would definitely come to the public relations shop to see her once.

Sure enough, this guess came true, and now Meiji was sitting beside her, but not as a friend, but as a guest.

Moving her eyes up and down to look at Meiji tonight, she no longer deliberately wears ordinary, girlish clothes, she is dressed quite maturely tonight, and one can see at a glance that the extraordinary off-the-shoulder dress fits tightly on her graceful body. On the body, the blue crystal pendant on the not-full breasts is embellished, and the gold flowers are shining around the ears, which is a bit more beautiful than usual.

Probably, she entered the store dressed like this with the intention of comparing other customers and even the female publicists in the store.

"You are so beautiful tonight, but in fact, I still prefer the cute Mei Ji who looks like the sister next door. In my heart, the pure and beautiful appearance is the most suitable for you."

Complimenting Meiji's beauty is definitely the most real feeling in her heart, but unlike the usual treatment of guests, Sayuri still uttered taboo words after the compliment, expressing that she prefers the usual Meiji, denying the people who are with her at the moment Miki.

It is true that if a rich woman like Meiji can become Sayuri's customer, she will definitely contribute a lot of turnover to her, and it is even possible to make her the number one in the store in one fell swoop, but what is the difference between that and her being kept? ?It's just that Meiji changed to another worse way, and paid more money to get more false satisfaction.

She has a special feeling for Meiji. She never wanted Meiji to be her guest. The relationship between them should be more pure and beautiful.

After careful study, the circumstances are very different, but the sparks of love are sparked when they meet each other. What Sayuri always wants is the qualification to stand on an equal footing with Meiki. She wants Meiki not to become a job, but to become a part of life. But Miki still doesn't understand.

"Then I will wear the same clothes as usual next time I come."

After receiving such an answer, Sayuri could only show a wry smile, and changed the subject.

It's different from the other guests we met for the first time, and we have a much closer relationship with Miki, holding her hand affectionately, Sayuri asked.

"How long have you been here?"

Talking with guests is the most taboo. At the same time, because the guest tonight is the first time to name her, Sayuri has to spend more time analyzing the thoughts and preferences of the guests, so that she will be less sensitive to changes in the people around her. Before that She just had a premonition but failed to find Miki's figure among the many guests, presumably she was sitting in a corner that she could not easily find and observed silently.

"Come here around 08:30. After making an appointment with the receptionist, there are other people in the store who try to receive me. Those people are really good. No matter how cold I am, they always try to talk to me. I don't care about them, I just think that you, Sayuri, may be treated like that, and I feel uncomfortable.

Moreover, seeing you chatting and laughing with guests is always a bit annoying. "

Everything that happened today made Meiji feel as if the sky had collapsed. She couldn't help showing a sad look on her face when she told her true feelings. I also felt short of breath for a while.

There were no good words to answer, so she had no choice but to offer some simple comfort.

"But you did see that nothing happened between me and the customers. Female customers are always more reserved and emotional than men. They are not obsessed with physical contact with me. They are just to relieve the pressure in life and mentally. Lonely, I want someone to accompany her to drink and have fun and pass the time."

"really."

Seeing is believing, after looking in the store for about half an hour, she can really feel that most of the customers in the store are of extraordinary identities, their words and deeds reveal elegance, and they come here to seek spiritual support, not only the customers of Sayuri, Although some others also have close physical contact with public relations, most of them are more restrained.

Sayuri's words are true, which is something to be happy about, but seeing her talking and laughing with other women, Mei Ji still feels too much in her heart.

Most of the guests who come here know that PR does not belong to them alone, but only belongs to one of them during the time bought with money. They have a tacit understanding in their hearts and understand the rules of the game. When they see familiar PRs receiving others, they can Treat it with a normal heart.

But Meiji is different, she is really in love with Sayuri, trying to take her as her own, what she hopes is not only Sayuri's feelings, but also the intercourse of heart and body, the blending of soul and flesh, which is really intolerable.

"Oh, I know, I can't change you, after all I'm nothing, so let's order the bar first, you know what I like best, just pick one, the price is whatever you want, it all depends on your idea."

The cheapest wine is fine, and the most expensive wine is up to you. All I want is you to be by my side. This kind of attitude... Maybe Meiji is the guest that all PRs dream of.

She didn't want Meiji to support her turnover. Sayuri intended to recommend mid-priced wines that met her wishes, but she was stunned for a while because of Meiji's unreasonable behavior. Facing the wine list, she couldn't Say a word.