designer who lives in the next room

"For the sad me who used to be, I used to think it was better to die."

"But I won't say that now, thank you, sister Liangzi, if there is a chance, can you let me live next to Feng in the future?"

"I will pay the rent in the future. If there is still a chance, please don't reject me."

"This apartment is the best place I've ever lived."

I won't reject you, I must come back, that room will be cleaned.

Don't ask mom to deliver the room fee, it's already agreed that you don't have to pay, right?

This is the best place for sure, you won't find anywhere as comfortable and cheap as this.

So say come back sooner.

"Finally, lastly, maple sauce."

"You must be crying, don't drop your tears, the paper will be wrinkled."

"Please don't cry, I wrote this letter so mischievously, look, what a cute emoji, isn't it?"

"I'm sorry, you must still be very sad if you say that, but please don't cry anymore, I'm really sorry, I lied to you for so long, but it's true that I said I like you. "

"You are very important to me. If it weren't for you, if you didn't come to the KTV where I work that day, if you didn't ask for a drink, I don't think we would have met, if you didn't call me when I was staring at the stage in a daze. Stay with me, I don't think I'll ever realize my ideal."

"I was ready to die with an ideal, but thank you for making her come true in what may be the last period of my life."

"I just wrote this paragraph, because I don't know what the show will be like, but I was sure before that the Galaxy that Feng promised me would definitely appear."

"I love you, Feng Jiang, I like you as much as a lover, but you may be disappointed, let's break up."

"I'm really sorry to let your first love only last for two days, but I'm very happy when I think that you will think of me when you talk about your first love in the future."

"I'm the super selfish Nanae Hasegawa, but I like you so much, so let's break up."

"I hope you will remember me in the future, remember that I am a girl who loves to laugh and looks innocent but a little annoying."

"Finally, I love you, Feng."

"Ah, and oh, that secret base, don't forget her, I think if I die, I will become a star in that galaxy, remember to come and talk to me, I will listen very carefully on."

What nonsense, please don't cry, how is it possible.

Stupid Nanae-chan, I don't want to break up with you, the guy who unilaterally says break up is the worst!

I'm not going to that secret base, come back to this apartment if you want to talk to me.

"Please don't cry, Feng Jiang, and everyone."

"I'm really sorry that I left without saying goodbye. I don't want to make everyone sad, but you will still be very sad when you read this letter."

"I'm sorry, I obviously have a lot to say in my mind, but I can't write it down. I obviously still have a lot to say."

"What a fool I am."

"I won't write, um, I won't write, but I still hope you can forgive me, a guy who always lies."

"But I said I really like being with you, it's true."

"So please remember me, the doll-looking guy."

"If I survive, I will definitely contact you. Don't scold me too fiercely."

"But if I haven't contacted you all this time, hey, please remember me."

"I mean those pleasant memories, remember them."

Volume [-]# When will I receive your call?

It was very, very quiet in the room, and no one made the slightest sound.

There was no sobbing, and no one spoke.

Feng stood there holding the letter.

In fact, she has been crying into tears, and the lower half of the paper has been wetted by her tears.

Oh yes, there should still be a sound, the "click" sound of Feng's tears dripping onto the letter paper.

Feng didn't blame Nanako, didn't ask her why she knew these things long ago but didn't tell her.

She understood, even if Nanako told her, it wouldn't help.

Feng is not a magical girl, nor is she a god who descended from the earth. She has no way to deal with Hasegawa Nanae's illness, even if she uses the magic that Hasegawa Nanae taught her, she said to Hasegawa Nanae, "It hurts!" Fly away..." It was impossible to cure her illness.

She knew that Hasegawa Nanae would definitely leave, but she didn't expect that she would go so far away, and she didn't expect that Hasegawa Nanae would probably not come back after leaving this time.

Feng was so heartbroken that she couldn't speak at all. She didn't blame anyone, not Nanako who kept her secret from her, nor Hasegawa Nanae who kept lying to her.

There was no way she could blame anyone.

Because she spent the longest time with Hasegawa Nanae, as her girlfriend, she didn't realize this at all.

She didn't find the serious illness on Hasegawa Nanae's body. She thought it was asthma because she saw Hasegawa Nanae's medicine for asthma.

Asthma can be cured, can't it, so she didn't worry too much.

Regarding Hasegawa Nanae's quiet departure, Feng knew that even if she found out from Nanako, even if she begged Hasegawa Nanae not to leave, it would be impossible.

Only there is it possible to cure her disease. A certain hospital in the United States is the last hope for Hasegawa Nanae to survive. Feng will not want Hasegawa Nanae to die, she will definitely let her go.

And even if she stopped, Hasegawa Nanae would definitely leave quietly in another way, because she didn't want to see Feng's sad face, and she didn't want to go on the road with a sad mood.

Hasegawa Nanae must have felt that if her illness could not be cured there, then she at least went on the road with the success of the concert and the pleasant memories of this apartment before she died.

At least I won't think of the bitter faces of Feng and everyone before I die.

The letter fell from Feng's hand and made a sound when it fell to the ground, as if it woke everyone up.

Nanako picked up the paper, closed it gently and put it back in the envelope.

"I'm sorry, I kept it from you." Nanako apologized to Feng, but it was not her fault, and there was nothing to do about it.

But Nanako still has to say, although she has always felt that looking at her is the best choice.

"It's okay..." Feng lowered her head, she took the envelope from Nanako's phone, her voice trembling, "It's just, it's just that I'm so uncomfortable..."

"She is the first friend in my life who is about the same age..." Feng's voice was very, very sad. She clutched her chest, and could feel the pain in her chest. It came from the heart, not a physical pain. .

"Why did this happen? Why..." Feng grabbed her chest hard, biting her lip, "Why did you leave without saying a word?"

"Really, I've only known her for a few days, why do I have to feel so uncomfortable?" Feng suddenly raised her head, and she put her hands on Nanako's shoulders, unable to control the strength, and Nanako felt a little painful when she pressed, "And don't care Whether it's a confession or a breakup was brought up by her unilaterally, such a selfish person, why am I so sad..."

Feng's spirit began to break down a little bit. It was the first time for her to experience these things, and it was the first time for everyone here to experience such things.

Feng was crying, completely disregarding her own image, her nose was crying, and Nanako let her rub against her body.

"My heart hurts so much! I'm going to die of pain!" Feng yelled, and the pain accumulated all the time burst out, "I like her, she is my good friend...but why, I I just wanted to experience the feeling of being in love, I just got a good friend, but why, she is leaving like this, why..."

Nanako has no way to answer her, she doesn't know why God always takes some important people away from some people.

God used that invisible shovel to dig a shovel in a person's heart, and then left it alone. He didn't help him fill it up, and only left him empty.

Feng cried until she couldn't speak, Nanako hugged her in her arms.

I don't know how to persuade her, and I don't know what to do.

It takes time to forget a person, and everyone knows it.

Although Hasegawa said that she still has some chance of surviving, but who knows, what she said may be just to comfort everyone.

But it would be nice to come back.

I don't know how long Feng was crying, but Nanako just kept holding her like that.

until she was silent.

Cried until he fell asleep, Feng still had a sad expression on his face.

Nanako carried her back to the room and gently put her on the bed.

The people in the living room still didn't speak, and it was useless to say anything.

Nanako came back, her light-colored clothes were wet on the chest area, all covered with Maple's tears.

"I hope she's okay." Li Zixi looked at the table, her eyes were a little distracted, "This kind of thing is really very sad."

Nanako suddenly rang, a few years ago, Li Zixi had a very close friend who also passed away, although it was in a different way.

Li Zixi knew how sad and painful Feng felt, suddenly there was no one around her, and the huge emptiness and fear in her heart would always surround her.

Nanako put her hand on Li Zixi's lap, and patted her lightly, "If you have a chance, you can go and accompany her. The age difference between the two of you is the smallest."

"En." Li Zixi nodded.

What they do now is useless. There is only one way to dilute this feeling, and that is to wait for time to pass bit by bit.

So only time can slightly heal the cracks in Feng's heart.

Or maybe it’s numbness, don’t think about it, if you suddenly think of it, you will still feel the pain like a needle prick.

No one can know whether Hasegawa Nanae's operation will be successful, but judging from that letter, Hasegawa Nanae is ready to die.

It's so sad.

The night seemed very long, and no one had the appetite to eat. Yui took some snacks, but no one reached out to get them.

Life has to go on day by day, and the people who are going to die are not from here.

All they could do was silently pray for Hasegawa Nanae's operation to be successful.

This is the only thing they can do now.

They were looking forward to a week later, or a month later, when Feng's cell phone rang suddenly, and the words "Hasegawa Nanae" were written on the caller ID.

So they can only wait now, because Nanae Hasegawa also said in her letter that if her operation is successful, she will practice with everyone immediately.

She also said that if you haven't contacted everyone after a month, don't wait for her anymore.

Yui sent away Kimura Asuka and Natsume, and Natsume said she would drive Kimura Asuka back.

The next day, Feng did not come out of his room.

Li Zixi knew she was awake because she could hear some voices from her room.

But she didn't come out of the room at all.

Then on the third day, Feng still seemed unwilling to come out of her room, Nanako put the rice at the door, and then told her to eat something.

But no response.

Then comes the fourth day.

What is a little more reassuring is that there is less food left at the door. Although I only ate a little bit, it is still a little reassuring.

When Feng came out of the room and came to everyone, it should be the day when Hasegawa Nanae left for a week.

Hasegawa Nanae didn't call, it stands to reason that her surgery should have ended long ago.

Wait a little longer, because Nanae Hasegawa said that the deadline is one month.

Maybe she has a successful operation now, but she can't make a phone call.

Feng looked very haggard, with dark circles under her eyes, and her eyes were a little loose. She looked like she hadn't slept for several days.

It is indeed like this, she has been playing games, Feng wants to use games to numb herself, so as not to remind herself of Nanae Hasegawa, but there is no way to do it.

As long as she takes a break, Hasegawa Nanae's face and her voice will appear in her mind.

She didn't remember how long she had been playing games in a row, and she had fallen asleep, but she had always dreamed of Hasegawa Nanae, and she had never had a peaceful rest.

Feng was sitting on the sofa, but neither Yui nor Nanako was there.

No matter how sad they are, they have to go to work.

So only Feng and Li Zixi were left in the family.

Li Zixi will cook some food now, because Feng said that she is very hungry.

Feng was expressionless while eating, no matter how Li Zixi tried to find topics, Feng would not answer her.

She finished eating, and ate everything, even the most hated green pepper

But Feng still looked very weak, even if she stood up from the sofa, she had to hold the armrest.