Deceived by kindness, they are all reborn

"Such a beautiful story is naturally full of my dirty expectations. I hope my life can also start this kind of story, and I can meet the person I like like this."

Tangled and sour emotions flowed out of his eyes, like unripe green fruits in autumn, making his teeth sore and painful.

But even so.

His voice was still as steady as the gurgling spring water shining in the moonlight.

He confessed quietly and sadly.

"Later, I got to know you and learned that you are the daughter of the editor-in-chief of the old version of "Eyes and Pupils". She is beautiful, smart, cute and intellectual, so I came up with the idea of ​​meeting you."

"So I took the old edition of the last issue of "Pupil Eyes", stood on the uphill, faced you on the downhill, and threw out that book."

"My wish at the time was..."

"—Hope to be lovers with you."

……

His words did not stop.

But the girl can't hear it anymore.

Her entire consciousness was numb.

Brain buzzing.

The wonderful encounter with the young man was the most unforgettable thing in her life—at a time like this, the young man said...

——Is this what he designed?

"It's mean, isn't it?"

When I came back to my senses.

The boy watched her.

A wry smile filled the close lips and teeth.

"I approached you with a purpose that was not pure, but as I got along with you, I gradually felt that I was too despicable. You taught me the knowledge of writing without reservation, and taught me without regret. How to move forward - if it weren't for you, I would never be able to publish in "Eye Pupil" now."

"So I thought..."

"Don't let my dirty desires stain you."

"So I didn't confess."

Yuzawa Nozomi listened dumbly.

Her mood was surging like a tide.

It turned out that Jiang Shangyi really liked her.

Then how do you explain that you went to the literature department?

This time the original manuscript is a love letter to the girl from the literature department, so how to explain it?

I was too hesitant.

Missed you at the end?

"A person often envies his ideal lover. When thinking about his own affairs, he often feels that he is too inferior and not worthy of the other party-I thought this way at the time, so I have worked hard afterwards. To keep the distance between friends with you, to let myself become your friend without desire, to make myself endure until I can't bear it, it can be regarded as my own punishment for bad purposes."

"I think."

"A girl like you."

"It must never be profaned."

The boy lowered his head.

Playing with the cream on the cake with a knife and fork.

It seemed a little afraid to look at her.

"The best way to divert your attention is to put your attention on another thing—that's why I want to achieve my long-cherished wish, I want to get the No. Be the right lover for you."

"I thought that if I became No.1, even if I had bad intentions, I would be worthy of you."

"But in the end..."

"I'm still not good enough."

The boy shook his head slowly.

Show a bitter smile.

mocking himself.

……

Yuzawa looked at him blankly.

There is sadness in the beautiful and clear eyes.

She numbly pulled the boy's sleeve stiffly, her heart was full of unspeakable words, she wanted to express something clumsily, and pulled his sleeve vigorously.

But nothing can be expressed.

not like this……

not like this……

not like this……

Your work did not participate in the judging at all.

"Eye Pupil" has set the Grand Prize No.1...

I stole your manuscript and lost it.

You are not ineligible at all! !

It's not that you're not good enough for me...

——It’s that I’m not good enough for you! ! !

Banana deer: Chapter 19 She and him (19)

"eat cake……"

"Eat the cake quickly."

The bell on the wall rang at the end, and the sound of the hour came.

The two chatted for a long time, and it finally came to the end of the day.

Of course, boys can't spend the night in a girl's room, and it's a bit dangerous even for boys if they go back too late.

——So Kazuma Egami was already preparing to leave.

But the cake for the two of them still didn't move at all.

Just chatting.

None of the cake was eaten.

——The boy left after eating the cake.

"Your parents must have celebrated your birthday, can you still eat?"

Seeing Yuzawa Nozomi taking a sip of the cake obediently, Kazuma Egami finally showed a relieved expression and took a bite of the cake.

"fine……"

Her mouth was full of sweet cakes.

Responded vaguely.

in fact……

She ate two bites for dinner.

She is still very hungry now, and this is a cake sent by Kazuma Egami, so naturally it cannot be wasted.

——No matter how much she can eat!

……

While eating cake.

She is also thinking.

——What should I do next?

A faint sadness circulated in her eyes, and she fell into inexplicable melancholy.

I know Kazuma Jiang's original intention.

Understand Kazuma Egami's original wish.

But he has fallen in love with someone else, and the original manuscript of the confession is proof; he also stole Kazuma Egami's dream and abandoned it like a shoe.

She has done something irreparably wrong.

Now say the words.

Kazuma Egami will never forgive her.

After all...

Do you really deserve to be with Jiang Kazuma?

One's own desires are greedy and ugly, and one's own malice erodes and rots.

Now Jiang Kazuma is still willing to treat her as a friend, and even took the risk to celebrate her birthday specially. If the boy knows the truth, what kind of expression will he show?

You must hate yourself.

Hate what you do.

loathe my own theft.

Even her face, which made Jiang Kazuma care about her beauty, would probably become disgusting in his eyes.

He hates everything about himself.

I can only watch his back leaving sadly, I can only watch him grab the corner of his clothes and cry out, I can only watch him hugging other girls with a smile on his face and crying incessantly.

and so.

I can only...

I can only hide it...

—Just keep it a secret.

As long as I don't expose her ugliness, I don't expose her filth, and try my best to please him with this delicate and lovely face of a literary girl.

He will definitely continue to stay by his side, right?

……

Unconsciously.

Her thoughts gradually became morbid.

The filthy contents gradually infiltrated her.

At this time, she suddenly thought of many years ago - even if her father abandoned his wife and daughter, he still had to maintain his "eyes". She still didn't understand why her father didn't regret it and why he insisted on his choice.

this time.

She is blessed to the heart.

Suddenly, I understood why my father insisted.

What my father thought at the time.

I'm afraid and now her thoughts are filthy.

—Exactly the same?

……

"Are you full?"