Artoria the Big Liar

"It is very fast. But as long as you listen to my words, you are gradually gaining the qualifications to be king."

"Arturia... is she going to sleep?" Tonali asked reluctantly.

"Not sleeping, but waking up." Answering this, I closed my eyes. "Tonarico, in this world, I am your husband. But in that world, there are many people waiting for me. I belong to that world, not here."

"...Thank you, Arturia." A rare smile appeared on the corner of Tona Riko's mouth.

"This is what I should do."

A dozen arms generated by dark magic power and the corresponding hands supported me, allowing me to look down at Tona Riko from a high position.And now, when the lecture time was over, those arms sank into the bed, and I gradually sank down to lie softly on the bed, able to rest on the soft pillows and arrive at what I thought was reality.

The more times I enter the dream state, the more I understand this body.

I thought that what happened to me when I was young was too much, but I didn't expect that what happened to Vortigern was much more.

My misfortune was the result of circumstances, no different from the other Britons who lived on that island.But Vortigern's misfortune is more about the malice and cruelty gathered - not only the body surface is full of scars, but the whole body is full of traces of malnutrition, the spine is also broken, and the body below the chest is completely unable to move. neural communication.If it weren't for the arm formed by darkness as an aid, I could hardly do anything other than being paralyzed on the bed.

In the endless loneliness and endless darkness, I experience and taste the legacy left to me by "father".

As for why the ears are pointed like goblin ears, I don't know this-I am sure that I am not a goblin now.

Consciousness surfaced, the brain was reactivated, and the communication with the other world was interrupted.

In this long dream, the real time has not passed at all.

I got up from the sofa and went to the kitchen.Mordred was busy with breakfast and was not affected by the dream at all.

This relieved me quite a bit - at least, my most important family didn't have an accident because of my request.

"Mordred, you are out of the goblin's swamp【_

"Come out, my father. It doesn't bother me at all."

"Well... that's good... that's good."

Without greetings, I went back to the living room and sat back on the sofa.

As my child grew up, there was less and less talk between me and her.

It was still early and no one was up.This alone time that I should be used to, but because of the conversation with my child in the morning, I felt lonely in my heart.I always feel like this is not an option, but I don't know what to do.The whole person is very decadent, as if burned out, it is difficult to burn the flames of the past - this makes me a little unacceptable.

Moreover, life is too stable, and I am too idle.If you don't find something to do, you always feel empty inside.

However, as everyone woke up one after another, this feeling gradually retracted into the emotional gap.

The breakfast was still quite delicious, and Mordred's cooking skills were improving at a rapid pace.In particular, the carefully cooked tea eggs are very suitable for my taste. After eating four in one go, I still feel that it is not enough. I also agreed with her to cook more tea eggs tomorrow.

After breakfast, Mei Lin and Qian stood up to prepare for the medicinal bath.

At this moment, I stopped her.

"Melin, there is something I want to ask you."

"Artoria, what's the matter?"

The beauty is picturesque, and the smile that floats on Mei Lin's face is never tired no matter how many times I look at it, like a blooming flower, it always keeps my mood relaxed.

"Nothing. It's about Uther and Vortigern."

"...Is that so." As if a crack had penetrated the mirror, her smile faded a lot. "What does Arturia want to ask?"

"According to age, Vortigern is Uther's older sister, right? However, Uther was the first to inherit the throne. It took a long time after Uther succeeded to the throne, and Vortigern went to the Anglo territory. I have some thoughts What is known is what happened to Vortigern before Uther succeeded him to what is now Schleswig-Holstein in Germany - or why Vortigern hated the Britons To that extent, the whole of Britain will be torn apart with aliens and curses."

"...Artoria must have known about this question, right?" When she said this, Mei Lin didn't dare to meet my gaze.

"It's just some speculation, and I don't know the real situation. So I want to ask you, the person involved." I tried to control my tone as much as possible, keeping it relaxed, and not putting any pressure on Mei Lin.

However, Mei Lin's smile seemed to melt like snowflakes falling on the ground, leaving only a little water-stained arc.

"...It's true. Arturia, your speculations are all true." Mei Lin's voice was very low.

"But, Mei Lin, I haven't said what those memories are?" I asked.

Mei Lin's pink eyes trembled.Time seemed to go back to the night a few days ago, and she dared not face the mistakes of the past.

If it was in the past, I would definitely not ask about these past things.But it's about the Lost Belt, and I'd love to know what's really going on.

Mei Lin was hesitating and hesitating, as if she was immersed in the past, as if she was repeating what she thought was an extremely failed life.

For a long, long time, so long that Rangna sneered, and so long that Sister Wang's expression became colder, I sighed.

"It's okay, Mei Lin, I just encountered something I don't know, and I want to ask. It is an undeniable fact that the humble king Vortigern died under the holy spear. Albion has already turned into a solid proof There are no legends that do not exist, this is also an undoubted fact. The past is over, don't feel pressure because of it, let alone feel regret and sadness because of it."

"I know, Artoria...just, just..."

I stood up, walked in front of her, hugged her waist, and patted her on the back.Then, I deliberately increased my breathing, so that my breath could blow her earlobe, so that she could feel the rise and fall of my chest.And her chin rested on my shoulder, and she dumped her extremely light body on me, and she completely relaxed.

Because of the past, Merlin's heart is very delicate, and it is easy to accumulate pressure.I didn't speak, because to speak would be to blame.I don't have redundant movements, because redundant movements are equal to abnormalities that make her panic.She's trapped in the shadows of her past, and I'm her only starlight, and as long as the starlight stays the same, she'll be able to come out of it herself.

Thinking about it carefully, if I didn't mention Vortigern, maybe she wouldn't realize that she was wrong from the beginning, right?

Presumably, in her prophecy, Vortigern, like Mordred, is an existence that brings disaster to Britain.Uther didn't quite follow her prophecy.Therefore, Vortigern, who was abused from birth, accumulated too much curse and darkness in the dungeon, broke free from all shackles, floated along the waves to a foreign country, and guided those foreigners to land on the British Isle, but he himself became Calamitas, whether Britons or aliens, are gradually destroyed in her darkness, curse and hatred.

After vengeance is an endless void.In this emptiness, she waited for me and her own death.

As the only existence in human history who can kill me, she, like Mordred, gave up resistance and took the initiative to meet the end.

So, from the present point of view, after Mei Lin made the prophecy, she clearly wanted to prevent the prophecy from happening, but pushed everything towards the prophesied ending.As a result, she was trapped in the story she directed, and watched me walk that road, until I expressed my true desire, and was driven mad by regret and waiting, and became what I am now.

It would have been nice if it hadn't been prophesying in the first place.If only we hadn't let all of this happen in the first place.

The current Mei Lin must be thinking this way in her heart—I have no intention of correcting her thoughts, because the illness in her heart is the same as the illness in my body, which requires a long period of recuperation and cannot be cured immediately.All I can do is stand here, hug her, accompany her, become her star, and let her find a way to return to reason when she falls into the abyss.

Feeling that the time is almost up, I straightened my body with a smile, raised my toes slightly, touched her lips lightly, and then pressed my forehead against her forehead, and said to her in the most gentle voice: "It's okay, Mei Lin. I know everything I'm not blaming you, and no one is blaming you—I already know that. It's all over. . . enjoy the present, Merlin?"

【!,

◆Mordred◆

——I really hope that the person being hugged is myself.

Looking at the embracing Father Wang and Mei Lin, I sighed in my heart.

Thinking about it carefully, the reason why I became independent from my father is because I have never been able to get close to my father, right?

In this family, only my relationship with my father is different.We are distorted father and son, we are the king and heirs, it is difficult for me to take that step, the father and king cannot accept me.So we are like straight lines intersecting, and the distance is getting farther and farther away.Although it is impossible to become strangers, the distance between father and son will be maintained until the end of the foreseeable future.

Thinking of this, I was inevitably lost in my heart.But I've known this for a long time, and I'm not too disappointed.

At least I'm in much better shape than Melin.Even if you hate and loathe yourself, it will not go crazy.

I exhaled softly, and when my mother and Jeanne were sitting on the sofa, I stood up first and started to clean up the dishes.

I am alone in the kitchen, which allows me time to think and crank.

The sun is too bright to be approached no matter what.My heart began to want to chase the light of the stars.

However, that was a dream after all.Even if I indulge in it, what I get is not real.Besides, I shoulder great responsibilities on both sides. On the one hand, I have to wake up my father who cannot be awakened in the future in reality, and on the other hand, I have to work hard to grow up and become a qualified successor.

——Yes, that’s right, no matter how beautiful the dream is, it’s just a dream after all.

The light of the stars does not belong to me, but to the people of that world.I was guarding her in my dream, just like my tiny wish in the Holy Grail War, I have already fulfilled it... Excessive expectations turned out to be untouchable extravagant hopes, making myself miserable and making the other party miserable.Nothing to gain but a sad ending to be staged.

After cleaning all the dishes, I walked out of the kitchen and into the hall.

It was a little past nine o'clock, and the father was already lying in the bathtub, healing his body.

Unlike before, there was one more person in the small bathtub.Just looking at the short, pure white hair, I recognized who it was—of course it was Mei Lin, the "temptress".The temptress lay on the father's heart, putting all her weight on the father's body.The father, on the other hand, still held the handheld and wore headphones, spending this time playing games.

My mother was using the computer, typing with both hands, presumably writing an e-mail.Jeanna was learning mathematics with the textbooks she bought.Thinking about it carefully, I didn't seem to have anything to do, so I told my father that I wanted to go out for a stroll, and then left this small mansion.

The Wild Hunt was still guarding the door, with a wooden shield in his left hand and a wooden spear in his right.It's a pity that they can't talk, otherwise I would really like to chat with them, what is so special about Paradise Avalon.

Putting my hands in my pockets, I walked aimlessly on the street, walking around the mansion like a patrol.

There are no adventures, no things to buy, no places to go, no conversations with passers-by, and no encounters with acquaintances.Life in the city suddenly became boring.It seems that there is really nothing for me who is gradually becoming independent except to waste time.

And this sense of confusion, not knowing what to do, spread in my heart like a disease, and gradually transformed into a sense of anxiety.

In fact, I know very well that this is the confusion of growing up, and the anxiety of not knowing what to do when I am in a semi-independent state.But it was clear and clear, but the feeling in my heart didn't get any better because of it, as if my heart was telling me that what I thought was actually wrong.

The time came to 10:30, and I bought fresh meals as usual when passing by the supermarket, and went back to the mansion to prepare for lunch.

However, because of this special sense of anxiety, making lunch, which is obviously very interesting, has become boring.Most of the time I was in a daze, instead of thinking about how to make better meals—suddenly, I remembered the feeling when I made mushroom and fish broth for the girl in the dream, which was completely different from the anxiety now. It seemed that time was funnier and happier.

After thinking about it, during the cooking break, I sent a text message to my mother, telling her that I had some questions to ask her.

Mother will come soon.As in the past, looking at me is quite complicated.Even though so much time has passed, our relationship has not really eased, because we have both done things that the other party will never forgive because of our father.

"Mordred, what's the matter?" Mother's voice was still so cold.

"Mother, I have a very simple question to ask you. Didn't my father and I enter the Belt of Stories, so I suddenly wondered, since my father and I can enter there, can people from the Belt of Stories come?" How about here?"

"As long as a stable communication is established, it can be reached. I will establish a channel here, and Tonali can establish a channel there. In theory, people can be sent here. Merlin from the two worlds can also, Gem Weng, A magician like Aozaki Aoko can easily do it."

Hearing this, I couldn't help but have unrealistic expectations in my heart.

But, immediately after, my mother poured a basin of cold water on me.

"However, Mordred, whether it can be done is one thing, and whether it can be recognized is another matter... Your father is the master and has the authority to overwrite the past and the future. However, you are not necessarily .In terms of strength alone, if your father is 100, you have at least 90. But in terms of personality, your father is infinite, and it is impossible for you to catch up with yourself.”

"Then... Mother, who is it recognized?"

"Recognized by history and recognized by human beings. After the establishment of human beings, the planet evolved its environment according to human needs. The bodies of the magnificent existences in the past were transformed into minerals or energy sources. The road that was originally connected to the interstellar sea was transformed into an impassable mantle .Even if Mei Lin and I want to exist in this world, we still have to mount it on your father's authority and pretend to be servants. So, even if people from the Lost Belt can reach our world, it probably won't happen. How to survive?"

"What about me? If that person is mounted on my authority, can it be done?"

At this moment, the mother's gaze became extremely cold, like the cold wind in winter, without a trace of tenderness.

Even though I have long been used to my mother's eyes like this, I am still a little sad and helpless at the same time.

I'm afraid, it's my mother who instinctively thinks that I will be detrimental to my father in order to inherit her position, and then inherit that authority?

I didn't explain, and I didn't bother to explain, but waited for my mother to give me an answer【!%

"...I'm afraid not. Because of the lack of events. Merlin and I were recognized because of the Holy Grail War. And this is because your father forced the world and the restraining power to approve Jeanna. You need to go through similar events to get the world and restraining power It could be a reward for merit, or it could be the result of coercion. It depends on your behavior."

"I see... I see. Thank you, mother."

"I must warn you, Mordred. No matter how much your father favors you, Melin and I cannot be on your side. I don't know about Jeanne's decision, she is a wonderful woman, maybe she I will support you, but in the final analysis it is also for your father's good - I think, I have said it clearly enough, you should understand?"

"Of course. After all, that's how it was during the Holy Grail War!"

My voice was as vibrant as ever, but the worry and watchfulness in my mother's eyes didn't fade one bit.

It seems that our mother-daughter (mother-son?) relationship has come to an end and no further changes are possible.All the warmth was wiped out with my sword. It was only because my father paid too much attention to me, and she needed this relationship to maintain her relationship with my father, so she reluctantly maintained this half-bad relationship with me. relation.

——Before I knew it, my understanding of this kind of thing became clearer and clearer.

"... Mordred, is there nothing else?"

"No more. I'm going to get on with cooking, Mother."

"Thank you for your hard work - Artoria's favorite food is the food you cook."

The implication is to warn me to focus on the things in front of me, not to think wildly, and to bring myself into it.

After leaving this sentence, the mother left.Instead of continuing to cook, I raised my head, looked at the connection between the ceiling and the wall, thought about many things, and recalled many things.Although the process was painful, I tried my best to make more assumptions, but when all the assumptions pointed to the same end point, I shook my head, smiled lightly, and continued to chop vegetables with a kitchen knife.

It is indeed cranky, and it is indeed bringing myself into it.

Even if there is a subtle feeling in my heart, it is only my own feeling after all.

Leaving aside whether the other party agrees or not, we have only known each other for such a short time, and it seems that we have known each other for more than a year. I am afraid that the example of my father gave me unrealistic fantasies-but it is different after all.Rianna is the last straw to the father. If I don't hug him tightly, my mind and body will collapse, and I can't do anything.

I am just the first step after becoming self-reliant, and I am a little bit confused.This kind of feeling is actually similar to the hazy feeling of most adolescents.Because of the lack of corresponding experience, it is not even sure whether it is that kind of feeling, and it is extremely difficult to express it-in the end, it is just that the other party blushes slightly because of the girl's shyness.With her character as clean as a blank sheet of paper, she would blush when anyone said something similar, it was no different.

"Help her complete her mission first. There is still a lot of time, just take one step at a time."

Talking to myself, I made a decision for myself.

At the same time, my admiration for my father grew deeper.She encouraged me to make my own decisions, and she tried to hold me accountable for my actions.If I didn't have this support, I would directly tell the other party's information, and I'm afraid I would have no choice.

Father is the greatest and best relative in the world,【）

Maybe one day, I'll understand why she's so nice—but that's in the distant future.

It's a pity that there is no possibility of realizing that distorted feeling.Even if it is possible to achieve it, we will gain nothing except hurting the father.Even, I will be downgraded from the most important existence in her life to something else.At that time, I was neither her knight nor her heir. I denied her expectations and emotions, and I also denied the meaning of my own existence.

Thinking about it now, I'm really stupid enough to fantasize about such unrealistic things. Is Freud's theory actually true?Or am I actually an exception?Or maybe my heart is the same as my actual age, which is lower than I expected?Or……

I shook my head and quickly got these thoughts out of my mind.