Artoria the Big Liar

◆Mordred◆

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"Actually, the reason is very simple. Think carefully, Mordred, from her standpoint, what can she give you?"

After waking up, taking advantage of the time alone in the kitchen, I asked my father about the problems he encountered in the Lost Belt.

And the father is indeed the father, and he quickly understood the crux of the matter, and even used questions to guide me to think.

I still follow the guidance of my father and look for a solution as in the past.

"Give me what...Father, I have never considered this issue."

"You are a fan of the authorities, so you didn't think about it. You said, she is a cowardly person. So, as long as you are by her side, the fear will be entrenched in her heart, and it will increase day by day."

"I... made her afraid? I don't understand... I am very strong. In that strange belt, I am only weaker than you, father."

"No, you are stronger than me. My body there is Vortigern's, and my strength is greatly restricted. But you are different. Whether it is a body or a treasure, you can fully exert it. As long as you want, you can The Lost Belt does everything."

To be honest, I never thought about what I would do and what I should do when I was stronger than my father.

For a while, I couldn't follow my father's guidance to continue thinking, so I could only keep silent.

The father did not urge or force.Seeing that I couldn't answer, she announced the correct answer.

"It's simple, Mordred—she's afraid that one day you'll suddenly disappear from her side. It's not that you're in danger, it's that you've suddenly lost interest in her. There's no duty, duty, contract between you. Or something like that binds the relationship, and in fear, she's desperately looking for a way to lock you to her."

"So... father, did I do something wrong? Sure enough, should I agree?"

"No, your approach is correct. She took such an action not based on reason, but based on fear. You have been by my side for so long, you should know that anything people do in fear will regret it in the future. Maybe she won't hate you, but she will definitely hate her cowardly self who is surrounded by fear and can't do anything. At that time, it will be very difficult for you to untie her knot."

Mother, Merlin, Guinevere.The ready-made example is around the father, and I can't find a negative example.

Father Wang took a sip of the hot milk and continued to explain to me.

"The essence of her behavior is to sacrifice her dignity and bottom line in exchange for your support. You lack sufficient experience, so you don't know what this behavior means. In fact, she will think it's nothing, just trying to grasp that in despair. It’s just a hope that is within reach. However, the people around you don’t think so—you are also very clear about the reactions of Sister Wang and Mei Lin at that time, right?”

"She... did she actually plan to do that? Think of herself as a... utensil?"

My heart speeds up briefly.

I've been avoiding her from becoming King Arthur, but now it seems that she was in the first place.

Belittle yourself too much, raise the value of things around you too much, try your best to seize every opportunity...

I can't even imagine what she went through when she arrived from Paradise to the Belt of Stranger Things...

"Humble to please you, dedicate yourself to you as a lowly existence. Lower your bottom line, devalue your own value, act like a seducer——Modred, you should understand what this means."

"But...but..."

I can't find a reason to refute it, and I can't find concrete evidence.

Following my father's explanation, I suddenly understood why she had such a big reaction when I went hunting hares that day.

Sudden appearance, sudden favor, too powerful, even the most exaggerated dream dare not have such a companion.

This is no longer what "hope" can describe, but a "savior" who can clear away all problems...

Father Wang gently patted my shoulder, as in the past, to calm me down.

"Think about what you have done, Mordred? You broke into her life and took her to do things that she hadn't done before. Your strength, your perseverance, are all dreams to her Same thing. She doesn't know how to keep the dream alive, she doesn't know what to do to keep you from disappearing. So she's using herself as a chip on a gamble of her fantasies, trying to win what she thinks she wants. Maude Red, you thought she was your Jeanne. But she wasn't. You were her Jeanne to her."

"I am her... Jeanne?"

"A person rescued from the abyss of despair. It is the support of the soul, and the driftwood when drowning. Not to mention, you took her to the place she fears the most in order to be handsome, in front of the existence she fears the most. Extremely domineering, and that existence is helpless. I'm afraid, she often wonders if she is completely crazy to create such a real hallucination?"

"No wonder she..."

No wonder she took the initiative to hold my hand behind.

In the mind filled with fear, the touch from the body is the only reality.

She gradually became silent, not because she didn't want to speak, but because she was afraid that she couldn't say anything.

Therefore, her crossing the line is not only to lock me by her side, but also to use those intense emotions to determine whether she is really living in a vain dream, whether I am really just her in the swamp self-created illusion.

Speaking of Jeanna, Jeanna really happened to come to the kitchen.

She was wearing a black suspender blouse, smiling, and her golden eyes were staring at me and my father curiously.

"Arturia, what are you talking about? Why did I hear that I was mentioned?"

"Ah...that...it's nothing, I just asked my father some very simple questions..."

The more I said, the more intense the smile in Jeanna's eyes became.

She tilted her head slightly and looked me up and down, as if she knew me again.

"Unexpectedly, Mordred, you have really grown up, and you have begun to attract other little girls like Arturia? Who is the other girl? Did you ask Morgan a few days ago if you could take the other girls? The one brought over by the people who heard it?"

I couldn't answer, I just felt my heart beating faster and my cheeks were hot.

Seeing that I was very embarrassed, my father immediately rescued me.

"Mordred has almost reached this stage. It's normal to have corresponding troubles when meeting someone you like."

"You are quite open-minded about this matter, Artoria..." As she spoke, Jeanna stared at me, putting a lot of pressure on me and making me feel awkward. "How is it, Mordred, how is the development? Are you on base? What are your plans for the future?"

"Uh...that..."

It wasn't until this time that I realized how outrageous the girl's previous reaction was.

Jeanna's eyes narrowed, and the corners of her mouth raised a smile, which was completely the attitude of my elders.

"That's right. Although you look very ostentatious, you are actually quite traditional, so you must not be so fast."

As she said that, Jeanna also took a special look at her father.

The father immediately lowered his head slightly, and did not meet Rangna's eyes.

Although she didn't say it verbally, Jeanna was actually very concerned about her father's "disorderly behavior" in the Lost Belt.

For a while, she seemed to have really become my stepmother, at least much better than my mother's cold attitude that has remained unchanged for thousands of years.

This caused an impulse in my heart—maybe, this incident showed Jeanna that there should be a good result?

Father is not omnipotent.But where the father is lacking, Jeanna can fully make up for it.Especially in terms of emotions, she who can perceive emotions will definitely give me unexpected answers.

"To be honest, Mordred, I don't think you have anything to worry about." Before I could ask, Jeanna gave me the answer I wanted in advance. "How can there be so much logic and motivation in things like feelings? Isn't it enough that you like her and she likes you? She must not be a glass-hearted person, right? Have you grown up yourself? In that case , then follow your own heart and go on the road? If you make a mistake, make up for it. If you do the right thing, continue to do it. She is worried, and you look forward and backward. How can she continue her journey? How can you protect her? Didn't your father tell you to take responsibility? Now is the time to take responsibility!"

I hesitated for a while, compared my inner feelings, and wanted to explain, but Jeanna predicted it in advance again.

"Worried about her getting hurt because of your decision? Don't want her to be more afraid of the future? Mordred, when you participated in the Holy Grail War, Arturia was hurt because of your decision? Desperate? Why are you starting to look forward and backward now, without any determination and momentum? Taking a step back, Artoria said, "You are her me"? Arturia abandoned her bottom line, I am What reaction, what decision I made, you won’t forget all of them, right?”

"That... that. I was still there at that time... I don't know much about it..."

"Mordred, you are her knight. Your heart should not be proved by your words, but by your sword and your actions. Now the belt of lore is quite stable, but it will soon become unstable. Stable, right? You still have a lot of chances to perform, and she won't lose a piece of meat after being frightened for a while. It's better to go on like this, as long as you don't regret it anyway in the future."

"That's right! The so-called love requires both parties to have enough courage! Mordred, you lack this kind of courage now!" It was Mei Lin who said this.

And the one who walked into the kitchen with Merlin was his mother.

My mother still looked at me coldly, and never forgave me for what I did in Kamran.

"Mother." I bowed my head as a salute.

Mother just nodded, not commenting on the matter.

She was only brought here by Meilin based on her family relationship.

"Mordred, it seems that everyone knows about you..." The king's tone was very calm. After all, everyone is not an idiot, and they can indeed see my abnormality. "In this case, I have nothing to say. You have reached the age to take responsibility. No matter what choice you make, you must bear the corresponding consequences."

Once there are more people, and this is my private matter, my heart will be pounding and my brain will be rusted immediately.

I just want to escape from this place quickly, or end this topic.

A father is a father after all.She saw my emotions and immediately ended the topic.

"Modred, the following is just my suggestion, you don't need to keep it in your heart - before she completes her mission, you'd better just maintain the relationship to the current level. She is not without strength, but her strength is limited Yes. During the journey, she will gradually gain the power corresponding to her identity and build up her own self-confidence. As long as you can insist on accompanying her to the end, fate will naturally reveal all the causes and effects."

"Is it the final challenge when the journey reaches the end..."

"What is that challenge, you will understand in the end. All I can say is that that challenge is more difficult than all the challenges you imagined. The moment you complete that challenge, you will surpass me - then you will know .”

I nodded.And the father drank the heated milk in one gulp, and left the kitchen alone.

Jeanna patted me on the shoulder and followed my father to leave.Today is the 19th, Tuesday, which belongs to Jeanna.

I was the only one left in the small kitchen.I exhaled, went back to my room, and lay down on the bed.

"I didn't expect you to be such a cowardly guy." The reverberation of Purple God reverberated in my mind, full of arrogance and full of sarcasm. "It's quite appropriate for two cowards to get together. I just don't know which of you will run faster when the crisis really comes - or if you are so cowardly that you can't even escape, your legs are stiff and you stand Wait to die."

"You idiot, didn't you listen to my father's explanation? In that rumor belt, even my father is no match for me." I mocked the other self in my heart without showing any mercy. "Besides, timid? What are you kidding? I didn't accept it because I had my own considerations. If you attribute rational prudence to cowardice, you are even more brainless than the Red God. No wonder the main body was destroyed God is swallowed up, and he himself is left with this ruined reverberation."

"The armor was given by the father, and the sword was also given by the father. You acted as if you were so capable, but in the end you were still a kid who followed the father's back? Now, if you have a big problem, you can ask the father for help. If you encounter more difficult choices in the future, then it’s okay? My father said that you have reached a new stage in your life, but in fact you are still an eight-year-old guy?”

It really made people angry, Zishen's reverberation didn't even know how to write the word "respect".

I didn't bother to argue with it, so I simply closed my eyes, adjusted my breathing rhythm, and prepared to fall asleep.

However, my mother's cold eyes at the end still stay in my mind.All kinds of negativity talking bad about me.

I feel like my spirit is decaying, I feel like I'm doubting myself.

Even if reason tells me that these are not true and my father is very satisfied with me, I will still adopt this idea.

——The so-called confusion of growing up is probably like this feeling, right?

Chapter 59: The Risks of Travel

◆Mordred◆

Open your eyes, the time has come to the morning.

I continued my duties as a cook, preparing breakfast for everyone.

Oatmeal with milk is so easy to make, and soon I'm cranky with this leisure.

What to do with that girl, what will happen to our future, what will be the test, all kinds of guesses, all kinds of thoughts.He knew it was a waste of time, but he couldn't stop.

This morning's father did not speak.No one spoke.Only Mei Lin stared at me with a smile from time to time, which made me feel scared-when this temptress laughed, there must be no good thing.

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"...Mordred, calculate the time, school will start soon. I need to heal my body, and I will take a break from school for half a year. I will leave the matters of the school and the HEMA department to you."

"Well, I know, father. I will not slack off in studies and clubs."

"Also, don't pay too much attention to the matter of the Obscure Belt. I know you like that girl, but it is the Oblique Zone after all. The moment the trip ends is also the moment when you and her part. After all, you and her meet by chance. , started in a dream, and ended in a dream. Unlike my state of burning out at that time, you still have a long way to go."

My father's words made my heart skip a beat.

From this sentence, I realized the attitude of my father.

"So, father, what do you mean...?"

"Actually, I don't like that girl." Wang Wang's directness made me unable to react for a while. "No assertiveness, timid, and too naive. Rather than being the chosen savior, it is better to say that she is a girl who can be seen everywhere. The gap between the person she wants to be is too great. Therefore, what can stimulate her growth must be all kinds of things. pain, sadness and anger. Her feelings pass on to you and change you in a subtle way."

"Father means...she is not good enough for me?"

"There's nothing wrong with understanding that."

I pursed my lips and lowered my head, unable to say anything.

Before my father supported me, I thought it was because she recognized the fairy girl.

But now that I have made it clear, I suddenly don't know what to do.

Even if the country is gone, I am still the heir to my father, and I am still my father's knight.She tacitly allowed me to travel in the Lost Belt, but that doesn't mean she didn't have the power to order me—she used this power during the Holy Grail War.

The shadow of the past enveloped me.I unconsciously worry that this journey will be like the Holy Grail War, just because of an order from my father, its development will fall to a completely different side.My hatred, my love, and all my hard work vanished.Although it cannot be meaningless, it is far from my goal after all.

"Father...have you already known her mission?"

"Not only that, but I also know her essence... Mordred, do you want to know?"

What the king father is best at is manipulating fear.