Artoria the Big Liar

Some widely used words correspond to specific concepts in the field of magic.

For example, a witch refers to an existence that is not a human being, but pretends to be a human being, and parasitizes in human society.

The so-called "creation" in the field of magic usually refers to pure objects without intelligence.

A typical example is Golem, which is not as intelligent as animals and can only obey the simple orders of its maker.Although it can barely be regarded as a living existence, it lacks a corresponding soul and is just a driven puppet.

That's why that Caster said that I'm not even an artificial human - refer to Illya and Mordred, they both have souls.But I don't, I'm just a creation of the evil god, a collection of emotions and energy.

I was created with only one meaning, that is to fall in love with Arthur, and to be loved by Arthur at the same time.

Nothing more than devices and machinery.

"...Sure enough, there is still no way to treat it as a fake."

I close my eyes, greedy for Arthur's [%&

However, Arthur gently kissed my forehead.The moist feeling seems to be solidified and stays on the skin.

"Then work hard and find a way to think it's fake." She said it very easily, as if it was homework after class, and she could finish it casually. "It's very simple, just find some evidence."

"That's it... I see. Sure enough, what that guy said is false." I tried to follow the idea given by Arthur, and gave the evidence I recognized: "I have seen a movie called "Ghost in the Shell" It says that if there is a soul, one must feel pain, especially the pain in the heart... Arthur, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart right now... This must be the proof of having a soul?"

"Yes. Here's the proof."

"I still cry, is this proof that I have a soul?"

"Yes. It must be so."

"I'm still looking forward to the future, to a better life... Surely this is one of the evidences?"

"That's right. Only a soul can have vision."

"Arthur...I want to cry right now...Only humans cry from excessive grief, right?"

Tears ran across my face, down my chin, and soaked Arthur's chest.

With that cold hand, she gently wiped away the tears, so gentle that I felt like I was in a dream.

"...Actually, many animals shed tears because of sadness." After a pause, Arthur's voice became slightly bitter. "But shedding tears for pain in the heart is indeed one of the functions of the soul."

As soon as she finished speaking, I kissed her.

I am hypnotizing myself, she is hypnotizing herself.

Together we weave a dream.In this dream, there is nothing painful, nothing sad.

I belong only to her and she belongs to me.We exchanged each other's temperature, exchanged each other's feelings.

We turn dreams into reality and reality into dreams, hiding in this small world and cutting off the connection with the outside world.

When I woke up, when the dream was over, I lay in her arms, with my forehead pressed against her hair and face.

Is it indulgence?Is it to let the person who hugged me continue to sink?

It's as if I am an empty shell, just a container for these temperatures and emotions.

Just thinking about those things, my mind went blank and I lost the ability to think.

Time froze, the clock was still ticking numbers.

After an unknown amount of time, I tried to speak to Arthur.

"...Arthur, do you think you're crazy?"

"I don't think I'm crazy. I think I've been rational all along."

"……That's good."

I closed my eyes, obviously not fully dark yet, but I just wanted to fall into a dreamless sleep.

However, Arthur was stroking my belly at this time.

Of course it is smooth and flat.No fat, no obvious muscles.

I slowly opened my eyes and stared at Arthur—even though she was shorter than me, she was as majestic as a giant.

"What's wrong? Is there something in my stomach?"

"Nothing... It's just that it's already night and I haven't finished my meal. If I don't eat now, I will wake up because of hunger at night? Even if I don't wake up, I will feel uncomfortable when I wake up in the morning? What do you want to eat? You can order takeout."

"Just eat something casually, I'm actually not very hungry."

"Shall I order two fried chicken burgers? I'm craving something less healthy today."

"Is one serving enough? Don't you want to eat more?"

"It's not necessary..." She outlined a slight smile, "My magic power is sufficient."

"But didn't Morgan say that using too much magic power in a short time will consume vitality?"

"I haven't experienced battle, how can I have vitality?" Arthur flicked my forehead, and his smile became more and more gentle. "...It's just because of some complications, nothing serious. As long as you get through the most uncomfortable period, you'll be fine."

"Complications?" For the first time in my short life, I've heard the word.

"Jeanne, you should have noticed that I snore when I sleep, right?"

"Hmm. It's obvious, but the sound is not too loud, so it won't affect your sleep." As I spoke, I unconsciously drew a faint smile. "It's better to say that Arthur's snoring is like white noise, but it has a sense of peace of mind that accelerates sleep."

"This is one of the complications. Modern medicine calls this disease chronic rhinitis." She explained to me quite patiently. "The complication of coming back today and needing to rest is another kind—according to this country, it's called 'rheumatism'."

"Rheumatism?" I hadn't heard that term at all. "...a serious illness?"

"It's just a symptom, similar to rhinitis. It's not a disease, but the accumulated wear and tear of the body. Arthritis... in wet weather, joints such as knees, ankles, and fingers will feel a little painful .” After a pause, she began to comfort me instead. "But don't worry. Actually, when it rains, the problem is not serious. The process of changing the air from dry to humid is the most uncomfortable. Now it has passed, and when the body adapts, it will not hurt so much."

Numbness - that's the first word that comes to mind.

It's not that the pain is not so painful, but that in the process from no pain to pain, I gradually adapt to the pain.

However, I can't understand - she is a king, why does she accumulate such losses?

As if the hearts were connected, Arthur stroked my hair and my back, and patiently explained: "Because I am Arturia Vortigern? Since I am Vortigern, I must not be blessed So in the early years, it was difficult, and the body accumulated a lot of wear and tear. Originally, these losses could be cured by recuperation, and both Merlin and Morgan could do it. But on the one hand, when I met them, it was more difficult. Evening, on the other hand, my dark magic power will also accumulate and wear out. As a result, due to years of fighting everywhere and various affairs of the kingdom, I have not been able to spare more than three months of recuperation time..."

Listening to Arthur's words, I didn't know what to say or how to react.

I just feel a pain in my heart, very, very painful, as if it is about to be torn apart.

As if instinctively, as if my consciousness was dominated by emotion, I couldn't help but speak.

"Arthur... you must do what you agreed to do?"

"Uh... Jeanna, which agreement are you talking about?"

"In April, you and I were wearing exquisite kimonos, holding hands, walking together on the small roads in the suburbs, watching the wind blow the petals of the cherry blossoms, and looking at the endless sea of ​​cherry blossoms... This agreement must be fulfilled."

"I understand, I know... I will definitely do it."

Hearing her say that, I closed my eyes.

I began to fantasize in my mind, fantasizing about the scenery at that time, Arthur's smile at that time, and my warm and peaceful mind at that time.

It's like, I'm already walking in the cherry blossom forest on the outskirts of Misaki Town, smelling the unique fragrance of spring flowers with her.

I was fantasizing like this, fantasizing... I don't know when it started, but there seemed to be a surge of power in my heart.

Very special power, as warm as Arthur's embrace.Very powerful, enough to flash a light in the abyss.

"Arthur..."

"I'm here."

"If...if I have to do a lot of bad things in order to survive, will you forgive me?"

"What kind of bad thing might it be?"

I can't answer.I dare not say it.

According to news reports, all customers on the 14th floor of the Fuyuki Hotel lost consciousness.

However, it wasn't a loss of consciousness, but a loss of soul and a vegetative state - I've confirmed it with my own eyes, and any magician who isn't too bad can tell.

Among the Fuyuki Hotel, the only person with mysterious power besides me is Arthur.

Arthur was the Dragon of Britannia, she wouldn't and didn't need to.

Those people's souls would be taken in the middle of the night, when I was sleeping.

Although I was lying in Arthur's arms at that time, although I fell asleep, and I have never had a dream, but the souls of those people were indeed taken away, and they could never wake up.This is much more painful than death. Not only the medical expenses burden the family, but also those illusory hopes will gradually disintegrate the family.

If I continue to sleep, how many more souls will be taken from me?

I don't know, I dare not think... I really hope that I am an idiot who really doesn't understand anything.

"...What's the matter, Jeanne?" Arthur's voice was still so concerned.

"It's nothing, just asking casually... really just asking casually." I stammered.

Arthur, however, laughed.

No questions, no doubts, just a simple smile, even amused.

Immediately afterwards, the warm breath that made me feel at ease blew by my ears, and the voice that was so gentle that it almost drowned me rang in my ears——Arthur, she said softly, as if in a whisper, out of her mind.

"Jeanna, isn't my status (Status) written very clearly? My attributes are order and evil... The Holy Grail judges attributes not by what they did before they were alive, but by their own evaluation of themselves. For example It is said that Gilgamesh, for his own momentary joy, he can do any cruel thing. But he thinks he is good, so the attribute given to him by the Holy Grail is good... probably that is the case."

"So it's... so..."

"For the happiness of the Britons, I killed some people, enslaved more people, and started a war that burned across most of Europe. My life is undoubtedly evil, and it is the evil of tyranny and killing... Therefore, If you want to live for yourself, you really want to live, and you have to kill others to maintain yourself... then do it. I won't blame you, and I won't regard this behavior as a sin—you It's a witch, not a real human being, so there's no need to follow human rules."

Suddenly, the eyes became very sore.

However, there were no tears in the eyes.

Probably because, in fact, there is nothing to be sad about?

This is no longer tolerance, but connivance... It is almost a connivance that makes people fall into it and cannot extricate themselves.

But that's really Arthur's character.She had the same attitude towards Mordred, Morgan, and Merlin.

She even has the same attitude towards the whole of Britain - otherwise, she would not choose to become king.In that environment, if you want to have a good life, you should not be a king who shoulders everyone's hopes, but a warlord, a hegemon.

But... I'm still a little unsure.I always thought it was wrong to do this...

"Arthur... can this really be done? You should know what I mean by saying these words? I..."

At this moment, Arthur was close to me.

We are stuck together, we take each other, we give each other.

When separated, only a silk thread connects us.

"It's okay, Jeanna... If you really feel guilty because of this, then you can make amends later? But... that will be a long time later. Now, let's think about how to take the Holy Grail first." .”

Then, before I could think, before I could respond, Arthur got up.

She went to the closet, rearranged her clothes, and seemed to be ready to go.

I supported my body and stood up reluctantly, feeling puzzled in my heart.

"Arthur... what's wrong?"

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"...Go out for a while? Didn't you say that you want to eat takeaway?"

"No. It's business this time. The kind that needs to get out of the window."

"So... what exactly?"

"I plan to break the rules of the Holy Grail War and initiate a battle. At that time, I will be besieged by all other followers, and the situation will be dangerous. I just need to go by myself... After all, my magic power is provided by myself."

She said it very easily, even too easily, as if she was going out to get a courier.

A flustered emotion boiled in my heart, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know whether to keep it or send it off.

However, Arthur just put on the suit and tie I bought for her again, then turned around with a smile, and his tone was still so gentle——

"Don't worry. When I say danger, I mean that if Jeanne goes, you may be in danger yourself. I won't do it myself."

"But...but that is the siege of all the followers? It must be very dangerous, right?"

"Jianna hasn't read Romance of the Three Kingdoms, has she? At the end of the Han Empire, the imperial power declined. Eighteen lords went to fight against the overlord who usurped the imperial power. As a result, although these eighteen lords formed an alliance, they each For the sake of war, each has its own ghosts, accuses each other, and it is a mess. It only won a short-term victory, and then disintegrated on its own, falling into a situation of mutual conquest."