Artoria the Big Liar

What makes me feel even more uncomfortable is that the person I hurt the most is holding me tightly at this moment.

As a result, I could only look at the end of the sea of ​​flowers, silent and unable to say a word.

Even in Paradise, the atmosphere has gradually become depressing.No one spoke, and no one made a sound.

But Morgan was holding on too tight, and I was too weak to struggle at all.

I sighed in my heart and gave up struggling.

"...that request is something difficult to do, and it's normal if you can't do it." I tried my best to make my voice more energetic, but unfortunately my body was still weak, I couldn't raise my energy, and my speech was very slow. "It's because I was thinking too much... I thought this would save some people from dying, at least it will be better first [

The atmosphere fell silent again.

No one seemed to be able to speak, no one seemed to dare to speak.

It's as if, even in death, everyone still thinks of me as King Arthur, the tyrant who stands above me.

A wave of depression gathered in my heart, which made me feel even more uncomfortable.

That being the case, let's continue... The decision to judge whether the work is completed is generally not in the hands of the actors themselves.The head of the troupe and the script editor said that the performance was not over, so the performance could only continue.

"...Miss Wang, please let me go."

But Morgan didn't loosen, and even tightened, so that I felt like my ribs were about to break.

She was still unwilling to let go of me, as if if she let go, I would suddenly disappear and never be found again.

I can't help it.I can only accept the reality with the mentality of "she can hug her if she wants, after all, she is my sister".

"So... Merlin, at this point, do you finally understand the essence of the prophecy?" I asked weakly.

"The possibilities of the future are infinite. Both magicians and scholars believe in this, because this is a fact." Merlin said softly. "However, there is a premise for this, that is, the future has not yet been determined. Once there is an existence that actually observes the information ahead of the torrent of time and space, the possibility of the future will be deprived and it will become a certainty. Therefore, no matter whether the great god Odin No matter how hard you work and how well prepared you are, Ragnarok will still come, and the world will still be destroyed because of it.”

Listening to Merlin's words, the knowledge of my previous life emerged in my mind.

"Possibility collapse? Observer effect?" I said involuntarily.

Merlin froze for a moment, seeming to understand what I meant by these words.

Over time, words acquire new concepts and meanings—for example, "amber" and "electricity" are the same word in Latin. The extension of the concept of "electricity" was not given to "amber" until a long time later.

It is now the fifth century AD.Merlin has no knowledge beyond time and space.Therefore, even she cannot understand the Latin terms of modern physics whose meaning is highly refined and purified, at most she can try to understand it by experience.

This used to happen a lot in Merlin's discussions with me.

After a long time, Merlin finally answered.

^ "...Yes, my king. Some observer observed a certain moment in the future, and he himself became an anchor point. As long as he still exists, that future moment is confirmed. Originally, the The end points of the road are all determined. No matter how you switch the road, you will only arrive at the same place." Merlin paused again.This is her habit.When the words come to a turning point, she will pause. "However, this is not the case with the prophecy of 'King Arthur'. The prophecy consists of many nodes connected into a certain path. No matter how the situation changes, even if King Arthur himself completely reverses, the path is still not Will there be any changes..."

In retrospect, my 22 years of life seem to be the reappearance of King Arthur.

Picking up the sword of choice, defeating the humble king, laying down a big territory, and even being "betrayed" in the end, the composition of its nodes is the same as that of King Arthur.

But outside of these nodes, my life is completely different-I am a copy of Vortigern, not a redesigned new transcendent.My nature is darkness rather than light.I was on good terms with Mordred, and I was on good terms with Morgan, and there was no rancor between us.Guinevere and I had a bad relationship, we hardly ever had a good conversation.I've never had popular support, only deep-seated fear.

As a result, the depression in my heart became more intense, almost to the point of depression.

"However, there is a decisive difference between the prophecy of 'King Arthur' and other prophecies, that is, there is no end. No one knows what happened after entering Avalon. No one knows when King Arthur will come back. So, the story begins This is the end—according to what the king said before, this story belongs to an 'open ending'. That is to say, when King Arthur came to Paradise, King Arthur regained the possibility..."

"...Merlin, what does this have to do with me?" I asked.

"Because, the one who made that prophecy is neither me nor other magicians." Merlin paused again, this time the pause was unexpectedly long, as if Merlin herself was reluctant to say it. "...The one who made the prophecy of 'King Arthur' was none other than you, the king! From the very beginning, from the moment you awakened as Arturia, you have been cursing yourself, and you will become king no matter what, No matter what, the king's story must be completed..."

I froze.Because that's what I've been guessing.

My life is indeed different from Artoria's, but it's exactly the same as the lie I told during the Holy Grail War.

Merlin was wrong, this is the locked trajectory, it is the background that has already been written, my actions and words are just playing the role of "Artoria".From the beginning to the end, I was not her, and from the beginning to the end, I was just an ordinary person who has passed away.I can't be king, I shouldn't be king, the only person who can be king is "Artoria".

For the third time the air fell silent.

An impulse surged in my heart, since the story is over, should I introduce myself?

Isn't that what stage plays are all about?The end of the story does not mean the end of the stage play. The actors will introduce themselves and thank the audience for their support, and the behind-the-scenes personnel will go to the front stage to tell about the pre-stage and behind-the-scenes work.When all the troupe bowed to the audience at the same time on the stage, the stage play finally came to an end in the applause of the audience.

Thinking of this, I began to follow the impulse in my heart.

"Actually... I'm not King Arthur at all... and I'm not Artoria at all."

No one answered, and no one took extra action.

The only thing I could feel was that Morgan's body suddenly shook violently.

Then I went on to say, "I'm just an ordinary person, an ordinary person. I died and became Artoria. In the process, I touched the Holy Grail. Maybe it's because of the Holy Grail." The power of my words made my words become words, and decided my life... In this way, lies became a reality that must be fulfilled. I am like an actor in a drama, playing the role of the king, playing the role of Arturia... …but……"

The words have reached here, and I can't continue.

Who I was in the past, I have forgotten.

I can't remember my name, I can't remember if I have parents, I can't remember if I have pets.In my memory, I only remember that I had a past life, and occasionally I can dream of my past life when I dream, but it is limited to this.It seems that the consciousness has already made a judgment, thinking that those are unimportant things, so it is deleted and cleared casually.

The air was silent for the fourth time.The silence was more oppressive than ever before, almost suffocating.

"But...but..."

I tried to break the silence, but failed.

My mouth is relatively stupid, and it is easy for me to not know how to explain the situation.

This situation made me very uncomfortable. I frowned instinctively, trying to think about how to explain it, feeling very impatient.

But the more irritable I was, the more my brain couldn't remember it. It was a vicious circle like this, so that I clenched my hands and felt a little angry.

"But...but..."

I closed my mouth and closed my eyes.

Wet from the rain, Morgan's body was cold, and I felt cold too.

This cold feeling calmed my impatience a little bit, or it didn't swell so quickly.

In the fifth silence, the atmosphere became more and more oppressive.I took a deep breath, but felt almost suffocated.

"Alto..."

Morgan finally spoke.It's just that her voice is very hoarse and not pleasant at all.

Morgan only said half of Wang's name, and couldn't continue because of what I said earlier.

She also paused.I feel sorry for her because of this pause - I seem to have hurt her again.

"...Do you hate being a king, do you hate being Artoria?"

After thinking about it for a while, I decided to tell the truth: "...um."

"Have you hated it from the beginning?"

"Ah."

"Then... why did you draw the sword of choice?"

"It's a fluke in my heart, I feel that I may not be able to pull it out."

"...Why did you face Vortigern alone, regardless of what the soldiers thought?"

"My nature is also darkness. Darkness cannot drive away darkness. If soldiers enter the city with me, they will die in vain... If my nature is light, should they be able to join us? Unfortunately, I am not light, I have always been darkness. "

"...why... Mordred...?"

"Darkness must be dispelled after all. And the use of dark magic is very harmful to the body. I also suffered from many diseases when I was a child. For example, when it rains, my joints are prone to pain... Let's add up all kinds of reasons. I feel that I can't stick to it. .And I am the king of Albion, so I can't kill myself. And my reputation is not very good. And I trust Mordred, and Mordred also thinks that I have a good relationship with her... Really There is no other way, I ask Mordred."

"...Why Mordred?"

"As long as it is a king, Pendragon is invincible. This is part of the bloodline, which is both a blessing and a curse. The one who can kill the king Pendragon can only be another Pendragon. Sir Gao Wen can't, Sir Lancelot can't, and Sir Galahad can't, only Mordred can... I hesitated for more than two years, and I still haven't made up my mind. Because the throne is too cruel for Mordred , I hope that the Pendragon lineage will end with me... This is how it turned out. But it's okay, after Mordred did that, he didn't think about becoming king... Even if it ended like this, It's better than being king, right?"

"...I... can't do it?"

"Sister Wang can't. Sister Wang is the king who was pre-determined before me. I was born because of the appearance of Vortigeng. In addition, sister Wang was a god before, right? The famous death god Morgana. After that The Queen of Avalon, Paradise, can be said to have brought together the mysteries of the whole of Britain. If it were done by Sister Wang, no one would be able to break Sister Wang's shackles... This will cause many problems, such as this period of history becoming anecdotal What to bring... I really don't want Sister Wang to suffer so much pain."

tick, tick...

Drops of water dripped on my face one after another.

I barely opened my eyes, and when the realization became clear, I realized that it was Morgan who was crying again.

This time she cried very sadly, very hard, and the tears poured out like a flood that opened the gate.

The corner of the mouth barely raised an arc, I raised my heavy left hand, touched her face, and wiped away the tears on her face.

"Don't cry... Sister Wang. If Sister Wang cries, she won't be so beautiful..."

If it is said that the lies I once told are the wishes I made to the Holy Grail, and the polluted Holy Grail will only fulfill the wishes of the wisher in the most vicious way, I hope that this viciousness will be borne by myself, rather than other people.

The story of King Arthur only needs King Arthur as the protagonist.

The story of King Arthur only needs to end with King Arthur's death.

I am the only one standing on the stage, and I am the only one who can perform for everyone, as long as I can play King Arthur well.

...I have always thought so.

Chapter Seven I'm a Big Liar

(This chapter is the first perspective of Artoria.)

The tears cannot be wiped away, as if the fall of Britain cannot be stopped.

Morgan was crying and crying and I couldn't dry it off and she couldn't dry herself off.

In the end, I had to let out a long sigh.

As if stimulated by the sigh, Morgan's tears stopped immediately.

But she did not speak, only silence.I don't know what to say, so I can only be silent.

Fortunately, there are not only me and her here, but also Merlin.Merlin made a sound, breaking the sad silence.

"Arturia... Since you don't think you are Artoria, who do you think you are?"

"I don't know... I used to remember my name. But then too many things happened and I forgot."

"In this case, how should we call you? The biggest function of a name is to call you."

"What name should I use..." I thought for a long time, but I still couldn't think of what to call it, so I had to accept the reality helplessly: "I can't think of it... Then it should be Artoria. It's just a name, I don't hate it that much."

"Artoria, when I first proposed to search for the Holy Grail, you were against it. It was only after being forced by the Knights of the Round Table with a 12-to-1 vote that you reluctantly agreed to search for the Holy Grail." Merlin said calmly.It's still so gentle, and still so sweet - as if it has lost its feelings. "You know, my eyes can see through the ages. Even if I don't know the exact location of the Holy Grail, I know the general direction and the nature of the Holy Grail. Maybe the Holy Grail does have the ability to make wishes, maybe the Holy Grail can really make Britain Keep it mysterious, but in the final analysis, the complete farewell to the Age of Gods is a decision made by the owner and creator of the Holy Grail. At this time, the Holy Grail has no ability to forcibly designate an established destiny... The prophecy you made is definitely not caused by the Holy Grail .”

"I can't think of any other reason than the Holy Grail," I said.

"Explanation, this is a more grand and higher-level mysterious existence than the Holy Grail..."

Higher level existence?what else?Is it the restraining force of the planet or human beings?

My knowledge of magic【_

More importantly, my memory tells me that I have never been in contact with a being of this level.

"I feel... I have never had contact with this kind of existence..."

"I must have touched it. Arturia, you have to trust the judgment of the most powerful magician in the world!" Even though I couldn't see it, Merlin's lily-like smile automatically appeared in my mind. "And it started very early, before you became Artoria. Therefore, what you once said will evolve into a definite prophecy. Therefore, your life is fixed, until the last moment. Still can't find relief."

I am speechless.This is not the conclusion I want, but it is an unquestionable reality.

So, who is it?Why turn me into King Arthur?Why should I go through such a life?

I don't understand, don't understand, don't approve... But I can't find any reason to support this negative emotion.

"However, Wang's story is over. Soon, we will know what will happen..."

Hearing what Merlin said, I also began to wait.

What will happen?How will my life continue?

I am very confused, this is the first time I am so confused.For the first time, I felt that I was really burnt out, and I was in a daze in my seat-fortunately, the flower sea in the paradise is really beautiful, and I can’t finish seeing all kinds of bright flowers, and it continues to the end of the line of sight.My current seat is also fine, although still hugged tightly, it has gradually become warmer.

"...if only there was a movie."

For some reason, I uttered such a strange sigh.

Neither Morgan nor Merlin responded.They didn't know what a movie was, so they didn't know how to respond to me.

Immediately afterwards, my brain began to unconsciously start thinking wildly.Many movies related to King Arthur automatically appeared in my mind, such as "Battle of the Beast", "Mount Paterson and the Holy Grail", the realistic version of "King Arthur" in 04, and the nostalgic version of "King Arthur" in 85.I even think of many movies or masterpieces based on King Arthur, such as "The Lion King", "If the Emperor Gets a Talking Machine"...etc?The prototype of the emperor is also King Arthur?It seems that the GW company is indeed a group of British people, and the emperor is indeed the space version of King Arthur, that's right...