Artoria the Big Liar

"Well, it's not too late... Anyway, let's order first?"

"Arthur, Merlin and Morgan are here too? Did you forget?"

"Sister Wang is here too?" I was stunned for a moment, and then asked, "Did Merlin ask her to come here?"

"Yes—it shouldn't be a problem, right?"

Strictly speaking, there is no problem, after all Morgan is also a very powerful magician.

Merlin is good at supporting, connecting the present world with the paradise, providing abundant magic power and persistent gains.

Morgan is more focused on firepower, can easily destroy the city wall, and is good at making various magic costumes.The goblin treasury she owns has many treasure-level props, which are genuine and authentic, and are very different from the conceptual prototype of the treasures of Gilgamesh.

The close-up ability of the two of them is also quite good, at least able to draw with Lancelot.

It's just...it's okay if there is only the casual Merlin, but if Morgan is added, I will have a hard time.

The ones I'm least good at dealing with are women like Guinevere and Morgan who are particularly thoughtful and powerful.

"Forget it, it's all here, so be it."

With that said, I stood up and prepared to put on my formal clothes.

However, watching the witch condescendingly, I noticed an abnormality in her left hand.

"...Two Command Seals? Both Sister Wang and Merlin signed a contract with you?"

"Yes. They live in Paradise for a long time. Without the support of the contract, it is difficult for them to exist in this world for a long time."

I nodded my head, expressing understanding and understanding-this is how the Britons perished.

As soon as I came to the closet, there was a gurgling sound from my stomach.

I'm really hungry, the continuous release of the Holy Sword last night drained my mana, I really need something to eat.

"Don't change your clothes yet? I think it's good... Arthur, this pajamas really suit you."

"...Okay. It's just pajamas anyway."

Barely convincing myself, I took a light breath, stepped on my slippers, and opened the bedroom door.

Merlin had already dressed, it was still the simple and plain white robe.

Morgan is still wearing a blue formal attire, showing the majesty of the queen of Avalon.

I rubbed my eyes and felt that my mental state was not very good.

Coupled with the fact that the sofa was occupied, I unconsciously went to the chair by the window and sat down.

It was only when my buttocks and the wooden chair were touching that I realized how outrageous and wrong my behavior was. I was simply trying to alienate Morgan and Merlin—as expected, they both looked gloomy.The witch on the side kept hinting to me with her eyes that I should treat them better.

Taking a breath, I stood up again and went to the sofa, sitting between Morgan and Merlin.

How should I put it... There is a feeling that I am a servant or a commodity, which makes me quite uncomfortable.

But—it's just not getting used to it.Looking at the witch on the opposite side, her barely smiling face, and the two command spells on her left hand, I am actually very clear that the deal has been concluded, and my current identity is a servant or a commodity.

But, I don't know if it's my illusion.As I sat down, both Morgan and Merlin shifted their positions slightly away from each other.

The atmosphere was extremely depressing, and the two people around them didn't even say a word.

Even though he kept a smile on his face, he looked quite bitter, as if he had been greatly wronged.

——Obviously I was the one who was wronged.

I almost lost my ability to think because I was really hungry.

No one spoke, and I didn't want to talk, so I just waited like this—maybe waiting for others to speak, maybe waiting for the food to be delivered, so that this depressive silence will be broken?

But going on like this is not an option after all.I blinked my eyes, tried to use my little blood sugar to stimulate my brain to think, and then looked at Morgan.

"...Sister Wang, do you have any apples? I feel a little too hungry."

Avalon means Apple Isle.In the story of the Britons, there are bright red apple trees growing there, and there are endless apples in the book.Those who step into Paradise will be free from famine, and will be in sweetness every day-sweetness was a rare taste in that era.Being able to eat sweet things every day is almost like a day in heaven.

The light blue eyes were staring at me, which made me feel a little overwhelmed and also a little baffled.

But in the end, Morgan still sighed, and took out an apple from his treasure house—the color of the skin was not red, but golden.If you look carefully, you can notice the abundant magic contained in it.

Come to think of it, this is the favorite food of the goblins in Paradise—the golden fruit.

Without saying a word, she handed me the golden apple.I'm not polite, just eat it.

The atmosphere was still very depressing and silent, and the only sound in the house was the sound of me eating an apple.

I have always eaten very fast.In less than 2 minutes, the edible part of this apple was eaten by me.

The hunger in my stomach really slowed down a lot.The aftertaste of sweetness in the mouth gradually clears up my brain.

"...Why don't you talk? Did something bad happen?" I asked【"

"Arthur...you really...?" Morgan hesitated to speak.The light blue pupils are extremely gentle, full of love and pity.

If it's against The Witch, Guinevere, or Merlin, I can be strong.

Maybe it's because of my age, height, and relationship. When facing Morgan, I can't always be strong.

So, the tone of my answer became extremely weak - I really became her sister.

"Well." I nodded, "The situation is beyond my expectation. In order to win, this is the only way."

"Why don't you just say it?" Morgan asked, approaching me. "If you explain it directly, Merlin and I will definitely agree—after spending so many years together, do you still have any doubts about our relationship?"

I bowed my head, my hands were clenched into fists because of tension, and my pajamas didn't cover my arms, which looked very slender.

The armor is my shell, and I, who can't put on the armor here, is like a clam without its shell, fragile and vulnerable.Now that I'm wearing such a set of pajamas again, let alone Morgan, I'm afraid I won't be able to be strong against Mordred.

As a result, I really can't answer this question.

"Artoria, you are still so reckless in doing things—your own consequences. With the scabbard buried in your body, you will not die, and you will do excessive things in front of important people... In the future, you You have to correct this bad habit. Your behavior not only hurts yourself, but also hurts all those who cherish and love you..."

Morgan still had some parts left to say, but I knew what she was trying to say.

The so-called black sun and the so-called burning human pillar actually mean this.

I stole a peek at Morgan's expression—she was smiling, but there were tears in her eyes.

As the queen of Paradise, she is really too gentle, as gentle as a mirror, reflecting my true appearance.

"Artoria, promise me that you won't sacrifice yourself again... okay?"

"But, Miss Wang... the word sacrifice can only be applied to living people, right?"

Maybe brain pumping?Maybe the brain is still in a state of confusion?

For some reason, such a sentence popped out of my mouth.

Then I remembered, in the Holy Grail War 20 years ago, I used this sentence to refute Emiya Kiritsugu.

Realizing that I said the wrong thing, I bowed my head even deeper, not daring to look at the Witch, Morgan and Merlin【.^

The atmosphere once again returned to the suffocating depression and silence—it was so suffocating that I didn't dare to breathe loudly.

After a long time, Merlin suddenly laughed, very loudly, like crazy.

"Hahahaha! That's how it is! What are you doing, I'm so stupid! I still have the eyes to see through the present, and I still pretend to be a smart person, but I got it wrong from the very beginning and the most basic part Hahaha! Cough cough...cough cough!" Merlin coughed violently, and his body shook violently, shaking the sofa.

Soon, I was hugged again - it was Morgan, her body trembling, trying to convey warmth to me.

This sudden outburst made me feel overwhelmed, my thoughts were in a mess, and I started to explain indiscriminately again.

"...It's like this, Miss Wang. I don't mean that I feel dead now, but that I became Arturia after I experienced death—the knowledge that transcends the times is the accumulation of my previous life The things that came down. I have also said what happened later... I'm sorry, I haven't been able to explain it clearly, which made everyone so worried..."

The majesty of the king is completely gone, and now I am really as weak as the little girl next door.

Obviously I am already 30 years old, and even my own children have grown up so much...

This made me feel guilty and annoyed at the same time.

"So..." Morgan's voice trembled so badly that he almost couldn't breathe. "So... in the last Holy Grail War, you ignored other people's opinions and forced Emiya Kiritsugu to consume you as a magic material, just to prevent the Holy Grail from overflowing? So... in the 14 years of King Arthur's life In the process, you kept abusing yourself and letting other people's malice be imposed on you, because you felt that your value was as low as weeds from the very beginning? So... you forced Merlin to Divide yourself into two parts, and distribute them to the people you like like utensils?"

I blinked my eyes, and instead of feeling guilty, I felt a little confused.

——Isn’t this a matter of course?Why did Morgan only see it now?

With such doubts in mind, I secretly glanced at Merlin and the witch again.

Merlin's smile became quite vicious, and the witch's smile became unusually perverse.The way they looked at me was extremely aggressive. It seemed that with just one sentence, I changed from a hunter to a prey.

Maybe, maybe, maybe...the two of them didn't realize this until now?

"Snapped--!"

There was a hot tingling on my cheek, I immediately covered my face and looked at Morgan.

Morgan is very strong now, like my sister and my mother—the eldest sister is like a mother, maybe that's how it is?

Her face was flushed with anger, her teeth were clenched, and there was both cold oppression and hot anger in the beautiful light blue eyes, which made me dare not look at her at all, so I could only lower my head deeply. Low, the body bent into an arch, the legs subconsciously retracted on the sofa, the body curled up into a ball, like a hermit crab that lost the shell it picked up.

And the name of that shell is "King Arthur".As a hermit crab, I'm just "Artoria".

After giving me a big slap, looking at me curled up into a ball, Morgan took several deep breaths violently.

"...It's the fault of all of us. Fear of your blood, we didn't even give you a complete childhood. Originally, I thought you would hate Britain and become a more terrible disaster than Vortigern, but It turned out to be like this - sure enough, each of us is a regicide. The act of regicide is not at the end, but kills from the beginning, from the first time you died and were resurrected by the scabbard , the king is dead."

"Artoria...you don't have to apologize. We should be the ones to say sorry. Mordred's hatred of Britain is absolutely right, and her cognition is more correct than any of us. She has such a wonderful life The king, but he didn’t know how to cherish it, he just kept forcing the king to sacrifice himself. Britain should have been destroyed long ago, and it should be destroyed, because this is the price and punishment of regicide. Our madness, our longing, our love is the punishment of our own never-ending sin."

Having said this, Morgan's eyes suddenly became sharper, putting more pressure on me.

However, she came closer again, hugged me, and pressed her chin against the top of my head, warming the coldness on my body.

"However, Arturia. You are not dead now, you are still alive, you can still feel hungry, and there are still people around you that you would rather sacrifice yourself to protect. Me, Merlin, Jeanne, Modley Tokuro, even Emiya Kiritsugu, and the children who have grown up to admit it, all hope that you can live and live well—stop treating yourself as a dead object, Artoria. You must learn to love yourself, learn to Cherish yourself—only in this way can we face you with a smile, understand?"

"...I know, I know."

At this time, what else can I say besides agreeing?

As if she really looked like a mother, Morgan's tone became more serious.

"Artoria, each of us loves you. You don't like us in your heart because of past hurts, but that's okay. You just need to know that whenever you sacrifice and destroy yourself as if you were an object When we are separated from each other, our psychology is more painful and uncomfortable than yours. It is because of your extreme lack of self-love that you have given each of us a sin that we can never forgive ourselves. Because of this sin, you have driven the people crazy, driven crazy Killed the knights, drove everyone around you mad, and sent the entire island into a destructive madness... Look at Jeanne, she's on the verge of madness now."

"——This is wrong, Arturia. You shoulder a greater mission. No matter what, even for the sake of the existence you protect, you must learn to cherish yourself...Only in this way can you be happy, and Jeanna can be happy , each of us can be happy—do you understand?"

To be honest, I can't understand what Morgan is saying, and I can't understand the logic before and after.

It seemed that she was destroying the creeds and ideas that I had always taken for granted, as if they were justified.

But she has said so, and I am indeed a servant and a commodity traded out now-do I have the right to refuse?Is it possible for me to say "don't understand"?After thinking about it, it seems that there is no such thing.At this moment, I can only have one answer.

"...I see, Sister Wang. I...I will try to cherish myself."

Then, like a child, Morgan strokes my hair gently.

What's the matter, I'm King Arthur, the children are so old, I'm already a 30-year-old woman, how can you treat me like this!I still have to face it!

But... that's Miss Wang after all.In the whole of Britain, I am the only one who can't be strong with her.

I couldn't break free from her arms in Avalon, and I still can't.

"It doesn't matter if you don't know how to do it...it's very simple, you are so smart, you can learn it easily."

(I swear on my personality, the emotionally twisted part ends here.)

(Updated 165932 words this month, 18 words less than the 14068 promise, will be made up next month.)

Chapter 66: Morgan → Morrigan ([-] words)

◆Artoria◆

After about half an hour, the waiter finally pushed the trolley and delivered the lunch.

It was as rich as last night, all traditional Japanese food, mostly fried and seafood, and a lot of rice.

But I was so hungry that I didn't feel like it was enough, so I ordered the cheese fried chicken burger takeout before lunch, a total of ten.

After stuffing all these things into my belly, my consciousness became clear, my thinking became flexible, and I felt like I was alive again.

Instead of eating, Morgan and Merlin sat on the couch and watched me eat.

Their sights gave me the feeling—how should I put it, it was the same as those cat videos on the Internet.It's just that the cat is drinking water and eating cat food, but the people next to it are watching with gusto, more satisfied than eating by themselves.

Only Jeanne ate some with me.It's a pity that her main food now is soul, and she only eats a little for lunch.