Poverty story after Tokyo actress

Jiang Bai smiled indifferently, waved his hand and said to Zhenqin, then looked at Zhenqin and reminded her: "Besides, I want to tell you Zhenqin, if you have the idea to hit the three major film festivals, you have to live a hard life The way I am now is not considered a hard life, I have enough food and clothing.”

"But if you want to hit the three major film festivals, then you have to be prepared to suffer yourself. You have to know that an actress who can act ugly can win the favor of the judges. At that time, you have to learn to shrink crazily. Diet to lose weight, let yourself be so thin that only skin and bones remain.”

"Either overeating destroys my appearance and body; or I stay up all night, showing haggardness; I follow the crew into the deep mountains and old forests in the countryside, sleeping on the floor or on the road. Compared with those, my current life is not worth mentioning at all. "

Jiang Bai leaned his cheek on his hand, smiled and reminded Zhenqin that Jiang Bai had basically experienced all of the above mentioned in his previous life. It was because of this that Jiang Bai wanted to understand that the residence was just a place to sleep. The living environment is the environment in which you work.

That's why she can sleep in this dilapidated, rotten rental house without any burden.Because compared to sleeping on the floor in deep mountains and old forests with the crew, having a house is really heaven. As long as the lower limit of experience is low enough, then you won’t feel how hard life is. This is Jiang Bai’s mentality now.

Looking at Jiang Bai's indifferent attitude, Zhenqin's face became more and more ugly. She didn't know what Jiang Bai had gone through to accept her current life so peacefully.Undoubtedly, it was definitely a hard life that I had never experienced or even seen. At that moment, an impulse emerged in Makoto's heart.

"Jiang Bai!"

"Ok?"

"... live with me..."

Zhenqin looked up at Jiang Bai, his eyes full of eagerness and anticipation.

"Can you live with me? In this way, you can move out of this place. My house is very big. You can hold the goods in these boxes. Anyway, living in that place alone is very boring. You After moving in, you can also chat with me, we can exchange acting skills together, we can drive to the set together, we can go home together after work, and we can watch movies together at night... Would you like to live with me!"

The more Zhenqin said, the closer her body was to Jiang Bai. In the end, the faces of the two were almost close together. Seeing Zhenqin so close to herself, those deep eyes looked at herself with expectations and requests. Time, Jiang Bai's heart couldn't help but tremble.

"That... we, we've only known each other for a day..."

"so what……"

"We probably haven't gotten that close yet..."

Jiang Bai moved back slightly, trying to distance himself from Zhenqin, but Zhenqin clung to her relentlessly.

After a while, Jiang Bai felt blocked by a cold thing behind her. The small space was backed by her, and soon hit the wall. Now under the pressure of Zhenqin, she was really helpless. The road can be retreated.

And looking at Jiang Bai who has no way to retreat at this moment, Zhenqin lifted the blue hair hanging from her ear, tilted her head slightly, leaned against Jiang Bai's ear and whispered to her in a voice as thin as a gossamer: "...Jiang Bai...I like you……"

"Suck……"

As soon as the voice fell, Jiang Bai felt his heart slow down for a moment, and his breathing became heavy for a moment. She admitted that as a big man in her previous life, she did have such a thought when she saw Zhenqin... But she also knew Now that I am a woman, it is strange to say that to Makoto.

But at this moment, Zhenqin's outspoken words made Jiang Bai a little at a loss. After all, she was a human being in two lives, and her emotional history was basically zero... So, Jiang Bai's first reaction was a little unbelievable. Or, I misunderstood.

"That... Hahaha, Makoto... I like you too... After all, we are friends..."

"...not the kind of friends...Jiang Bai..."

"..."

Jiang Bai's breathing is getting heavier, what is this?Confession?As a woman... confessed to by another woman?

At that moment, no matter how calm Jiang Bai is usually, she couldn't help shaking all over her body at this moment. She didn't know whether she was shaking because of excitement, or because of fear...or, or other feelings that she couldn't understand...

She felt that her cheeks were very hot, and her back was sweating continuously, even though the wall she was leaning against was extremely cold at the moment.But these feelings are also gradually becoming blurred, and the mind is gradually becoming chaotic, and it seems that only the instinct of breathing remains...

She just felt that at this moment, Makoto whispered in her ear, her voice was constantly echoing in her mind... really, it's very nice...

Chapter 25 Can't think of a topic, can't speak well

"I... am a girl..."

"Ok, I know……"

"You are also...a girl..."

"Well, so what..."

"...We...have only known each other for a day..."

"Yes, so..."

"..."

Looking at Zhenqin who was only looking at her deeply, Jiang Bai questioned again and again, but she didn't seem to care, she was willful and persistent...

Jiang Bai admitted that he didn't recruit...

In fact, being liked by a girl is quite good. After all, Lily is infinitely good, but it's just that it can't give birth.

However, Jiang Bai didn't understand, why, this girl would be so persistent to herself, and even make such a confession after only meeting for a day.

"why?"

"Ok?"

"Why... like me... We only knew each other for a day." Jiang Bai stared at Zhenqin's eyes and asked his own doubts.

And Makoto rolled her eyes and stayed for a while, as if she was thinking about her reasons. Finally, she showed an inexpressible smile.

That smile seemed to have a trace of sadness, a trace of unacknowledged loss, and a trace of hope. This was a smile Jiang Bai had never seen before, and at this moment, Jiang Bai suddenly discovered that he didn't seem to understand Hoshino Makoto...

"Why do you like it...Jiang Bai, you should understand...People who fall into the river are always looking for straws that can let them go ashore..."

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BGM: "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence" by: Ryuichi Sakamoto

"Dad! I will be on the podium of the three major film festivals in the future!"

Makoto pointed at the awards shop of the Cannes Film Festival broadcast on TV, and shouted to his father who was looking at the company affairs report in his hand at the moment.

"Ah? Oh..."

"Well... Dad, what's your reaction! Give me some support~" Father's perfunctory answer instantly extinguished the enthusiasm in Makoto's eyes, and said to him with a begging tone.

Facing his daughter's pleading, the father sighed softly, shook his head with a slight smile and said to his daughter: "Makoto, the three major film festivals are not as easy as you think, and the company can give you any role you want. But the three major film festivals ...Even if Hoshino Co., Ltd. does our best, it doesn't mean that you can go if you go."

"Ah~ Dad! I didn't ask you to spend money to help me get in! I mean get in with your own strength!"

"With strength..." His daughter's naive thoughts obviously surprised the father, he scratched his head, and asked with some distress: "Your grandma asked you?"

"No, grandma just taught me to act, and didn't ask me to do anything. I sincerely want to enter the three major film festivals with my own strength. I want to surpass grandma and be called a new generation of actress!"

Looking at his daughter's words that could even be said to be outrageous, the father could only reply to Zhenqin with a wry smile: "This, Zhenqin, this is difficult..."

"...I know, I just hope that Dad will give me some encouragement...Of course, it's fine if you don't want to..."

Under her father's anguish, Makoto's enthusiasm has been diluted to nothing. Although her father still encouraged Makoto in the end, why didn't she know that it was just coping...

The mother was a little angry about this, she pointed at her father and reprimanded: "Really, you don't even encourage your daughter's dream, you idiot! It's okay, Makoto, mom believes you can definitely go up there! As long as Makoto wants to , Mom agrees with both hands!"

Although her mother's encouragement made Zhenqin feel better, Zhenqin knew that her mother didn't understand these things. She was an excellent professional, but she didn't understand film and television... In other words, her mother had nothing for Zhenqin except encouragement. help……

Compared with the parents who can give Zhenqin encouragement, the attitudes of the brothers and sisters are more realistic.

.........

"Three major film festivals? Well... Those are basically contracted by Europe and the United States, and they are basically parallel to Dongying films... I think Makoto, you should choose a more pragmatic one, the Tokyo Film Festival? We can do this. Let's work it out..."

"No need, brother... I'll go first..."

"Eh?"

.........

"Hahahaha... Sister, you have a strong idea, but... it's difficult... basically impossible. Do you know how many films compete in the three major film festivals every year? How many countries' films compete in it? Do you know Dongying How many movies are in it? And in it... I want to win an award for an actress..."

"Sister, if you want to pour cold water on me, just say it... Anyway, my father and brother are pouring cold water on me..."

"I'm not pouring cold water on you... Sister... The era of Dongying Films is no longer the era of grandma... The era when we were able to enter the three major film festivals... has long passed..."

"..."

.........

"Well, sister, you know me...I'm not interested in this aspect...you have to ask your brother..."

"I'm just asking my brother, he doesn't agree!"

"Then why are you asking me...

"...Isn't it okay to give me some encouragement..."

"Ah...then...my sister, come on?"

"Well, I know you can't count on..."

.........

"Sister...Come on!"

"...um...thank you."

The pure and sincere encouragement from her younger sister may be the greatest comfort Makoto has received... She knows, she has always known that the three major film festivals are almost two worlds for Japanese films...

However, she was not convinced, and it was not impossible, why did everyone say it was impossible without trying?

Why is my dream not recognized by others?Even her family members are saying bad things like this...she is not convinced...not convinced, and...disappointed.

"Is this dream...is it really too unrealistic?" Makoto wondered, but she still didn't want to give up... She still had one straw...that was grandma...

"Grandma! I want to be on the stage of the three major film festivals!"

"...Ah... Yes, yes, I have an idea. But... Makoto, your current ability is just a fantasy."

"Ah? Grandma, why are you talking bad about me too!"

"Oh... Makoto... It's not that grandma doesn't believe you, but it's really difficult... If you really want to be in the three major film festivals, Makoto, then you can't stay in Dongying anymore, because Dongying's current film industry has no There is a way to help you realize this wish.”

"But if you leave Dongying and go to Europe and the United States to work hard... Then, Makoto, you have to start all over again. At that time, it will only be more difficult... In the end, it is the weakness of Dongying movies that makes Dongying movies basically nothing in the world. status……"

Seeing her grandma, who has always loved movies so much, sigh in such disappointment, Makoto comforted grandma calmly, but in her heart, she felt a deep sense of powerlessness...

Back home, Makoto seemed to be lying on the bed, and seemed to lose all motivation for a moment... The words of parents, brothers, sisters, and grandma kept echoing in my mind, and they kept impacting the dream I held on to in my heart .

Zhenqin kept telling herself, don't think, don't think about these words, but those words mercilessly hit her heart, made her suffer, made her struggle, and made her have a splitting headache...

Why... I just... want someone who can tell me... come on, you can do it... I just, want a simple confession... why...

"Ugh..."

That night, Zhenqin didn't know whether she slept or not, the words constantly echoing in her mind made her mind confused and confused, and the powerlessness, entanglement, and helplessness... made her cry... …

The last thing left is the next day, the wet pillow...

Makoto, who can't calm down in her heart, decides to have a heart-to-heart talk with her friend Shuko Fujimoto. The two were classmates in college. Now after they graduated, they haven't seen each other for a while. I heard that Shuko is engaged in underground movies recently...

When Makoto came to Fujimoto Juko's residence, she was shocked by the shabby and dilapidated hut. She pushed Shuko's half-closed door with suspicious eyes...

There are films scattered on the floor in the room at the moment, and Fujimoto Shuko squats on the ground and edits the film at the moment...

"Ah...Makoto...Sorry~It might be a bit messy...Hmmm...Just sit down~"

It is said to sit casually, but there is no place where Makoto can sit.

"That... Shuzi, you live in this place?"

"Ah, yes, after all, movies are very expensive. Housing prices in Tokyo are very expensive. The cheaper the rent, the more shots I can take... Look~ I have more than ten stacks of film now~"

Fujimoto Kiko pointed to the squatting ground, pointing at the stacked film sheets in the corner, with a child-like smile on his face.

Since the flat-panel house is not a place where people can stay at all, Fujimoto Shuko later took Makoto to a coffee shop to chat. She talked with Makoto with enthusiasm about the details of her first movie shooting. .

At the same time, she is quite proud of her various ideas to save the studio expenses. According to her own words, everything seems to be booming...

It seems that Shuzi is doing well now... Makoto thought.

Just when Makoto was about to talk to Shuzi about her dream, Shuzi glanced at the bill handed over by the waiter, touched his pocket, and suddenly changed his expression.

"Wait...wait a minute..." Shuzi took out his pockets in a panic, from his jacket pocket to his trousers pocket, and then back from his trousers pocket, inside, outside, front, back, again and again……

"I...my wallet seems to be missing...Makoto, can you find it for me..."

"Ah? That... probably didn't bring it... It's okay, I'm taking it with me." Makoto smiled and said that Shuzi didn't have to worry, but she didn't notice that Shuzi's face had become strange at the moment. Perseverance, that panic and lack of focus...

Shuzi, she dropped her wallet... and other things too...

"No...I won't forget my wallet...it must have fallen somewhere...Makoto, help me find it..."

Fujimoto Kiko got up and asked Makoto, and then fumbled back and forth for his pocket as if in a daze, while rummaging up and down for his seat.

"I...where is my wallet..." She kept muttering, although her eyes were focused on searching, but if you look carefully, you will find that her sight is not focused...

"Shuzi... If you don't find it, I'll pay for it... Maybe it's in your house..."

"No...not right...my wallet..."