i was my mistake

Even if there is snow, it is still light snow.

But even such a little snow, because of its preciousness, makes it look even more beautiful.

The small and crystal-clear snowflakes slowly fell under the gray sky, and when they landed on the window sill, they melted immediately, leaving only a little water stain, which proved that it had been here before.

Although it is noon, the sky is already like the evening when the sun is about to set.

The light in the room was turned on, and the dim yellow light was different from the bright and harsh fluorescent lights - the former always made people feel warmer.

Some wind with snowflakes leaked in from the open window, and Wan Qing even felt as if she heard the laughter of the ice and snow elves in a trance.

The dishes filled with tempting aromas were served, and they were much richer than Wan Qing's best cooking.

The most important thing is - the color, fragrance and taste.

Ye Chen bit his chopsticks and fell into the memories of the past.

The last time I cooked so many delicious dishes at home, it didn't even seem like it happened in this life.

In fact, there have always been three people in the family, but only today makes people feel extra warm.

Father opened a bottle of beer, filled his own bowl, stood in front of the table and took a big sip before picking up his chopsticks and sitting down.

"Let's eat. I don't think there are many kinds of vegetables in the refrigerator, so I just made these." Father looked at Ye Chen and Wan Qing, with a bit of tenderness in his vicissitudes of life, "During this time... you have worked hard. gone."

"Dad, what's going on with you these days? It feels like you're always out of your mind, like your soul is out of your body." Ye Chen couldn't wait to pick up a piece of sauerkraut fish fillet, the fishbone inside had been processed, There is almost no need to spit out the thorns, and even if you do, it is a relatively large thorn.

"Basically, I feel like I've been divided into many parts. I can hear many sounds and see many pictures at the same time. It's like turning on ten TVs and playing different TV series at the highest volume. Slowly, I was able to control myself not to look at other pictures, and only focus on two or three of them."

"What did you see?"

"It's too confusing, I can't figure it out at all, I only remember some impressive things." My father picked up a piece of fried egg with scallion oil, and inevitably rubbed it on the messy beard, "And I can't tell which ones are What was real and what was fake—it looked as if they were all real, and then I thought, those could be different futures."

"Then why... have you recovered?"

"Somewhere, I felt like I did something, and then all those messy pictures disappeared." My father shook his head vigorously, as if he didn't want to remember what he saw every day during this period of time, "Then it seemed like he remembered what's like-"

"Remember...you called us when you were young, right?"

"Ha... yes, thinking of this, from this moment on, everything becomes clear."

"The key is the box from 1977."

"Perhaps the more important thing is the letter inside."

Wan Qing nodded slightly, thoughtfully.

"Anyway, at that moment, I woke up and felt myself again." My father said, with a slightly melancholy expression, "But I still remember some... other things, they are the same as what I recalled. Memories, there are many different places, in my memories, I still failed to save your mother..."

"Perhaps that incident is like a signpost in the timeline, which cannot be changed." Wan Qing recalled a saying she had read on the Internet, "There are countless signposts in the timeline, it may be someone, It could be something, the presence of signposts that keeps the timeline roughly in shape, so that the whole of history doesn't change entirely."

Father took a sip of his wine, smiled and shook his head: "I don't know why this happened. For me, such a thing...is really incomprehensible."

"Maybe there are some things that you don't need to get to the bottom of it. Now that everything is back on track, let life go on." Wan Qing didn't have that much curiosity, because she knew very well that many times, because of that curiosity, it was There will be a huge price to pay.

"...One more thing, in my memory, I only gave birth to one child, a daughter, and I still named her Ye Chen, so—Wan Qing, who are you? If history has been ruled Change, you, as my child, were never born, so you wouldn't appear here at all, right?" The father frowned tightly, doubting her identity.

"I am your daughter from the future."

"You mean..." Father reacted quickly, he pointed at Ye Chen, "You are her future?"

"Correct."

Ye Chen glanced at Wan Qing, as if hesitating for something.

But Wan Qing told the complete truth very simply: "Actually, you don't have a daughter at all. In the beginning, I went back to the past and became a girl. When you called when you were young, I didn't want to explain too much. Just say I'm your daughter."

"Then Ye Chen now...?"

"He was also a boy, but because you and Mom gave birth to a daughter instead of a son, she became a girl too."

The father was dumbfounded, and then looked at the two apologetically: "I let you endure such... pain."

He clenched his fists and said 'sorry' in a smaller voice.

"All the changes in time and space were caused by me in the first place, and you, Dad, were only affected."

"Yes, Dad, I don't blame you." Ye Chen felt that Wan Qing had glared at him, coughed dryly twice, and changed the subject, "By the way, should we call our old dad? Tell him the stuff has arrived?"

"No need." My father smiled wryly, "I tried to call my former self, but I can't call back to 1977, and the phone lines are no longer available."

The timeline seems to have really regained its calm and become seamless. People in the future and the past can no longer communicate with each other.

Ye Chen put two pieces of stir-fried pork belly in a bowl, and chewed happily, making a "bajibaji" sound.

Father glanced at her, hesitant to speak.

"What's the matter, Dad?" She licked the grease stains at the corner of her mouth with her tongue, and met her father's eyes suspiciously.

"... After becoming a girl, it's hard, isn't it?"

"So what?"

"Get used to it slowly, and let you two suffer."

Wan Qing rested her cheeks and finally did not say those words in front of her father.

"Just tell me if you need anything, Dad will try his best to satisfy you."

"Dad, your buyout money is with me, take it if you want to use it."

"I'm going to start some small businesses first, what do Wan Qing think?" He looked at Wan Qing with green eyes, and asked her opinion seriously, "After all, you are from the future, so you should be clearer, right?"

"It's definitely not a problem to do business now. The most profitable thing is to do wholesale business, but if you don't have connections and capital at the beginning, you should start with a small business."

"I think, why don't you try making a midnight snack first."

"It's okay. In this day and age, you can make money by doing anything, but it just takes a lot of time."

"Make supper first, check the situation, save some money and then do other things."

"Long-distance driving is also possible. Long-distance drivers are very profitable in this era, and they can even earn more than [-] yuan a month."

"There are so many?"

"Why lie to you, as long as you have a good skill, you can definitely make money in this age. Of course, you have to start your own business, and you don't have much money to work part-time." Wan Qing glanced at Ye Chen, "Ye Chen and I should study hard now. , admitted to university, and then strive to enter the system after graduation, so that for a long time after [-], life will be very stable, and when the year of social turmoil comes, the impact will be relatively less— — just maybe not as lucrative.”

"It doesn't matter, compared with money, having power is more important."

"Yes, maybe I can help your business at that time."

There was an expectant smile on the father's face: "This era is much better than when I was young."

"Dad, you have worked in the factory for too long. If you were laid off in the early 90s, you would be a big boss now."

"Life in the factory is stable. Few people are willing to abandon their jobs and take risks." Father's eyes fell on Ye Chen, "It's time to buy some clothes that fit well, and we can't always wear these men's clothes."

"Uh..." Ye Chen wanted to refute, but finally swallowed the words back.

Wan Qing, who was supposed to be on the same front as her, now nodded gloatingly: "Well, yes, yes, girls should look like girls—"

"You have the nerve to say mine?" He couldn't bear it.

"Why, I'm older than you, do you understand respecting elders?"

"Rely on the old and sell the old... If you are capable, you can be a role model?"

"There is nothing you dare not be a role model. Tomorrow I will show you what femininity is!"

"...What kind of femininity can an uncle have?"

Wan Qing began to blink her eyes quickly, and pinched her orchid fingers pretending to be shy: "Oh, why do you say that about him~"

"You are not feminine, you are the lady of Yinchun Building, okay..."

"Forget it, I'm too lazy to pretend, femininity is so troublesome."

"Haha...it's okay, just do what you feel comfortable with, as long as you don't be too careless." Father saw that the two of them didn't seem to be decadent because of becoming women, and the pressure in his heart eased a lot, "To be honest, The two sons feel noisy, but seeing the two daughters, they really feel lively and warm."

"Father, you have been discriminating against your son—"

"It must be because my daughter looks good. The main reason is that we look beautiful now."

"Although it's true, can you stop being so narcissistic..."

"Haha——" my father raised his head and laughed, tears streaming down his face, "It's so good... It would be even better if everyone was here..."

"Ah...uh... Dad! By the way, did you fall into the water to save a little girl?" Ye Chen hurriedly changed the subject.

"Yes."

"Then, do you remember who saved you?"

"I can't remember. In my memory, when I regained consciousness on the shore, that person had already left. He suddenly appeared and then disappeared suddenly, just like a person sent by heaven to save me. .”

Ye Chen suddenly remembered the dream he had some time ago, and fell into deep thought.

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3. A family of three

Tuesday, April 1996, 12.

On the 22nd, there was not much snow falling, and there was no trace of snow falling that night.

But I didn't expect that on the 24th, there was a heavy snowfall in City H.

The school was worried that today's snow would make it difficult for students to go home, so after the first class in the afternoon, they urgently notified school to let everyone go home quickly.

Due to the poor cold protection measures in all aspects in the south, once it starts to snow, it will make people feel bone-chillingly cold.

In fact, I was going to buy clothes yesterday, but because the two of them were called by the teacher to help last night, it was already late when they came back, so they had to give up.

This extra time is just used to buy some winter clothes.

——If you don’t buy it, you will really freeze to death.

The windows in the corridor were not closed, and the cold wind wrapped in snowflakes passed through, causing Ye Chen and Wan Qing to shiver.

The short Wan Qing shivered and sneezed three times, and it took her a long time to put the key into the lock.

As soon as the door was opened, I heard a song from the former Soviet Union coming from the rough speakers. My father was standing in the clean-up living room, with one hand clutching his forehead, the other raised high, and one foot Gently stand on tiptoe, as if about to start his dance music.

"Deng dong, dong dong... Chacha..." He was immersed in his own world, when he looked up, he saw his two daughters staring at him blankly, as if they thought he was stupid again.

"Ahem, cough, haha——" He turned off the tape machine with a 'click', cleared his throat, and smiled unexpectedly on his rough face, "Why did you come back so early today?"

"It's snowing too much outside, and school ends early." Wan Qing lazily put down her schoolbag, "I'm going to buy some winter clothes—Ye Chen also needs some clothes that fit."

"It's closer to Yinqi Road, why don't you go to Sijiqing, the price is also cheap." My father emptied the cigarette case, picked up the last cigarette and put it in his mouth, "I just want to see it too. Buy something."

"What does Dad want to buy?" Ye Chen touched the snowflakes on his hair with his hands - he always thought it was when he had a crew cut, so he always messed up his beautiful long hair like now.

"If you're going to have a late-night snack, it's not realistic to set up a storefront at the beginning. It must be a stall. Most likely you need to buy a tricycle." Wan Qing quickly analyzed.

"Tricycles are not cheap, and regular ones have to be licensed. What I want to do now is to sell late-night snacks downstairs in the apartment, and just move things down. There also happens to be an elevator."

"Then what should we do when the city management comes?" Wan Qing asked the question Ye Chen wanted to ask.

"So I'm also thinking about whether to spend more money to buy a tricycle, or just make do with it and try to make money."

"For a tricycle, at least run faster." Wan Qing pursed her lips, "But that's not necessarily the case. If there are people coming from both sides, it will be difficult to run."

"Is it okay in the alley?" Ye Chen was trying to stroke the long hair that he messed up just now.

"There's no business in the alley." Wan Qing rolled his eyes at him, "It's not that simple."

"Or go to a place farther away? For example, although there is no night market, there are still places where people need supper?"

"Then you need a tricycle even more..."

Seeing that Wan Qing had finished what he wanted to say, his father could not help coughing twice, "Anyway, we still have to take things one step at a time. Well, if we want to go out, let's go out early."

"Yeah, the snow looks like it won't stop. Shouldn't classes be suspended tomorrow?" Ye Chen's expression at this time was anticipation and worry, and he seemed extremely entangled.

What they expect is that if they have a holiday, they can sleep in at home, but if they stay at home, they will miss one day of class, which is not a good thing for their senior three studies.

"Then just go out like this? You don't have anything to take."

After hearing this, Ye Chen lowered her head and straightened her clothes subconsciously. Compared with the carefree Wan Qing, she usually pays much more attention to her personal image—although she still messes up her hair or clothes unconsciously occasionally, but after she reacts, she will Quickly rearrange it.

Life has changed dramatically since I became a girl two days ago.

All the classmates seem to have lost their previous memories. In their cognition, Ye Chen has always been a girl.