i was my mistake

Wan Qing slapped her thigh and sat up abruptly: "No, no!"

"Why is it wrong?" Ye Chen sat up with a dazed face, and the light from the billboard of a high-rise building in the distance was as bright as moonlight, illuminating half of the two of them.

"If you want a house, shouldn't you just stay there without moving out?"

"But the house has been allocated to others, isn't it very troublesome if others come to make trouble? You can't get angry at others, and those who are allocated the house are innocent."

"What does that have to do with us? Just ask that guy to change their house! Those guys will make trouble by themselves, and we will continue to guard the house. Why is it so troublesome!"

"...It seems...although it's a bit immoral, but is it true?"

"What's moral and immoral, can that kind of thing be eaten?" Wan Qing asked unceremoniously, and then hammered her thigh with some regret, "Damn...fuck, why did I say that at that time?" I didn't expect..."

"You, don't hurt yourself..."

"What self-harm?"

"it's okay no problem……"

"Oh, the novels are full of lies." Wan Qing lay down again as if she had resigned herself to her fate, "Whatever travels back from the future to the past, a wimp can become meticulous and considerate of everything. Experience from the future, crushing everyone in the past in terms of IQ... pure fucking nonsense!"

Ye Chen also lay down again: "Wan Qing, I feel like I don't say dirty words, do I?"

"I learned it later. There are too many people at the bottom of society. Can you stop swearing?"

"Then it's a girl now, can't...can't...that what——is it a lady?"

"Lady's fart." Wan Qing rolled her eyes, "I'm just using this status to do something convenient. Do you really think that I like to be a shitty woman?"

"Ahh..." He scratched his head vigorously, "But now that it's so real, all my dreams about beautiful girls are shattered—"

"That's good. You have to know that some beautiful girls may be ruder than me in private. Besides, no matter how beautiful a girl is, don't she still have to shit?"

"...Can you, can you be more gentle?"

"Oh, go to the bathroom."

"...let's go to sleep."

……

5. Twilight

(One)

In the early morning of late summer and early autumn, the east is just turning pale, there are not many high-rise buildings, and the city, which is both old and new, is extraordinarily quiet.

Those who stayed up all night should have gone to sleep, but those who slept last night have not yet woken up.

Although it was on the eighth floor, the sound of the cleaner's wide bamboo broom sweeping the road was very clear.

"Shhh..."

"Shhh..."

The cool wind blows gently and leisurely, blowing a few strands of black hair of Wan Qing.

She narrowed her eyes, wiped back the hair that was scratching her cheeks, and then looked at the pale sky outside the window with some fatigue.

Did not sleep well last night.

Because I thought too much.

And more of a worry.

Worrying about whether I can do well, worrying about whether I can change the future...

There are so many things to worry about.

Many things are too heavy.

For the first time, she felt that knowing too much was not a good thing.

Especially when you know it clearly, but you may not be able to change it.

The powerlessness even made her palpitate.

——It’s that feeling of powerlessness that feels like your heart is aching, but you can’t scratch it no matter what.

It wasn't until three or four in the morning that I barely fell asleep.

At dawn, he woke up again.

"Huh..." She tried her best to open her eyes wide, sat up weakly, put her hands on the bed, and looked up at the world outside the window.

Even if a building is separated by a long distance, it can still be seen at a glance. It is only because most of the buildings at this time are too low-generally four or five floors, which makes it almost impossible for those buildings with more than eight floors to be seen. become landmarks in their respective regions.

Wan Qing glanced at the floor, casually put on slippers that were a little too big for her feet, walked a few steps forward in a 'pat-pat-pat-pat', opened the screen window, and lay down beside the window.

Even if it's just the eighth floor, in this day and age, it has an extremely broad view. She lowered her head, letting the wind blow her hair and caress her cheeks.

It seems that it has been a long time since I woke up at the dawn of the sky.

Since when did I want to sleep when I got home, and I didn’t even want to play on my mobile phone—every day when the alarm clock rings, it’s good to be able to sleep for a minute.

Probably because only these times really belong to me?

When I was young, I always longed to grow up, but when I grew up, I always missed the carefree student days.

But even if she never did it once, it would be difficult for Wan Qing to return to that carefree state.

Even if you can sleep late, you will still be awakened by inexplicable throbbing in the drowsiness like this.

In the past, I was worried that I would be dismissed by the company for sick leave, worried that I would be completely eliminated in a few years, and worried that I would be homeless and have nowhere to go.

And now?

In fact, there are many more things to worry about than ever.

There are no tall buildings, so not too much sky is blocked.

In the early morning of autumn, the clouds are so thin that they seem to be dyed blue, covering the sky like a veil.

A waning moon has not yet set, but even if it is just the rising sun, it completely obscures its light.

"Hey?"

"Why?" Wan Qing didn't turn her head.

Those old houses on the street will be demolished in the near future, but for people at this moment, that future is still very far away.

Wan Qing, who came back from the future to the present, also has some nostalgia for those old houses-although they are not so old in this era.

In fact, it's the opposite, more like a young man, exuding vigorous vitality.

But time is the most ruthless, and a lot can be changed in just ten years.

The snow-white walls will peel off, and weeds will gradually grow in the residential areas that are often taken care of. The clean and tidy roads will also become dirty due to the increase in residents. There will be cars parked everywhere. Won't drive it once...

The people's life has changed from poverty to prosperity, but people's life seems to have turned from fullness to emptiness instead.

It is said that the wheels of the times are rolling forward, but some things have turned a corner and returned to the original point.

"Why do you wake up so early?" Ye Chen yawned sleepily, and just sat up, then lay back down again.

The soft mattress made his body bounce twice.

"There's no time to waste."

"Then you have to get enough energy to do things..." He said, yawned even bigger, then turned over, rolled up the quilt that covered Wan Qing last night, wrapped himself It looks like a big sushi, "It's not yet six o'clock..."

"The morning is the time to study, get up."

"No..." Ye Chen's voice gradually softened, "Let me... sleep for a while..."

"stand up."

When Wan Qing walked in front of him, he had already fallen into a deep sleep. Although he had an ordinary face, he slept very peacefully, and she couldn't bear to disturb him.

"When you grow up, no one will force you, but you have to force yourself to do a lot of things, to escape like this... just let me pamper you once in a while."

Ye Chen didn't answer, it seemed that he was really asleep.

The quality of sleep is really enviable.

"Heartless age." Wan Qing sighed, smoothed her messy long hair, opened the door and walked out.

A black-and-white circular screen with no signal was displayed on the TV, and a small tune from opera was played in a loop.

The father was lying on his side on the sofa, and the hand holding the remote control was placed on the ups and downs of his stomach, while the other hand was hanging on the edge of the sofa, his fingertips almost touching the floor covered with soot.

On the coffee table of the sofa, a porcelain bowl was used as his ashtray, and cigarette butts were screwed out in a distorted shape.

She shook her head slightly, and pressed the button on the TV hard. After the 'click', everything returned to calm.

The father turned over and turned his unshaven face towards the back of the sofa, against the rising sun in the morning, leaving a somewhat bleak figure from his back.

……

(two)

Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, Wan Qing gently wiped off the moisture on it, revealing a face of a pure girl.

Instead of the old man's face that he is used to and has to shave every morning.

There were many bruises on that face that couldn't be shaved cleanly, and the place where the beard didn't grow was also very rough, with pits everywhere, like the surface of the moon.

There are vicissitudes of life hidden in the small eyes, and the hair like a chicken coop always seems so greasy.

The heavy dark circles are always there, but the decadence and haze are getting worse day by day.

No one can afford a life where you're always running down the road of failure.

The harder you try, the more you fail.

This feeling is sometimes more painful than not trying hard.

So much so that every time I see myself in the mirror, it adds a bit of realistic frustration.

But now, in the mirror is a pretty girl with a pair of beautiful red phoenix eyes, and there are two unique tear moles lined up under the right eye.

Becoming a beautiful girl, if you say you are not used to it, there must be a lot.

But to say disgust...

That may not be much.

The world of adults is not that simple. Sometimes a gender change is not important, but the benefits and value it brings.

And obviously, this pretty face can bring him enough convenience.

As for the trouble - I haven't seen it yet.

At most, it's just a period. Anyway, there are sanitary napkins, so what's the matter.

Wan Qing thought lightly, with a relaxed face.

She tilted her head habitually, leaned under the faucet to catch the water with her mouth, and only after she was full did she realize that she seemed to have a cup with teeth.

Although I have used it several times, I always forget it.

The main reason is that I almost didn’t use tooth cups in the past. I used to collect water like this and then use a toothbrush to paint my teeth twice indiscriminately.

In that busy life without self, brushing teeth has also become a very coping thing.

——Probably only during the time when I went to the dentist, I will be a little more serious.

It was probably because this face was so delicate that even Wan Qing, who was always done with just a couple of smudges, would carefully wipe her cheeks with a towel several times in front of the mirror.

No makeup is needed, just a simple cleansing is enough to show her beauty.

Crystal clear skin, collagen filled cheeks.

"Oh, it's nice to be young." Wan Qing sighed sincerely.

Living again with a young body even made her feel much more energetic than she remembered.

Sometimes it is really difficult to overcome the aging of the body and those hormonal changes by relying on will alone.

"Dong dong." There was a knock on the door.

"Who?"

"Me!" Ye Chen spoke quickly, "Are you ready? I think, I want to go to the toilet—!"