i was my mistake

"Yeah, even if you know the meaning of everything, then what?"

"And... I don't know either."

"Then, I thought, it's better to love your own life, right?"

Wan Qing didn't expect that there would be a day when she would be educated by someone who was far less spiritual than her.

It's like a mountain at first glance, but it's not a mountain when you look at it again. When you look at it again, it still feels like a mountain. After thinking so much, pondering so much, and thinking so much, in the end, has everything returned to the original point?

When you understand all this, even the meaning of going through this intermediate change is no longer important.

……

119. Lantern Exhibition

In the center of the square, there are folk homemade lanterns one after another. The big ones are as tall as a person, and the small ones may only be the size of a palm.

Some are placed directly on the ground, while others are placed on tables, chairs or shelves, for people to appreciate casually.

This is a labyrinth made up of lanterns, but unexpectedly it is not very lively. Only a few children in twos and threes wanted to challenge their courage at night, so they took their little friends to explore together.

The lanterns are not very bright, and some lanterns in the shape of facial makeup are even a little scary at first glance.

Coupled with the dim night, the children who are not tall are groping forward here, it really feels like walking in a maze.

Ye Chen took Wan Qing's arm and put almost half of his weight on it.

"What are you doing?"

"Why... Cough, can't you show the girl's tenderness?"

"...What kind of little bird depends on people." Wan Qing rolled her big eyes, "You are so much taller than me and you are on top of me, I won't be tired."

"Tsk... Otherwise, why would you feel like a couple visiting a lantern show?"

"You are really persistent..."

"Otherwise, if you don't look like a gentle and lovely girl at all, why should I play the role of a girl?"

"Just play yourself, okay?"

"……Oh."

Wan Qing looked at Ye Chen with her mouth curled up, and laughed dumbfoundedly. She took the initiative to hold her arm, and then put her hand into her pocket: "Huh, your pocket is quite warm."

"Your hands are really cold..."

"Hey, I said, this game is too naive and boring, how about we change it to a game where I play being your mother?"

"...Could it be that Wan Qing, you actually treat Dad...?"

"Stop, stop, stop, where did you go? Daddy belongs to daddy, and it doesn't matter if I play your mother."

"Why don't you die." Ye Chen subconsciously blurted out, and then both of them froze.

This is a joke that only the parties involved are qualified to laugh at.

"cough……"

So both of them couldn't help showing subtle smiles.

"To be honest, can you be normal and pretend that nothing happened? I'm afraid of you." Wan Qing said slightly teasingly.

"No, can the splashed water be recovered?"

"Okay." She spread her hands, "Sometimes the more I want to play a relationship, the more I can't get into it."

"What do you mean?"

"That is to say, if you are too persistent, you will not be able to force it."

"...Then do you want to kiss the beautiful girl?"

"Think!" Wan Qing didn't hesitate.

"...Look, this is the advantage of being a couple, otherwise why would you want to kiss!"

"Can we only have in-depth physical communication without in-depth emotional communication?" Wan Qing's eyes fell on a pagoda-shaped lantern, and she coughed a little embarrassedly.

"...What kind of scum are you talking about?"

"It's not a scumbag, it's an adult."

"...adults are pathetic."

"Yeah, it's really sad." Wan Qing echoed pretending to be sad.

Ye Chen pursed his lips and stared at Wan Qing, took a deep breath, and took the initiative to let go of her arm: "Okay, okay, really, let's be normal."

"Oh, then you don't have to stand so far away, do you? Isn't it too distant all of a sudden?"

"You are so troublesome..." Ye Chen turned his head away, "Just go on your own, I will follow behind, I want to enjoy the lantern for a while."

"Is there really anything to admire?"

"Why not, don't you think it's beautiful?"

"I'll get tired of watching it twice."

"But this atmosphere is very romantic..."

"What's the point of being romantic?"

"The world of adults is so sad." Ye Chen drooped his eyelids, "I'm always chasing 'meaning'."

"Yes." Wan Qing put her hands in her pockets, "I can't help but think about it."

"Does it make sense to make people happy?"

"Forget it."

Ye Chen decided to ignore Wan Qing, she carefully looked at the lanterns around her one after another, thinking about the lines and traces on them, wondering which ones were machine-made and which ones were hand-sewn.

"Wow!" A little boy rushed out from the corner to scare his companions, but Ye Chen was almost scared.

She shivered a bit, clutching her chest and subconsciously hid in the gap between the lanterns.

"Ah!" Another little boy dragged out his voice, "Monster!"

"Wow, I'm going to eat you—"

"Help me—"

In the eyes of adults, this is a game that is too childish to be childish, but children can play it happily.

In the process of growing up, people find too much meaning, and always think that everything must be meaningful, so they lose those simple innocence and simple happiness.

"Huh?" Ye Chen was suddenly attracted by the small table in the gap. It turned out to be a very ordinary school desk. It was used to place a small lotus flower table. Word.

The years have dyed it pitch black, but in the dim colored lights of the lanterns, they clearly appear one by one.

It's nothing more than "xx came here for a visit", or who likes who. It's very childish, but it's something a child can do.

Squat down and find a test paper in the drawer.

The test paper has been placed for a long time, and the paper is yellow and brittle, with the words "1990 Senior High School Entrance Exam Simulation Test Paper" written on it. The column where the name is filled in has been blurred. At most, it can be seen from the previous class. This seems to be a student of a steelworks junior high school.

The test papers in the early 90s are already in [-], and a decade has come to an end. I don’t know what the boy who wrote this paper is doing now?

Ye Chen opened the test paper out of curiosity, the answers in it were corrected, and there were quite a lot of mistakes, but for some reason, the corrected score was not left in the end, making people feel that the score column is empty, It seems that something is missing.

She stuffed the paper back into the belly of the table, and the moment she stood up, she felt that she was enveloped by colorful lanterns, and she couldn't even find a way to leave for a while.

Until she saw the evening sun leaning against the pillar, waiting leisurely for her.

The pair of emerald green eyes seemed to be glowing, emitting faint fluorescence.

When Ye Chen approached, he saw Wan Qing lazily waiting like an uncle, and when she saw her walk in, he casually said a slightly hoarse sentence: "Oh, here you are, I thought you were lost Woolen cloth."

At this moment, he was just a cigarette short of being a real old man.

Some deep-rooted temperaments are not so easy to change.

"...Phew, it would be great if you traveled back in your original form."

"Huh? That's a fat, rough-skinned uncle with an ugly voice. How can there be a beautiful girl?"

"At least it matches the temperament you show."

"Oh? Really? Hmm...? I feel like I'm already restrained."

"No matter what, the uncle's temperament can't be hidden."

"Really, but you acted pretty well, and you are becoming more and more like a real girl."

"...Cough!!" Ye Chen's face flushed red, "Don't say such things... I don't know whether I should be sad or happy."

"Why are emotions so complicated?"

"Just... how to put it, male self-esteem will still be a little bit resistant..."

"Little brat doesn't have any real masculine self-esteem. It's good to be young and have high plasticity." Wan Qing patted Ye Chen's shoulder vigorously, "I suddenly want to smoke."

"...What are you doing, you finally quit, and you still want to smoke?"

"Actually, I haven't quit. It's just that this body is a baby. I haven't smoked before. It's a bit uncomfortable to smoke."

"Then you still smoke?"

"Sometimes, there are always some... spiritual needs."

"What's the point of smoking?" Wan Qing was stunned by Ye Chen's words.

"Uh...it doesn't make any sense, it's probably just to make myself more comfortable."

"Obviously smoking now, I don't feel well physically, but I feel better mentally... Then you might as well buy a lollipop and hold it in your mouth."

"That's okay? I just don't know if it smells like tobacco..."

Children would walk around inside for a long time, like a maze-like lantern show, and the two of them walked out after just strolling around for a while. In comparison, the dazzling array of goods on the stall outside was more attractive.

"I'm hungry." Wan Qing rubbed her stomach, "Go to Dad's to grab some food."

"Speaking of which, Jinyu doesn't seem to be here, is it not sold out yet?"

"Maybe they are already looking for us?"

At this moment, a pair of cold little hands suddenly covered Ye Chen's eyes, which made her tremble all over, and then realized who was playing a prank.

"Jiyu?!"

"That's right~!" Zhao Jinyu jumped out from behind Ye Chen, and the three walked together, Ye Chen was the tallest, but her aura was the weakest.

"Is it all sold out so soon?"

"Well! The less you have left, the faster it seems to sell."

"Just sell them all." Wan Qing stretched her waist, "I've made a lot of money now."

"Here, this is income." Zhao Jinyu handed the neatly folded bills to Wan Qing, who stuffed them into his pocket without counting them.

"School will start soon, do you want to buy some stationery?"

"Oh...yes, you need to prepare more fountain pens and other things, as they will consume a lot." Wan Qing nodded lightly, "Let's talk about shopping in the supermarket tomorrow, did you take a good look at the lanterns today? "

"I watched it for a while."

"Then let's go to other stalls?"

"Okay! It feels like a temple fair here."

"Have you been to a temple fair today?"

"I've been there. I spent the Spring Festival in City B a few years ago. The atmosphere of the temple fair was the strongest there. But at that time, all the items sold were traditional items, which seemed quite outdated."

"The past few years have been changing with each passing day, and the changes in development are getting bigger and bigger." Wan Qing took a deep breath, "New things are coming, and old things will eventually pass away."

Ye Chen took a few breaths while holding her small face, and glanced at Wan Qing, she seemed to want to say something, but finally said nothing.

……

120. Winter to Spring