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Just like the future that Wan Qing knew, Fentou Village, Fentou Village, finally became a large graveyard where many people were buried.

"Oh." Dad sighed.

"It's a pity for your family. Although Caihua is a woman, she is the only one left in her family, and her household registration is here. She could have been allocated a room. Now that she is gone, there is nothing left."

"It's nothing, even if we share it, you won't come back to live."

"Well, it's hard to say, it's good to be in the city, but it's hard to stay. If you have a place to live in the country, there's always a way out..."

Father smiled awkwardly: "If it doesn't work, I can go back to my hometown."

"Oh, yes, I forgot that there is land in your hometown."

"Sister-in-law, let's go up first, and we have to go to Caihua's grave."

"Okay, okay, let's go, it's rare to come here today, will you leave later?"

"Look...maybe take the evening train."

"If you don't mind, you can stay at my house for one night. There are still vacant rooms."

"Okay, let's wait and see." Father didn't agree immediately, but just smiled and evaded, "By the way, lend me your hoe and hatchet."

"I'll get it for you."

"Thank you."

"What are you being polite about?"

The father waited until his sister-in-law brought the tools, thanked him again, and then continued to walk up with the daughters.

Fendou Village was built on the hillside, all the way up, and finally came to the top of this short mountain.

To be precise, it is a flat land less than the top of the mountain.

Next to it is a dense bamboo forest.

The tomb is just behind the bamboo forest, where there is plenty of light, and it is just separated from the village road, so that it will not be connected with other people's houses.

The last time I came, the tomb was still bare.

When I came back today, weeds were overgrown beside the tomb, wild flowers were blooming in the green grass, and a few bamboos had also grown here.

The tombstone was covered with dust and had obviously been neglected for some time, and beside the tombstone was a marble slab with a dirty incense altar on it.

It seems that someone has come to mourn He Caihua before.

The father, who had been prepared for a long time, turned the soil with a hoe, pulled out the weeds next to him and threw them aside.

But he cared for those wild flowers carefully, not uprooting them like weeds.

The bamboo that grew to the edge of the tomb was also cut off by him with a hatchet. In just half a year, the new bamboo had grown very strong. It took a lot of effort to cut it down and move it to another place.

The father who finished all these tasks was already sweating profusely.

And Wan Qing and Ye Chen also wiped the tombstone clean with borrowed rags. After all, only half a year has passed, and the tombstone hasn't aged much. After it's free of dust, it looks like a new one.

"The last time I came here, it was raining heavily..."

"That's right, it doesn't rain any more this Tomb-sweeping Day." Wan Qing squinted her eyes and looked up at the bright sunshine, "It's really a warm spring."

"Maybe it will be hot in summer?"

"Then leave it to us in Xia Tian to bear it." Wan Qing shrugged indifferently.

Father has been a little silent, did not join the topic.

He took out the candles and incense sticks he bought in advance from his backpack, first arranged the candles, then lit the incense sticks, and gave two to his two daughters.

Then just bend down and worship.

Father's time seemed to be frozen. He stood motionless in the wind. He didn't insert it into the incense altar until the incense sticks were half burned.

Then, he took out a large bag, which was filled with folded silver ingots and yellow paper.

In traditional customs, something always seems to be burned to commemorate the dead.

As for whether it will cause forest fires or the like, it is something no one considers in this era.

Wan Qing and Ye Chen squatted aside, throwing paper money into a small fire.

Father played it very slowly, he played it one by one, as if the yellow paper was full of words, it was a letter sent to heaven.

The ashes of the burnt paper swirled and rose slowly, slowly turning around them in the breeze, as if some invisible spirit really responded to them.

Ashes were flying everywhere, many of them flying into the sky.

"Is there really a heaven in this world?" Ye Chen suddenly wanted to believe in Christianity.

However, what responded to her was Wan Qing's sneer: "Hey, if there is a heaven in this world, it would be full. For thousands of years, so many people will not die in heaven... unless the heaven People stuffed them in cans and kept them."

"...Can't you acquiesce that heaven is infinite?" Ye Chen sighed helplessly, "You're ruining the atmosphere too much."

"It's just boring expectations."

"People always have to have a little fantasy..."

"Then you might as well believe that the Space-Time Administration exists."

"Uh... Maybe it really exists..."

"Then why haven't you come up? We have changed enough history."

"Maybe what we changed is the real original history?" Ye Chen's eyes suddenly lit up.

Wan Qing rolled her eyes and didn't answer.

The paper money brought is a lot, but it will always be burned out.

The father squatted in front of the mother's grave, but he didn't mean to leave.

He was in a daze, not knowing what to think of.

—Maybe it’s every moment with her.

When we are in love, when we quarrel, when we are sweet, when we are suffering...

Wan Qing stood up and dragged Ye Chen up by the way.

"what?"

"Let daddy be alone for a while." Wan Qing whispered, "he spent the longest time with mom, and he has a deeper affection for her than us."

"Oh……"

"Let's go, leave some space for him." Wan Qing dragged Ye Chen for a few steps, then let go, and walked through the bamboo forest on her own.

There is also a family behind the bamboo grove. A few chickens are raised in front of the door, and they are pacing leisurely looking for earthworms and insects in the mud.

"Hello, Ye Chen."

"Ok?"

"Would you like to spend the night in the country?"

"Why?" Ye Chen asked suspiciously, "Where do you live? Auntie?"

Aunt is the 'sister-in-law' that my father just said.

"I can't live with her."

"Where do you live? Do you want to go to a hotel in the town?"

"The cabin in the forest, do you want to try it?"

"what is that?"

"I don't know if it's been abandoned now..." Wan Qing muttered softly, looking towards the distant hill.

A little further on, near the township, there is a mountain called 'Giant Wood', and near the top of the mountain there is a forest pasture, where some cattle, sheep, and some small poultry are raised.

It was open to the outside world, but not many people lived there, so it was abandoned later.

When Wan Qing left, it had been nearly ten years, and she had nothing to do after returning to her grandmother's house. She walked all the way from the top of the mountain here to the other side, and only then did she discover such a thing when she reached the top of the other side of the mountain. a place.

Only fragments of the past can be seen in the billboards and logos that remain.

She stayed there that night.

Although it is summer, it is still a little cold at night.

Later, I thought about going there again, preferably with another person who will live a lifetime in the future, to experience the feeling of living in a deserted ranch.

But many plans in this world cannot be realized.

After that, I never went there again.

"Where can I live?"

"Just go to Jumu Mountain."

"Uh...then ask Dad's opinion?"

"Don't worry, as long as you want to live, I can persuade him."

"So confident."

"Oh, I'll be fine tomorrow anyway, I'll go back by the noon train tomorrow."

"It's rare to come here...I want to try it overnight too..." Ye Chen was also looking forward to it.

……

44. Giant Wood Mountain Ranch

Jumu Mountain sounds like a mountain with a story.

In fact, it is just an ordinary mountain top.

As for why it is called Jumu, even the locals don’t know.

In short, the ancestors have called it that way for generations, so the name has been passed down fixedly.

The three of them did not go down the mountain at this moment, but walked all the way to a higher mountain.

Although the mountains here are not too high, they are all connected together, with ups and downs, like waves.

Father said a lot to the tombstone alone, and when he set off again, it was already two o'clock in the afternoon.

The spring light is still bright, shining into the mountains and forests, passing through the gaps in the leaves, and reflecting various patterns of light on the ground.

His mood seemed to have improved a lot, and he was talking and laughing with his two daughters like when he came here.

"Wow!"

"Haha, Ye Chen, be careful, you almost tripped over a dead tree branch."

"This mountain road is difficult to walk..."

"Yeah, after all, fewer and fewer people take this road."

Wan Qing tilted her head, and suddenly asked, "Has dad ever been to the pasture on Jumu Mountain?"

"I've been there. That ranch was newly built in the early 90s. The person who runs the ranch is also considered a relative of your mother. It seems that her cousin's wife's father opened it."

"What is that? It's a long-distance relationship."

"Haha, it's not too far away. You should call me Grandpa when you meet."

"Grandpa?" This word is a bit unfamiliar to both Wan Qing and Ye Chen.

Because in their memory, they haven't called this title a few times. Grandpa and grandma passed away very early.

"Yes, although the relationship is a bit far away, I still want to call him Grandpa."

"Then can we stay overnight for free?" Wan Qing was concerned about another matter.

"My brother settles the accounts clearly, so he should charge a little. After all, he is also open for business there, and everyone lives and eats for free, so the business can't be done."

"How much is that?"

"It shouldn't be expensive anyway."

In fact, there should not be many people going to the ranch at ordinary times, otherwise it would not be abandoned later.