As a painter, how should I face the original heroine

How many people are tortured to death by disease?People have long seen the strangeness, and at most they will only feel sorry for it, but the brotherhood shown by giving up selfishness is much more precious.

And often most of the time, giving up selfishness means giving up the right to life, which is the difference between Natsuki Subaru as the protagonist and others.

In Li Wei's view, he is too selfless and self-sacrificing.Everyone has a common view that the so-called main plot is jealousy of IF, but Li Wei believes that the main plot is more like the road of self-sacrifice of a paladin.

The completely self-centered selfishness required by "jealousy" is almost nonexistent, and it can even be said to be the opposite.

"Is that why you say that selfishness is the most basic human right? It's a strange and unique point of view, but your stories are all based on the premise of giving up selfishness."

Betty didn't hate the idea, but she thought it would be too pathetic if all she did was for herself.

"A thing can only reflect its value after it is lost, isn't it?"

Li Wei got up and pulled out a collection of books from the bookshelf again, and began to read carefully again. Anyway, the trial at Roswaal's mansion was just an appetizer, and he had a lot of opportunities to "correct" Natsuki Subaru's character.

"Hmph, freak."

……

"Subaru-kun, this is left for you by my sister. When you had breakfast just now, you seemed to have a bad appetite."

Rem handed a glass of milk to Nayuki Subaru. She felt that the other party seemed a little different today. Apart from the strange smell on his body, there was also an illusion that he was deliberately alienating her.

"Oh, sorry, Rem, I really didn't sleep well last night."

Nayuki Subaru took the milk with a haha ​​and drank it in one gulp, and gave the other party a thumbs up to show that he was fine.

"Although Subaru-kun has become Rem's colleague, he is still a guest of Lord Roswaal. If you have any problems, I will have a headache."

The blue-haired maid stared at this reluctant man expressionlessly, and said very seriously.

"Well, I'll pay attention."

Natsuki Subaru showed his iconic smirk, but the severe stomach cramps made it difficult for him to hold back his current expression. Every time he saw Rem's eyes, he would recall the experience of being tortured to death by her even though he sacrificed his life to save him.

——It’s disgusting, uncomfortable, and nauseating.

"Wow..."

Natsuki Subaru, who found a reason to hide in the bathroom of the guest room, finally couldn't help but vomited it out in the washbasin.

A mixture of milk and stomach acid gushed out of the already empty stomach, but even such a violent vomiting did not disappear, and the process could only be repeated by swallowing the water from the tap.

"It's so gross..."

Looking at himself in the mirror with a pale face, Natsuki Subaru smiled wryly, and said that no matter how many times he would save Rem, it was only the second round and he couldn't take it anymore?

No, it just doesn't make sense to keep doing that.

"I found you Subaru-kun, please wait a moment."

At the dining table, I noticed that the strange silver-haired girl stopped Subaru Natsuki who had just come out of the guest room, and looked at him quietly with eyes full of worry and pity.

"Yo, it's Emilia Tan, what do you want me for?"

Natsuki Subaru did not show his previous enthusiasm, not because he lost his thoughts on Emilia, but because he realized that his current position is nothing more than a clown.

Abandoning the past pretending to be deliberately funny, he calmly looked at the kind-hearted girl in front of him, and fell into speechlessness for a while.

"I don't really have any requirements for Subaru-kun. I always keep your help in mind. In fact, you don't need to be so... harsh on yourself."

Emilia carefully considered her words, for fear of hurting the other party's self-esteem somewhere, but even so, Natsuki Subaru's eyes dimmed at a speed visible to the naked eye.

"In other words, does Emilia Carbon actually have no expectations of me?"

"It's not like this! You...you come with me, be obedient."

The silver-haired girl stomped her feet anxiously at the self-defeating remarks, and pulled Natsuki Subaru back to the guest room without saying a word.

"Okay, you sit down here."

Emilia pointed to the neatly swept carpet, and said with her clear voice like a silver bell.

"If you want to sit, you can use a bed or a chair, right? Why do you have to sit on the floor?"

Natsuki Subaru looked at the ground along the girl's finger in doubt, not knowing what the other party was going to do.

"Don't talk nonsense, just sit down!"

"Okay, very happy!"

Under Emilia's strong order, Natsuki Subaru instinctively threw himself to the ground and sat up straight.

"This is a special case, only this time."

"Uh?"

Before Natsuki Subaru could ask, the girl supported his head and placed it on her lap where she was kneeling.

"Is this...a knee pillow?"

"I'm very shy, don't say it! And don't look at me, close your eyes!"

Emilia pressed Natsuki Subaru's side face with her fingers, preventing him from looking back at her.

"Although the shy Emilia is also great, what's the situation? When did I make great achievements that can be rewarded?"

If it's just because of pity, Natsuki Subaru thinks it's unnecessary. Although he really likes Emilia, he still wants to get her favor after making some contributions.

"Let's let go of this weird bragging right now. Subaru-kun, you said that if you get tired, I'll give you a knee pillow, so let's take a good rest now."

The silver-haired girl smiled lovingly, gently stroked Natsuki Subaru's hair with her palm, and comforted her as if coaxing a child.

"Emilia, you...really, being treated so tenderly, I fell in love with you."

"Well, go to sleep...

Chapter 196 The turning point of the conjurer attack

The warm wind in the afternoon blew from the open window, and while the white curtains were blowing, there was also a faint smell of green grass in the courtyard. The girl tied her long silver hair that was brushed like streamers behind her ears, and watched quietly. Looking at the boy's childlike sleeping face, he couldn't help showing a loving smile.

Dengdengdeng-

"Please come in."

"Good afternoon, Emilia, it turns out that Subaru-kun is enjoying a knee pillow here, it's so nice."

Li Wei poked his head in from the door, looked at Nayue Subaru who was sleeping almost unconscious on the half-elf girl's lap, couldn't help but joked with a smile.