As a painter, how should I face the original heroine

"I've said it before. I'm just worried that Emilia will be treated unfairly. Sure enough, those guys in the palace today are too much, and I can't hold back my anger. Fortunately, Sir Leviathan is here... "

Natsuki Subaru panicked, so he started chattering, trying to divert the topic away from himself without giving the girl a chance to speak.

"Enough! Subaru-kun...why did you do this?"

Emilia shook her head vigorously, interrupting the words the other party was trying to escape. She couldn't stand it anymore... This kind of despicable lie.

"I want to do something for you...to repay the kindness of saving your life."

This was the first time Natsuki Subaru saw the girl angry, and the tear-soaked eyes broke his heart, but now is not the time to think about these things, he must... must explain clearly to the other party.

"I don't need your repayment. When Subaru-kun helped me find the badge, the so-called kindness has been paid off."

Emilia said categorically that she wanted to part ways with the other party long before she arrived at the stolen goods warehouse, otherwise she would not call herself "Shatila".

"That's not the case. I suddenly came to this strange world. I was unaccompanied and in a dangerous situation. Your appearance, Emilia, was a great salvation for me. No amount of repayment is too much. "

As an excuse, Natsuki Subaru knew that he was lying. Apart from helping the girl, everything he did was actually more to gain her favor.

It's just that Emilia, who has been discriminated against for a long time, has a very low self-esteem. She is unwilling and has no courage to believe that there are people in this world who like her besides Parker, who likes such a person who looks like a jealous witch, so this It's not an excuse to help her.

"If you really want to help me, you should abide by the agreement. How can I trust you if you do this repeatedly?"

The silver-haired girl couldn't restrain her emotions more and more, she stood up excitedly, and vented her dissatisfaction with Natsuki Subaru.

"It's my fault that I didn't listen to you. I'm reflecting on myself, but if I don't do that..."

As if he had touched some taboo, the whole world came to a standstill in an instant. Subaru Natsuki once again felt the severe pain of his heart being pinched tightly. The words he wanted to say were stuck in his throat and he could not make any sound. Frozen like lead.

Because of the fucked-up operation of "Death Backtracking", if something unexpected happened to Emilia in the palace, Natsuki Subaru would not be able to know about it. He had to witness everything on the spot before he could solve the problem by going back in time. .

In other words, no matter sooner or later, he has to follow, unless it can guarantee that Emilia will not have any accidents during the period.But all because of that "black hand", Subaru Natsuki was unable to tell the truth.

"It's here again, and I can't say anything..."

Emilia closed her eyes in disappointment. It's not that she didn't want to give the other party a chance to explain, but... now she can only give up, and there is no longer any room for retention.

Every cold word of the girl hit Nayue Subaru's eardrums, and the inexplicable and nowhere to go sadness continued to swell in the depths of his heart, as if to tear his chest apart.

"Trust me, I'm all for your own good!"

The self-righteous words blurted out, and Natsuki Subaru regretted it immediately after saying this, and acted recklessly in the name of being good for the other party, which is extremely selfish.

"I want to believe...I want to believe Subaru-kun, but the one I can't believe is you, isn't it? Don't keep saying it's all because of me. You keep saying it's for me, but it's actually for yourself, right?"

Asked indifferently like frost, the silver-haired girl completely looked away from the ugly and hopeless man in front of her.

Chapter 239 Different Choices and Circumstances

"No... that's not the case. I thought that if it was Emilia, she would definitely understand me."

Natsuki Subaru's brain fell into a blank, he explained incoherently, but untimely anger had already welled up in his heart following the drastic change in the girl's attitude.

"How would I know if you didn't tell me..."

The fantasies of the past were disintegrated at this moment. I was not a unique manga hero, and Emilia was not a destined soul mate. The familiar scene was staged again, completely devouring Natsuki Subaru's reason.

"I... If I hadn't persuaded Sir Leviathan, I'm afraid Emilia, you wouldn't even be qualified to participate in the king's election? If I hadn't let Sir Leviathan join, I'm afraid you would be the one who was cornered today? If not I foresaw the attack of the Warcraft Envoy in advance, and you all died in the mansion long ago!"

The eardrum-stinging roar resounded throughout the room, Natsuki Subaru was hooting hysterically, his fingers stuck in his palm, and blood kept dripping on the floor.

He listed his deeds one by one, scolding the silver-haired girl for her ruthlessness and longing for her not to stay away from him.

"It's all because of me, because I'm here! You're here today! But do you know what price I've paid? I died weak and dying, I jumped to pieces and struggled to die after being abused in every way. Smashing my head with a chain hammer... Are you treating me like this, just like Rem!?"

Fear of death and betrayal, vanity longing for praise, devotion without seeing anything in return, and selfishness expecting to be admired by loved ones lead the extremely chaotic Subaru.

"I don't understand...but I will pay back what I owe you, and then let this end."

Whether it's the empty eyes or the lonely tone, it shows that Emilia has recognized the reality and is completely freed from the unattainable expectations.

She used to think that Natsuki Subaru could see herself like an ordinary girl, but it turns out... everything is just her delusion.

"Wait a minute, Emilia...I..."

At this moment, Nayuki Subaru finally realized dully that he had said something that shouldn't have been said in anger, and quickly reached out to grab the girl's wrist, trying to prevent her from leaving.

"That's enough, Subaru Natsuki. I've discussed it with Mr. Leviathan. In the next few days, you will follow him to do business in the royal capital. Roswaal and I will return to the mansion first."

Emilia dodged the opponent's hand, the coldness in her tone had disappeared, but it was replaced by a stranger-like politeness. From the moment the address was changed, they could no longer return to the original intimacy.

Natsuki Subaru looked at the closed door silently, looked at his hands in disbelief, then covered his face and sobbed softly.

"..."

After a long time, Natsuki Subaru straightened his body, and turned his gaze to his bedside table, where he stored the small knife he used for self-defense. As long as...hit his chest, everything that happened today can be read like a galgame archive Do it all over again.

Avoid all wrong choices, even... Today Leviathan has demonstrated how an ordinary person can stand out at the king's election ceremony, so can I also...

"It can't be like this... This is an insult to the relationship between me and Emilia, and it is also an insult to Sir Leviathan."

In the end, Natsuki Subaru did not choose to use his ability to cheat, but just sat on the chair in a daze, with a struggling expression on his face from time to time.

"Fortunately, I worked so hard today to show the show to the blind."

Li Wei took back the magic of spying on Nayue Subaru speechlessly. Although it was cool to slap someone in the face, everything he did today was to let the other party break through his bottom line. As for whether Emilia can win the throne?He didn't care at all, if he could get an extra hidden mission reward, then forget it.

Dengdengdeng-

At this moment, the door of Li Wei's room also rang, and he was so frightened that he hurriedly put away the blushing and heart-pounding drawings on the desk, so as not to be regarded as a pervert.

"Ahem...please come in."

"Master Leviathan..."

A slightly depressed blue-haired maid came in with a cup of black tea, and put the tea tray on the desk that had been cleared out with some doubts.

"It's Rem, I heard you took a day off, do you feel better?"

Li Wei glanced at a drawing that was still falling under the desk with his eyes, moved it with his feet, and at the same time expressed his concern to the maid.

"My mind is in a mess. When I think about my sister knowing that Roswaal is the murderer who participated in the massacre of the village, but still chooses to be loyal to him, I find it difficult to accept it in any way."

The blue-haired maid's expression was a bit sad. She felt painful for Ram's obsessive behavior. If it was really because of such an unspeakable reason, as a younger sister, I was obliged to give her a hand.

"So what are you going to do? Choose to part ways with Ram? Or respect her decision?"

Li Wei had already seen the answer in the girl's heart, but he still asked knowingly, because some things need to be said out loud to strengthen his determination.