The golden fingers of the death game are all beautiful girls

Ning Yuyu continued: "When I was sorting out my parents' belongings, I found my father's diary from the waste paper box in the warehouse..."

Speaking of this, Ning Yuyu's body trembled a little, and she buried her face even deeper: "I just realized...it turns out that my mother is the little 3..."

"When my mother had me, she forced my father to get married..."

"That woman, Gu Xuexue's mother, was actually pregnant earlier than my mother!"

"Gu Xuexue, she's my sister!"

When Ning Yuyu said this, she was obviously in a bad mood: "I was just an adult at the time, and I was quite upright in my views on right and wrong."

"I feel like what I have been insisting on, my own world, suddenly collapsed."

"The person who should have been beaten and scolded was not Gu Xuexue and her mother at all, but my mother and me!"

"The wrong person is my late father and mother!"

"And in the final analysis, my existence is the root of the error!"

When Ning Yuyu said this, she raised her head and looked at Yimo, with a bit of firmness in her eyes: "After thinking for a long time."

"I decided, atonement!"

"I want to give back everything I own to Gu Xuexue and their mother and daughter!"

"At that time, the college entrance examination just ended, and I gave up the school and major I wanted to go to most."

"After repeating the study for a year, I passed the exam to the country where Gu Xuexue's mother and daughter are located."

"Then use the savings left by my parents to find the whereabouts of their mother and daughter..."

"result."

"Gu Xuexue's mother died 10 years ago."

"Suicide by jumping into the river."

"In other words, less than a year after she arrived in that country, she died..."

"After Gu Xuexue was sent to the orphanage, she seemed to be suffering from a serious mental illness."

"Using a stolen gun, after killing dozens of people in a row, he disappeared..."

"Ah..." Ning Yuyu took a deep breath and sighed, "I don't know what my dead mother will think when she finds out."

"Hehe, maybe not only do you not feel guilty, but you can also be very happy?"

……

Ning Yuyu was silent for a while.

"I don't know how my mother would feel, but I felt at the time that their lives were ruined because of me."

"They were killed by me..."

"Guilt, no matter what, the guilt that can't be repaid completely enveloped me."

"It was so overwhelming that I couldn't breathe, I couldn't do anything anymore, I couldn't live a normal life anymore."

"During that time, I suffered from severe depression and dropped out of school."

"After treatment, under the advice of a psychiatrist, I started traveling."

"It was also at that time that I thought, maybe Gu Xuexue is still alive, so I should find her."

"When you find her."

"Whatever she wants to do, I will satisfy her."

"Including, my life."

Ning Yuyu chatted a lot intermittently, her voice was a little hoarse.

Yimo saw that there was a jug of water on the coffee table, so she poured a cup for Ning Yuyu and handed it over.

After Ning Yuyu got it, she smiled at Yimo: "Thank you!"

"Actually, I don't think I can find Gu Xuexue at all."

"After all, I have been missing for so many years, and even the security guards can't find it. How can I find it?"

"It's just that people have to have a goal in life, don't they?"

"Finding Gu Xuexue and repaying what I owed her was my only motivation and goal to live at that time."

"I searched for a long time and went to many places, but I couldn't find her at all."

"That's right, how is it possible~" He pretended to be relaxed.

"It's ridiculous, although I didn't find her, but in the process of looking for her, my sense of guilt gradually decreased..."

"Compared to atonement, it's more like self-salvation, and you are saving yourself."

"This situation lasted until one day, and there was an extra APP on my mobile phone."

"'Become an 'Idol' app."

"Yes, it's the death game app!"

"The cover of that app is exactly what Gu Xuexue looks like!"

"I clicked in subconsciously, and entered the death game without knowing the situation."

"Then, I met my sister, the clownfish Gu Xuexue, again!"

Ning Yuyu picked up the water glass and took a soft sip.

His expression was a little dazed, and he was still remembering: "In that game, I was bullied by Gu Xuexue very badly..."

"But it's okay. I met her with the idea of ​​being killed by her."

"I begged her to kill me."

"But she refused."

"She laughed and said that killing someone who has no will to live is no fun."

"My sins are not so easy to redeem."

"Ask me to play the matching game with her, struggle painfully in the death game, and experience the real torture."

"Tell me to find her in the real world."

"When we find her, she will kill me with her own hands."

When Ning Yuyu said this, she laughed at herself: "She is the clownfish from the "Mad Asylum", how could I find her?"

"In this process, compared to finding her, let her kill and make atonement."

"On the contrary, it seems that because of guilt, she satisfies her evil taste and pleases her."

"Well, no matter how twisted and awkward the relationship and psychology are."

"With a new purpose, life can go on."

"Uncle, the reason why I have become what I am now is because the clownfish said they hate me when I grow up."

"Tell me to pinch back the way I was when I was a child, and be happy to be bullied..."

"Uh... In fact, she still has quite a lot of bad tastes. Her blue hair and eyes are still the same size as when she was an adult... You know..."

"It's all she asked for..."

"And looking for her all over the United States, and occasionally matching the days of matching death games, I gradually got used to it."

"The goal is to stay alive in the death game, and in the real world, find Gu Xuexue and let her kill me!"

"This situation lasted until the game we met."

"After we walked around the edge of death, Lord Yan, I discovered one thing."

Yimo looked up at Ning Yuyu who raised her head and looked at her seriously: "You don't want to die?"

Ning Yuyu smiled and nodded: "Well, I don't want to die."

"The previous thoughts were just an excuse for self-salvation."

"Even when I was facing my sister, I really thought that if I was killed by her, I would be relieved."

"It's just an impulsive and emotional thought at that moment."

"When she's not by my side, when I'm really facing death, I want to live!"

"It turns out that everything I did before was just to allow me to live a better life!"

"what……"

"After discovering all this, I suddenly realized that I am so tired..." Ning Yuyu stretched her waist.

"I've been in my sister's shadow for too long."

"Compared to just dying like that, I suddenly want to live seriously again."

"Compared to dying at the hands of my sister, repaying the debt owed by the previous generation."

"It's better to forget the faults left by the previous generation, but remember the faults of the previous generation."

"Together with my sister, live a good life!"

"Of course, because the uncle is still a bit attractive. I have been suppressed for too long, and it is rare to meet someone who is attracted to me."

"I can't restrain myself a bit, and I want to have a relationship."

Yimo spread her hands: "But I have a girlfriend."

Ning Yuyu grinned and tilted her head slyly: "I know."

"But come on!"

"My mother was a bad woman, so I also inherited the blood of a bad woman."

"Although I don't want to admit it, the fact is this fact!"

After Ning Yuyu finished speaking, she shook her head again: "Of course, I would actually hesitate."

"Uncle, if you really accept me, I'm afraid it's me who shrinks back?"

"People are like this, full of entanglements, always affirming and denying themselves."

"Uncle, isn't it because you always reject me that I feel unconvinced and want to move on and get closer to you?"

"Of course, the death game also has a certain influence on me."

"The game of death will lower and lower a person's bottom line."

"There is always an illusion that people are dying anyway, and even if they do something excessive, it's okay."

"I have killed people, I have killed many people!"

"There are some very good people among them."

"Anyway, after death, you will go to hell, right?"

When Ning Yuyu said this, she took Yi Mo's hand, hugged Yi Mo's hand with both hands, pulled it to her chest, and looked at Yi Mo very seriously: "Do you know?"

"Even when I say these words, there is a vague purpose."

"I know, this will shorten the distance between you and me."

"I think in this game, I might really die."

"I haven't told anyone about these things, and I have no one to talk to."

"I just want to talk to you at this time!"

"Sure enough, I will feel a lot more comfortable after I finish talking." Ning Yuyu relaxed a little, and then said very seriously, "Uncle!"

"I want to live longer."

"Go and play a few games with my sister to make her happy."

"Go and have fun with you online, play offline together, satisfy my affection and liking for you, and feel what it's like for a little girl to fall in love."

"As for the relationship with you, to be honest, I haven't considered that much."

"When you shrink back, I will take the initiative to get closer."

"And when you really move forward, it might be me who retreats!"