People in Mond, arrogant sun, not hated

Is this changing the subject?

Without waiting for him to think too much, Elmes continued to speak with his palm supporting his chin.

"Because I don't have a reason to listen, I can only feel puzzled and unhappy after listening, and it's not good to be disturbed, so I won't listen."

"I think the same when some people sell me misfortune. Everyone in the world has their own misfortunes, but although they are a little indifferent, to be honest, I don't want to see other people's misfortunes even if I can empathize with them. "

He took a deep breath, and the sea in front of him was still endless.

"What I hear [misfortune] is something that happened in the past. No matter how powerful I am, the past things cannot be undone, and such irreversible things will only upset me when they appear in front of me."

"Since it can't be changed, I'd rather it not appear in front of my eyes at all... I hate the misfortune that I can only watch but cannot change."

Ying listened quietly.

"So I don't deliberately tell my friends about the bad things in the past. I hate being sad for others, but I also hate others being sad for me. This is my arrogance."

"Instead of talking about boring topics to make the atmosphere serious, it's better to tell some funny things to make everyone laugh. I always think so, but even so, do you still want to know about the past?"

He turned his head, and the sea breeze blew his long golden hair, and his purple pupils shone brightly like stars.

Ying looked at him.

After slightly lowering his head, he still looked up.

The answer is obvious.

"Humph."

Elmes chuckled, and returned to his original sloppy appearance.

He shook his feet carelessly.

"Then tell me, what do you want to ask? Try to choose a short one, the sun is about to set."

"Then... ask a simple question, tell me why you don't want to talk to the old man."

Thinking of what happened just now, Ying asked casually.

Just ask anything ordinary today.

Let's delve into the rest later.

"This...well...then let me make a long story short for the two chapters, and you really know how to choose."

"Ugh?"

Elmes smiled lightly and looked up at the sky.

Where do I start... so be it.

He raised his head to look up at the sky, and spoke softly and calmly.

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Chapter 137: Which is better to live in the dark or witness the sun die

Some cold wind blew past, bringing with it a desolate and desolate atmosphere.

Faint white smoke came out of the warm oil pan, and the rough palms covered with cracks rubbed back and forth, praying to squeeze out some heat through friction.

The snow-white hair is like the fine snow in the winter sky, and the indifferent and tired eyes stare at the sky blankly. The old man over eighty sighs softly.

"It's really cold... I don't know if I can survive this year."

She scooped up a spoon and poured the hot oil that still had residual heat on the freshly fried lotus flower crisps, so that the temperature of the food would not dissipate so quickly.

There are not many guests today, and even caravans don't like to come out in this cold weather.

But at Shimen, the junction of the two countries, there will always be a few tired and hungry guests.

The sound of leather boots hitting the ground came loudly, and she raised her head to look at this rare guest.

"Lotus Cake, produced by Liyue, delicious and inexpensive, 400 Mora for one, 1000 Mora for three."

Calmly shouting this slogan that has been chanted for more than 40 years, she waited for the other party's next sentence with the most common mechanical movements.

Some dark but still dazzling blond hair tied into a ponytail, beautiful purple pupils like bright stars, delicate and indifferent face, relatively thin clothes make people wonder if he will feel cold.

Such a conspicuous appearance and sense of presence made her remember this boy.

It's been about three or four times, but I don't remember it very clearly when I'm older.

I don't know the name, but it seems that he is responsible for the delivery of goods. Every time he passes by Shimen, he will come to buy a lotus cake.

It can be regarded as a small old customer.

But just like the usual customers, this cold-looking young man didn't say anything unnecessary, and just walked away after shopping.

"Have three lotus cakes."

The unknown boy gently put the money on the table, waiting for the old shopkeeper in front of him to pack the things.

She packed everything calmly, then reached out and handed it to him, and then said a customary sentence.

"It's a bit hot, do you want a newspaper?"

"No thanks."

The boy couldn't wait to pick up the lotus cake and took a bite, showing a satisfied expression while chewing.

But this kind of behavior is no surprise to her.

At any rate, she has been doing this kind of craft all her life from childhood to adulthood. Even a fool has already perfected it.

At least on this little lotus cake, she didn't think she would lose to anyone.

But it's different from turning around and leaving in the past, maybe it's just a slip of the tongue when sneaking away.

The boy looked at the empty money box that obviously showed no business, then glanced at her cracked hands, and casually made a kind suggestion.

"Old man, your lotus cakes are delicious. If you go to Liyue Port to set up a stall, the harvest will definitely be better than what you come here now, and with the blessing of Lord Yan's power over there, it will not be as cold as here. Mother-in-law, your house Has anyone ever suggested that to anyone?"

Just such a well-intentioned casual suggestion.

But there was a wave of turmoil in her heart.

Her husband and children are sailors, two ordinary workers in Liyue Port.

She and her husband's elders left early. When she was around 50 years old, the family of three supported each other.

Sometimes quarreling, sometimes laughing, worrying about some small things in life, it is such an ordinary and ordinary life.

But one day, an accident happened.

The fishing boat where the husband and son were working was attacked by a sudden storm and sea monsters, and the father and son died together in the vast sea.

Even the bones and traces could not be recovered.

That day she stared blankly at the sea for a long time.

The tears were blown and dried by the sea breeze, but they couldn't feel it.

She looked at the sea that swallowed everything and gave birth to everything.

Several times I wanted to jump down to be with them.

But in the end, she stood up.

She herself didn't know why.

But I always feel...if I die, maybe they really don't exist.

In such a wide world, the lives of these two men were of no value to anyone but her.

If they even die, if they even forget about themselves, then wouldn't they be completely [dead]?

Since such a meaningless death, why were they born in the first place?

For more than 30 years, she has pondered this question.

And from that day on, she didn't want to see the sea again.

I don't want to see the sound of fishing boats swimming past and the waves hitting the reef, and I don't want to see the smiles of people by the harbor and myself reflected in the water.

She was very unhappy, or she didn't have any sense of being alive.

Get up, eat, set up a stall, close the stall, sleep like a machine every day...

Repeating the exact same process year after year, I always feel empty in my heart, and there is always a feeling of floating when I walk on the ground.

I feel that I can't keep my feet on the ground, and my body is filled with light and fluffy cotton.

Been sick a lot by this age, but she gets better even with no one to take care of her.

She lived on despite not wanting to live... What an annoying backfire.

Why on earth is she alive?

What's the point of life itself if there's nothing left of it?

She began to think about such boring questions.

Ideals, goals, people she cares about, wishes and even everything have been taken away by fate, and even the meaning of existence cannot be found. Why is she living in this world?

I really don't understand...

"Thank you, young man, for your kindness, but there is a reason for the mother-in-law's affairs, so you should not worry about it."

"Really? It's a pity that such a delicious lotus flower cake cannot be eaten by more people."

The Shimen side is the place with the least traffic, no one from Mond or Liyue will go so far to buy.

It was just an unintentional remark, but her eyes widened.

"more people?"

The boy who was about to leave subconsciously stopped.

"There will definitely be a lot of old customers when the traffic is heavy, because the taste is really good, so there will definitely be a lot of repeat customers. Every time I work, I think about buying another one when I pass by here. "

"Would you... want to eat again?"

"I will definitely want to eat delicious food again before I get tired of it. Next time I plan to bring my friend over to have a taste, she will definitely like it."

It was like catching a light in the darkness.

Instinctively, she suddenly spoke.

"Young man, what do you think is the meaning of life?"

"Ugh?"

Because of the completely unexpected question, obvious astonishment appeared on the boy's face.

She herself didn't understand why she blurted out such words to a young man.

Maybe it's because I instinctively feel that I can find the answer from him.

"Ah... why did you suddenly ask such a philosophical question? Shouldn't this kind of question be asked by young people to their elders... Sigh, why do you want to live... Grand Leader, I didn’t expect that one day I would be asked this question by others.”

The boy seemed to remember something, smiled wryly and shook his head.

"Borrowing from an acquaintance of mine, it should be instinctive desire and belief."

Hearing the ordinary answer, she sighed and shook her head.

Alas, it really was just a young man's answer, and she was really in a hurry to go to the doctor.

Instinctively, she has lost even the most basic desire to survive.

In terms of desire, at her age, what else is there to be excited about?

The last belief is even more nonsense. If she really had that kind of thing, she would have left with the day they disappeared.

"However, I have lived in this world for so long, and I have my own interpretation of these issues."

With his hands on his waist, the boy looked up at the sun in the sky that was covered by clouds.

"Actually, people don't need any meaning to live in this world."

"what?"

"People are very greedy. Even if they meet death as the end point, they still want to continue to struggle. If they are drowning, they want to climb out of the water. If they are suffocated, they want to breathe desperately. Will continue to run forward, whether it makes sense or not."

"But human beings are easy to be satisfied at the same time, as long as there is a little light called love, a stable environment, or... a little bright memory that no longer exists."