Self-guided daily life after rebirth

In the end, all that is left in the mind is a blank.

Then the hand is held.

Warm and even almost hot, gradually ignited the cold world, and the blankness in my mind gradually took on color.

Then came the irresistible kisses.

It was as if being pulled back from the sky to the ground again, with his feet on the ground, so his heart rate gradually returned to normal, and there was another round of cheers and screams in his ears.

As if returning to the world.

Su Tong recalled the feeling of being on the roller coaster, unconsciously clenched the buttons of the woolen coat, and then secretly turned to look at the man next to him.

Although she was reluctant to admit it.

But indeed...

When she was with the shameful thing and was held in his arms and kissed forcefully, she actually felt a rare peace of mind.

She needs him.

Su Tong, who reached out to her and even hugged her and kissed her in the panic and helplessness on the roller coaster, was the only kite string that connected her with the reality of the world.

Only when our fingers are interlocked can we feel at ease, only when we hold each other tightly can we feel satisfied, and only when our lips overlap can we feel happy.

it's over...

It's over!

Why does it feel like she, who thinks this way, has completely become the fallen party?

Self-proclaimed men who are not afraid of anything, usually despise Su Tong's shameful performance, but now recalling the feelings on the roller coaster, I feel my heart beating wildly.

Is this what it feels like to love someone?

Su Tong covered her chest.

Sweet, very happy, but somewhat inexplicably unwilling.

Mom!

Before the old lady was reborn, she was also a 50-year-old salted fish. She promised that she would never be captured by this shameful thing, but why is she completely female now?

But I still don't want to admit it!

Correct!

She secretly stared at Su Tong.

I don't admit that I like you, a shameful thing!

snort!

Never admit it!

[To be continued]

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Chapter 206 Childhood

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As night fell, the lights came on.

The amusement park is brightly lit, and being in it is like stepping into the sea of ​​stars.

Su Tong and Shame have almost played all kinds of rides in the entire amusement park.

Of course, except for some night shows that have been closed early.

In the beginning, it was a shameful thing to be happy alone.

Su Tong looked on coldly, thinking that it was an amusement park, what's so interesting about it, how can someone so big be so immature at all, it was so hard to bring up this embarrassing thing with shit and piss, and now what? Still like an immature kid?

So when Su Tong sent her a bumper car invitation, she refused.

Wouldn't it be embarrassing for her to go there if he asked her to play with bumper cars?

Even if it's shameful to say that bumper cars are fun, she can't believe it easily, at least she has to try it to make sure it's really fun and not some special effects...

Then it's addicting.

"Hey hi hi hi—"

Really good, the rides in the amusement park are really good.

Su Tong let out a weird laugh like a mental patient while driving the bumper car on a rampage. The laughter that sounded like a silver bell, which was reserved in the past, has now completely turned into the sound of a barbell.

Really fragrant.

When the fragrance is fragrant, I forget the reservedness and dislike just now, and then I am happy.

At this time, she finally understood why people always liked to play Yasuo when she played LOL in her previous life.

Can you win at Yasuo?

Most likely not.

Are you happy?

Of course I am happy!

So be happy and be done.

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It is said that happy and happy time flies very fast.

And it does.

Immersed in the joy brought by the playground, it is easy to forget the time. When I remembered to check the time, I realized that it was almost ten o'clock.

The night market of the amusement park closes around ten o'clock, but even so, there are not many tourists around now.

So everything should be quiet.

The air seemed to still retain the cheers and joy of the tourists who came and went during the day. Su Tong looked up and saw the towering roller coaster, pirate ship and other large amusement facilities dotted with light strips shining in the night sky, outlining a dreamy silhouette.

The night sky seemed clear, but there were no stars to be seen.

It seems that I haven't seen a star for a long time?

Su Tong thought, walking around the suddenly empty amusement park with her hands behind her back and her embarrassing thing.

The mood is very leisurely.

Because I am very happy.

It is probably a very happy thing to be able to let go of the airs and spend half a day in the amusement park without thinking about so many things.

because……

"Su Tong?"

She called her husband's name softly.

The silly roe deer next to him turned his eyes back to her from a distance after hearing this, and said softly with a smile:

"Miss, what are your orders?"

Su Tong stared at his face, looked at him for a moment, and then asked with emotion:

"You said that the bigger a person is, the harder it is to be satisfied?"

Su Tong was taken aback.

He said in his heart that although you don't mean that, miss... But our men are indeed not what you said, or rather the complete opposite, as long as you grow older, the more satisfied I will be...

But of course I am embarrassed to say such things at this moment.

So he pondered for a moment, and finally nodded and answered:

"That's right, the bigger a person is, the harder it is to be satisfied, the harder it is to be happy. When I was a child, I could happily study a group of ants all afternoon, but now I feel...sometimes, many people don't even know what they really want. What, just buy, buy, buy, as if you can satisfy yourself in this way.”

"Actually, it's not that you can't be satisfied." Su Tong continued his words and whispered, "Whether it's a game console, a pretty skirt, a high-end PC, or simply a car and a house, you will feel empty after you get it."

It's like when I was a child, I wanted an electric toy or a doll that my parents bought for me.

When I grow up, I can work and be financially independent, and I can buy many things that I only dared to even think about before.

Game consoles, electric toys, dolls, skirts...

All the things I once coveted were delivered to my hands, and the table was full of large and small courier boxes, but after unpacking the courier, I didn't know why I just felt dull.

It's all out of date.

Now I am no longer the foolish child who wanted to roll on the supermarket floor.

To work, to start a family, to work hard for the next generation.

Outdated dreams have deteriorated over the long years, and some childhood regrets will also become eternal regrets, becoming a big monster that devours everything in the memory of life, hiding in everyone's instincts, and may break out of the shell at any time.

Some people use childhood to heal their lives.

Some people can heal their childhood with their whole life.

Su Tong thinks she is the latter kind of person.

She is very lacking in love.

This is not a fact to be ashamed to admit.

She just lacks love.

Small cabbage, ground yellow, three or two years old...

It's not that she lost her mother.

But it's about the same.

Just no father.

Look, she's used to it.

Today, almost 40 years after her father's death, she is able to say "just" calmly.

But it's still a pity.

I lost my father when I was very young, and I have almost never experienced the so-called fatherly love in my life experience, so maybe I have it...Compared to my longing and affection for an older, mature and stable man.

So I have to admit... Maybe she is really cultivating the embarrassing thing in the direction of a mature and steady man in her mind.

Su Zhizi once said that she was a temptation, that she was a proud and upright person who said no.

At that time, she vehemently denied it, but now that she calms down and thinks about it, she may have to admit that what the cheap sister said seems to have some truth.

Because she likes older, mature and stable men.

She hopes that there is such a man who will take care of her, love her, give her a generous chest and strong arms, protect her from the wind and rain, and make her feel at ease as a little girl who can only be coquettish and cute... Maybe this is also the case. it is good.

Su Tong secretly turned to look at the boy next to him.

Correct.

boy.

She didn't admit that this shameful thing was already a mature man.

He can only be called a big boy, not a mature man.

If it's a mature man, I'm afraid he has already arranged everything completely, and there is no need for her to think about it herself. All she has to do is lie on the bed and wait to enjoy it.

So it's still the same old saying.

Since he wants to do whatever he wants with her, let him prove to himself that he has the qualifications to conquer her.

Her psychological standard is a mature and steady man.

As long as he's up to the mark.