Yukinoshita Yukino has 3 minutes to die

Kasumigaoka Shiyu's cell phone rang.

She took a look.

Then get up and leave.

At the same time, I asked Ying Lili to have a good lunch.

If you don't eat lunch well in the dream, you will also have diarrhea.

Ying Lili is getting more and more uncomfortable.

"No, I have to go and see."

"Look at what these two guys are up to!!"

"What the hell happened to these two guys?"

Chapter 21 Yinglili's Monologue

"My name is Yinglili."

"I don't know who I am."

These two sentences may seem contradictory.But it is a true portrayal of a girl.She frowned in confusion and leaned on the bed.

Her golden hair hangs on the ground. She has just washed her hair. If it is left to hang on the ground like this, it will get dirty, but she doesn't seem to care at all.

For her, there are more important things to do now.

It's about figuring out who you really are.

If you want to pierce the false lies and keep the real dialogue, you need to clarify your thinking.

However, her thoughts were chaotic.

It dissipated after a while.

She stared intently at her snow-white ankles.Her ankles are delicate and graceful, a little thin because of illness, but they are definitely the most beautiful ankles, that guy used to like to play with this ankle the most, and he always made a strange sound of "win, win", she would Angrily scolded this guy as a psycho, and then kicked him away.

now...

Even if she wanted that guy to come, this guy wouldn't touch her.

"Is this ankle so attractive?"

She fiddled with her feet dissatisfied.

"Why didn't you keep him?"

There are scattered notebooks on her pale yellow pajamas.This is a few words crookedly written on the cover. With these few words, it can be vaguely seen that it is a diary, but it is really crooked. If you don't look carefully, you really can't tell it.

The cover is a cute little bear, which is really not very good-looking.She is a guy who likes two-dimensional, so naturally she wants more two-dimensional cover, preferably a beautiful girl, if she can't do it herself...

but……

She accepted the notebook anyway.

after all……

This is a gift for her.

Gifts are the most important thing.In modern social communication, in order to express blessings and intentions or to show friendship, items are exchanged between people.But the gift between her and Yosuke Koyama was not that simple. Yosuke Koyama wanted to make her happy, so he gave this gift.

She wanted Koyama Yosuke to be happy, so she accepted this gift.

however……

Now I have only nostalgia for this gift.

Her happiness and his happiness have become the past tense.

……

This notebook is her diary.

She doesn't usually keep a diary.

Who is a decent person who keeps a diary—a decent person will put the things in his heart into his own heart, how can he tell everything to a notebook?

only……

Because it's so boring.

Boredom will make a person do all kinds of things. She must be very sensible when she is in the hospital, and she must not make that person worry about her.To pass the time, I either play with my mobile phone or just write a diary.

I'm tired of playing with my mobile phone, so I naturally want to write a diary.

At the beginning, I just wrote casually, wondering what I could write in this notebook.At first, she wanted to keep a record of her daily events in this way, such as guessing how much Yosuke Koyama spent for her, guessing how much Yosuke Koyama earned, guessing how hard his life was... But she gradually got used to it, Develop the habit of keeping a diary.

It is really difficult to write a diary on the bed. After all, the bed is uneven, and the notebook is not particularly thick. The pages of the notebook are often scratched or the words are crooked.

However, she got used to this state after getting used to it.

After all, there is a quilt on the bed, and she can still hug the quilt.

under the bed.

When she feels insecure, she can't hug anyone.

Her diary is very strange.

Maybe it's because I'm sick and confused.

she says:

"My name is Yinglili."

"I don't know who I am."

"I've always suspected that I don't belong in this world."

This is the third line of her diary.

This is strange.

When a person is born, he will undoubtedly be raised by everyone in this world.He has received the gift of this world since he was a fetus.He has grown up since he was a child, enjoying the care of his parents, feeling the classmates and friendship, and finally growing up to the present.

The world belongs to you, and you belong to the world.

Ying Lili naturally understands this truth very well.

but……

She still thinks she doesn't belong in this world.

She wrote in her diary: "Although this world has parents who love me, although this world has the memory of my hard work, although this world has a journey of my life and his life. But I always feel inexplicably. Everything is false."

"Apart from……"

"That person and that person."

"I always feel that even if this world is false, the two of them must be real."

That person and who that person is is naturally self-evident.

This is not a riddle, because of some relationship, Miss Ying Lili didn't want to mention that person's name.

When she thought of that person, she would feel a kind of gnashing of hatred.

Hatred breeds in the chest, hate sprouts in the chest.

According to common sense, hatred will grow into a towering tree.

But inexplicably...

When the anger in Yinglili's heart touched a soft place, the hatred in her heart was dispelled helplessly.

After all, this is the feeling of love,

"Originally, I shouldn't be with him."

"In the final analysis, we are just lovers - lovers should treat each other fairly and communicate together. I bear the pain of fate alone, but because he is my lover, it drags him down, and even makes him pay the price of his whole life. It's really not good to be buried with me."

Although guessing like this may be malicious, she suspects that Yosuke Koyama vowed at the beginning that he would make money to treat her. He also decided to do so at the beginning, and he did so at the beginning.

But when she really started to make money, she found that she couldn't fill this bottomless pit by earning a lifetime of money.

Ying Lili will die sooner or later.

His faith was shattered.

At this time, the woman named Kato Megumi stepped in and comforted his emotions.Let your boyfriend really stand up.

Therefore, it will become like this.

Now, she took the initiative to break up with Yosuke Koyama - which meant that Yosuke Koyama and that girl could live a better life in the future.

I can be regarded as witnessing his happiness.

For a woman like me who was not wanted by anyone in the whole world, it was just right for me to leave in a daze.

Hope they get married sooner and have a baby sooner...

"Goo!"

When thinking of this, Ying Lili subconsciously clenched her hands tightly.An uncomfortable feeling gushed out, as if a hand was tightly pinching his throat.She is really suffering.

When I think of my lover, I will give to others, and when I think of my relationship with him, I will be on someone else, and it will become the past forgiven by others.She felt very uncomfortable in her chest.

Wait until the future, when those two get married some morning.Those two hugged the child, and the child asked innocently, how many girlfriends did Dad have before?

It is conceivable that when Yosuke Koyama spoke out about himself, their children would obviously be angry.

Then Kato Megumi said this.

"I have forgiven him in the past."

"Little guy, don't chase after him."

yes……

Falling in love with yourself is a sin and must be forgiven by that woman.

hateful……

It's really ugly that I look like this - I have clearly agreed to let go, but I still can't let go.

I am really...

She bit her pen, impatiently thinking about the appearance of those two people.The more you think about it, the more impatient you become, and the more impatient you become, the more you think about it.

Finally tensed his feet.

Angrily kicked the bed.

Finally, he whimpered and cried under the quilt.

……

"Is it time to eat?"

"Wake up."

"what happened to you?"

The body was shaken, Ying Lili woke up from the dream, she just had a good dream.Dreamed that Yosuke Koyama kissed her, smiled and told her that he liked her the most, and she was not sick.

Even two people are preparing for the wedding.

It's a pity... the dream woke up.

"Mom. I'm fine, I'm just a little depressed."

Ying Lili opened her mouth for an instant.Her throat was very uncomfortable, as if someone had torn her throat open, it was as dry as fire, her voice changed and became very hoarse.

"Take good care of yourself-the doctor said that if you are in a bad mood, you will be in advance..." Mom hesitated to speak.

"Yeah." Ying Lili nodded.

Turning his gaze elsewhere, the sun outside the window has already shone in, and the fiery red sunset is in the west, gradually sinking below the horizon.The sunlight shining into the room felt unusually stinging, as if blood was flowing around her, stinging her heart like a fire.

Anywhere, anytime.

She doesn't even like the sun.

Did I sleep all day?