I don't like the gods, I want to be a hero

After figuring out that Illya used four command spells to drive Seleus into a rage, his expression changed, and then he hurried to the magic synchronization room, not even checking the damage of the magic instrument.

But soon there was another roar from the magic coherence room, and then Ahadeon, who was injured all over his body, was thrown out of the room by smashing the wall...

After Illya used four Command Spells to make Berserker go berserk, he could hear his beast-like roar from time to time in the castle, and Illya had to use the Command Spells even for the daily magic synchronization. Curse, complete the magic attunement with ', Berserker! 'Forcing orders can go on smoothly.

The great hero who has been keeping quiet since he was summoned is acting more and more like a beast, which also convinces all the artificial humans in Einzbern that Berserker has lost all sanity.

"Mom, Berserker has clearly lost all his sanity, but why didn't he become a Servant who is completely loyal to me like Mom said?"

Looking at Serius who calmed down after using a command spell in front of him, Illya asked in confusion.

'Is what I'm doing really right? 'Ilya doubted herself, and also doubted the words of 'mother' she had always insisted on.

Ilya once experienced happiness, and also experienced the beauty of being loved and cared for by others. Although for some reason she lost these beauty and happiness, and because of countless pains, she buried these memories deeply in her heart , but when she came into contact with these beauties again, was she really not touched at all?

Serius just stayed there quietly and motionless the moment he was summoned, and Illya really didn't know if it was because he was worried about draining his magic power and life?

Serius took the initiative to cut off the contract during the magic synchronization, did Illya really not know that she was caring for her body?

Know!Of course Illya knew!But now that she knew it, why did Illya still get angry at Seleus?Why did Illya follow the advice of 'mother' and 'compatriots' to use Command Seals on Serius?

It is precisely because Illya knows that, so she is afraid of losing, so she is unwilling to believe and admit that Serius cares for her...

A girl who has experienced loss is afraid of losing again, and a girl who has been betrayed is afraid of being betrayed again, so in order not to lose again, so in order not to be betrayed again, Illya used the command spell on Seleus to ask for this care , The Servant who loves himself will always stand by his side.

But Ilya found out she was wrong...

"Illya did nothing wrong, as long as the Command Seal is used, wouldn't such a Berserker never betray Illya?" '

Two arms made of strange black mud suddenly hugged Ilya who was in a daze.

"But my mother clearly told me that as long as I don't have reason, Berserker will not betray me."

'Isn't it now?As long as the Command Seal is used, Berserker behaves like a dog. '

"No! It's clear that what I want is not this kind of Berserker who only obeys Command Seals! You lied to me! You are not my mother! You lied to me!"

Realizing that something was wrong, Ilya retorted excitedly. She wanted to shake off the two arms holding her, but how could she shake it off with her strength?

'how could be? The woman with the appearance of Irisviel made of black mud suddenly twisted her head in front of Ilya in a strange posture.

"How could I lie to my Illya? The original Berserker had strong anti-magic power, even if he used a command spell, he would be betrayed, but the current Berserker will definitely obey Illya's orders as long as he uses a command spell. With the number of Illya's Command Seals, Berserker can be perfectly controlled during the Holy Grail War, isn't it? '

"No! You lied to me! I don't want this Berserker! Not this Berserker!"

Ilya covered her ears, her small body kept trembling, she wanted to deny this guy who pretended to be her mother.

'Isn't such a Berserker?That's a pity, Illya. The black mud Irisviel grinned in an astonishing arc, showing unimaginable malice towards Illya in her arms.

'Berserker has become a beast that can only be commanded by command spells, and there is no going back. '

"No! You liar! Berserker! Berserker! Kill her! Kill her!"

'Oh!Does my Illya want to kill me like Kiritsugu?sure!sure! 'The black mud Alice moved her face closer to Illya, and the corners of her mouth widened. 'But it doesn't work without Command Seals, you have to use Command Seals to order Berserker...'

"Is that true? I personally have a different opinion!" Accompanied by a masculine male voice, a big hand burning with crimson flames suddenly pinched Hei Ni's head, and at the same time the other hand forcefully tore Hei Ni's head. body, and then carefully hugged the girl who was staring blankly at her onto her shoulders.

'how is this possible!I've clearly confirmed it!You have obviously fallen into a frenzy!Why can it still be fresh! Gritting his teeth, the voice of boundless hatred and disbelief echoed in the room.

"How should I say it?" The big hand of the flame directly crushed the head of the black mud, and the crimson eyes of Seleus began to shine with divine light, and the destructive light directly annihilated all the black mud.

"If I can't recover my sanity from this level of madness, what kind of hero am I..."

Chapter 8 Illya and Berserker

Human magicians who have experienced countless cruelties, artificial humans who value their missions, and two completely incompatible beings have produced emotions that even they themselves could not imagine in a marriage called "trading".

An emotion very similar to love.

Ilya was born surrounded by such wonderful emotions.

A girl named Ilya once had happiness, but because of the mission of the family and the dream of a magician, the two people who brought her happiness never came back.

"Your father betrayed the family and your mother." That's what the family told Ilya.

"Kiritsugu killed me with his own hands, and even abandoned you." That's what the mother who suddenly appeared told Ilya.

Poor Ilya, who felt the pain of loss at a young age.

But this was just the beginning. The death of her parents made the family's long-cherished wish fall directly on Ilya. Before she could get out of the pain of loss, even greater suffering surrounded her firmly.

Having learned all the previous lessons and knowing that the last hope of the family lies in Illya, Einzbern exhausted all his knowledge and conducted countless magic experiments on Illya in order to create the strongest master.

Time after time of magic adjustments; time after time of body transformation; time after time of patience training, unimaginable suffering accumulated infinitely on Ilya's body, which was to the extent that even the gods would change color when they heard it.

How cruel fate is. Since Ilya is destined to suffer all these pains, why let her experience happiness in advance?The more beautiful the happiness once was, the more tormented the pain is now.

But fortunately, Illya survived; but unfortunately, Illya survived.

Like a miracle, Illya gained powerful and amazing power, and became the strongest master of the Holy Grail War that can only appear in theory.Even as long as she is willing, even the power of the third method can be displayed by her alone.

However, Ilya, who gained great power, also lost a lot. Her life is only the last year, and her body will always stay at the moment of undergoing transformation.

Cruelty and indifference have constituted the daily life of these ten years, and even the eight years of happiness once seemed deceitful against the backdrop of these sufferings.The girl named Illya has lost all hope, and her meaning is only to go to despair with unremitting efforts.

However, just when the countdown of Ilya's life began, and when she was about to take the last step towards despair, a ray of light named 'Hope' quietly came to the girl.

'It's so cruel, why did you suddenly appear at this time?You are so cunning, how can you let me make up my mind to die? '

The suffering girl once again experienced the beauty of being cared and loved by others. This beauty made her always want to hug her.

"No! No! In this case, isn't my hard work worth it? Isn't the pain I have endured meaningless? How can I guarantee that I won't lose it again?"

Hope seems to be within reach, but the painful past makes the girl unwilling to believe the reality of this happiness.

Therefore, Illya obeyed the 'mother' method and wanted to keep hope by her side forever.

However, she was wrong.

The existence disguised as 'mother' revealed its true colors, and the girl was once again enveloped in breathless despair.

'Berserker! Berserker! '

The girl cried out the name of 'Hope', but she knew better than anyone else that the ray of hope had been destroyed by her own hands, and being swallowed up by despair would be her end...

But at this moment, the hope that was destroyed by her shone like never before, and the brilliance he erupted shattered all the despair.

'how come? ! '

The girl fell into a daze, and she seemed unable to understand why the already dim hope was shining again.

'how is this possible!I've clearly confirmed it!You have obviously fallen into a frenzy!Why can it still be fresh! '

The incarnation of despair roared hysterically. It didn't understand why the powerful enemy that it had worked so hard to erase came back so easily?

The girl also wanted to know the reason, and then obediently waited for the answer with her eyes wide open.

"What kind of a hero am I if I can't recover my sanity from this level of madness?"

Along with the answer comes the crimson light that burns all filth, and no matter how unwilling it is, that incarnation of despair can only welcome its destruction in this crimson light.

The girl obviously couldn't understand such heroic remarks, but she was very clear about one thing.

"Berserker, you are really strong!"

......

"Well...here is..."

Ilya opened her sleepy eyes, she just woke up from sleep and looked at the familiar ceiling in a daze.

"It's my bedroom."

After lightly patting her face a few times, the sober Ilya looked around at the gorgeous decorations in the room, as if she was looking for something that should appear here.

"Berserker... isn't here?"

Illya jumped off the soft bed, and started looking for Serius in the room with her bare feet.

under the bed?No.

in the closet?No.

In the curtains?nor.

'Must be somewhere else. With that thought in mind, Ilya ran out of the room in a 'patta pata'.

Ignoring Sera and Lijielit who greeted her at the entrance of the room, Illya focused on finding her servant.

Magic Synchronization Room?not there.

Artificial workshop?not there.

Material storage room?not there.

......

When Illya stood in front of the attic door at the top of the castle, the last spot she hadn't looked for, she was hesitant.

'If there wasn't even this place...'

The girl kept praying in her heart, then closed her eyes and rushed in.

"Berserker!"

With a voice that seemed to be emboldened for herself and prayed for things to go as she wished, Illya suddenly opened her eyes.

"Isn't it here?" Ilya slumped on the ground weakly. "Is everything before this a dream?"

"What's the dream? Can you tell me about it?" A masculine, thick male voice suddenly sounded from behind the girl.

This unforgettable voice made Ilya look back like a conditioned reflex, and saw a tall muscular giant looking at her with gentle and caring eyes.

"Berserker! It's Berserker!"

The red-haired giant was still so gentle, and it was this expected gentleness that made Illya cheer and rush towards him.

The girl's sudden enthusiasm was somewhat beyond Serius' expectations, but he still reacted quickly, and firmly caught Illya's little feet with his big hand that could almost hold the girl's entire body in the palm of his hand, making the girl Fell safely into his arms.

"Berserker!"

Seemingly not worried that the giant would not be able to catch her at all, Ilya buried her head in the giant's stalwart chest excitedly, and then stretched out her hands to hug the burly giant.

But no matter how hard Illya tried, she couldn't hug Serius, who was much bigger than her, so she simply stuck her body on the giant's body in a 'big' shape, feeling the warmth for the first time in ten years. .

"Berserker!"

Illya raised her head and stared at Serius who didn't understand the situation with big ruby ​​eyes, but subconsciously felt that she needed to smile now.

"I'm here, my Master."

Serius responded to his little Master, although he still didn't know why the girl suddenly became so enthusiastic towards him, but compared to the highest masterpiece of Einzbern who was cold and indifferent to all existence before, the one with a bright and innocent smile in front of him Illya made him really happy.

"Berserker!!"

Serius' response didn't seem to satisfy Illya who was attached to him. I saw the silver-haired little girl pouted her face angrily, and glared at her follower angrily.

Illya, who suddenly lost her temper, made Serius, who was already confused, even more confused.

'Shouldn't I respond? ' Serius thought so, but it couldn't explain Illya's cry again.

'Probably my name is wrong. 'After careful consideration, Seleus affirmed this idea.

But what kind of title does Illya want?Seleus wasn't sure, but he thought it was right to boast, so he tentatively responded to Illya.

"I'm here, my cute little Master."

"Berserker!!!"

But who knew that this made Ilya even more dissatisfied, the girl's volume was raised a lot, and she could even hear a bit of grievance.

The grievance in Illya's voice made Serius flustered, he really didn't understand what kind of address the girl wanted.

'and many more! '

Serius suddenly realized something, and then looked at the girl in his arms with some distress, and responded softly:

"I'm here, my lovely...Illya."

"Berserker... my favorite!"

Illya happily raised her little hands and cheered, then pressed her face against Serius' body and rubbed it non-stop.Obviously, Seleus answered correctly this time.

Serius dragged Ilya's little feet with one hand, and carefully covered the top of her head with the other free hand, and then gently stroked the girl's soft silver hair.

Serius, who learned about Illya's experience from childhood to adulthood from Ahad, roughly understood the girl's obsession with addressing.